Author's Note: I'm going against my vow not to put lyrics into the body of my story, but I guess it can't be helped. I don't own the lyrics, and they aren't lyrics in the story. They're poems that Kagome is writing. I'll include the title of the song that I used at the end of the chapter.
Disclaimer: I OWN THEM!! I OWN THE INUYASHA CHARACTERS!! I ALSO OWN THE SONG "BROKEN" BY SEETHER AND AMY LEE!! MUAH HA HA HA HA!!! lawsuit appears out of nowhere and lands on Sayori-chan's head Damn
Chapter 6
You've gone away, you don't feel me here anymore
(no time has passed, it's about 1:00 in the afternoon)
[Kagome's pov]
All of a sudden Kagome had a blinding epiphany: If I finally tell Inuyasha how I really feel about him, maybe he'll leave Kikyou and come back to me. Perhaps it's wishful thinking, but it's worth a try! She dropped her stuff and ran to the well house, dragging her necklace out of the collar of her shirt as she did so. She vaulted over the side of the well with a speed that contradicted her weakness, and was encased by a brilliant light as she emerged from the well in the Feudal Era. As a dark shadow crossed her line of vision, Kagome realized that she had been met by the one person she didn't want to see: Kikyou. Kagome hid her necklace under her shirt collar. Kikyou can't know about my jewel shard!!
"What are you doing here?" Kagome stammered.
"I had a feeling you would come back here today," Kikyou replied. "After all, you are my incarnation. We share a soul, remember?" She curled her lip in disgust. "Apparently we are connected in more ways than our shared love for Inuyasha."
Kagome didn't respond, but she really didn't have to. Kikyou kept right on talking in a saccharine voice, speaking the venomous words with a sweet tone that belied her true intentions. She brought her cold hand up to touch Kagome's cheek; her touch was like the icy fingers of death brushing across Kagome's skin. All of a sudden she pressed her fingers into the bruise on Kagome's jawbone, causing her to jerk away in pain. Kikyou simply laughed.
"I know how you are feeling right now," Kikyou said softly, pacing around a motionless Kagome. "You must miss him terribly. I know I wouldn't let him go that easily, and that must be why you're here. But you must know something: Inuyasha is happy where he is… he is happy with me as he could never have been with you."
The next words she spoke were accompanied by a triumphant smile as Kikyou shifted her hakui away from her neck.
"He marked me, you see. We are now mates in truth, and Inuyasha is happier than he has ever been. I make him happy, Kagome. He doesn't need you anymore… I don't know if he ever did."
Kagome saw the fang marks marring Kikyou's porcelain skin at the juncture where her throat met her collarbone. It's true. Inuyasha doesn't need me anymore. She turned blindly and leapt into the well again, followed by Kikyou's triumphant evil laugh. As the light from the well dissipated, Kagome sat at the bottom in shock. Inuyasha, how could you do this to me? I thought maybe it was all a mistake, that you loved me after all. But I guess not. You really do love Kikyou.
As she climbed out of the well, Kagome's weakness returned to her and she felt drained; she could barely muster the strength to walk to the Goshinboku and lie down. Even though her pain had grown a hundred fold, Kagome felt relieved after her visit to the Sengoku Jidai. I know now that I'm no longer a part of Inuyasha's life. He either doesn't know or doesn't care how much his decision hurt me. Kikyou has returned to him, and now they can regain the time stolen from them by Naraku. Now that he has Kikyou back Inuyasha doesn't need me anymore. Kagome gave a bitter laugh. Hell, he doesn't even want me anymore. He doesn't miss me like I miss him.
All of a sudden Kagome felt inspired. She trudged into the house and grabbed her black notebook off her desk, then walked slowly back outside to write. Sometimes writing made her feel better. It helped her sort out the junk in her head, and in a way it gave her a handle on reality. Writing keeps me sane, helps me fight my way through the darkness.
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay
Forever haunted, more than afraid
Asphyxiate on words I would say
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue
There are no flowers, no not this time
There'll be no angels gracing the lines
Just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak
Just how much this hurts me
I cannot stay here, I cannot leave
Just like all I loved, I make believe
Imagine hard I disappear
Seems no one will appear here and make me leave
There are no flowers, no not this time
There'll be no angels gracing the lines
Just these stark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak
Just how much this hurts me
I'd tell you how it haunts me
I'd tell you how it haunts me
I'd tell you how it haunts me
You don't care that it haunts me.
These are my words to you, Inuyasha. Words that you will never hear.
She drew her knees up to her chest and sat there for a while, a marble statue, childlike and innocent, yet at the same time wounded by life's cruel pain and hardships. Kagome leaned back against the tree and closed her eyes, only vaguely acknowledging the heat of the bright sun shining on her face. She was so lost in her own mind that she didn't hear the footsteps approaching. All of a sudden the warmth was gone from her face, so Kagome opened one eye and glanced at the figure now blocking her sunlight. Who the hell is this, and why can't everyone just leave me alone?
"Excuse me," a deep male voice interrupted her thoughts. "Is this the Higurashi shrine?"
Kagome's heart leapt in recognition. I think I know that voice! She squinted her eyes at the man standing before her, but she couldn't get a good look because the sun at his back cast shadows across his face. What she could see made her breath catch in her throat: tall, muscular build, long silver hair. Inuyasha?
"Kagome?" the voice asked.
Author's Note: Oooooh who could it be?? Only ShortPoet knows for sure!!!! And she's not telling! I guess you all will just have to wait for the next chapter. By the way, the song was "This Time Imperfect" by AFI. It just fit so perfectly that I couldn't resist putting it in. I don't own it, but I do have their cd!! (and it's awesome)
Responses: (yay!)
Arima1: Well gurl, I've missed talking to you as well. But the semester is over and I won't have as much time to spend online in the afternoons. I'll try to get on for a little while each day, and if I can't then I'll be sure to get online at night and email you or something. Glad you liked this chappie. Love ya!!!
Angelic Little Devil: I love your screen name!! Thank you so much for the compliments, they really touched me. You're very sweet and I'm glad that you liked my story. Thanks for the review!!
Crystaltears41090: Tell your friend that it's one of my favorites too. I thought that it fit very well into an Inuyasha fic, so here it is!! Hopefully when you finish reading you'll like it!! Thanks for reviewing!!
Swimchick1614: Don't worry, she won't go through life sulking, and she certainly won't kill herself. But I have to bring her to the very point of "drowning" before I throw her a metaphorical life raft. Ya know what I mean? Thanks for the review!!
Kirei-kitsune13: Here's another update for ya!! Thanks for reviewing!!
DraGonMistress704: You know, I might just have Kagome punch the crap out of Kikyou. I hadn't thought if it before, but it would totally serve her right. What did you think of this chapter?? I made Kikyou REALLY bitchy in this one… I wanted to punch her out myself!! Thank you so much for still reading and reviewing my story!!!
MichelleAnneSummers: You'll just have to wait to find out what happens next!! But since the last few chapters have been kind of slow I'm going to start having more interesting stuff happen. Thanks for the review!!
Pinayazngrl: Okay I just have to ask, what does your screen name mean? Is it short for something? I've been dying to figure it out, but I can't. Please tell me!! Kagome's rescuer came in briefly this chapter, but he'll be there more next chapter. And don't worry, Kagome will start getting her revenge soon!!!! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
ShortPoet: The ramen scene actually made me cry while I was writing it!! It's true: the littlest, dumbest things can just bring it all back like it happened yesterday. The human mind is funny like that, I think. I wish I could write poetry, cause if I could then I would write some for this story. But sadly I have no poetry talent. I've tried, and it all sounds crappy in my opinion. I think I am going to expound on your idea though… I might email you later on and tell you about it to see if you like it!! I'm actually working on sweet-talking my mom into getting me the internet for my house. She's seeing how much I'm getting into the whole writing thing, and I've almost got her convinced!! So who knows, I may be able to update more often than I originally thought. Thank you so much for reviewing, you're great!!
Jammies2000: The person she bumped into was just a person on the street. He's not going to come back into the story at all, I just put him in to express Kagome's loneliness a little bit more. It's like, even strangers aren't being kind to her anymore, so that depresses her cause she feels more alone than ever. Well, since you asked, there was a little bit of how Inuyasha has been feeling in this chapter. He's not in it, but Kikyou's right: he's totally over it and moving on. Sad, huh? But don't worry, he'll regret his decision soon enough!!!!!! Thank you for the review!!
As always, see you all next time, and until then PLEASE REVIEW!!!
p.s. Was anyone too terribly upset by the song lyrics in the story?? I was thinking about doing some more and incorporating them into the plot somehow, but if you all hate them then I won't. Please please please let me know what you thought!!!
XOXOXOXO Sayori-chan