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A/N: Thank you for the reviews.

DeoxyriboNucleic Acid - As I said in the first Chapter, this is based on a RPG that we are in the process of doing on , It is purly Fanon! In this RPG that we are doing, there is a James/Lily/Remus for the sake of it, just to act as a little twist. And Lily has mixed emotions. Ok, so please do not take my fic so seriously.

Joy (Gwendolyn James) - Sorry, Lily didn't beat up James up. But I'll be sure to keep that in mind ;)

Jesse the Harry stalker - You have more now ;)

Sensei-Ninja - I started to read one of your stories, its pretty good, I havn't gotten around to finshing it though :( It's on my to-do-list though. :)

The Very Secret Diary of Lily Evans

James snapped the book shut and threw it behind him.

"I didn't read anything! Just the date Lily, I swear!" James said. Lily looked down at the ring on her finger and then back at James in furry.

"James... I thought I meant more to you!" Lily yelled. "Or am I just your trophy?" Lily took the ring off her finger and raised it her eyes.

"Give this... to someone you truly care about." Lily walked over to James, and dropped it in his hand; she walked behind the trunk and picked up the diary. Then she walked out of the room and down the stairs. Sirius was still sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal, only Remus had joined him now. Lily walked right past them and out the door, clutching the diary in her hand.

Lily wandered the streets of London, not knowing where to go. She needed to think. Had she really meant what she said? Or was it just her anger speaking? All Lily knew was that she was confused. Finally, she found a peaceful park. Lily walked around for a bit, and saw a bench, so she took a seat, and opened the diary. Looking through it... reading things she thought he had forgotten... in hope to forget that part of her life...

One Year Earlier...

Lily was sitting on the floor of her room packing her trunk for school. In just a few hours she would be back at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. She had just been appointed Head Girl; she was very pleased with it. She would have enjoyed it even more if the Head Boy wasn't James. Lily had been hoping that it would be Remus, but she hadn't heard from him all summer, but she did hear from James. About four times a day... seven days a week. James had even tried to call her on the telephone. But Lily's sister Petunia answered it and said never call this house again. Lily found this funny, because she had absolutely loathed James. From the first time he had come up to her in first year. And his future actions had not helped Lily change her mind one bit, but at the same time. Lily couldn't help but feel feelings she had never felt before around James. But how could she love him, if she loathed him? Questions like this aggravated Lily, because she did loath him, yet she still felt feelings for him... strong feelings.

Lily shut the trunk and went downstairs. Petunia and her boyfriend Vernon Dursley were sitting in the living room watching television. Petunia moved closer to Vernon and put her arm around him. Petunia did this often just to bug Lily, seeing as she did not have a boyfriend for their mother to be oh so proud of her for that. Lily ignored them and walked into the kitchen. Her mother was standing over the sink washing dishes.

"Mum, my stuff is all packed and ready to go." Lily said. Mrs. Evans turned around and looked at Lily.

"Your father is going to take you up to King's Cross when you're ready all right sweetie." Mrs. Evans said sweetly.

"Huh? Oh Ok..." Lily said looking down at her feet. "Um, mum... Can I ask you something?" She added.

"Lily, is there something wrong?" Mrs. Evans asked, taking a seat at the kitchen table.

"No, nothing wrong I was just wondering about something." Lily said, taking a seat across from her mother. "Um, how do you know that you love someone? I mean what if you love someone, but you think you love someone else that you hate?"

"Then give them both a chance." Mrs. Evans smiled. "Maybe that one person you hate is really the one you love."

"Thanks mum..." Lily wasn't entirely sure that her mother's advice was the greatest advice. How could she give James a chance? He tormented other students that got in his way just for the fun of it! Mrs. Evans got up ad patted, Lily on the shoulder, then walked out of the Kitchen.

"Hey! Freak! Dad is looking for you!" Lily's excuse for a sister called.

"What?" Lily asked.

"What part didn't you understand? The 'freak' part... or the 'Dad is looking for you' part'! He has your trunk in the car and says to hurry up or you'll miss the Freak Express!" Petunia sneered and exited the room. Lily walked into the hallway towards the front door, and took a beige bag off the cloak rack and threw it over her shoulder. She took one last look around to make sure she had everything, and pulled the front door open and walked to the car. Her dad was already in it and had the car running. Lily opened the passenger side door and got in. Looking back at her house one last time, it'd be another whole year until she'd see it again.

Lily got out of the car and went to get a trolley so they could put her trunk on it. She came back to the car pushing the trolley, as her dad loaded the trunk onto she caught two tall boys that both had black hair. One was wearing glasses, and messing up his hair. The other had long hair and was fiddling around with his wand. It was James and Sirius no doubt, James was always messing up his hair, and Sirius was always with him. The 'Dynamic Duo', one was never without the other. Unless they were in Detention, which was almost every other week...

"Um Dad, I'm going go ahead and go in... meet you there?" Lily said, still glaring at Sirius and James.

"All Right Lily." Mr. Evans replied lifting the trunk onto the trolley.

Lily ran into the station, just as she saw James and Sirius walking over to her father.

"That was close" Lily said just as she entered the station.

"What was close?" A voice called

"Remus!" Lily flung her arms around the boy that called her name. Only it was not a boy, it was a young man; it was a younger Remus none the less. "Why didn't reply to any of my letters?"

"Uh... I was... I was busy this summer." Remus said.

"Honestly Remus! You couldn't have been that busy could you?" Lily asked.

"Well, um... you see Lily –?" Remus said, but he was cut off by Lily.

"Dammit Remus! You're hiding something and I want to know what it is!" Lily demanded.

"Lily you're going to have to trust me on this one. I honestly can't tell you... not now at least." Remus said quietly.

"Remus... you can trust me though, I'm your friend." Lily said, tears forming in her eyes.

"Lily... please doesn't cry. I'll tell you, I just can't tell you here. Just wait till we get to Hogwarts all right." Remus said. "Oh No..."

"What is it?" Lily asked turning around to where Remus was looking. "Uh! Sorry Remus I got to go!"

Lily ran right for the barrier. She wasn't even watching to see if the muggles were watching, she just ran through it.

"My Gosh! Is James stalking me or something?!" Lily muttered under her breath.

"Lily? Lily!" a voice was calling. It was her father.

"Over here Dad..." Lily called walking over to Mr. Evans who was pushing an empty trolley towards her.

"Ah, well your trunk is on the train all ready. There was a boy looking for you, with messy black hair and glasses. Are you dating him?"

"You didn't tell him where I was did you?! And no I am not dating him, nor will I ever!" Lily said firmly.

"Whatever you say Darling." Mr. Evans said, looking at his watch. "Oh look, you better hurry and get on; it looks like the train is leaving."

Mr. Evans hugged his daughter. Lily looked up into her father's eyes.

"Go on Lily, you're going to miss the train." Mr. Evans pleaded.

Lily nodded and went to get on the train. She moved on and got into a compartment and looked out the window.

"Bye dad..." Lily said to herself. Her father was standing on the platform waving at her. The train let out a loud whistle and they began to move out of the station.