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A/N: This story is based on an RPG that I RP as Remus Lupin in. This stoy is from Lily's POV. I am very proud of it. Not as long as I would've liked it to be, but its still a tad long. 3 pages R&R

The Very Secret Diary of Lily Evans

Lily was walking up the stairs to her attic; she pulled the door open and looked around. The room was empty except for her old school trunk that was sitting in the center of the room. She walked over to the trunk and opened it, so many memories, confined inside this trunk for such a long period of time. Lily looked down at the ring on her finger, and a tear formed in her eye.

"Am I making the right choice? Or –"Lily asked herself.

"'Course you are honey." A voice called from behind her. She turned around and looked the man in the eye; it was her Fiancé James Potter, and laughed.

"I know, but still... still can't help but think I'm making the wrong decision." Lily said sadly. James came over and put his arm around her.

"Lily..." James said.

"James, I don't know what I want. I mean... you've always loved me; you've never had to decide between two people, whom you love. And have to decide whom you wanted to spend the rest of your life with." Lily turned from him and looked out the window. "I don't want to make the wrong decision. That's all."

"Lily, I love you, you know that." James said.

"But James! I know you love me! I just don't know what I want! Let alone who..." Lily was now yelling at James. Lily turned on her heel and stormed out, bumping into Sirius by accident in the process.

"What'd you do to her?" Sirius asked with sarcasm in his voice. "Kiss her?"

"Shut up Padfoot..." James snapped. James bent down and started rummaging through Lily's old trunk.

"Uh, is it a good idea to be going through Lily's trunk?" Sirius asked James, who glared back at him, and went back to rummaging. "I mean if she is already mad... This might make the matter worse." Sirius added.

"Will you relax; I'm just looking for something." James said. Pulling out a small brown book, there was gold lettering on it that said "LILY EVANS" "Found it!"

"Is that, what I think it is?" Sirius asked taking the book from James, and flipping through a couple of the pages. "Mate, you're really going to upset her if she knows you found this!"

"She isn't going to find out if you don't tell her" James said, snatching the book out of Sirius' hand.

"Prongs! This is Lily's diary. Don't go and mess things up!" Sirius said pleading with James.

"Padfoot, I just want to know what's wrong with her!" James said trying to pulling the diary away from Sirius.

"So ask her what's wrong with her! There could be some personal stuff in there!" Sirius said, still yanking at the diary in attempt to take the Diary out of James' hand. But James pulls harder yanking it out of Sirius' grasp causing him to fall backward over the trunk. "Dammit Prongs! You're really going to upset Lily now! I though you really cared about Lily..."

Sirius glared at James and got up brushing his robe off. James turned away from Sirius clutching the Diary in his hand.

"I guess I was wrong James..." Sirius added, and turned away from James and walked out of the attic. James didn't bother trying to stop Sirius. Sirius was right, if James did read the diary, than he would hurt Lily. James walked over to the trunk and shut it, taking a seat. He buried his face in his hands.

"I'm sorry Lily..." James muttered to himself. He looked back at the diary, and opened it to the first page. It was dated Thursday August28, 1977. "It can't be? Can it?"

Meanwhile...

Lily was sitting in the kitchen clutching a bowl of cereal, spooning at it while watching the news. When Sirius came storming down the stairs knocking over an umbrella stand.

"What'd James do now?" Lily asked Sirius still staring at the news.

"Oh No! This is his mess, he can fix it himself!" Sirius said staring at the Television. "What is that?" Sirius added pointing at the Television.

"Oh, it's just a television. It's how muggles keep up with the news, or they just watch it for entertainment. Like my sister's boyfriend..." Lily explained.

Sirius completely forgot about why he was upset and pulled a chair up beside Lily and joined her in watching the news, when there was a knock on the door.

"'Eh I'll get it, didn't know the News could seem so interesting." Lily said getting up leaving the table. As Sirius reached for the Cereal and began eating it. Lily walked over to the door and opened it.

"Remus! Come in, Come in!" Lily said, as Remus walked in. Lily reached and scratched here ear.

"I see James proposed." Remus said, looking at the ring on Lily's left hand.

"Huh? Oh! This... Yea he did. It's been a long time Remus." Lily said, hiding her left hand behind her back.

"Yea... It has." Remus said. Seeing Sirius in the kitchen eating Cereal, and watching the muggle news. "Er is Sirius all right?"

"Oh!" Lily turned around and looked at Sirius then turned back to Remus. "Yea, he just discovered the wonders of television."

"Ah, I see. So where is James?" Remus asked.

"Who?" Lily asked clicking her tongue.

"What'd he do this time? Or do I even want to know?" Remus asked.

"Do you even need to ask what he did?" Lily argued.

"No, guess not. So... What have you been up to?" Remus asked.

"Nothing, I was just looking –"Lily stopped, the color drained from her face.

"Lily? Are you all right?" Remus asked in an alarmed voice.

"Yea... Wait here." Lily told Remus and went up the stairs to the attic to find James sitting on the trunk... with Lily's diary in his hand.

"JAMES POTTER! What in your right mind do you think you are doing?!"

A/N: Hope you enjoyed it Reviews are always nice, be honest.