Harpie: Hey I'm back with chappie 7! Thank you sooo much for all the reviews guys and I'm so glad that all of you are enjoying my fic. Finally my infraction is over and done with! Yeah… so I really don't have anything else to say so I'll just start with chappie 7 =P Enjoy!
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Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade nor any of its characters.
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive
-Flashback-
"Send the dark away, send it away Kai"
Send the dark away?
What does he mean?
"How Rei"
I ask
"Eyes, through your eyes"
I listen carefully to his words
Yet I am unable to process them.
"I don't understand"
"Through your eyes. Eyes reveal all"
Eyes reveal all…
Hmm…
-Flashback over-
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became
As the world keeps turning
So does my head.
Day and night,
I ponder,
What did that dream mean?
Shine light through your eyes?
Eyes reveal all?
Why was Rei even in my dream?
But most of all,
Why do I even care?
It was just a stupid dream.
It didn't mean anything.
…Right?
For some reason,
It haunts me.
It's unlike any dream I've ever had,
I hate it!
So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do
Dammit… everything's been so complicated lately.
Rei still won't talk to me,
I'm too much of a coward to apologize,
And that dream hasn't been exactly healing my suffering.
I hate myself right now.
Period.
I feel as if a monstrous cloud of depression
Has been toppling liters of heavy dirty rain all over me,
And has been following me everywhere.
Why am I even alive…
Take me now God!
If you despise me so much,
Might as well send me to my grave now,
It'll make both of our days.
Hell would treat me better than this anyway.
Not like I deserve to be treated better.
Rei probably cried that day,
That day when evil devoured my heart.
How I feel so horrible.
I KNEW I shouldn't have said that,
Then why did I?
I guess it's impossible to hide the real Kai in me.
-Sigh- My heart feels so empty with out him,
Even emptier than it was before.
Maybe I shouldn't tell him,
Doesn't look like he'd care anyways.
Nope…
He wouldn't.
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Why do my eyes feel so wet?
Everything's so blurry…
I feel something go down my cheeks.
No,
It can't be,
Can it?
Tears?
I,
Kai Hiwatari,
Am crying?
Why are these waterfalls pouring out of my eyes?
I'd be able to drown myself soon!
Maybe I should,
No point in me living.
I'm not allowed to love Rei,
I'm not allowed to love myself.
Just keep on crying I guess,
Just keep on crying…
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
STAIND - Fade
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Harpie: Oh my God! –Sniff sniff- That was such a sad chapter! Jeez, I nearly cried when I was writing it! Ah… so sad =( poor Kai! Alright well, next chapter will be up soon, I got to go and get a Kleenex or something lol till then! Review plz!