Chapter 3:

"DON"T REMIND YOU THERESA? Come on! How am I not supposed to think about what you have done? And all the pain you have caused?" Fox heard Pilar ask Theresa.

Fox knew exactly what they were talking about. It wouldn't take a genius to figure it out. He knew that they were talking about Theresa tricking Ethan into sleeping with her and becoming pregnant with his child. If only it were my child instead...

"Honey, I'm home!" Fox yelled walking into his and Theresa's home.

"DADDY!!!!!" yelled a three year old girl, while running up to him and throwing her arms around his legs.

"Hey cutie! Did you miss me?" Fox asked his little girl while scooping her up in his arms.

"Mmm hmm" she nodded.

"Really? How much?" he asked while kissing his daughter on her forehead.

"A lot." She said giggling.

"Oh, hey sweetie. How was your day at work?" Theresa asked walking into the room with a radiant smile spread across her lips.

"It was great Resa! I nailed the Branson account." Fox said putting his daughter down.

"Really? That's such great news!" squealed Theresa, obviously proud of her husband's accomplishments.

"How was your day? Did you go see the doctor about why you've been feeling queasy lately?" He asked, worried about Theresa's health.

"My day was absolutely wonderful! And yes I did go and see Dr. Russell, and she did some tests, and I found out why I've been feeling so queasy lately." Theresa said excitedly with her radiant smile still spread across he lips.

"So, what did these tests reveal?" He asked, curious as to why his wife had been so ill lately.

"Well..." she said walking over to him, taking his right hand and gently placing it on her stomach. "I'm pregnant." she said after taking her gaze away from his hand and looking deep into his chocolate brown eyes.

"Are you serious Theresa?" He asked excitedly looking back into her eyes.

She nodded yes.

"Theresa, you've made me the happiest man in the world" He said pulling her close to him and placing a soft kiss on her lips. "I love you so much, Resa"

"I love you too." She said before being pulled into a passionate kiss.

Fox shook his thoughts out of his head. What's happening to me? I didn't just think that did I? Where's all this coming from? I thought I love Whitney. Fox stopped thinking about his little experience of déjà vu, and continued to listen to Pilar and Theresa's conversation.

"Do you think that I don't feel bad about what I've done Mama? I didn't have any other choice. Everything I did was to get my son back. You know what it's like to have to live with out your child. Antonio ran away, and you had to give up Paloma. You had to give her up so she could have a better life. I know how hard it was for you to live without her, and to not even see her grow up. Can you just imagine how I feel when I think about my son growing up so close to me, and me not even being able to be with him and see him grow up into a man? I did what I did to get my son back." Fox could tell that that Theresa was trying to hold back tears that threatened to fall sooner or later.

"Mija, I know it must have been so hard for you to loose your son. But there had to have been another way to go about getting Little Ethan back. You didn't have to sleep with Ethan. And now that plan has backfired on you. One of those children can be Ethan and Gwen's anyways. And the other one can be yours and Ethan's. And you will have to raise the child on your own." Pilar said.

Fox felt bad when he thought of the life that Theresa would have raising her children on her own. He knew how hard it had been for Pilar. Theresa was so young. She was only twenty-three years old. She didn't deserve to have to raise two children on her own.

"I know that Mama! And I don't care if I have to raise two children on my own! I will love my children no matter what. And I can't bear to be without either of them!" Theresa said.

After hearing Theresa say this, Fox couldn't help but admire her. For any woman at the age of twenty-three to have already given birth to three children, two of which were probably hers, and not want to give them up. Most women would want to pursue bigger and better things, without their children.

"I know mija, I know. But are you sure that you love this child because it's yours? Or do you love this child because it's Ethan's?"

Of course! Why didn't I realize it before? The only reason Theresa even cares about this child is because it's Ethan's. Fox began to think about how happy Theresa must be, knowing that these children are Ethan's, and that one of them could even be hers.

"Mama, how could you even ask me such a thing?! I love both of these children. I carried them inside of me for nine months! How can I not love them? But I don't have any other choice but to give Gwen her child. I have to in order to get Little Ethan back. I don't love these children because their Ethan's, Mama! I love them because of the bond that we share!"

Fox began to wonder if what Theresa was saying could really be true. Could Theresa actually love these children? Even if they weren't Ethan's? Fox knew that the bond that a woman has with a child that she carries had to be strong. I think I should really just stop jumping to all these conclusions.

"I know mija! The bond that a woman shares with the children she carries is incredible! But I just can't help but wonder if you slept with Ethan, not for your sons sake like you claim, but because you wanted to sleep with him; and because you wanted to have his child." Fox overheard Pilar say.

Would Theresa really stoop that low? Would she sleep with Ethan because she wanted his child and then say that she did it to get her son back?

"What?! You think I slept with Ethan because I wanted to? I needed to get my son back! I thought I lost Ethan and Gwen's embryo, and I knew that I had to get pregnant again. I even asked Fox to make love to me; but he refused because he didn't want me to jeopardize my pregnancy and loose the chance of getting my son back! That's why I slept with Ethan, mama! I felt like I had no other choice"

Fox couldn't believe what he was hearing. He let his mind travel back to that Theresa asked him to make love to him and he said no, because it was too soon after the implant.

"Theresa, you look great." Fox said in shock as Theresa entered the room.

"Why thank you Fox." Theresa said in a very soft voice.

Fox grabbed Theresa in his arms and gave her a passionate kiss.

"I love you Fox" Theresa said while looking into his eyes.

"I love you too Theresa" Fox said looking back into her deep brown eyes.

"I want you to show me how much you love me Fox. I want you to make love to me" Theresa said softly, yet seductively.

Fox pulled her into yet another passionate kiss. He wanted her so bad.

"Theresa we really shouldn't. Not now." Fox said.

Theresa sat on the bed and pulled him on top of her.

"Please Fox; I want you right now. I need you" Theresa moaned seductively.

It took everything in Fox to resist temptation.

"Oh god Theresa" Fox said breathlessly. "I want you too. But we can't do this right now. It's too soon. Dr. Russell said that you should wait a couple of weeks. It's too risky Theresa. I don't want you to loose any chance of getting your son back because of me." Fox said as he pulled himself off of her.

I didn't want her to loose the embryo and any chance of getting her son back because of me. But she must have already lost the embryo. How could she use me like that after everything I had done for her? I can't believe that I thought she really loved me.

There were a few moments of silence. Fox felt like giving Theresa a piece of his mind and letting her know how he felt. He was just about to when Theresa broke down into tears and began to talk again.

"I just feel so sick even thinking about it. It's not like I enjoyed any minute of making love to Ethan. I was picturing Fox the entire time. I love Fox mama, and what I did that night ruined any chance of us ever being together. I can't believe that I have finally realized how much I love him and he hates me. Although it's not like Fox ever loved me or would ever love me back. He just used me to get closer to Whitney. He's just like all the other Crane men. I don't know why I love him so much anyways."

Fox couldn't believe what he was hearing. A part of him felt happy, but another part of him felt sad and disgusted with himself.

I can't believe this. Theresa was thinking of me while making love to Ethan? Does she really love me?

Fox thought about whether or not Theresa was telling the truth. Could she really love me? I can't believe that she thinks I'm like all the other Crane men. I hate being compared to Alistar and Julian. But then again, of course she'd think I'm like all the other crane men. I mean she thinks I hate her and that I just used her to get closer to Whitney. How could she even think that I'd use her? How can she think that I hate her? I love her with all my heart!

Damn it! Why couldn't I have realized this before? I love Theresa, not Whitney! I've always loved Theresa. I just set my sights on Whitney because I thought Theresa would never feel for me what I felt for her all along. Whitney was just my way of distracting myself from Theresa, so that I wouldn't be hurt when Theresa didn't return my feelings. I never thought that she'd get over Ethan; so I made myself believe that I didn't have any feelings for her.

I now realize how much I really love her; and the best part is that she loves me back! I have to tell her how I feel. I can't wait any longer. I don't want anything to come between us. I won't let anything come between us. I have to tell her how I feel about her right now!

"Ahem- I- uh..." Fox began to say. Problem was, he didn't know what to say next.