Why me

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Chapter 4: Why me

"Why do I have to wear this", Lily groaned as she looked in the mirror and saw herself in a long pink sleeveless dress that clashed horribly with her hair and was being fitted for petunia's wedding.

"You look wonderful", her mother said with a smile.

Muuumm...It's uncomfortable", she said finding it hard to breathe.

"I'm sorry Lily but Petunia wants your dress to be this way "

She probably wants me to suffocate in this she thought. It had been one week since she had come home and they had gone to a muggle bridal shop to pick out dresses for Petunia's wedding. Now she was in a dress that was way too tight for her and she wasn't enjoying one bit of it. The wedding was three days away and she was trying to act nicely toward Petunia and her weird boyfriend Vernon but it was rather difficult when they kept shooting nasty looks her way. Other than that her summer was going great and she was proud of the fact that she hadn't cried one tear.

She was still dreading writing the letter she had promised Potter, it was one of those pesky thoughts that she tried to forget about, but couldn't. She felt bad that she hadn't written yet, but she couldn't. This was too much. She had decided she didn't want to continue this any longer. She knew he was sweet, funny, nice, good looking, and he cared a lot about her. But what if something went wrong or he stopped liking her, she was scared of that. She had been seriously hurt in her fifth year in a relationship with a boy from Ravenclaw and she didn't want that to happen again. So now she was attempting to smoosh any emotions that she might've developed over him, despite how much he cared for her, and loved her, and how he changed for her and how- No she had to stop thinking of him. Luckily her thoughts were averted to her mother who had just repeated herself twice.

"Umm what did you say mum?"

"I was saying if you wanted to try on another I try on green?"

"Sorry Lily, Petunia doesn't want that color in her wedding"

Petunia was making this torture she couldn't even wear her favorite color. Maybe purple or blue would be alright.

"Mum could I try on the purple or the blue"

"Sure Lily let me get them for you; you stay in the changing room."

"Ok Mum"

After trying the blue and the purple dresses, which were just as suffocating Lily chose the blue after which they paid and then left the muggle bridal shop.



When they had finally arrived home Lily bounded up to her room, to check on her owl and feed her. But when she stepped in her room she saw not only her tawny owl, but a white and brown owl also. The owl was perched next to her own owl and hooting happily while her own hooted back. She didn't recognize this owl, she thought as she approached them and began to speak,

"Hello... who are you sweetie? You can't be Suzan's owl and you can't be Caroline's owl or Mary's...well let's see the letter", she said as she took the parchment from the owl which kept hooting softly. When she realized who the letter must be from, instead of feeling disgust or anger, she felt excitement. Angry at herself for this, she made a face, quickly opened the letter and began to read.

Dear Lily,

How is you're summer? Mine has been great, Sirius is here and he is staying with me for the summer. I know I've asked you before, but do you want to go out with me? If you say yes, please say yes, I was thinking we could go to Diagon Alley and buy our school supplies together. Well think about it and smack my owl if he's fighting with yours, he tends to do that sometimes.

Love,
James

1 simple word successfully turned her excitement to worry. She read the word over again and her mind was sent reeling.

"Oh no, Oh no, he wrote love. What am I going to do? I'm trying to forget about this boy and he's making this harder. I can't go to Diagon Alley with him I just can't." she said as she buried her head in her hands. She couldn't do this, when she was trying to forget about him. But was forgetting about Potter what she really wanted?

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