Trapped in Loneliness

Chapter 5: A moment to Remember

Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh

All day at school we did tests. With all my stress I forgot to study. Yep, that means I'm gonna fail all my classes. Except for my first class, there was no test in that one.

I am walking to my last class while I am thinking. But you know, that is nothing new so it really doesn't matter.

I've only got PE left for the day and I'm home free. I have to run a mile on the track today though. The rest of the class has to too, but that is pretty obvious.

I don't want to run. I'm always tired from being sad. I just don't have the energy for anything anymore.

Kaiba didn't show up for school today. I wonder why. I didn't think he would not show up on the day we had to do tests. Kinda ironic since he usually tends to not show up on days that are normal.

I arrive at the girl's locker room and dress into my PE uniform. As I walk to the track outside where the class is supposed to meet today I ponder if the teacher will yell at me if I decide to walk instead of run the mile.

I can't believe it. I stop walking.

I see Kaiba. He is here. Now. At school.

I decide to get closer to him because I see that he is talking to our PE teacher. I keep a good distance though. No point in making myself look like I like to listen in on people's conversations.

It looks like they are arguing...

"Listen! I've gotten all my teachers except you to let me take my tests another day. Why is it you won't do the same?!" I hear Kaiba raise his voice louder by the second.

"You don't get any special treatment. Go dress down." I can tell the teacher is enjoying being in control over Kaiba. He is such a control freak.

"My leg was hurt the other day which is why I was not able to come today. I can not run while I am in a bad condition." I hear Kaiba try to keep his voice as low as possible so no one can hear that he had his leg hurt the other day. I don't blame him. If I were him I wouldn't want anyone to hear anything like that about myself.

"I'll let you walk instead of run. Now go dress down." Jeez, this guy is a jerk.

"Would something change your mind? Such as money?" Even while I am staring at Kaiba's back I can imagine him smirking.

But yeah, him trying to bribe someone is something I don't find surprising.

"No thank you. I will give you an F if you don't go dress down right now." This guy is pretty mean...And he's glaring at Kaiba too! Wow, someone is actually standing up to Kaiba! I wish I could stand up to people like I could a long time ago too...

But...What will you do now Kaiba? Will you leave and risk not being able to fix that grade and have it effect your grades or just go do it?

"Fine." I hear Kaiba grunt and then he walks past me and enters in the school.

When he walked by me, I heard him mumble curse words.

At the moment Kaiba comes back everyone lines up and gets ready.

Without my knowing, I end up standing next to Kaiba in the line up. I feel kinda happy that I am able to stand next to him...But not so lucky at the same time. He doesn't really like me since I was Yuugi's friend. But I bet he doesn't know we aren't friends anymore...

I sigh.

"That bastard just wants to control me...." I hear Kaiba mumble.

Bingo! Bingo! Bingo! He won the prize.

I always knew Kaiba was able to find out everything easily. It's like he can read people's minds. That would be kinda cool if he could.

Eh, wait, nevermind.

If he could read minds then he would read everything I thought about. About him...And about Yuugi.

Phew. I'm glad it's not possible to read minds. Or else I would be even more anxious than I already am.

I'm starting to feel anxious again. I think it is because Kaiba is standing next to me.

Come on Anzu....Don't start feeling anxious and sweating over nothing...

He stares at me for a second. It looks like he just found out I'm standing next to him.

Oh lucky me. Just my luck to have to stand next to someone who is glaring at me.

I see Yuugi and Jounouchi. They are in my PE class too. Sadly.

I have to beat them in this mile. I have to finish before them. I just have to. It will be just like a race. I want to show them who is better!

"Four laps around this track is equal to a mile. Keep track of how many times you go around. When you finish, tell me and I will tell you your time." My teacher says to everyone as he gets ready to start timing with his stop watch.

"Go!" He yells.

Wanting to beat Yuugi and Jounouchi gave me energy for some reason. I start running as fast as I can.

But what do you know? I'm still not good enough. Jounouchi bumps into me while he runs past me. I see Yuugi by his side as they both get ahead of me.

I wish I had a friendship like theirs.

Wait a sec! That bastard didn't even say sorry for bumping into me! How dare he!

Grr...I begin to feel pain inside me mentally. But, then that pain turns into anger. And it makes me run faster than ever!

I speed by Jounouchi and Yuugi while they are busy talking to each other about Duel Monsters. I look back at them while I am running and I see the look on their faces. They look shocked. Shocked that I was able to get ahead of them.

To make the moment even better, I flip them off.

That will teach them! Hehe...I'm starting to become a jerk. It's no wonder I suddenly think Kaiba should humiliate Yuugi.

In the corner of my eye I see Jounouchi gaining on me. Crap. It looks like I shouldn't have flipped them off. But you know what? How couldn't I have resisted? They made me feel like shit. But I guess it wasn't the right time to get them back.

He could have passed by me and flipped me off back. He could have cursed at me and continued to go ahead of me. God dammit, he could have even just passed me.

But no, he didn't.

He put his leg in front of mine which caused me to trip. He tripped me.

No, I didn't fall on the concrete and get myself all bloody. I was running near the edge of the track so I tripped right into the grass area, excuse me, the large mud puddle in the grass area.

Great. Just great.

The PE teacher comes up to me while I just sit in the mud. Just sitting there feeling the pain of my wounded pride.

"What the hell is going on?!" He sounds pissed.

Before I can stop myself words blurt out.

"I tripped." I am totally covered in mud. Except for my back side and my face. But my hair and face do have bits of mud on them from the splash...

"Yeah right! I always knew you were trouble ever since you started being quiet!" He is now yelling.

People are staring. I don't want to be noticed. All I wanted was to show Yuugi and Jounouchi I was better than them...Or that I was at least worth something. God, I hope Kaiba is not watching.

"Can I...Go get cleaned up?" I ask, trying to hold back the tears at the same time.

"Trouble makers don't deserve to get away with inappropriate crap. Now keep running!" He points to the track.

Oh goodie. Now people think I'm an insane quiet person who likes to cause trouble. Not that it matters anyway.

I get up and begin to walk on the track. Oh I'll do the damn test to make him shut up...I'll just walk instead of run.

But once again I finish last. I am a loser. Jounouchi knows it. Yuugi knows it. I know it. Everyone knows it.

Yep. I gotta walk around the track four times covered in mud. As if i wasn't an outcast enough.

By the time I finish my second lap, more than half the class is finished running. A female classmate of mine, who was kind enough, brings me a towel she snuck out of the girls locker room for me so I can get as much mud off me as possible.

I get my face, arms, legs, some of my hair and some of my clothes free of mud.

I quietly thank her as she walks away with the towel when I finish using it.

I wish I had a friend to talk to. Someone to ask for advice. Just someone who would tell you everything was gonna be alright.

I just want to talk to someone.

To Be Continued

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