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/…../ = Yuki's thoughts
[….]. = Inner Yuki' s thoughts (true feelings)
….. = Kyou's thoughts
i'm sorry if all these different signs and thoughts are confusing!
Chapter Seven
God! Where is he? He's been gone for hours already, you don't think anything happened to him, right? Stop it! Don't think bad thoughts… maybe I was too harsh on him, I mean… all he did was read my diary. Wait… what am I thinking? I have to stop being so nice because nothing good ever comes from it. It's not my fault that he decided to go behind my back so I shouldn't feel sorry for him at all.
With that in mind, Kyou went on to the roof to spend another night thinking and to stare at all the bright stars in the sky. But… since he was so used to having Yuki up here with him, now that Yuki wasn't with him, for some reason, it just felt like something's missing.
Suddenly Kyou was scared out of his mind when Shigure said in a loud voice from the house:
"KYOU!!!! GET DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW!!!!"
Noticing Shigure's serious voice, Kyou quickly jumped out the roof and rush inside the house.
In his mind, he keeps on repeating to himself:
This has nothing to do with Yuki, nothing to do with Yuki, nothing to do with him, nothing…
But no matter what Kyou keeps on telling himself, he can't stop feeling worried and scared for Yuki. Also he just had a feeling that something really bad must have happened to Yuki.
Don't scared yourself. It's probably no big deal, now just calm down and relax. It's probably something you did wrong… that's all.
But then Kyou heard Tohru crying from outside, and then he knew that one of his worst nightmares were about to begin.
"Shigure, what were you calling me for?" Kyou said trying to stay calm about the situation but really can't since he can see how pale Shigure's face has got.
"…Kyou…"
"Yeah… what?"
"… Umm… don't know how to tell you this though…"
"God!!! Just tell me, ok? Stop making me wait."
"Ok then… the thing is that Yuki… for some reason… was running in the streets and was probably not looking around for cars or traffic. Then he was suddenly hit by a car that was driven by a drunk driver."
... no!... no! it's not true, they're probably just tricking me, yeah! that must be it, since it can't be true! Not Yuki... not him, he means everything to me, i can't lose him, i just can't! they're just kidding... yeah... that's right? it's just a joke...
Even as Kyou try to deny everything in his mind, he knew he had to face the truth as he tried to hold back all the cries and scream pent up inside him at the moment. Not wanting to show weakness in front of the others.
WHY?! why did it have to be Yuki? This is all my fault, this would have ever happened if I didn't get so mad at him. What's wrong with me?! Why did I have to be so cruel to him just because of a little diary. oh god... please Yuki… be ok; I still have a lot of things I want to tell you
Kyou felt like his world had just shattered for what he has done. Since he was to blame for hurting the closest person to him.
"… Kyou?… are you ok?... hey! Kyou?!..."
" ... huh... what?" Kyou answered in a dazed voice.
"Don't blame yourself for what happened to Yuki, ok? It was an accident, this is not your fault, you understand?"
"...yeah... sure... whatever..." As Kyou was too deep in his thoughts to pay attention to Shirgure's words.
Shigure gave Kyou a worried look, knowing what an impact yuki's accident would have on him.
Shigure, if you knew that I was the one that make Yuki leave the house in the first place, you would also blame me for this because it is my fault. You're the one that doesn't understand. God! Yuki… I'm sorry, I'm so sorry… I really hope that you can forgive me for this. Wait a second… he is just hurt right? He can't be…? NO!! don't think about that. he's probably just hurt, he is going to get better, i just know he is...
But knowing that there is a chance of death, Kyou couldn't stop all the pain, hurt, and guilt that he felt. He really doesn't know what he'll do if he lost Yuki forever.
Kyou asked in a quiet, scared and hopeful voice:
"Yuki's not… you know ,right?
There was a long silence… then Shigure said…
End of Chapter Seven
/…../ = Yuki's thoughts
[….]. = Inner Yuki' s thoughts (true feelings)
….. = Kyou's thoughts
i'm sorry if all these different signs and thoughts are confusing!
Chapter Seven
God! Where is he? He's been gone for hours already, you don't think anything happened to him, right? Stop it! Don't think bad thoughts… maybe I was too harsh on him, I mean… all he did was read my diary. Wait… what am I thinking? I have to stop being so nice because nothing good ever comes from it. It's not my fault that he decided to go behind my back so I shouldn't feel sorry for him at all.
With that in mind, Kyou went on to the roof to spend another night thinking and to stare at all the bright stars in the sky. But… since he was so used to having Yuki up here with him, now that Yuki wasn't with him, for some reason, it just felt like something's missing.
Suddenly Kyou was scared out of his mind when Shigure said in a loud voice from the house:
"KYOU!!!! GET DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW!!!!"
Noticing Shigure's serious voice, Kyou quickly jumped out the roof and rush inside the house.
In his mind, he keeps on repeating to himself:
This has nothing to do with Yuki, nothing to do with Yuki, nothing to do with him, nothing…
But no matter what Kyou keeps on telling himself, he can't stop feeling worried and scared for Yuki. Also he just had a feeling that something really bad must have happened to Yuki.
Don't scared yourself. It's probably no big deal, now just calm down and relax. It's probably something you did wrong… that's all.
But then Kyou heard Tohru crying from outside, and then he knew that one of his worst nightmares were about to begin.
"Shigure, what were you calling me for?" Kyou said trying to stay calm about the situation but really can't since he can see how pale Shigure's face has got.
"…Kyou…"
"Yeah… what?"
"… Umm… don't know how to tell you this though…"
"God!!! Just tell me, ok? Stop making me wait."
"Ok then… the thing is that Yuki… for some reason… was running in the streets and was probably not looking around for cars or traffic. Then he was suddenly hit by a car that was driven by a drunk driver."
... no!... no! it's not true, they're probably just tricking me, yeah! that must be it, since it can't be true! Not Yuki... not him, he means everything to me, i can't lose him, i just can't! they're just kidding... yeah... that's right? it's just a joke...
Even as Kyou try to deny everything in his mind, he knew he had to face the truth as he tried to hold back all the cries and scream pent up inside him at the moment. Not wanting to show weakness in front of the others.
WHY?! why did it have to be Yuki? This is all my fault, this would have ever happened if I didn't get so mad at him. What's wrong with me?! Why did I have to be so cruel to him just because of a little diary. oh god... please Yuki… be ok; I still have a lot of things I want to tell you
Kyou felt like his world had just shattered for what he has done. Since he was to blame for hurting the closest person to him.
"… Kyou?… are you ok?... hey! Kyou?!..."
" ... huh... what?" Kyou answered in a dazed voice.
"Don't blame yourself for what happened to Yuki, ok? It was an accident, this is not your fault, you understand?"
"...yeah... sure... whatever..." As Kyou was too deep in his thoughts to pay attention to Shirgure's words.
Shigure gave Kyou a worried look, knowing what an impact yuki's accident would have on him.
Shigure, if you knew that I was the one that make Yuki leave the house in the first place, you would also blame me for this because it is my fault. You're the one that doesn't understand. God! Yuki… I'm sorry, I'm so sorry… I really hope that you can forgive me for this. Wait a second… he is just hurt right? He can't be…? NO!! don't think about that. he's probably just hurt, he is going to get better, i just know he is...
But knowing that there is a chance of death, Kyou couldn't stop all the pain, hurt, and guilt that he felt. He really doesn't know what he'll do if he lost Yuki forever.
Kyou asked in a quiet, scared and hopeful voice:
"Yuki's not… you know ,right?
There was a long silence… then Shigure said…
End of Chapter Seven