Over a bottle of Firewhiskey

I sit and stare at my reflection,
At a man that I once knew,
At the eyes so full of passion,
And the beard I slowly grew.

Gone are the days when we had fun,
When roars of laughter filled the chamber,
Now all that's past, the war's begun,
And to hide away seems so much safer.

The plague is spreading all around,
It bites and there's no one to fight it,
And they all think they're safe and sound,
But they just need to be reminded.

They don't remember all the pain,
The fear, the treachery and sorrow,
How we all thought it's all in vain,
And there's no hope left for tomorrow.

I'll never allow to go back there again,
I'd rather die then see it happen,
My memories and friends help me regain,
The strength I'm needing for the battle.

He thinks it wise to stay away,
As I'm still wanted in for murder,
But how I feel he cannot say,
I'm nothing more than a mere burden.

I lack the thought to calm my steps,
I'm rash, I'm thoughtless as he puts it,
But I feel I could do more than simply stress,
Over the others and their risky duties.