Tears of Sorrow
Chapter 5 It is the Beginning of the End
A.N. I will be switching back and forth between Ukera's pov, Hiei's pov, and maybe mine (It will be on the story) Don't worry though I'll give you a sign -6
HIEI"S POV
But there was a note in it. And I looked at it knowing right away it was Ukera's neat handwriting... I started reading it out loud to myself.
Hiei,
I know that you'll never listen to me if I talk to you so I'm hoping you'll listen to this letter. All I want to say is I'm Sorry. I'm sorry that you hate me, that I let go of you on the cliff, made you hurt yourself, started us to fight, made you hate me so much to break up with me.
Though just because we aren't lovers anymore doesn't me we can't be good friends, though if that's too much at least we can be friends. Though in truth I miss you so bad I remember the first day we meet it still makes me laugh to this day.
I love you Hiei and care if you hurt yourself. I loved you even though we broke up. I loved you even after what you did to my family. Just please talk to me alone if you have a chance... Away from Yusuke and the others and if you do please just don't yell at me, I really hate it when you yell.
Love,
Ukera
I couldn't believe it. Ukera... What have I done? She cried through writing this. The letter was stained with her tears. She still loves me after all the pain I caused her? I started to cry, I became weak and soft, I kept telling myself. This time that didn't stop me. I kept crying.
I over all the years I've lived Never opened up to no one. Ukera... she was a different story. I fell in love with her the first day I saw the fear and pain in her eyes after I killed her family. I still wouldn't at the beginning open up to her. But she saved me after what I did to her. I never had seen anyone care that much about me as her.
Flash back
" Why are you saving me, " I asked Ukera weakly as she started putting my arm over her shoulder. She was covered in my blood.
" You may have killed my family, but I never and will never let someone like you die," She said, limping me away from the spot I was let to die.
" What do you mean someone like me? " I asked confused.
" In your eyes I see you were crying for help. I've bet you really haven't had a friend before, " She said sadly looking the other way. Then she turned to me and smiled, " But if you don't care I would want nothing more to be your friend. " That smile right there that smile alone changed me from what you see today.
Then we broke up, a year later. Then we had a huge fight the next time we talked to each other. I felt so bad that I opened up to someone, wanted to make that person's life better, though nothing works out for me. I was so ashamed at myself that I tricked my self in to thinking that we were meant to be that after I went back to my old self.
Going back to my old self meant killing and stealing... I went and tracked down the so-called Yoko Kurama. I told him my plans to steal the artifacts of darkness and he may still be human now, but his powers would help. I stole those artifacts from anger and pain I had within myself.
End of flashback
I shook my head. I sighed, I will talk to her... I know that for a well known fact. Maybe I was going to far with this. Maybe we can still be friends... Just maybe. I looked down at the food. I felt sick thinking of eating her food. I did anyway, she gave it to me and if I know Ukera she would have known I'd do the same for her. I fell asleep moments after, Ukera was the only thought on my mind.
Ukera's POV
I really hope Hiei read that letter, I thought as I got up. I got dressed and before I went to wake up the gang.... I noticed my flute was missing. Then a vague image of me leaving it in Hiei's room yesterday and then the image of it being smashed to the ground- darn! I never would have thought I'd forget my flute!
Feeling awful I went and woke everyone up... this is going to be a hard day, I thought going into Hiei's room. I was scared to. Then I saw Hiei sleeping on the same spot on the windowsill from yesterday.
The more I thought of last night the more it made me want to know more of what he thought of the letter or if he read it at all. I walked up to where he lay. Here it goes... " Hiei, " I said. His eyes instantly opened.
Hiei gave me a long stare. " Oh, it's you," He said flatly, trying to avoid eye contact with me. More silence.
" Well- ah, I'm making breakfast and I wanted to know if you'd like to come out of this room and eat, " I said forcing myself to look straight into his eyes.
Hiei didn't say anything. He just stared at me. About a minute later, " I'll come out in a little bit. If that's okay with you Ukera, " he said. Did I just hear him say that? He is never that nice to me!
" Yeah, It's just fine, " I smiled. Leaving out the door. I stopped when Hiei touched my shoulder. I almost started to blush... having Hiei that close by me.
" Wait," He said as he handed me my flute. " I believe that is yours. " Hiei said handing me my flute. I was shocked that it wasn't broken into bits! Then Hiei smiled an actual smile.... I haven't seen that beautiful smile in a whole year.
" Thank you, " I said quietly. Giving a slight bow. Then I started to walk down the hall to start on breakfast.
" You always were too polite, " Hiei said.
I looked back at him. He was smirking. I ignored it and went into the 'so called kitchen.' It only took me 10 minutes. All I made was a bunch of toast; boy did that get annoying buttering the bread, pancakes, and orange juice. I walked into the room and was surprised to see Hiei there.
" Dude! At least you don't burn the toast like Botan always does!" Yusuke laughed taking a bite out of a piece of toast.
Kuwabara nodded. " Way better then Botan's cooking!" I knew they were trying to get their thoughts of the fighting match tomorrow. I had no clue how serious it would seem to them. Koenma tells me nothing.
Kurama noticed my discomfort, so did Hiei. " Well after this I say we get into some training. What do you think? " Kurama said trying to really change the subject.
" Yeah, hey Hiei you going to train with us today? " Yusuke asked through a mouth full of toast. Ukera was already using to his impolite table manners.
" Have nothing better to do. So might as well, that's if- you want me to, " Hiei asked. Generally staring in my direction. I don't know he seemed really troubled. I knew that look he always uses to have.
" It's okay Hiei. I'd like nothing more then to have you train with us, " I said smiling. Hiei was shocked from me letting him. Though I think I'm the only one who noticed.
Yusuke gave Kurama a weird look that just shrugged. " Great, It's nice to have us all train together, " Kurama said. Everyone- well almost everyone nodded in agreement. It took about 15 more minutes to eat.
Since I'm the person assigned to give them training I had them run laps around the hotel outside! I know that it's lame, but hey, I'm training how I do!! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ahhhh, yeah. Though it may take a little longer then 7 minutes for Hiei maybe 10 or so for Yusuke and Kurama... now Kuwabara, He may take all day. Maybe I shouldn't make him run all 100 laps.
When Hiei was done he ran up by me. I knew the others had well 50 laps to run left. " Hey, " He said.
" Hey." There was a long silence.
" I read your letter last night, " He said. I glanced at him, trying to hide how nervous I was about it.
" So- what did you think, I mean of us being friends? " I asked. He was about to answer before Botan and the others came out by us. Hiei gave a sad look saying that he really couldn't finish, none the less start, whatever his answer was. I have to say that it was the time I didn't want to see Botan.
" Hello Ukera!! How are you?! " Botan said all happy like I knew it was fake happiness. This tournament business might be getting to everyone. " Hey Hiei!" Hiei just gave her a death glare. Botan knew not to go and piss him off past that line.
" Hey Botan, Yukina, Keiko, and Shizuru, " I smiled.
" I see you have the boys working! Great job, let's hope we'll win tomorrow, " She said. I looked down to the ground. " I mean we WILL win tomorrow! I mean no way we can't!" It didn't cheer me up. I had a sick feeling to my stomach, if we lost... What would happen? There were so many questions I had to ask.
I will feel stupid if I tell Yusuke and Kuwabara any of my fears. Kurama always looks to the bright side of things, that's not what I need. Hiei, he would tell the truth to comfort and me - if we wouldn't have broke up!! AHHHHH! This is driving me crazy!
The others were done a little later. I shrugged of the other thoughts and fears I had. Now this was going to be some basic training. I picked up a bunch of rocks and handed them to Kurama. He gave me a questioning look. " Now this is a demonstration of our next task. Okay, Kurama chuck the rocks as hard and fast as you can at me!" I smiled.
" I'm sorry, but I can't- I mean you're a girl... And my teammate! I just can't!! " He said.
" You're such a scary cat, " I yelled. I grabbed the rocks and handed them to Hiei, who just smirked evilly. " Okay, then you can chuck the rocks at me!" Botan and the others gave a nervous look. " Don't worry! I've had lots of practice... Even if I get hit- WHO CARES? " I reassured them.
This was the training Hiei started me out on. All my moves I know are what Hiei taught me. " Okay ready, " I smiled. Hiei started chucking the rocks... See the whole point was to dodge them. This was lame, but who cares?
" Man! Where did she learn that from!" Yusuke said watching me dodge to the left then dodged to the right, do a back flip... " Or Hiei are you going easy on her... I always thought you have the hots for her!" Hiei wasn't even close to going easy on me here, but that comment was sure to spike up his temper. Out of nowhere a rock hit Yusuke in his leg. He crouched down in pain.
I stopped, well it figures because the rocks that I handed him were gone. " Hiei what the hell was that for?!!! " Yusuke said through clenched teeth looking at his wound.
" Baka, " Hiei said as he picked up a rock from the ground and chucked it at Yusuke again. This time it hit him in forehead.
" Damn it Hiei what the Frick is your problem! " Yusuke yelled.
Then Hiei said something I never would have thought he'd say, " make fun of me all you like, but don't involve Ukera in it!!!!" He yelled. Everyone was once again in silence. Hiei glared at them, he took a glance at me and disappeared.
Kuwabara whistled, " didn't know shorty liked Ukera THAT much." I felt like killing that baka. I looked over by the nearest tree, as I thought Hiei was there.
" Shut up and get back to training! I don't care what lame excuse you have, but I was assigned a job here and I want it finished! " I yelled.
" ALL RIGHT! " The three guys said in unison.
" That's nice to know... Now start practicing do what ever I don't care just get training!!! " I yelled. They all nodded. I sighed, my training really doesn't work and I thought that rock idea would work. I guess most of these guys are too stupid to see how it works.
" Way to go Ukera!! You sure show them! " Botan and them cheered. I didn't care, after lunch I'm going to have them train on their own, this is such a pain!
Hiei's pov
I knew I was smiling, Ukera is the type of person that can be all nice ands polite then she can make people get to work. I sighed. Why did I have to open up my big mouth? Now the detective knows that I like her- maybe even still love her. Now, what am I saying? I do love her, I have to admit the flat out truth that hurts, and I want her back.
I look at the other fools who are taking to Ukera and most of them have no clue what she's went through, how much... she's changed. I meet her as a scared 14 year old that has lost the most dearest thing to her, not as the; let's get the job done, all nice and happy, smart, pure hearted, talented... very beautiful 15 year old you see today.
Life was never the same when I went evil again; I lost the dearest thing to me, Ukera. Then I saw the pain Ukera suffered the night I killed her family for game, I saw what was happening and enjoyed the pain and torture. The screams in agony and pain as I killed a child in front of it's mom or the mom in front of It's child.
When I went back to that it almost made me sick. I didn't want to kill again after meeting Ukera. Then she glanced over at where I am. I don't know, but something in those eyes told me she wanted to talk to me.
Maybe she's nervous about the letter she wrote. She smiled; she knew I was in this tree. " Hey, Ukera what are you looking at? " The detective's girl, Keiko I believe, asked.
" Oh, nothing." she smiled. I smiled back. I will talk to her later today and when I do I'll tell her how I feel. I won't chicken out.... I will tell he the truth...
Author pov
It was past lunch and everyone went in there own directions to train, everyone liked that idea better. Ukera went up by the beach or shoreline of Hanging Neck Island, skipping rocks. She had nothing better to do. And so many things were on her mind.
Then Hiei walked up, Ukera knew he was there. " Why are you sitting here by yourself? " Hiei asked.
Ukera skipped another rock, it only skipped 5 times. " Because I feel like it, I thought you wouldn't want to talk to me," she said.
Hiei picked up a rock; to amazement it must have skipped 50 times. " Show off, " Ukera mumbled. A few moments later. " So Hiei are we friends or what? "
" Do I really need to answer that? " Ukera took it in a wrong way, she avoided eye contact. Then to her surprise Hiei went up and hugged her. Ukera was shocked then realizing what he was doing she tried to struggle out of the embrace. Then she gave up, just standing there in Hiei's arms. She knew how right it felt... It's like the two were back together again.
" I love you Ukera. I'm sorry what happened, I just- wanted to let you live the way you wanted to. If I would have known what it lead to-" Hiei started. Ukera hugged him tightly.
" I don't want you to be sorry. I should be for yelling at you, " Ukera started crying. " I love you too Hiei, please I don't want to break up this time." Hiei eyes got wide.
" What do you mean this time? So it's that easy, we're together again? " Ukera nodded. Hiei has always token the hard ways of life... He never thought it would be that easy.
There was just a long silence.
It stared to get dark, Hiei and Ukera started training. Ukera has never had to train for that long of a time and Hiei made it so harsh. " If you want- to win this- you have to train! It's like walking into a battlefield unprepared! If - we don't win this- we'll be dead and there's no second chances! " Hiei said sword out. He was attacking the panicked faced Ukera. Hiei wasn't trying to be harsh- he's only doing this to show it won't be easy as the others make it seem.
It was 3 hours later when the two were done training. Hiei looked at the exhausted Ukera. She really pushed herself to show Hiei she's not weak. Then let's go to the idiot- if you can guess it's Kuwabaka.
Kuwabara finally got his trial sword to work. It was just pure amazement to him. Anxiously he went to go show Yusuke. First he checked to see if he was in the hotel room, he wasn't there. Then you can guess he felt Yusuke's energy.
He ran up to Yusuke on the other side of the hotel. Were this strange aura was around him. ' Whoa, since when did he have that much power!' thought the stupid oaf. He slipped down the hill and fell on his face. The aura that was around Yusuke disappeared.
" Oh, look it's the idiot, " Yusuke said, wiping dust off his clothes. Kuwabara ran up to him with a stupid grin.
" Hey Urameshi! Check out my new super slicing and dicing mega awesome super sword! " Kuwabara exclaimed holding the part of the trial sword out. Yusuke raised an eyebrow.
" Are you sure you even know how to use it? " Hiei said roughly appearing behind Yusuke.
" When did you get here? " Kuwabara asked. Then he looked at Hiei's bloody arm. " Eh, ew what happened to your arm!? "
Hiei looked down at his arm, which had blood on it. " It didn't listen when I gave it a specific command so I had to punish it, " He said matter of flatly.
' Oh, boy he's weird, ' Kuwabara thought with his eyebrow twitching. " Okay, let's think of something else like where's Kurama..."
" Kuwabara I've been standing behind you for quite some time now, " Kurama said. Kuwabara turned around and he was there, his eyebrow twitched again. " A bit nervous are we?"
Yusuke nodded. " Oh, now all we need is Ukera..." Yusuke said not knowing she was standing right next to Hiei.
" I'm right here Yusuke, " Ukera said stepping out of the shadows. Yusuke couldn't help but notice that Ukera and Hiei were GETTING ALONG! It was hard not to notice, I mean the two were practically holding hands.
" So what are we going to do for the tournament tomorrow? " Kuwabara asked, stuffing the trial sword back into his pocket. There was a very long silence. Ukera felt very uncomfortable on the topic. Hiei was holding back the temptation of putting a comforting arm around her.
" We'll most likely face it and hope for the best though speaking of the tournament, we better get back to the hotel. We need our rest if we'll be fit for fighting." Kurama said. Everyone nodded in agreement.
As the five started walking up to the hotel, they all noticed how calm it was... There was no fighting at all. It was usually Kuwabara and Hiei if not that Ukera and Hiei. Botan greeted them as they walked through the door.
" Oh, Cheer up!!! Play a game of cards! " She said cheerfully. Hiei looked at Ukera, there was no way in hell he'd want to play a game of cards. Hiei then left to his room. Ukera didn't feel that bad about it, the two knew they had to play a game at this. They can't let the others think that the two are still not agreeing with each other's differences.
Ukera started to play cards with the others. About an hour later she didn't feel so great. " Hey, um I think I'll go to my room. I'm not feeling so great, " Ukera said.
" You're most likey nervous, Yes get some sleep it will make you feel a lot better, " Yusuke said. Ukera nodded and bowed. She walked to her room thinking of taking a relaxing bath.
Ukera picked out some extra clothes to change into afterwards. A pair of shorts and a tank top. She started her bath water. " Ukera your just nervous, you've trained for this! Don't let it get to you, " she kept saying to herself. Her hands wouldn't stop shaking... " Maybe I wasn't meant to be in these fights..."
Now Ukera is having mixed feelings of the tournament... Let's see how our ever so loved Hiei is doing!
Hiei is just sitting on his windowsill polishing his katana... like always right? He wasn't nervous like Ukera but he had a bad feeling about tomorrow. He just couldn't put a finger on it.
Though he was getting twitchy as in staying in one spot so he walked out of his room. He could still hear the idiots' playing cards... ' How dull, ' Hiei thought. ' They could have been planning out plans for tomorrow or getting some decent sleep for the matches tomorrow.'
Hiei went and knocked on Ukera's door. He sighed and knocked again. " Hold on!" Then she answered the door smiling seeing that it's Hiei. " Hi Hiei, " She sighed. Hiei gave her an awkward look. She looked like a nervous wreck!
" Are you okay, Ukera? " she just nodded. " Can I come in or are we going to talk in the hallway?"
Ukera was looking at the floor with a blank look on her face. It's like she didn't even hear his question. The tournament was bothering her that much. Hiei started to wave a hand in front of her face. She like completely zoned out.
" Ukera! Hey what's up? "Yusuke asked. Walking up by me.
She shook her head. " Oh! Sorry must have zoned out! Hey Yusuke," Ukera said smiling. Yusuke looked form Hiei who was looking to the ground with the I- hate- being- here look. To Ukera who was looking at Hiei with a questioning look.
" Hey I have a question I've been dieing to ask you two, but it would be smart if we talk about it in Ukera's room... " Yusuke said. Ukera nodded letting the two in her room. Yusuke looked at the two standing by each other. He rasied an eyebrow.
" Okay what secret are you keeping? Are you guys going out, if so how long and why were you two fighting before? " Ukera looked at Hiei who just looked at her like it's her decision to choose what to tell Yusuke.
Ukera sighed hoping she was going to do the right thing. " We are going out... Before this tournament we broke up we were going out two years before that, " She sighed again. " We got back together today. Happy now? "
Yusuke was shocked. " Then why didn't Botan say anything to us or Koenma? "
" I don't know- I just don't know. Please don't tell the others I want this to be a little private...Okay Yusuke? "
" Yeah sure I won't let anything out. You two look perfect together even though your personalities clash, " He smiled. Ukera had a forced smile. Hiei didn't want any of that info out if the detective knew it as saying the whole world did for the way he goes and tells everything he hears out.
Yusuke said his goodnight and went off to bed which left Ukera and Hiei who were completely silent. "I really didn't want anyone to know espeacilly that no one." Hiei said, almost at a growl.
" I'm sorry Hiei, " Ukera said softly. " I don't know I think we can trust him. I-"
" He'll just go and tell everyone else no matter what stupid promise he made!"
Here we go again. The two started a big fight yelling at each other. Yusuke and the others got woken up from the fighting. The gang all got up and were staring at the two, who were well aware of them being there.
" YOU'RE A BIG JERK! I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'RE FIGHTING JUST BECAUSE I TOLD YUSUKE!!! NOW THE WHOLE DAMN GANG KNOWS!! HAPPY NOW AND IT'S ALL MY GOD DAMN FAULT!!!" Ukera screamed pointing toward Yusuke, tears coming down her face. Not just tears, tears of sorrow.
" I NEVER SAID IT WAS YOUR FAULT!!!!!! YOU KEEP BLAMING YOURSELF IT ISN'T YOU IT'S ME MAYBE I WAS NEVER MEANT TO LOVE NO ONE I DON'T DESERVE IT! ALL THE SORROW AND ANGER I HAVE IS NOT TOWARD YOU IT'S TOWARD ME!! I FELT SO DAMN STUPID I OPENED UP TO YOU! YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!"
" WHAT IS THERE TO UNDERSTAND? HIEI I LOVE YOU AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE! NOW YOU GO AND MAKE A BIG SHOW IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! " She looked toward the ground the gang was all wide eyed. This wasn't a good thing to have before the tournament. The next sentence made Hiei feel awful. " All I ever wanted was for you to be happy, not me you. I thought that when I first saw that look in your eyes. I knew all you wanted was someone to love you and treat you with the respect you wanted. I wanted to give that to you Hiei because you spared my life... " Ukera whispered.
The gang's gaze went from the crying Ukera to the guilty faced Hiei. Yusuke dared to do something that might get himself killed by Hiei. He walked up and put a hand on Ukera's shoulder. " It's okay Ukera calm down. Everything will be all right, " He said. Ukera buried her face in his chest and started crying.
Hiei felt jealousy come to him as he watched Ukera cry one his chest. Kuwabara saw the angry look in Hiei's face so did Kurama. Hiei walked ever so slowly toward them. Kuwabara saw what was coming. He was about to try to stop it.
Kurama shook his head. " Let what happen Kuwabara you don't want to be involved, " Kurama, whispered. Right when Yusuke looked in Hiei eyes is when Hiei punched him right in the jaw. Yusuke didn't flinch or anything. He knew it would happen. Ukera stood up and looked over at Yusuke with a concerned look.
She glared at Hiei. " Are you okay Yusuke? "
" Just fine, " he said while standing up, rubbing the spot on his jaw were Hiei just punched him.
" Urameshi it's already bruising, " Kuwabara said.
Kurama knew that the gang should let the two talk over what just happened. " Yusuke let us get some ice on that bruise, shall we? And Kuwabara you should come with." The two of them nodded leaving Ukera and Hiei by themselves. Ukera walked over by her duffle bag and threw the rest of her stuff in it.
" I'm leaving and I never want to see your face again! " Ukera yelled slipping on her shoes. Hiei grabbed her shoulder about to say something. Ukera slapped him across his face... Time seemed to stop then Ukera ran out of the hotel room...
Ukera15 Yep I'll end the extremely long chapter there! Any ideas I'll take them! My other story Truth or Dare Hiei was just tooken off for MST chat, but if you liked it I will be reposting that! All of you have an awesome summer break!
Chapter 5 It is the Beginning of the End
A.N. I will be switching back and forth between Ukera's pov, Hiei's pov, and maybe mine (It will be on the story) Don't worry though I'll give you a sign -6
HIEI"S POV
But there was a note in it. And I looked at it knowing right away it was Ukera's neat handwriting... I started reading it out loud to myself.
Hiei,
I know that you'll never listen to me if I talk to you so I'm hoping you'll listen to this letter. All I want to say is I'm Sorry. I'm sorry that you hate me, that I let go of you on the cliff, made you hurt yourself, started us to fight, made you hate me so much to break up with me.
Though just because we aren't lovers anymore doesn't me we can't be good friends, though if that's too much at least we can be friends. Though in truth I miss you so bad I remember the first day we meet it still makes me laugh to this day.
I love you Hiei and care if you hurt yourself. I loved you even though we broke up. I loved you even after what you did to my family. Just please talk to me alone if you have a chance... Away from Yusuke and the others and if you do please just don't yell at me, I really hate it when you yell.
Love,
Ukera
I couldn't believe it. Ukera... What have I done? She cried through writing this. The letter was stained with her tears. She still loves me after all the pain I caused her? I started to cry, I became weak and soft, I kept telling myself. This time that didn't stop me. I kept crying.
I over all the years I've lived Never opened up to no one. Ukera... she was a different story. I fell in love with her the first day I saw the fear and pain in her eyes after I killed her family. I still wouldn't at the beginning open up to her. But she saved me after what I did to her. I never had seen anyone care that much about me as her.
Flash back
" Why are you saving me, " I asked Ukera weakly as she started putting my arm over her shoulder. She was covered in my blood.
" You may have killed my family, but I never and will never let someone like you die," She said, limping me away from the spot I was let to die.
" What do you mean someone like me? " I asked confused.
" In your eyes I see you were crying for help. I've bet you really haven't had a friend before, " She said sadly looking the other way. Then she turned to me and smiled, " But if you don't care I would want nothing more to be your friend. " That smile right there that smile alone changed me from what you see today.
Then we broke up, a year later. Then we had a huge fight the next time we talked to each other. I felt so bad that I opened up to someone, wanted to make that person's life better, though nothing works out for me. I was so ashamed at myself that I tricked my self in to thinking that we were meant to be that after I went back to my old self.
Going back to my old self meant killing and stealing... I went and tracked down the so-called Yoko Kurama. I told him my plans to steal the artifacts of darkness and he may still be human now, but his powers would help. I stole those artifacts from anger and pain I had within myself.
End of flashback
I shook my head. I sighed, I will talk to her... I know that for a well known fact. Maybe I was going to far with this. Maybe we can still be friends... Just maybe. I looked down at the food. I felt sick thinking of eating her food. I did anyway, she gave it to me and if I know Ukera she would have known I'd do the same for her. I fell asleep moments after, Ukera was the only thought on my mind.
Ukera's POV
I really hope Hiei read that letter, I thought as I got up. I got dressed and before I went to wake up the gang.... I noticed my flute was missing. Then a vague image of me leaving it in Hiei's room yesterday and then the image of it being smashed to the ground- darn! I never would have thought I'd forget my flute!
Feeling awful I went and woke everyone up... this is going to be a hard day, I thought going into Hiei's room. I was scared to. Then I saw Hiei sleeping on the same spot on the windowsill from yesterday.
The more I thought of last night the more it made me want to know more of what he thought of the letter or if he read it at all. I walked up to where he lay. Here it goes... " Hiei, " I said. His eyes instantly opened.
Hiei gave me a long stare. " Oh, it's you," He said flatly, trying to avoid eye contact with me. More silence.
" Well- ah, I'm making breakfast and I wanted to know if you'd like to come out of this room and eat, " I said forcing myself to look straight into his eyes.
Hiei didn't say anything. He just stared at me. About a minute later, " I'll come out in a little bit. If that's okay with you Ukera, " he said. Did I just hear him say that? He is never that nice to me!
" Yeah, It's just fine, " I smiled. Leaving out the door. I stopped when Hiei touched my shoulder. I almost started to blush... having Hiei that close by me.
" Wait," He said as he handed me my flute. " I believe that is yours. " Hiei said handing me my flute. I was shocked that it wasn't broken into bits! Then Hiei smiled an actual smile.... I haven't seen that beautiful smile in a whole year.
" Thank you, " I said quietly. Giving a slight bow. Then I started to walk down the hall to start on breakfast.
" You always were too polite, " Hiei said.
I looked back at him. He was smirking. I ignored it and went into the 'so called kitchen.' It only took me 10 minutes. All I made was a bunch of toast; boy did that get annoying buttering the bread, pancakes, and orange juice. I walked into the room and was surprised to see Hiei there.
" Dude! At least you don't burn the toast like Botan always does!" Yusuke laughed taking a bite out of a piece of toast.
Kuwabara nodded. " Way better then Botan's cooking!" I knew they were trying to get their thoughts of the fighting match tomorrow. I had no clue how serious it would seem to them. Koenma tells me nothing.
Kurama noticed my discomfort, so did Hiei. " Well after this I say we get into some training. What do you think? " Kurama said trying to really change the subject.
" Yeah, hey Hiei you going to train with us today? " Yusuke asked through a mouth full of toast. Ukera was already using to his impolite table manners.
" Have nothing better to do. So might as well, that's if- you want me to, " Hiei asked. Generally staring in my direction. I don't know he seemed really troubled. I knew that look he always uses to have.
" It's okay Hiei. I'd like nothing more then to have you train with us, " I said smiling. Hiei was shocked from me letting him. Though I think I'm the only one who noticed.
Yusuke gave Kurama a weird look that just shrugged. " Great, It's nice to have us all train together, " Kurama said. Everyone- well almost everyone nodded in agreement. It took about 15 more minutes to eat.
Since I'm the person assigned to give them training I had them run laps around the hotel outside! I know that it's lame, but hey, I'm training how I do!! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ahhhh, yeah. Though it may take a little longer then 7 minutes for Hiei maybe 10 or so for Yusuke and Kurama... now Kuwabara, He may take all day. Maybe I shouldn't make him run all 100 laps.
When Hiei was done he ran up by me. I knew the others had well 50 laps to run left. " Hey, " He said.
" Hey." There was a long silence.
" I read your letter last night, " He said. I glanced at him, trying to hide how nervous I was about it.
" So- what did you think, I mean of us being friends? " I asked. He was about to answer before Botan and the others came out by us. Hiei gave a sad look saying that he really couldn't finish, none the less start, whatever his answer was. I have to say that it was the time I didn't want to see Botan.
" Hello Ukera!! How are you?! " Botan said all happy like I knew it was fake happiness. This tournament business might be getting to everyone. " Hey Hiei!" Hiei just gave her a death glare. Botan knew not to go and piss him off past that line.
" Hey Botan, Yukina, Keiko, and Shizuru, " I smiled.
" I see you have the boys working! Great job, let's hope we'll win tomorrow, " She said. I looked down to the ground. " I mean we WILL win tomorrow! I mean no way we can't!" It didn't cheer me up. I had a sick feeling to my stomach, if we lost... What would happen? There were so many questions I had to ask.
I will feel stupid if I tell Yusuke and Kuwabara any of my fears. Kurama always looks to the bright side of things, that's not what I need. Hiei, he would tell the truth to comfort and me - if we wouldn't have broke up!! AHHHHH! This is driving me crazy!
The others were done a little later. I shrugged of the other thoughts and fears I had. Now this was going to be some basic training. I picked up a bunch of rocks and handed them to Kurama. He gave me a questioning look. " Now this is a demonstration of our next task. Okay, Kurama chuck the rocks as hard and fast as you can at me!" I smiled.
" I'm sorry, but I can't- I mean you're a girl... And my teammate! I just can't!! " He said.
" You're such a scary cat, " I yelled. I grabbed the rocks and handed them to Hiei, who just smirked evilly. " Okay, then you can chuck the rocks at me!" Botan and the others gave a nervous look. " Don't worry! I've had lots of practice... Even if I get hit- WHO CARES? " I reassured them.
This was the training Hiei started me out on. All my moves I know are what Hiei taught me. " Okay ready, " I smiled. Hiei started chucking the rocks... See the whole point was to dodge them. This was lame, but who cares?
" Man! Where did she learn that from!" Yusuke said watching me dodge to the left then dodged to the right, do a back flip... " Or Hiei are you going easy on her... I always thought you have the hots for her!" Hiei wasn't even close to going easy on me here, but that comment was sure to spike up his temper. Out of nowhere a rock hit Yusuke in his leg. He crouched down in pain.
I stopped, well it figures because the rocks that I handed him were gone. " Hiei what the hell was that for?!!! " Yusuke said through clenched teeth looking at his wound.
" Baka, " Hiei said as he picked up a rock from the ground and chucked it at Yusuke again. This time it hit him in forehead.
" Damn it Hiei what the Frick is your problem! " Yusuke yelled.
Then Hiei said something I never would have thought he'd say, " make fun of me all you like, but don't involve Ukera in it!!!!" He yelled. Everyone was once again in silence. Hiei glared at them, he took a glance at me and disappeared.
Kuwabara whistled, " didn't know shorty liked Ukera THAT much." I felt like killing that baka. I looked over by the nearest tree, as I thought Hiei was there.
" Shut up and get back to training! I don't care what lame excuse you have, but I was assigned a job here and I want it finished! " I yelled.
" ALL RIGHT! " The three guys said in unison.
" That's nice to know... Now start practicing do what ever I don't care just get training!!! " I yelled. They all nodded. I sighed, my training really doesn't work and I thought that rock idea would work. I guess most of these guys are too stupid to see how it works.
" Way to go Ukera!! You sure show them! " Botan and them cheered. I didn't care, after lunch I'm going to have them train on their own, this is such a pain!
Hiei's pov
I knew I was smiling, Ukera is the type of person that can be all nice ands polite then she can make people get to work. I sighed. Why did I have to open up my big mouth? Now the detective knows that I like her- maybe even still love her. Now, what am I saying? I do love her, I have to admit the flat out truth that hurts, and I want her back.
I look at the other fools who are taking to Ukera and most of them have no clue what she's went through, how much... she's changed. I meet her as a scared 14 year old that has lost the most dearest thing to her, not as the; let's get the job done, all nice and happy, smart, pure hearted, talented... very beautiful 15 year old you see today.
Life was never the same when I went evil again; I lost the dearest thing to me, Ukera. Then I saw the pain Ukera suffered the night I killed her family for game, I saw what was happening and enjoyed the pain and torture. The screams in agony and pain as I killed a child in front of it's mom or the mom in front of It's child.
When I went back to that it almost made me sick. I didn't want to kill again after meeting Ukera. Then she glanced over at where I am. I don't know, but something in those eyes told me she wanted to talk to me.
Maybe she's nervous about the letter she wrote. She smiled; she knew I was in this tree. " Hey, Ukera what are you looking at? " The detective's girl, Keiko I believe, asked.
" Oh, nothing." she smiled. I smiled back. I will talk to her later today and when I do I'll tell her how I feel. I won't chicken out.... I will tell he the truth...
Author pov
It was past lunch and everyone went in there own directions to train, everyone liked that idea better. Ukera went up by the beach or shoreline of Hanging Neck Island, skipping rocks. She had nothing better to do. And so many things were on her mind.
Then Hiei walked up, Ukera knew he was there. " Why are you sitting here by yourself? " Hiei asked.
Ukera skipped another rock, it only skipped 5 times. " Because I feel like it, I thought you wouldn't want to talk to me," she said.
Hiei picked up a rock; to amazement it must have skipped 50 times. " Show off, " Ukera mumbled. A few moments later. " So Hiei are we friends or what? "
" Do I really need to answer that? " Ukera took it in a wrong way, she avoided eye contact. Then to her surprise Hiei went up and hugged her. Ukera was shocked then realizing what he was doing she tried to struggle out of the embrace. Then she gave up, just standing there in Hiei's arms. She knew how right it felt... It's like the two were back together again.
" I love you Ukera. I'm sorry what happened, I just- wanted to let you live the way you wanted to. If I would have known what it lead to-" Hiei started. Ukera hugged him tightly.
" I don't want you to be sorry. I should be for yelling at you, " Ukera started crying. " I love you too Hiei, please I don't want to break up this time." Hiei eyes got wide.
" What do you mean this time? So it's that easy, we're together again? " Ukera nodded. Hiei has always token the hard ways of life... He never thought it would be that easy.
There was just a long silence.
It stared to get dark, Hiei and Ukera started training. Ukera has never had to train for that long of a time and Hiei made it so harsh. " If you want- to win this- you have to train! It's like walking into a battlefield unprepared! If - we don't win this- we'll be dead and there's no second chances! " Hiei said sword out. He was attacking the panicked faced Ukera. Hiei wasn't trying to be harsh- he's only doing this to show it won't be easy as the others make it seem.
It was 3 hours later when the two were done training. Hiei looked at the exhausted Ukera. She really pushed herself to show Hiei she's not weak. Then let's go to the idiot- if you can guess it's Kuwabaka.
Kuwabara finally got his trial sword to work. It was just pure amazement to him. Anxiously he went to go show Yusuke. First he checked to see if he was in the hotel room, he wasn't there. Then you can guess he felt Yusuke's energy.
He ran up to Yusuke on the other side of the hotel. Were this strange aura was around him. ' Whoa, since when did he have that much power!' thought the stupid oaf. He slipped down the hill and fell on his face. The aura that was around Yusuke disappeared.
" Oh, look it's the idiot, " Yusuke said, wiping dust off his clothes. Kuwabara ran up to him with a stupid grin.
" Hey Urameshi! Check out my new super slicing and dicing mega awesome super sword! " Kuwabara exclaimed holding the part of the trial sword out. Yusuke raised an eyebrow.
" Are you sure you even know how to use it? " Hiei said roughly appearing behind Yusuke.
" When did you get here? " Kuwabara asked. Then he looked at Hiei's bloody arm. " Eh, ew what happened to your arm!? "
Hiei looked down at his arm, which had blood on it. " It didn't listen when I gave it a specific command so I had to punish it, " He said matter of flatly.
' Oh, boy he's weird, ' Kuwabara thought with his eyebrow twitching. " Okay, let's think of something else like where's Kurama..."
" Kuwabara I've been standing behind you for quite some time now, " Kurama said. Kuwabara turned around and he was there, his eyebrow twitched again. " A bit nervous are we?"
Yusuke nodded. " Oh, now all we need is Ukera..." Yusuke said not knowing she was standing right next to Hiei.
" I'm right here Yusuke, " Ukera said stepping out of the shadows. Yusuke couldn't help but notice that Ukera and Hiei were GETTING ALONG! It was hard not to notice, I mean the two were practically holding hands.
" So what are we going to do for the tournament tomorrow? " Kuwabara asked, stuffing the trial sword back into his pocket. There was a very long silence. Ukera felt very uncomfortable on the topic. Hiei was holding back the temptation of putting a comforting arm around her.
" We'll most likely face it and hope for the best though speaking of the tournament, we better get back to the hotel. We need our rest if we'll be fit for fighting." Kurama said. Everyone nodded in agreement.
As the five started walking up to the hotel, they all noticed how calm it was... There was no fighting at all. It was usually Kuwabara and Hiei if not that Ukera and Hiei. Botan greeted them as they walked through the door.
" Oh, Cheer up!!! Play a game of cards! " She said cheerfully. Hiei looked at Ukera, there was no way in hell he'd want to play a game of cards. Hiei then left to his room. Ukera didn't feel that bad about it, the two knew they had to play a game at this. They can't let the others think that the two are still not agreeing with each other's differences.
Ukera started to play cards with the others. About an hour later she didn't feel so great. " Hey, um I think I'll go to my room. I'm not feeling so great, " Ukera said.
" You're most likey nervous, Yes get some sleep it will make you feel a lot better, " Yusuke said. Ukera nodded and bowed. She walked to her room thinking of taking a relaxing bath.
Ukera picked out some extra clothes to change into afterwards. A pair of shorts and a tank top. She started her bath water. " Ukera your just nervous, you've trained for this! Don't let it get to you, " she kept saying to herself. Her hands wouldn't stop shaking... " Maybe I wasn't meant to be in these fights..."
Now Ukera is having mixed feelings of the tournament... Let's see how our ever so loved Hiei is doing!
Hiei is just sitting on his windowsill polishing his katana... like always right? He wasn't nervous like Ukera but he had a bad feeling about tomorrow. He just couldn't put a finger on it.
Though he was getting twitchy as in staying in one spot so he walked out of his room. He could still hear the idiots' playing cards... ' How dull, ' Hiei thought. ' They could have been planning out plans for tomorrow or getting some decent sleep for the matches tomorrow.'
Hiei went and knocked on Ukera's door. He sighed and knocked again. " Hold on!" Then she answered the door smiling seeing that it's Hiei. " Hi Hiei, " She sighed. Hiei gave her an awkward look. She looked like a nervous wreck!
" Are you okay, Ukera? " she just nodded. " Can I come in or are we going to talk in the hallway?"
Ukera was looking at the floor with a blank look on her face. It's like she didn't even hear his question. The tournament was bothering her that much. Hiei started to wave a hand in front of her face. She like completely zoned out.
" Ukera! Hey what's up? "Yusuke asked. Walking up by me.
She shook her head. " Oh! Sorry must have zoned out! Hey Yusuke," Ukera said smiling. Yusuke looked form Hiei who was looking to the ground with the I- hate- being- here look. To Ukera who was looking at Hiei with a questioning look.
" Hey I have a question I've been dieing to ask you two, but it would be smart if we talk about it in Ukera's room... " Yusuke said. Ukera nodded letting the two in her room. Yusuke looked at the two standing by each other. He rasied an eyebrow.
" Okay what secret are you keeping? Are you guys going out, if so how long and why were you two fighting before? " Ukera looked at Hiei who just looked at her like it's her decision to choose what to tell Yusuke.
Ukera sighed hoping she was going to do the right thing. " We are going out... Before this tournament we broke up we were going out two years before that, " She sighed again. " We got back together today. Happy now? "
Yusuke was shocked. " Then why didn't Botan say anything to us or Koenma? "
" I don't know- I just don't know. Please don't tell the others I want this to be a little private...Okay Yusuke? "
" Yeah sure I won't let anything out. You two look perfect together even though your personalities clash, " He smiled. Ukera had a forced smile. Hiei didn't want any of that info out if the detective knew it as saying the whole world did for the way he goes and tells everything he hears out.
Yusuke said his goodnight and went off to bed which left Ukera and Hiei who were completely silent. "I really didn't want anyone to know espeacilly that no one." Hiei said, almost at a growl.
" I'm sorry Hiei, " Ukera said softly. " I don't know I think we can trust him. I-"
" He'll just go and tell everyone else no matter what stupid promise he made!"
Here we go again. The two started a big fight yelling at each other. Yusuke and the others got woken up from the fighting. The gang all got up and were staring at the two, who were well aware of them being there.
" YOU'RE A BIG JERK! I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'RE FIGHTING JUST BECAUSE I TOLD YUSUKE!!! NOW THE WHOLE DAMN GANG KNOWS!! HAPPY NOW AND IT'S ALL MY GOD DAMN FAULT!!!" Ukera screamed pointing toward Yusuke, tears coming down her face. Not just tears, tears of sorrow.
" I NEVER SAID IT WAS YOUR FAULT!!!!!! YOU KEEP BLAMING YOURSELF IT ISN'T YOU IT'S ME MAYBE I WAS NEVER MEANT TO LOVE NO ONE I DON'T DESERVE IT! ALL THE SORROW AND ANGER I HAVE IS NOT TOWARD YOU IT'S TOWARD ME!! I FELT SO DAMN STUPID I OPENED UP TO YOU! YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!"
" WHAT IS THERE TO UNDERSTAND? HIEI I LOVE YOU AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE! NOW YOU GO AND MAKE A BIG SHOW IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! " She looked toward the ground the gang was all wide eyed. This wasn't a good thing to have before the tournament. The next sentence made Hiei feel awful. " All I ever wanted was for you to be happy, not me you. I thought that when I first saw that look in your eyes. I knew all you wanted was someone to love you and treat you with the respect you wanted. I wanted to give that to you Hiei because you spared my life... " Ukera whispered.
The gang's gaze went from the crying Ukera to the guilty faced Hiei. Yusuke dared to do something that might get himself killed by Hiei. He walked up and put a hand on Ukera's shoulder. " It's okay Ukera calm down. Everything will be all right, " He said. Ukera buried her face in his chest and started crying.
Hiei felt jealousy come to him as he watched Ukera cry one his chest. Kuwabara saw the angry look in Hiei's face so did Kurama. Hiei walked ever so slowly toward them. Kuwabara saw what was coming. He was about to try to stop it.
Kurama shook his head. " Let what happen Kuwabara you don't want to be involved, " Kurama, whispered. Right when Yusuke looked in Hiei eyes is when Hiei punched him right in the jaw. Yusuke didn't flinch or anything. He knew it would happen. Ukera stood up and looked over at Yusuke with a concerned look.
She glared at Hiei. " Are you okay Yusuke? "
" Just fine, " he said while standing up, rubbing the spot on his jaw were Hiei just punched him.
" Urameshi it's already bruising, " Kuwabara said.
Kurama knew that the gang should let the two talk over what just happened. " Yusuke let us get some ice on that bruise, shall we? And Kuwabara you should come with." The two of them nodded leaving Ukera and Hiei by themselves. Ukera walked over by her duffle bag and threw the rest of her stuff in it.
" I'm leaving and I never want to see your face again! " Ukera yelled slipping on her shoes. Hiei grabbed her shoulder about to say something. Ukera slapped him across his face... Time seemed to stop then Ukera ran out of the hotel room...
Ukera15 Yep I'll end the extremely long chapter there! Any ideas I'll take them! My other story Truth or Dare Hiei was just tooken off for MST chat, but if you liked it I will be reposting that! All of you have an awesome summer break!