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PART 7

You have to do it Lorelai... you just have to... but how can I give this up, how do I know it will work out with him... I don't, but do I dare take that risk... do I? I can't believe this... how could this have happened...? Me and my stupid offers... I had to offer my couch and now I can even go one day without imagining his hands all over my body... I have to do it... if I don't I'll go mad I know... if I walk away from this I will never forgive myself... I cant just not be with him... wait a minute, this is crazy, its only Jess... yeah, only Jess... only the guy I had sex with and let him touch me in all those places no one even comes near... and it felt so good... the way he works those hands... oh my god what am I going to do... how do I tell David that I'm leaving him... I have to... for my own sanity... if I see him and I can't touch him I'll go crazy... I have to do it... ok here we go...

She arrived at his apartment at exactly 7 pm but she couldn't go in, she stood there in front of his door her heart pounding, then she knocked and waited

"Hey, come on in" he said smiling kissing her softly

"Hey"

"So how are you?" he asked closing the door behind them

"I'm fine"

"You don't look fine, are you feeling alright?"

"Actually no..." she sat down "I need to talk to you, why don't you sit down for a minute"

He sat down searching her eyes, she looked down, couldn't face him "this isn't working" she said suddenly

"What are you talking about Lorelai?"

"I'm sorry, I tried... but I can't... I don't know what to say... don't ask me to explain, please, because I cant... all I can say is that it's not fair to you to keep this going..."

"What's wrong? Everything was going so great... is it someone else?"

"David please... don't make this harder then it already is..."

"I wanna know why"

"I can't say..."

"Is there someone else...? That's all I want to know"

"Yes" she started crying

"I can't believe this... so do you think you're in love with him too...?"

"I'm not in love with him"

"You're throwing this away for some one you're not in love with?"

"I have to David... you don't understand"

"Try me..."

"I can't... I just, I need to do this... I don't know where it takes me but I know that if I don't try I will never forgive myself..."

"You have to leave"

"David..."

"Lorelai please..."

She knew she was hurting him, and lately she's been doing that a lot but what could she do, she could not just go against her heart and desires, she needed to be with Jess, she had to be with Jess. She got up and walked towards the door, she didn't look back and walked to her car still crying.

She must've been driving for 3 hours before she arrived at the diner, stars hollow was asleep, the lights in his apartment were on, she was still in her car, still crying but not has hard as before

She reached for her cell phone and dialed

"Halo" said the voice she longed to hear

"Hey it's me" she answered her voice shaking

"Are you alright? What's wrong?" he could hear in her voice that something was wrong

"No and everything"

"What?" he asked confused

"No I'm not alright and everything is wrong..."

"Oh... where are you?"

"Down here"

"I'm coming..." he hung up and she walked to the diner door to meet him

"Come in" he gestured and after she went inside he locked the door and they went upstairs

"Sit down, you want something to drink?"

"Coffee would be great..."

"Sure, I just made some for me and..."

"You're expecting some one?" she asked sniffing her nose "I'm sorry maybe I should go" she added and got up

"No, stay, don't worry about it, I was alone, I was gonna look for company but you're here so... sit down..." he handed her a mug and sat next to her "what's wrong?"

"I broke up with David"

"What?" he asked meeting her gaze

"Yes"

"Why? I thought..."

"I thought so too but I couldn't..."

"Lorelai?"

"I can't stay away... I go crazy when you're not around and it's weird because I'm not supposed to feel this way about you of all people..."

"I go crazy too... when you're not around... and to answer your question that's why I hang out with Rory because I hope you'd be there..."

"How did this happen anyway... we're supposed to hate each other..."

"No we don't..." he smiled and wiped the remains of her tears away

"I don't know where it takes us"

"Shhh" he took the mug from her hands and put it on the table

"I just know that it's crazy to deny what's going on here"

"I agree" he smiled

"I'm afraid, Jess"

"Its ok, don't be"

"I'm not use to have this need inside, this feeling of hopelessness when you don't touch me... this is embarrassing"

"Its not... and we should just make sure I touch you has much as possible..."

"I'm the grown up here, this is crazy, I should be the one to calm you down"

"It's natural for you to have doubts Lorelai, I understand, it just hit me last night... I couldn't just ask you to walk away from everything to be with some one your daughters age"

"How is this going to work? I mean, as much as we both want this we still can go an hour without fighting"

"That's the fun in it, we can always make up" he smiled

"I love it when you look at me like this"

he smiled and leaned in to kiss her, slowly and gently, letting her feel how he missed her and how he wants her, her hands moved to his cheeks, warm and tender, his found their way to her jacket and slowly pulled it down his hands brushing against her arms

Her jacket was gone, they were still kissing when he slid his hands under her thigh and pulled her to lie on the couch, she drew him to her and he positioned him self on top of her

Her hands traveled his back and slipped under his shirt, he was still kissing her when she pulled back suddenly

"Can we please move to somewhere more comfortable?"

"Sure" he sat and she got up

"are you coming?" she was standing in front of him and he pulled her close, his hands moved from her thighs up to her waist, his soft touch sent shivers through her body. His lips made contact with her bare stomach while his hands caressed her behind, she arched her head up and closed her eyes enjoying his warm tongue on her skin

She ran her hands through his hair and moaned his name. He pulled her shirt up and traveled his tongue upwards to her breasts squeezing them gently freeing a low moan from her throat

She took her shirt off and smiled at him, she didn't need to ask, he knew what she wanted, what she needed, he kept caressing her body and she leaned down to meet his lips again for a hungry kiss, wet lips tongues battling

They took their time, kissing, feeling each others hands roaming. His hands found their way to her waistband and he undid her pants, she smiled through the kiss and bit his lower lip softly

She kneeled in front of him "hey" she said meeting his eyes "hey back" he answered and she pulled his shirt off and tossed it aside. He leaned back against the couch inviting her hands to his stomach. Her soft fingers traveled his stomach and chest and she leaned in to kiss his bare upper body, slowly, listening to his breathing and his moans

she then undid his jeans and pulled it down, she felt his body shiver when her lips made contact with his navel and headed downwards but before she reached her destination he pulled her up to his lips "are you afraid?" she asked through the kiss "no" he answered "why did you pull me up?" she asked again after pulling back "we'll have plenty of opportunities for you to do this but right now I think the little guy is ok..." he smiled. She got up and pulled him up with her

He stepped out of his jeans and turned her around so that her back was to him. He undid her bra and let his soft hands explore her stomach and breasts while she moved her hair out of his way and he kissed her shoulder, her rear and behind her ear. Her hand moved to the back of his head, making sure he stays there kissing her letting his warm breath tickle her sensitive neck

They started walking towards the bed and his hand moved from her stomach down and under her panties "ohh... Jess..." she cried in pleasure and put her hand on his to keep that sensational feeling last as long as possible

they reached the bed and he took his hand out and up to her chest, she turned to look at him and kicked her heels, he rolled his eyes when it hit the TV she giggled and slid her pants down together with her panties "what are you waiting for?" she smiled and climbed on the bed covering her self with a blanket "after all we just did and you're cold... I'm insulted..." he said smiling and she answered "I'm cold because I'm naked..."

He got rid of his boxers and laid next to her, she moved closer to kiss him and he rolled her off on her back. She felt his arousal and drew him to lie on top of her still kissing him with hunger and desire

He made love to her several times that night because they just couldn't let go, all the passion and all those emotions broke loose when their bodies collided

She finely gave in to her feelings and desires

"So, are we ok?" he asked after kissing her deeply

"I think we are" she smiled and wrapped her leg around his thigh

"Good"

"Yeah, good... you know I can't stay here" she said playing with his fingers

"We're gonna have to do something about that" he kissed her again trying to persuade her to stay

"That's not going to work... we live it paparazzi town, we can't do sleepovers if we want to keep this hidden"

"I hate this town"

"So why did you stay?"

"Isn't it obvious...? I mean you're a smart woman..."

"Oh, stop it... you did not stay so you can seduce me..."

"You seduced me first..."

"You're right"

"Thank you"

"I have to go, it's late"

"Fine, but I'm coming for the gutters tomorrow..."

"Ohh, great idea..." she kissed him and rolled on top of him

After a while of just kissing she pulled back and said "ok I have to get out of here..."

He kissed her and rolled her so that he was on top now

"Now you're trapped"

"I noticed..."

"How about you leave in a while"

"Are you serious...?" she asked and he pulled her leg outwards "Jess..."

"Five minutes..."

"If I'm staying it better be more then five minutes, mister..."

"Thought you'd never ask"

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