I admit, I bear a burden.
That burden is mine to bear,
I wish it not on my loved ones,
To know what pain has brought me,
What fate has bestowed me,
I wish to carry my own burden,
That is what I'm meant to do.
To listen to others problems,
To steer them from wrong,
To watch out for them,
To help them through their heartbreaks,
To guide them,
To be there for them.
I must not let my grip from reality slip,
My mind not let astray,
I must stay with the living,
and the one I love.
I admit, I bear a burden.
That burden is mine to bear,
I wish it not on my loved ones,
To know what pain has brought me,
What fate has bestowed me,
I wish to carry my own burden,
That is what I'm meant to do.
To carry my demons and keep them inside,
and not let the world destroy me.
"I hope that I will never have to share my burdens,
They are not for the world to ridicule,"
My mind keeps telling me,
Day in,
Day out.
The world sees me,
and yet it doesn't,
I'm just there,
Here to talk to,
to tell your problems,
to hide my own.
I'm here to help the world,
and not myself,
for that is the root of selfishness,
to keep my mind shut tight,
not open even to my loved one,
even though I have none.
Until, one day,
maybe, I'll meet that someone special,
and they'll teach me,
what it's like to love,
and what it's like to be loved.
They'll embrace my heart of black and ice,
and melt it, and make me soft.
Maybe I'll feel again,
of maybe I'm doomed to be a shell,
a shell that people can talk to,
and not care what they say about whom,
or that I'm glad to help them with their problems,
and ultimately,
to help my mind, soul and heart,
and help me abandon the emotion I've both come to loathe and rely on:
Lonliness.
Paine: Yeah, I dunno...I just wrote this out of the blue, and yeah...I just thought about what a certain character could be really thinking. Feedback would be nice....