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Love Isn't Just a Memory

Chapter Fourteen: How Do You Feel?

By: Nimerin

"You have a lot of explaining to do!" A very irate Kagome made her way over to the waiting hanyou. The others had undoubtedly heard her with the way she was screaming, but they must have chickened out. An angry Kagome was not a pretty thing, and if it  could be avoided, then by all means run for the hills and cower in a really high tree. Somehow he knew that it would come down to something like this today.

He mentally sighed at the unfairness of it all, 'The stupid wench is the one that forgot me, I should be the one that is yelling at her; but nooooo, she comes charging at me like I'm the idiot that stole her memories.'

Kagome had by now made it across the courtyard and was glaring in his face. "Did you hear me? I want some answers and they had  better make sense for once."

Inuyasha looked at her with a mild expression, he for once was going to be patient and not act borderline homicidal; the situation was too grave to be irrational, "So bitch, you finally decided to admit that we are real. Why the hell should I answer any of your questions?" I said he was non-homicidal, not that he did not have an apparent death wish involving Kagome strangling him for his brash attitude.

Kagome turned ten shades of red and looked to be heading towards deep violet before she took a calming breath and told herself to relax, 'I can't kill him, he has a reason to be mad with me; after all I was calling him a delusion.'

"Oi wench what's with the silence? I thought that you  had all these questions for me."

'Screw it, kill him now, ask questions later.' "Listen to me you jerk! I don't know what is going on here, but I know that you have something to do with it and you are going to tell me everything that I want to know. NOW!" Kagome was now standing directly in his face and screaming so loud that the poor hanyou thought that he might have gone deaf. He was sorely tempted to back away from the raging girl, but his pride did not allow for him to back down from anything.

"Its not my fault that you are too stupid to remember what is going on!"

"Quit insulting me for something that I have no control over!" Kagome had started off angry at the way he was treating her, but she was just so emotionally exhausted that everything seemed to be weighing down on her, "I didn't ask to be attacked, I didn't ask to be in a coma in the hospital, and I sure as heck didn't ask to lose some part of my memory that everyone claims I should have!"

Inuyasha started to feel like a major jerk by the end of her outburst; the guilt became especially heavy on his heart after hearing the way her voice broke during the last statement. 

As if the torture from having yelled at her wasn't enough, Kagome began to break down in tears. "The first couple of weeks after I woke up in the hospital my family kept trying to tell me that I was forgetting something very important that I used to do. That I was forgetting a lot of what I had been doing with my life for the last year; but I couldn't remember anything that they wanted me too, and it all just seemed so ridiculous."

Inuyasha was panicking at the sight of her tears and knew that he was responsible for making her cry, 'I always make her cry; I never mean to, but I always just end up hurting her.' He mentally berated himself. He slowly moved next to the now crouching girl and enveloped her in an awkward hug. She instinctually turned into his embrace and sobbed a little harder; in response he sat down and pulled her into his lap as he gently rubbed small circles on her back in a soothing gesture. "Its going to be okay Kagome, I'm going to help you remember."

"I want to remember, I really do, but I feel like I am lost in some sort of fog and everything just feels so heavy all the time." She mumbled into his shoulder.

"I'm here for you whenever you need me," Inuyasha sighed and added an afterthought, "and so are all the others. Everyone cares about you."

"But, you were arguing with me." Kagome said, slightly confused that the man she had just been arguing so   vehemently with would be so willing to help her.

"We always argue Kagome, that doesn't mean that we aren't there whenever the other one needs us. " Inuyasha swallowed thickly at what he was telling her, "You're my best friend."

His mind decided to add its own ideas about that little conversation, 'You know that she is much more than that, you should tell her.'

Inuyasha internally growled, 'I'm not telling her nothing, its not like she would know what I'm talking about anyway since she can't remember shit.'

'Ah hah!' The voice cheered, 'So you admit that she is more to you than just a friend.'

'WHAT!' He sputtered.

'I'll be going now, you still have to talk with Kagome.' The voice faded in a fit of giggles.

"I'm sorry that I can't remember that, and that I can't remember you." Kagome broke Inuyasha out of his internal monologue with her timid voice.

"It's okay, we'll make you remember eventually."

Kagome pouted, "But I want to remember now!"

Inuyasha smirked in spite of the situation, memories or no, she was still Kagome. That revelation sent another spark running within his brain and soon he had a plan. "Well," he started reluctantly, not sure that she would like his idea, "we could try a little experiment and see if it helps you any."

She looked up at him expectantly, but when he did not continue she prompted him, "What kind of experiment, I don't have to do anything weird do I?"

"No, its just an idea that even though you lost your memories, you're still the same person."

"Um... I'm afraid that I don't understand what you mean."

"Well, they may have been able to take away your memories, but they shouldn't have been able to take away the way you feel about certain things; you know, your emotions."

Kagome thought about it for a minute, "That makes sense, our emotions are what help make us who we are and defines us. But what if I did forget, maybe I am different from what I was like."

Inuyasha smiled wryly, "You still argue with me over all the stupid things. From what I have seen and your mother says, you still act the same as always."

She shrugged, "Nothing ventured, nothing gained I suppose. I mean I can't get much worse off than I already am."

"Alright. Close your eyes." Inuyasha ordered.

"Why?"

"Just do as I say, it will help you tune everything else out but what you are feeling."

 (Yes I know, he is being uncharacteristically insightful, but hey, everyone has their moments; and people can do amazing things when it comes to the person they love.)

Kagome huffed, "Fine." She closed her eyes and slowed down her breathing as she unconsciously started using the techniques for meditation that Kaede had taught her. 

"You ready?"

Kagome nodded, unwilling to lose her focus and speak.

He was wondering what it was that he could ask her about first; there sure were a long list of people he could get her feelings on, but he never really had paid much attention to emotions and was not sure if he would know if she felt differently or not.

'Maybe I should have gotten Sango to do this, she's the one that bathes with Kagome and they do that girly shit where they tell eachother everything.'

The little voice decided that the hanyou needed a little guidance, 'I'm sure whatever you ask her you would have a pretty good idea if the feeling was correct or not.'

'I don't know, half the time we argue 'cause I have no idea what the hell is going on inside that head of hers.'

'Half the time you argue because you are a baka.'

'Oi! Don't insult me you asshole!'

'Fine; look at it this way, if you ask her about Naraku and she says she thinks he is a nice demon then you know that she is all screwed up.'

'That ain't such a bad idea voice.'

'I know, I am a genius afterall.'

Inuyasha snorted, 'Sure you are.'

"Alright Kagome,"he began softly, "how do you feel when I say the name Naraku?"

Kagome frowned in concentration as she sorted through the swirl that was her mind. Feelings began to surface the more she concentrated on the name, and she knew what to say, "I feel very angry with him, and I am also very sad. Why do I feel that way?"

"He's our bastard enemy in the past. You're angry with him because of all the shit he pulls and you're probably sad because he has caused a lot of pain to innocent people, including our friends."

"Oh, alright. What's next?"

Inuyasha wasn't sure who to ask her about next so the voice decided it would be of more assistance. 'See, she may not have her memories but she still feels the same about people.'

'Yeah, so who should I ask her about next?'

'Why not ask her about yourself?'

'I don't think I should.'

'C'mon you know that you want to know how she feels about you. You have been wanting to know for a long time, this way you can find out without worrying about too much.'

'There is plenty to worry about!'

'Like what? She doesn't know how you feel so she won't know if anything she says to you affects you.'

'So! What she says still makes a difference.'

'Oh, I see now, you are afraid of finding out that she doesn't care for you the way that you care for her. As long as you don't know then you can pretend like you don't care.'

'...'

'Ha! I'm right!'

'Shut up!'

'You know you really are a baka, what if she feels the same way; you could be missing out on a lot.'

'She can't feel the same way, I'm just some hanyou.'

'Do you really think that she ever cared about that. She has always treated you like an equal.'

'Fine, I'll ask her, but if this turns out bad I'm skinning you alive and then feeding you to Jaken.'

'Agreed. Now ask.'

Kagome had been patiently waiting for him to ask her another question, and now she was getting really anxious. The whole time he had been silent she had begun to contemplate why she even agreed to do this with him. That of course led to her questioning herself what it was exactly that she felt for him. What she discovered was rather confusing and very hard to sort through, so when he finally spoke again she was somewhat startled.

"Alright Kagome, tell me how you feel about me."

"Who?" She asked praying that she must have misheard.

"What do you feel when you think of me?"

"Oh, well I feel..." She stuttered.

Inuyasha was anxious to know her answer and was holding his breath in anticipation, "You feel...?"

AN: I know, I know, extremely evil place to end it, but I swear I have a semi-good reason for doing it and I will try really hard to get the next chapter out sooner than usual. I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter, although I know it is slightly awkward and a little evasive. PLEASE REVIEW, I can't get any better if I don't know what it is I am doing wrong. THANKS FOR READING!