Disclaimer note: Yet again I have failed in buying Kingdom Hearts...So therefore I am still not owner of Kairi, Sora, or Riku... which is quite a shame because I could do some very "Interesting" things to the story....
(Hey But I do kinda own Touitsu.... that's gotta count for something.)
This is an "Interesting chapter"
Riku's POV tends to be more sad and regretting, cause that's how he feels.
So Sora being the ...ah...person he is
Is utterly lost and confused, and not being well the brightest ...
Well lets just say the dialog is MUCH more different than for Riku's
(Well it turns out...I've been using the wrong spelling for Tan'itsusei's name...
It's really supposed to be spelled
Touitsu
Not Tan'itsusei
So ignore how it was spelled in the last chapter....)
Infinite Darkness, Absolute Light
Chapter 4: When You Walk Away...
Sora's POV"Hakari no naka e."
(Into the light)
"Sude ni..."
(It's already too late...)
As the sun began to fade stars began to faintly wink their shining bodies at me.
I smiled.
This was my favorite time of day.
The time when the stars had not yet graced the skies with their full presence yet.
The time when the sky was kissed with pale pinks and oranges giving up it pallet of usual blues.
Seated on the curved papou tree I stretched my legs out and gazed up at the beautiful sky.
I placed my gloved hands behind my head just drinking in the skies beauty.
Suddenly I heard a rustling noise from behind me. Quickly I turned round to just in time to see the sun catch long silver hair in a dazzling halo.
Smiling my Cheshire cat grin I hopped of the papou tree, being careful not to fall off the small isle (again); just in time to see Riku emerge from the tunnel and begin to scan the beach.
I stared at him hope swelling in my chest like a large over inflated balloon.
"Maybe today will be the day..."
Riku really hadn't changed much as of looks. He hadn't grown a lot, muscular wise yes but height wise not really. He was still taller than me of coarse but not by much.
A black sleeveless shirt cascaded across his muscular frame. He seemed thinner. Which gave me the thought that he hadn't been eating much.
Which kinda worried me...
Because the Riku I knew ate just as much as me.
Which is constantly.
Except more politely I guess...and well not quite as much.
OKAY so maybe not constantly, but ...the point is he really is way to skinny
Shocking aquamarine eyes, contrasted sharply with his ghostly pallor.
God did I love those eyes. It was really easy to get lost in them ...kinda like some weird force commanded you to look and never break the gaze.
(Kairi feels the same way...)
I didn't know anyone who wasn't blown away by them.
Some people say they look like emeralds or jewels of some queer thing like that.
And I guess they do, but
They remind me more of the sea.
Just as deep and just as captivating.
(And sometimes just as fierce...)
His angelic silver hair was longer now, nearly reaching his waist, and shining in the sun's fading light.
Slowly Riku's eyes set upon me. I could feel my grin grow and that balloon full of hope expand to enormous proportions. Franticly I waved to Riku.
"Please don't look away...Please don't look away...Please don't look away..."
His eyes grew wide, and than sad as turned away from me.
"He looked away..."
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The over inflated hope balloon exploded.
Smashed by an evil little rock of doubt, which had now settled in my gut.
Damn how I despised that little rock.
It made me think of things I didn't want to hear.
Does he hate me?
Go away little voice! Go away little balloon popping hope smashing rock
GO AAWAY!
I lowered my arm, letting it hang limply at my side. My grin all but gone.
Maybe he does hate me
"KU!"
A giggling sweet voice echoed and hung in the air.
I could barely even have time to register the yell and whom it was coming from before a number of things happened.
Touitsu launched from the tunnel and attached herself to a shocked Riku's back.
The tiny girl somehow summoned up enough force to not only knock Riku over, but to send him flying from where he was standing to the shore below.
Riku sat up looking slightly dizzy and confused. Touitsu was giggling uncontrollably as she wrapped her arms round Riku's neck and affectionately buried herself into his silken hair.
The confusion faded and was replaced by a gentile smile.
Just a small smile.
Tired and wary.
Not at all like the overconfident and cocky grin he had once bore.
But a smile nonetheless.
I watched as Touitsu spoke to Riku.
As Riku answered and gave a small chuckle.
I felt that very same balloon crushing rock grow even larger and sink deeper into my gut, damn little rock!!!
I thought I told you to go away!!
Reminding me of all the things I try to block out...
"Ahhhhhh here comes the voice again."
I moaned, clutching my head. Now having gone completely insane.
Not only did Riku talk for Touitsu,
But he laughed for her,
He smiled for her.
He looked at her...
That was what hurt.
All I wanted was for Riku to look at me.
The way he used to too.
Without fear, sorrow, or hesitation.
I didn't matter to me that Riku didn't talk to me or smile at me.
I just wanted him to look at me....
I miss that cocky grin and way he'd always roll his eyes at me when I'd ask him to fight me sigh as he'd nod in agreement and than tussle my hair before grabbing his wooden sword...
Even though I still can't figure out why'd he rolled his eyes like that...
I don't care...
If you never smile or laugh with me again ...
I don't even care if you never talk to me again.
Well actually...
I think I'd go crazy if he'd never talk to me again.
He tried that once when we were seven, it only lasted a few minutes but it drove insane!
But at least then I knew that he was only mad at me because I accidentally threw up in his new hat and forgot to tell him about it...it didn't end well for either of us.
But now I have no freaking idea!
All I want is...
Is...
I don't know what I want.
I'm so confused...
"WHY IS LIFE ALWAYS SO CONFUSING!!!!"
I yelled pulling at my hair forgetting that Riku and Touitsu can must likely hear and see me.
Trying to regain my composer I turned my attention to Riku and Touitsu, who were both back on their feet.
Touitsu was griping Riku's arm tightly as she said something to him.
Riku was brushing the last of the sand from his hair and blushed at whatever it was Touitsu had said.
Slowly he looked up at me, his eyes meting mine.
Aqua into blue.
A sad gaze staring into a shocked one.
Slowly his mouth formed my name.
"Sora..."
Touitsu looked up in my general direction. Her sightless eyes lit up and she waved franticly at me.
God it was freaky how she could see things without really seeing them.
"SOAR!!!"
She yelled giggling jumping up and down still clutching tightly to Riku's arm.
I waved back still feeling the shock from Riku actually making contact with me.
Touitsu giggled again nudging Riku, Riku stole another glance at me and raised a hand in greeting.
I felt the pit of my stomach explode, and that little demon rock dissolve in a whirlwind of confusion and a crap load of other emotions that I can't quite place at this moment.
For the fact of I think my brain just died, from shock.
The gaze broke.
Touitsu waved one last wave and headed down the shore with Riku.
I stood rooted in my place not really sure of what had just happened.
Staring out at the spot that Riku and Touitsu had just occupied.
My brain had just drawn a complete blank...
"What ya doing?"
I turned round to see a glance of lilac before I stumbled and
Fell over the side of the small island.
Water rushed into my nostrils and gulping mouth; my hand reached for the faraway surface as I swore out soundlessly.
'God damnit.'
I swore inwardly as I punched the water.
I swear Kairi is determined to drown me.
I emerged a few seconds later gasping for breath.
"God Kairi! Why do you do that?!"
I yelled up at the auburn haired girl on the island who was currently laughing her ass off.
"I don't mean to, you're just a klutz."
She yelled back.
I gave her my best Sora death glare, which wasn't very effective no matter how hard I try. So I pouted instead...
I Wish I had a death glare like Riku's than people wouldn't mess with me.
"So what where you thinking about?"
Kairi asked sitting down beside me as we stared at the sky together.
"Nothing..."
I said shrugging.
Kairi turned to look at me.
"You were thinking about Riku weren't you?"
'God Do all the girls on this island have some kind of weird physic power?'
Dimly I nodded.
"Hee-hee you're so predicable,"
She said giggling and than turned her attention to the star filled sky.
"So what world is that one Sora?"
She asked pointing out to the brightest star, which flickered in the sky.
"Traverse Town,"
I whispered, staring up at the star.
"Oh! I remember that place. Isn't that where I gave you oath keeper?"
She asked excitedly, picking at the star shaped keychain, which hung from her lavender belt.
"Yep that'd be the place..."
I said looking at the Auburn haired girl.
She smiled and set her head on my shoulder hugging my arm.
I blushed deeply as her auburn hair feel over my shoulder.
"I liked that placed, it was so lovely... you could always see the stars,"
She turned her head slightly to look at me.
"Do you miss it there?"
I stared down at the ground watching my shoe as I formed a small pattern in the sand.
"....Yea...A lot..."
"Sora...if...if the door could be opened again would you...would you leave?
Would you get off this island? Even if you couldn't come back?"
She turned her head down; I could tell she was blushing.
You know I've never thought of that before...
I've wanted to get off the island, every sense I got back
I've wanted to leave...I never noticed how confining this island is.
When I was younger I couldn't get enough of this place but now...I realize that it's just a little piece of something much, much greater.
The worlds I've explored the people I've met.
The friends I've made.
I remember Traverse Town and the never-ending starlight.
The damp chill and amazing view of Hallow bastion.
Fighting pirates in Neverland.
I've seen walking cards as tall as a man in Wonderland.
Became a true hero at the coliseum.
I've summoned a laughing genie a vengeful little pixie and a sweet little deer.
I've swum in oceans that I can breathe like air as I followed a red haired mermaid.
I remember them all...
Memories and sights so wonderful that it seems impossible to even think I was somewhat happy before...
They're all so far away now. So very far.
Before I knew it I was crying.
Silent sobbing as my whole body shook from the memories I loved so much.
"I miss it...I miss it so much it hurts..."
I touched my chest and griped the fabric to my vest tightly.
"It hurts so very much, knowing I will never be able to go back..."
Suddenly rain stared to fall from the star kissed sky, damping my spiky hair and plastering it to my back.
"You'll be able to go back Sora,"
Kairi whispered reaching out through the rain to catch my hand in a tight grasp.
"But there are still things that you have to do here, and when you finish them we can all go together, you, me, Touitsu and...Riku."
I looked up at her.
Auburn hair sticking to her creamy white skin, Purple eyes smiling at me.
"Kairi..."
I whispered hugging her; She meant so much to me.
Like a little sister a Big sister and a friend combined in one.
She knew everything about me...kind of like Touitsu and Riku.
She knew exactly how I felt and what I wanted.
"Thank you..."
Kairi smiled and hugged me back.
As we embraced I felt my smile return and the rain disappear from sky above.