Rory went into her room to get ready to go to Luke's. She had realized in
her mother's room that she had vocalized the idea that she had been rolling
around in her mind. She was ready to talk to Jess about having sex.
She was truthfully a little nervous. OK, maybe she was a lot nervous. Their relationship was actually relatively new. She wouldn't have even considered this this early in her relationship with Dean. But she also hadn't been able to tell Dean she loved him. And she loved Jess. She was in love with Jess.
She couldn't decide when she would bring it up. She figured that the moment would present itself and be right. Until then, well, her mother had said she could go on the Pill. Maybe she would get a prescription for that filled so that when she told Jess she was ready, she would actually be ready.
She stood in front of the mirror and began to brush her hair. She began to think of all of the books she had read about girls who were about to do what she was planning, and how they were always nervous that their relationship would change. That was one thing she was really worried about. When she had been going out with Dean, and her relationship with Jess had been purely a friendship, she'd had nothing to fear. And so far, everything was going well. But what if what they said was true? What if sex did change everything? Would she still have the Jess who was her best friend, or would she only have, to put it vulgarly, a fuck-buddy?
She sighed and put down her hairbrush. There was a lot to think about.
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A few days had gone by, and Rory still hadn't brought up the topic of sex with Jess. She had, however, gone to see an OB-GYN with her mother and gotten a prescription for the Pill, which they had picked up at a pharmacy in Hartford. The little round container of pills was concealed in her underwear drawer. She had already started taking them. Now all she had to do was bring it up with Jess.
Finally, one Saturday morning, Rory woke up and she knew. Today was the day. She was going to tell Jess. She got dressed and went into the kitchen where her mother was waiting for her.
"Come on, baby-cakes. Let's go to Luke's."
"No complaints here."
"Fabulous."
The two hooked arms and walked to Luke's together. A few blocks before they reached the diner, Rory pulled her mother off to the side of the street.
"I'm telling Jess today," she said, almost whispering.
"Wow. OK." They both paused, waiting for the other to talk.
"Listen, Rory. Um, this is kind of an 'I want to know, and yet I don't want to know' situation. I guess. . . I guess I want to know when it happens, but not too many details, OK? You be the judge. But just so you know, I'm always here to listen, OK?"
"OK." They smiled at each other and continued walking, finally reaching the diner. They walked straight to the counter and plopped down.
"Coffee!" Lorelai demanded. "One for me, and one for the little one, here."
Luke rolled his eyes, but he was too busy to complain. He set two mugs down in front of the girls and filled them with coffee before replacing the coffee pot behind the counter. Almost as an afterthought, he said to Rory, "Jess is still upstairs. You can go talk to him, and tell him I want his butt down here in half an hour."
"There will be a butt belonging to Jess down in this diner in 30 minutes," Rory said, taking a huge swig of coffee and then bounding up the stairs.
She crept more slowly as she reached the apartment door, not sure if Jess was asleep or awake. She tentatively knocked on the door.
"Yeah?" came the reply from inside.
She opened the door and saw that Jess was awake and reading on his bed.
"Hey," she said, walking over.
"Hey. I knew it was you," he said. "I can tell by the way you walk."
"Oh," she replied, walking over to the bed and sitting on the edge.
"Can we talk?" she asked.
Jess put down his book and looked worried, then quickly changed his expression to guarded. "Is this one of THOSE talks?" he asked.
"What?"
"The ones where you say, 'we're moving too fast, I think we need to take a break'."
"No! Why? Is that how you feel?"
"Not at all, I just thought. . . OK, so it's not one of those talks. What's on your mind."
"Well, it's funny you should mention moving too fast. . . because it's kind of the opposite."
"What?"
"Um, I think I'm ready."
"Ready?"
"Yeah. . . you know. . ."
"Oh. Ready." Jess was silent. Rory tried to read his expression, but she couldn't.
"Um, I know that I'm not supposed to be the one saying this, but, are you sure we aren't moving too fast?" he asked.
Rory suddenly became the guarded one. "Forget it," she said.
"No, I mean. . . maybe eventually, but. . . this is still kind of new. . . for both of us."
"So?"
"I don't know. . ."
"OK, well. Luke wants you downstairs. I'll see you later." Rory spoke in a monotone, and she left before Jess could say a word. As soon as she got down to the diner, she grabbed her mother's arm.
"Come on," she said.
"Where are we going?" Lorelai asked.
"Away," Rory said, trying to hold back tears. Lorelai heard the tears coming in her daughter's voice, and the two rushed out of the diner so that Rory wouldn't embarrass herself. Only one other person in the diner noticed how upset Rory was, and he was already halfway up the stairs to find out the cause of Rory's sadness from the one person who could tell him.
She was truthfully a little nervous. OK, maybe she was a lot nervous. Their relationship was actually relatively new. She wouldn't have even considered this this early in her relationship with Dean. But she also hadn't been able to tell Dean she loved him. And she loved Jess. She was in love with Jess.
She couldn't decide when she would bring it up. She figured that the moment would present itself and be right. Until then, well, her mother had said she could go on the Pill. Maybe she would get a prescription for that filled so that when she told Jess she was ready, she would actually be ready.
She stood in front of the mirror and began to brush her hair. She began to think of all of the books she had read about girls who were about to do what she was planning, and how they were always nervous that their relationship would change. That was one thing she was really worried about. When she had been going out with Dean, and her relationship with Jess had been purely a friendship, she'd had nothing to fear. And so far, everything was going well. But what if what they said was true? What if sex did change everything? Would she still have the Jess who was her best friend, or would she only have, to put it vulgarly, a fuck-buddy?
She sighed and put down her hairbrush. There was a lot to think about.
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A few days had gone by, and Rory still hadn't brought up the topic of sex with Jess. She had, however, gone to see an OB-GYN with her mother and gotten a prescription for the Pill, which they had picked up at a pharmacy in Hartford. The little round container of pills was concealed in her underwear drawer. She had already started taking them. Now all she had to do was bring it up with Jess.
Finally, one Saturday morning, Rory woke up and she knew. Today was the day. She was going to tell Jess. She got dressed and went into the kitchen where her mother was waiting for her.
"Come on, baby-cakes. Let's go to Luke's."
"No complaints here."
"Fabulous."
The two hooked arms and walked to Luke's together. A few blocks before they reached the diner, Rory pulled her mother off to the side of the street.
"I'm telling Jess today," she said, almost whispering.
"Wow. OK." They both paused, waiting for the other to talk.
"Listen, Rory. Um, this is kind of an 'I want to know, and yet I don't want to know' situation. I guess. . . I guess I want to know when it happens, but not too many details, OK? You be the judge. But just so you know, I'm always here to listen, OK?"
"OK." They smiled at each other and continued walking, finally reaching the diner. They walked straight to the counter and plopped down.
"Coffee!" Lorelai demanded. "One for me, and one for the little one, here."
Luke rolled his eyes, but he was too busy to complain. He set two mugs down in front of the girls and filled them with coffee before replacing the coffee pot behind the counter. Almost as an afterthought, he said to Rory, "Jess is still upstairs. You can go talk to him, and tell him I want his butt down here in half an hour."
"There will be a butt belonging to Jess down in this diner in 30 minutes," Rory said, taking a huge swig of coffee and then bounding up the stairs.
She crept more slowly as she reached the apartment door, not sure if Jess was asleep or awake. She tentatively knocked on the door.
"Yeah?" came the reply from inside.
She opened the door and saw that Jess was awake and reading on his bed.
"Hey," she said, walking over.
"Hey. I knew it was you," he said. "I can tell by the way you walk."
"Oh," she replied, walking over to the bed and sitting on the edge.
"Can we talk?" she asked.
Jess put down his book and looked worried, then quickly changed his expression to guarded. "Is this one of THOSE talks?" he asked.
"What?"
"The ones where you say, 'we're moving too fast, I think we need to take a break'."
"No! Why? Is that how you feel?"
"Not at all, I just thought. . . OK, so it's not one of those talks. What's on your mind."
"Well, it's funny you should mention moving too fast. . . because it's kind of the opposite."
"What?"
"Um, I think I'm ready."
"Ready?"
"Yeah. . . you know. . ."
"Oh. Ready." Jess was silent. Rory tried to read his expression, but she couldn't.
"Um, I know that I'm not supposed to be the one saying this, but, are you sure we aren't moving too fast?" he asked.
Rory suddenly became the guarded one. "Forget it," she said.
"No, I mean. . . maybe eventually, but. . . this is still kind of new. . . for both of us."
"So?"
"I don't know. . ."
"OK, well. Luke wants you downstairs. I'll see you later." Rory spoke in a monotone, and she left before Jess could say a word. As soon as she got down to the diner, she grabbed her mother's arm.
"Come on," she said.
"Where are we going?" Lorelai asked.
"Away," Rory said, trying to hold back tears. Lorelai heard the tears coming in her daughter's voice, and the two rushed out of the diner so that Rory wouldn't embarrass herself. Only one other person in the diner noticed how upset Rory was, and he was already halfway up the stairs to find out the cause of Rory's sadness from the one person who could tell him.