Wait For Me
A/N
Gasps Oh my gosh... I had such nice reviews for chapter 2! - I feel so flattered by all the reviews, thank you all so much!! Blushes It's the most reviews i've ever gotten for any of my Seto/Yami fictions.
Warnings/Notes: Yaoi. Seto/Yami. Much anguish and feelings of rejection...
Disclaimer: Too flattered to care that I don't own it... Sighs happily
Summary: Yamis feel rejected when Seto runs off after the kiss...
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Seto was shocked to say the least as they kissed each other through tears. The salty liquid flowing into the kiss and mixing with each other's exotic taste of their deep warm caverns. But he didn't care. He held onto Yami for dear life, eyes shut tightly as he gripped onto said crimson-eyed boy's hair.
"I love you..." Yami muttered quietly between the kiss.
Seto broke the kiss with a gasp of surprise and a look of disbelief. He saw hurt flicker in Yami's eyes, but they were gone as quickly as it came. Seto's eyes were wide, holding relief and... fear... He loved Yami back, but he didn't say it... He didn't know why, but his mouth was clamped shut. His body betrayed his demanding mind and kept still;unmoving. Why in the seven hells wasn't he moving?! SETO MOVE!! his mind screamed at him. But he inwardly shaked his head sadly. He can't tell Yami he loved him back... And he had perfectly good reasons not to as well. If he told Yami that he loved him back, he would only inflict more pain than neccessary right now. If he couldn't be here to hold him and kiss him, why confess your love for him? The pain of longing and needing would just combine to the pain of not having him here while loving him. [1]
He backed away from Yami with sad eyes. "No..." he whispered in a voice that wasn't his own, in a tone he didn't recognize... It was so cold--he wanted to shiver. He hugged himself tightly with one arm, and in the other, held his head. He was so confused as to what to do next... He knew that either way, confessing or not, he would still hurt Yami... I have to pick the choice... that would hurt him less, he told himself hesitantly as he shaked visibly. The tears still fell, and the emotions still rised. He wanted to escape from this; he wanted out! He didn't want to make the choice of loving or not! It couldn't be love though... could it? He, at first, convinced himself that they were merely best friends, then when that didn't work, he told himself that they were just very close... But then... then... he felt emotions he didn't even think he should have for Yami. After all those pondering days though, he came to a conclusion. He loved Yami... But now--he bit his bottom lip--he wasn't so sure about it. It may just be doubt, or even denial. He didn't care. He just wanted to... escape... go... and be free from making the fateful choice that could either ruin his life, or help it bloom... But, the main problem was, he didn't know which one could cause damage, or help him...
Yami couldn't belive that Seto just back away from him. He confessed his love to Seto, and this is what he got in return? He shaked his head slightly to rid of all negative thoughts. But they still came.
Would he leave you and not look back...?
Would he be disgusted by you...?
Why did he kiss you? To just relieve pain...?
These questions echoed in his mind, and, just for a second, he believed them all... He wanted to crawl in a hole and die there. Alone...
He saw Seto back away from him and shake with his head down. He couldn't see it, or even hear it; he couldn't exactly tell why, or even how come, but he knew... And he still... didn't speak it...
He could see it clearly in his mind, through his headache and negative thoughts, there was a picture of a small boy. He was curled up in a ball on his bed, blankets forgotten on the floor, he had feathery light hair that was an enchanting color of brown, his hair alluminated by the moonlight that broke through the blood red curtains he kept, and only his eyes were really seen clearly. Holding intelligence that far surpassed those five times his age.They were a deep misty blue... Like staring through a layer of fog that sparkled and shined hidden treasures in the distance. Staring in those eyes, you would love to reach out to those priceless treasures, but you can't... 'Cause you would get lost--so lost... everytime you stared into those misty crystals... They were so beautiful... They glowed and smiled in the light, but behind the smile and eerie light that appeared on the exterior of those sparkles, held emotions as of sadness and pain. Pain that reflected in his own crimson eyes as he watched the saddening scene... Then, even more crystals fell and appear on the beautiful ethereal being. From his memorizing cobalt eyes... streams of liquid flowed down steadily and dripped onto the floor with a silent splash. He didn't bother to brush them away nor make any attempt to. He just layed there, and cried...
Yami's tears began to fall out even more as the scene of memories faded. "Seto--"
"No...!" Seto breathed out, stopping Yami from saying anything else. He turned his tear-filled eyes to him from under his messy bangs.
Yami gasped softly at Seto's eyes. They were so... empty. Unvoid of any emotion whatsoever... His voice, tone, the way he stared at Yami so intently made Yami want to fall on his knees. He felt so vulnerable under the gaze as he locked his own with Seto's. Cobalt clashed with crimson as the emotions in both eyes were changing. The age of their eyes were changing. Their feelings in them were changing. Bright innocent crimson eyes were slowly turning a shade darker, masking all emotions he may have had before. The age of them was mysterious and unpredictable as they held knowledge of things 7 year olds shouldn't even know. They held a challenge in them, a look a victor would always have right after defeating their opponents. And Seto's eyes... oh god... They were so... cold. It was as if he had that look in his eyes for years the way he held that firm gaze with Yami. His big blue eyes was narrowed under his bangs and looked as if he was angry at the whole world. But Yami could see the minor and major changes in the Seto he knew ever since they were born and the one he was gazing at now. Yami bit his bottom lip from a nervous habit he developed as he awaited Seto to say something--anything...
Seto looked at Yami with determination and uncertainty in his cobalt eyes. "I-I don't... I don't love you back..." he said barely above the most silent whispers of the wind. He turned his head away, casting his eyes down. He couldn't bare to see Yami's reaction. He clenched his eyes tight awaiting for anything. A slap, a cry, pleading! But no reaction was made...
Yami was shattered, frozen in time; unmoving. As all color drained from his face, his crimson eyes were fogged up and glazed with his tears. But that was another thing, the tears weren't falling anymore... He cried himself dried...
Finally regaining his senses, he swallowed down the pain building down in his throat as he cried nothing out. His throat was dry from all those hours from trying to hold them back. A shiver ran throughout his body. That feeling of lonliness and unsecurity... His body was numb after hearing those words, as though they had cast a spell on him. Feeling that invisible spell wear off, Yami took one step back, lightly placing a hand over his rippng heart as he clenched the cloth there. His breathing became more desperate as he tried to take in what Seto has just told him. He looked at Seto with pure hurt in his fogged empty eyes, before... just running away.
'I know I'm just trying to escape from my problems, from my best friend, from the only person I've ever loved... I'm running away from you... and... for you... But even though you may hate me, reject me, and even be disgusted by me, I will always be right here waiting for you... The tears may be gone, and you may be too, but the pain still remains, and it's consuming me...'
Seto stared in shock as Yami just whipped around and ran off in a blink of tears. Seto couldn't move though, feeling dread and guilt upon his shoulders, the weight was too much to handle! He stayed there though; still. He didn't run after him, or even scream out his name. If people saw such a scene, they would think he didn't care about the broken, crimson-eyed youngster. The way he just stood there and looked on with emotionless eyes. The only thing that made him seem he even had feelings, was the tears that continously fell from his empty cobalt eyes. 'What have I done...?'
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A/N
[1] Explanations for the confusions of Seto's reasoning. A) He doesn't want to hurt Yami. B) He knows his departure would hurt him somewhat. C) But not as much as it will if they were lovers separated. D) He's wrong. E) Of course, Yami just assumes he's rejected. F) I AM SOOO EVIL!!! . G) Well, did that make sense because it sure didn't make sense to me even though i know it and am writing it but still doesn't understand it. Should you write anything you don't understand? oO;;
Sorry my common reviewers about the short crappy chapter!! This was suppose to be a songfic. using that trance song "Right here waiting for you" and my own original song "Wait for me, for eternity" which I wrote a year ago. -; But trust me, I'm sooo making it up in the fourth chapter! Oh my gosh, the forth chapter is so heart wrenchingly sweet!! It's the whole event of Seto on the plane through him falling asleep in his new room when they get there. Mokuba is sooooooo sweet!!! Here's a preview of the forth chapter for a sorry presnet for the late update:
--Preview--
"Seto..." Mokuba cried out softly with despair in his small voice. He clenched his eyes tight, hugging Seto tightly. "Please don't cry... Please don't cry..." He crawled into the chair beside Seto and lifted up the blanket that held his older brother warm. He crawled under it slowly, snuggling up to Seto's form. He then whispered brokenly,"I'll protect you Seto... You won't feel pain anymore..."
--End Preview--
I love that line!!!! "I'll protect you, Seto... You won't feel pain anymore..." Beams Two days ago I had gotten inspiration in the seasons of this. --; Yes, I planned all of second season, third season is almost done in the planning, and I'm deciding on if I should do a forth season or to not to.
I'm being generous today, so here's information about the seasons:
First Season Wait For Me: Seto and Yami's childhood and the struggles they have to overcome to try to see each other again. Also, came up with a new conflict, Seto is engaged, and I think you know to who. Seto still goes to the orphan and is still adopted by Gozaburo. [Question: Should I just do their childhood, or add DK in the first? I'm doing this by Yu-Gi-Oh! seasons and I'm wondering if people would rather have me place DK in the second season or not.]
Second Season Wait For Time: About Battle City. Isis is still in here and we still have Ancient Egypt. The past is AU though. Mostly about a letter. [Follows the story line, sort of. I didn't do the exact dialogue cause I know it bores people to see the same thing. It bores me too. Yugi can't be in the whole fiction, period. If I add him in, which I honestly tried to do, then I can't do Battle City or the sweet AU past.]
Third Season Wait For Love: About Noa's Arc. Major and minor changes to the original one in this. Noa is also saved in this. Big Five doesn't exist, to warn you. I'm adding an OC to replace them. [The Big Five annoys me to no end. They insulted Seto. ]
Forth Season Wait For Us: Final part of the Wait For arc. This is the Return to Battle City season. Major decision making problems between Seto and Yami with them dueling each other in the semi-finals or not in the four-way duel.
- This is my most successful fiction yet--well, thanks to all of your supporting. - Be flattered. Tehe. =-=
Now, my nice kind reviewers,
RR!
Ja ne! =-= ::Muahz::
Harika Huynh
P. S. Very frusturated with my computer since I finished this on 5/14/04 and was about to update but nooooooo...., will it let me? Nope.
P. P. S. I posted up the forth chapter today with it cause I felt guilty for not updating before. -; Sorry!!
A/N
Gasps Oh my gosh... I had such nice reviews for chapter 2! - I feel so flattered by all the reviews, thank you all so much!! Blushes It's the most reviews i've ever gotten for any of my Seto/Yami fictions.
Warnings/Notes: Yaoi. Seto/Yami. Much anguish and feelings of rejection...
Disclaimer: Too flattered to care that I don't own it... Sighs happily
Summary: Yamis feel rejected when Seto runs off after the kiss...
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Seto was shocked to say the least as they kissed each other through tears. The salty liquid flowing into the kiss and mixing with each other's exotic taste of their deep warm caverns. But he didn't care. He held onto Yami for dear life, eyes shut tightly as he gripped onto said crimson-eyed boy's hair.
"I love you..." Yami muttered quietly between the kiss.
Seto broke the kiss with a gasp of surprise and a look of disbelief. He saw hurt flicker in Yami's eyes, but they were gone as quickly as it came. Seto's eyes were wide, holding relief and... fear... He loved Yami back, but he didn't say it... He didn't know why, but his mouth was clamped shut. His body betrayed his demanding mind and kept still;unmoving. Why in the seven hells wasn't he moving?! SETO MOVE!! his mind screamed at him. But he inwardly shaked his head sadly. He can't tell Yami he loved him back... And he had perfectly good reasons not to as well. If he told Yami that he loved him back, he would only inflict more pain than neccessary right now. If he couldn't be here to hold him and kiss him, why confess your love for him? The pain of longing and needing would just combine to the pain of not having him here while loving him. [1]
He backed away from Yami with sad eyes. "No..." he whispered in a voice that wasn't his own, in a tone he didn't recognize... It was so cold--he wanted to shiver. He hugged himself tightly with one arm, and in the other, held his head. He was so confused as to what to do next... He knew that either way, confessing or not, he would still hurt Yami... I have to pick the choice... that would hurt him less, he told himself hesitantly as he shaked visibly. The tears still fell, and the emotions still rised. He wanted to escape from this; he wanted out! He didn't want to make the choice of loving or not! It couldn't be love though... could it? He, at first, convinced himself that they were merely best friends, then when that didn't work, he told himself that they were just very close... But then... then... he felt emotions he didn't even think he should have for Yami. After all those pondering days though, he came to a conclusion. He loved Yami... But now--he bit his bottom lip--he wasn't so sure about it. It may just be doubt, or even denial. He didn't care. He just wanted to... escape... go... and be free from making the fateful choice that could either ruin his life, or help it bloom... But, the main problem was, he didn't know which one could cause damage, or help him...
Yami couldn't belive that Seto just back away from him. He confessed his love to Seto, and this is what he got in return? He shaked his head slightly to rid of all negative thoughts. But they still came.
Would he leave you and not look back...?
Would he be disgusted by you...?
Why did he kiss you? To just relieve pain...?
These questions echoed in his mind, and, just for a second, he believed them all... He wanted to crawl in a hole and die there. Alone...
He saw Seto back away from him and shake with his head down. He couldn't see it, or even hear it; he couldn't exactly tell why, or even how come, but he knew... And he still... didn't speak it...
He could see it clearly in his mind, through his headache and negative thoughts, there was a picture of a small boy. He was curled up in a ball on his bed, blankets forgotten on the floor, he had feathery light hair that was an enchanting color of brown, his hair alluminated by the moonlight that broke through the blood red curtains he kept, and only his eyes were really seen clearly. Holding intelligence that far surpassed those five times his age.They were a deep misty blue... Like staring through a layer of fog that sparkled and shined hidden treasures in the distance. Staring in those eyes, you would love to reach out to those priceless treasures, but you can't... 'Cause you would get lost--so lost... everytime you stared into those misty crystals... They were so beautiful... They glowed and smiled in the light, but behind the smile and eerie light that appeared on the exterior of those sparkles, held emotions as of sadness and pain. Pain that reflected in his own crimson eyes as he watched the saddening scene... Then, even more crystals fell and appear on the beautiful ethereal being. From his memorizing cobalt eyes... streams of liquid flowed down steadily and dripped onto the floor with a silent splash. He didn't bother to brush them away nor make any attempt to. He just layed there, and cried...
Yami's tears began to fall out even more as the scene of memories faded. "Seto--"
"No...!" Seto breathed out, stopping Yami from saying anything else. He turned his tear-filled eyes to him from under his messy bangs.
Yami gasped softly at Seto's eyes. They were so... empty. Unvoid of any emotion whatsoever... His voice, tone, the way he stared at Yami so intently made Yami want to fall on his knees. He felt so vulnerable under the gaze as he locked his own with Seto's. Cobalt clashed with crimson as the emotions in both eyes were changing. The age of their eyes were changing. Their feelings in them were changing. Bright innocent crimson eyes were slowly turning a shade darker, masking all emotions he may have had before. The age of them was mysterious and unpredictable as they held knowledge of things 7 year olds shouldn't even know. They held a challenge in them, a look a victor would always have right after defeating their opponents. And Seto's eyes... oh god... They were so... cold. It was as if he had that look in his eyes for years the way he held that firm gaze with Yami. His big blue eyes was narrowed under his bangs and looked as if he was angry at the whole world. But Yami could see the minor and major changes in the Seto he knew ever since they were born and the one he was gazing at now. Yami bit his bottom lip from a nervous habit he developed as he awaited Seto to say something--anything...
Seto looked at Yami with determination and uncertainty in his cobalt eyes. "I-I don't... I don't love you back..." he said barely above the most silent whispers of the wind. He turned his head away, casting his eyes down. He couldn't bare to see Yami's reaction. He clenched his eyes tight awaiting for anything. A slap, a cry, pleading! But no reaction was made...
Yami was shattered, frozen in time; unmoving. As all color drained from his face, his crimson eyes were fogged up and glazed with his tears. But that was another thing, the tears weren't falling anymore... He cried himself dried...
Finally regaining his senses, he swallowed down the pain building down in his throat as he cried nothing out. His throat was dry from all those hours from trying to hold them back. A shiver ran throughout his body. That feeling of lonliness and unsecurity... His body was numb after hearing those words, as though they had cast a spell on him. Feeling that invisible spell wear off, Yami took one step back, lightly placing a hand over his rippng heart as he clenched the cloth there. His breathing became more desperate as he tried to take in what Seto has just told him. He looked at Seto with pure hurt in his fogged empty eyes, before... just running away.
'I know I'm just trying to escape from my problems, from my best friend, from the only person I've ever loved... I'm running away from you... and... for you... But even though you may hate me, reject me, and even be disgusted by me, I will always be right here waiting for you... The tears may be gone, and you may be too, but the pain still remains, and it's consuming me...'
Seto stared in shock as Yami just whipped around and ran off in a blink of tears. Seto couldn't move though, feeling dread and guilt upon his shoulders, the weight was too much to handle! He stayed there though; still. He didn't run after him, or even scream out his name. If people saw such a scene, they would think he didn't care about the broken, crimson-eyed youngster. The way he just stood there and looked on with emotionless eyes. The only thing that made him seem he even had feelings, was the tears that continously fell from his empty cobalt eyes. 'What have I done...?'
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A/N
[1] Explanations for the confusions of Seto's reasoning. A) He doesn't want to hurt Yami. B) He knows his departure would hurt him somewhat. C) But not as much as it will if they were lovers separated. D) He's wrong. E) Of course, Yami just assumes he's rejected. F) I AM SOOO EVIL!!! . G) Well, did that make sense because it sure didn't make sense to me even though i know it and am writing it but still doesn't understand it. Should you write anything you don't understand? oO;;
Sorry my common reviewers about the short crappy chapter!! This was suppose to be a songfic. using that trance song "Right here waiting for you" and my own original song "Wait for me, for eternity" which I wrote a year ago. -; But trust me, I'm sooo making it up in the fourth chapter! Oh my gosh, the forth chapter is so heart wrenchingly sweet!! It's the whole event of Seto on the plane through him falling asleep in his new room when they get there. Mokuba is sooooooo sweet!!! Here's a preview of the forth chapter for a sorry presnet for the late update:
--Preview--
"Seto..." Mokuba cried out softly with despair in his small voice. He clenched his eyes tight, hugging Seto tightly. "Please don't cry... Please don't cry..." He crawled into the chair beside Seto and lifted up the blanket that held his older brother warm. He crawled under it slowly, snuggling up to Seto's form. He then whispered brokenly,"I'll protect you Seto... You won't feel pain anymore..."
--End Preview--
I love that line!!!! "I'll protect you, Seto... You won't feel pain anymore..." Beams Two days ago I had gotten inspiration in the seasons of this. --; Yes, I planned all of second season, third season is almost done in the planning, and I'm deciding on if I should do a forth season or to not to.
I'm being generous today, so here's information about the seasons:
First Season Wait For Me: Seto and Yami's childhood and the struggles they have to overcome to try to see each other again. Also, came up with a new conflict, Seto is engaged, and I think you know to who. Seto still goes to the orphan and is still adopted by Gozaburo. [Question: Should I just do their childhood, or add DK in the first? I'm doing this by Yu-Gi-Oh! seasons and I'm wondering if people would rather have me place DK in the second season or not.]
Second Season Wait For Time: About Battle City. Isis is still in here and we still have Ancient Egypt. The past is AU though. Mostly about a letter. [Follows the story line, sort of. I didn't do the exact dialogue cause I know it bores people to see the same thing. It bores me too. Yugi can't be in the whole fiction, period. If I add him in, which I honestly tried to do, then I can't do Battle City or the sweet AU past.]
Third Season Wait For Love: About Noa's Arc. Major and minor changes to the original one in this. Noa is also saved in this. Big Five doesn't exist, to warn you. I'm adding an OC to replace them. [The Big Five annoys me to no end. They insulted Seto. ]
Forth Season Wait For Us: Final part of the Wait For arc. This is the Return to Battle City season. Major decision making problems between Seto and Yami with them dueling each other in the semi-finals or not in the four-way duel.
- This is my most successful fiction yet--well, thanks to all of your supporting. - Be flattered. Tehe. =-=
Now, my nice kind reviewers,
RR!
Ja ne! =-= ::Muahz::
Harika Huynh
P. S. Very frusturated with my computer since I finished this on 5/14/04 and was about to update but nooooooo...., will it let me? Nope.
P. P. S. I posted up the forth chapter today with it cause I felt guilty for not updating before. -; Sorry!!