Chapter 3
Love Her
This chapter is based on the song "Love Her" by Seether. If you ever want to hear it, just email me and I'll send the song to you. It's one of my favorite songs.
Robin felt so much pain inside of his body. Raven... Raven... Raven... she was the only thing on his mind. She hated the world, she hated her life. People always rejected her and tore out her heart, people would say that. Raven had had so much pain.
I met a girl who hated the world - she used her body to sell her soul
Everytime they'd break her and pay - tear out her heart, and leave her in pain
Robin walked down the dark hallway that seemed to be endless... until he reached her door. He looked at it; cracked and broken. Tears started to form in his eyes and stream down his face.
"I don't know how she survived all of that", he said softly, not taking his eyes off of her door.
"Especially with all of the sadness that you always kept inside". He slowly opened her creaking door and stepped inside. He looked at the broken things and the blood everywhere... and the knife that held Raven's blood in it. It looked like it had been dipped in her blood.
"Why did you lie to us?" he said to no one in particular.
"How did you manage to lie to us? You had that smile... your beautiful smile. You didn't look depressed. But you were. Raven, I love you.
I never found out how she survived all of the sadness she kept inside
I never found out how she could lie with a smile on her face,
and the scratches she'd hide
Robin knew he never would've been good enough for her. He would just have to pay his whole life, and pray if he wanted to live and love her. Nothing was right anymore now that she was gone.
You could love her if you paid, you could have her everyday
You could love her if you prayed, you could have her every way
Pictures flashed back into his head as he remembered that horrid night. He remembered her tears when she was down on her knees and crying. Her life had almost seemed too hopeless. He remembered how dead she looked. She had been so sad and she had always been alone when she opened her eyes.
Down on her knees, she wept on the floor - this hopeless life she wanted no more
Dead in her mind and cold to the bone - she opened her eyes and saw she was alone
Robin just looked around at her room and walked around. Why... why... why... He looked at a picture with cracked glass and some broken off glass and picked it up. It was a picture of him and Raven. The tears were coming down even harder than ever. She had never found out how much he had tried to make her happy. She had made him just too blind with her sadness. She had never known how much he had cried that night. He had felt like his life wouldn't go on after that. Robin set the picture down on a small night table, but then his eyes set on the rope that hung from the ceiling- stained with blood. That brought back the memory of the night that she died.
She never found out how much I tried - all of the sadness she kept made me blind
She never found out how much I cried - the rope so tight on the night that she died...
Robin couldn't take it anymore. He yelled and then threw the knife at the window; glass shattering and flying everywhere. He cringed and fell to his knees; holding his stomach. When he looked up, there was a mirror in front of him. There was blood all over his angry face and body. Shards of glass were sticking into him and pierced him inside, but Robin didn't care. Robin just tore the pieces out and cut himself. Blood gushed out of the cuts. He licked some of the blood off of his lips, not caring at all. It was all he could do to suffer the pain that Raven had felt. He wanted to feel it himself and he was getting but a taste of the pain.
You could love her if you paid, you could have her everyday
You could love her if you prayed, you could have her every way
Robin knew he probably wouldn't survive this, but Raven hadn't either. He retrieved the knife and looked at the knife; stroking his finger against the slick, sharp blade. His mind was saying no, but heart was saying yes. Then pictures of Raven stabbing and slicing herself with this knife flashed through his head. He felt a change of heart for that moment as questions and photos of his memory swam through his head.
"How did you survive living in a life with nothing but lies?" he asked, looking at his blood stained and shattered reflection in the knife.
"That's just a life of denial". He just wanted to know the answers to his questions.
"But how could you lie?" he asked himself again. Robin now knew the only way to find out any of these things would be to do one thing-die.
I never found out how she survived - a life lived in lies is a life of denial
I never found out how she could lie - with a smile on her face and the darkness inside
Robin's change of heart changed back to suicide. He regained his angry look and took the knife and stabbed through his stomach; wincing in pain as he did. He sliced himself, his flesh, his insides, and everything. But then he accidentally sliced a vein in half. The blood gushed and now Robin knew he was farther than the point of no return. Now he would be able to actually love Raven when it all fell down.
You could love her if you paid, you could have her everyday
You could love her if you prayed, you could have her every way
You could love her if you paid, you could have her everyday
You could love her if you prayed, you could have her every way
Robin felt the blood gushing out of his open wounds, his mouth, and his eyes. This was the end. But before he slipped out of the grasps of life, he saw Raven's evil, smiling, beautiful, seductive face.
Hey guys, I hope you liked the chapter. I know, this is a very depressing fiction isn't it? Sorry if I grossed you guys out on this one. I felt like I had to make something nasty happen. Well guys, I might be taking a break from fanfiction for a while. But to make you guys happy, I decided that I would work on my fics. I've just been pretty depressed lately so it's all coming down to something. I'll try and make the break short guys, but remember; I might not even do it at all if I'm convinced. Also remember that I will email you this song if you want to hear it. Thanks guys, and I'll miss you. I hope I'll come back soon enough. Love you guys.
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