A/N: Hey guys, I decided to write a brand new story just cause my other one was...well.. shit...anyways so i hope this one catches your interests a lot more cause on my old one only one person reveiwed....thats right only one.! So this story is dedicated to that one person, your such a doll PaLM TRee 101 thank you for reveiwing..oh and by the way I love your storys.!! your story is actually the first fanfiction i read for Lizzie
McGuire...so i guess you can say you inspired me huh? well anyways this is for you... anyways..i haven't exactly figured out what this story is going to be about, it's just an out of the blue type thing so just please stick with me. Lizzie McGuire isn't mine Blah Blah Blah...you all know the drill.

CHAPTER ONE

My life is the worst, well actually it's not because there is people out there that has never fallen in love before and never will. Unfortunetly though I don't know what is worse someone who has fallen in love and still is but can't be with their love because of somthing they did, or never having fallen in love. Ether way I hate my life completely, I utterly hate it. I just wish I could take back all the things I did wrong so many years ago. All the mistakes I have made, and then maybe I would be with him right now right at this minute him with his arms around me. Oh how much I prey to feel his touch again, to smell his scent. I have missed him more then anything. I would do anything just to see him once more, to tell him how sorry I am for hurting him so many years ago.

I know Gordo though more then anyone, well I knew him more then anyone and if he is anything like he was when he was eighteen he wouldn't even want to consider looking at me. Do you know how much that hurts, just thinking that the one person you can see yourself with when your eighty years old doesn't know that your loving them, that your dead or alive and frankly wouldn't even care.

It hurts me so much just thinking of that night that I said thoughs horrable things to him, when he was trying to tell me that my boyfriend was cheating on me. Then about five days later I found out he was telling me the truth all along. Of course though me being such the jerk that I am, I couldn't even try to tell Gordo how sorry I was for saying thoughs things to him, tell him how I knew he was looking out for me, and mostly tell him that I loved him from the moment I laid eyes on him in the sandbox so many years ago. Yes though I can admitt I didn't react to my feelings right away, but the moment that I realized I couldn't live without him, that he was my dream come true and I found all I needed in life was being with him I realized that I loved him with all my heart but it was to late. I already hurt him to much, me loving him would just hurt him way more. By the time I realized I loved him you see, he had already had a girlfriend and I heard from the rumor mill that they were soon going to get engaged. That was the hardest news in my life. The man that is surpose to live the rest of his life with me, was going to live it with another woman.

Well thats enough of the pathedic love life. All I have to say is Gordo is happy with another woman somewhere in Hollywood directing somthing probably, while I'm here in New York City it a tiny little office working on some magazine that isn't even important because no one even reads it. I guess though I should tell you who I am shouldn't I? I'm Lizzie McGuire, 25 year old Lizzie McGuire in love with her ex best friend for the past seven years. The only Lizzie McGuire that works at a magazine company that no one in their right mind would even buy, the one that couldn't belive her best friend over her own head because in her eyes Ethan Craft was the most amazing person in the world. Now I see totally different the most amazing person is the one that got away, David Gordon. My precious Gordo.

Lizzie stopped writing and looked up at her computer screen, she often wrote herself little storys about her life just to keep in reminder the worst thing she did in her life. The one she'll never forgot because every morning she has to wake up and realize that her life could be so much better if she didn't make all those mistakes seven years ago. "Gordo" she wispered to herself "how much I miss you" while a single tear ran down her cheek.

She looked up at her computer screen and pressed the Esc button. A message popped up onto the screen "would you like to save?" she read to herself. "No" she thought and immdently clicked the button. A minute passed with her just looking at the screen blankly when her cell phone rang as she looked at who was calling she clicked the hello button. "Hello mother" she said, ever since Lizzie moved away seven years ago her and her mother never really got along, they always fought over Lizzie coming home. Of course Jo McGuire wanting Lizzie coming home and Lizzie thinking that at that exact moment Gordo could have been home with his wife, and she wasn't ready to handle that yet. "Are you coming home for thanksgiving dear?" Jo asked her daughter like she did every year even though she knew what the response would be. "Mom I'm sorry I can't, work has been so busy latley I just don't think I can take the time off " which was a complete lie and Jo knew it, she knew the magazine Lizzie worked at wasn't very popular and there was nothing for Lizzie to be busy with. Like always though Jo went along with it, feeling upset she responded "Well..alright dear I guess if work comes before family there is always next year." "Sorry mom but I got to go bye" and with that Lizzie hung up the phone. Lizzie use to love talking to her mom back in highschool, but since then she just wasn't able too. Jo was always trying to get her to come home one way or another and Lizzie just couldn't handle coming home yet. She couldn't handle watching Gordo be in love with another woman. "There is no way I am going home" she said to herself.

A/N: Well guys...there it is my new story..I know chapter one isn't very big...and unfortuantly I am doing the same thing again. I just want to see if everyone likes the story or if it's shit like my other one. Don't worry guys I didn't even like my other one. Well please read and reveiw and tell me what you think...oh wait...ok ill make a deal..if i get 2 just 2 reveiws not from PaLM TRee 101..then I will write another chapter by the time I go away on Friday...If not then I'll try and write one when I get back on Monday...actually guys it would have to be Tuesday cause I work monday..so please Reveiw..cause I actually like writing this story...well I'm gone..luv all you and thanks for reading.!