A/N: hey everyone, thanks so much for the reviews, I'm glad that everyone hasn't completely forgotten that I exist. Just a side note, like ive said before this all may sound like an episode of Dawson's Creek, and I just had to steal the ideas, it was all too good.
"So Paige, we've been making a lot of progress these past few weeks on the subject of Dean, but I'd really like to start talking about your family." Ms. Hannah Gracey said from behind a notebook and thick glasses.
Paige shifted in her chair; her eyes quickly darted around the room. It was a small office, light green walls, paintings of meadows, but there were no people in the pictures. Probably because the people in here can't deal with death, and a painting of happy people might make things worse. "Ok, what about them?" she replied in a famous Paige way, act like nothing is wrong and dance around what they really want to know.
"Tell me about your mother" Hannah said
"Well, mom is great. She was really supportive through everything with Dean." Paige replied, her defenses still up
"Now, were you two always close?"
"No" Paige replied meekly, "Can we talk about something else?"
"Fine" Hannah sighed, "Your brother Dylan, how is your relationship with him?"
"Me and Dylan have been really close since we were really little. We always had each other when Mom and…"when she realized she was actually opening up, she stopped talking and slumped down in her chair.
Hannah took off her glasses and leaned over closer to Paige, "alright, Paige I need you to understand that if you don't start telling me what's on your mind we won't be able to work through everything. I know you don't like being here, but I promise you'll be here a lot more if we don't solve this and you have another breakdown. You know I wouldn't pressure you so much if you weren't ready to talk, but I know you are. I can see it." Paige turned her eyes to the opposite wall, "you don't have to put up a front with me Paige, I won't tell anyone what you say in here, you know that."
Paige sighed heavily; unfortunately Hannah was right, "ok, what do you want to know now?"
"Your father," Hannah began
"I don't have one" Paige snapped back
"Paige, everyone in the world has a father, now whether he's a good father or not…"
"Then he's not a good father"
"Why is that Paige? What makes him a bad father? Did he hit you, or your mother? Did he drink?"
Paige was so desperate to stop the questions she didn't bother to dance around the subject anymore, " It's his fault that my brother is dead ok?!"
Ms. Gracey sat back in her seat, thrilled to pieces that she had finally broken Paige, "what happened to your brother Paige?" she asked calmly
"He got hit by a car," Tears were welling up in Paige's eyes, she didn't know how long it had been since she'd had to tell this story. She'd lied to Hazel a few weeks before when she asked about him. "When I was nine, my dad bought all of us bikes for Christmas. He hadn't been around much that year, so I guess he was just making it up to us or something. Mom made Nicky take a nap, and while he was sleeping me and Dylan took our new bikes out. When we got back Nick was awake and he wanted to ride his bike too." Paige took a second to wipe her eyes and compose herself, "No one would take him, me and Dylan had run off to our rooms to play with our new toys, mom was making dinner, dad wasn't doing much, just watching some game on TV. No one was paying attention when he just took the bike out of the garage and left. About 30 minutes later we got a phone call from the police saying he had been hit by a car a few blocks away."
Hannah sat quietly for a minute while Paige sniffled in her chair, "how old was he?" she asked
"Six!" Paige shouted, her voice was shaky and angry, "he was only six years old! And we weren't watching him! I didn't have to play with my toys that very second, dad could've taken him during a commercial! Mom- mom she…" Paige couldn't finish she just cried
"Your whole family blames themselves for Nick's death don't they?"
Paige just nodded and reached for a tissue off the desk.
Ms. Gracey took one look at Paige and decided that it had been enough for one day, "ok Paige, you can go home now, I think we've covered enough for today."
"No" Paige said quickly, but quietly, "I'm open now, I don't know if I will be next week…I want to finish this now."
Hannah got comfortable, "alright Paige, go ahead…let everything out."
"Mom's always been so mad that dad left after Nicky died, but she left too. she just left me and Dylan with the Kerwin's, we would've gone with her, we wanted to go with her! And then she comes home with a new dad for us. I didn't want a new dad!" Paige sobbed, "I didn't need a new dad! I just wanted my dad to come home!"
"Spin, are you busy?" Paige said into the receiver of her cell phone
"Uh, no" her boyfriend responded nonchalantly
"Good you're coming over," she commanded, and she hung up before he even had a chance to protest.
About 15 minutes later Spinner was at Paige's doorstep, still in his work uniform. Paige flung open the door and yanked him inside sooner than he could even knock. She slammed him up against the door and kissed him, hard.
Spinner pulled away, "now honeybee, you know I appreciate this but uh…what's the occasion?"
"Bad day at counseling," she kissed him again, "don't wanna talk about it"
Spinner knew Paige was known to make crappy decisions when she was upset, and he wasn't going to let her do something she'd be mad at him tomorrow for. "Ok, how about you calm down a little bit, we can watch a movie or something, anyone you want."
She sighed, "fine"
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About halfway into the movie, Paige and Spin were cuddled up on her bed, eyes intently focused on the TV screen. Spinner reached to his left for the popcorn bowl, only to discover it empty. "Looks like we're outta popcorn" he said
Paige perked up, "oh Hon I'll get you some more." She jumped off the bed and headed downstairs. Dimitri and her mom had gone out to a hockey game a few towns away and decided to say the night. Dylan had gone to some party, and the house looked kind of deserted.
She walked into the kitchen and grabbed another package of microwave popcorn out of the pantry. She threw it in the microwave and pushed a couple of buttons. She turned around to find a sweet blond kid reaching for a glass on a high shelf. She smiled and walked to the other side of the kitchen, she grabbed the glass and put it on the counter, "there you go Nicky"
He took the glass and grinned at her, "thank you Paigey."
She went back to the popcorn, and he continued to talk.
"I'm glad you didn't tell that lady about me today. I don't like her very much."
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Upstairs Spinner had remembered that he wanted a soda, he stared to call Paige, but decided against making her wait on him and thought he'd get one himself.
He started down the stairs and he heard Paige talking to someone, but he couldn't hear what she was saying. He didn't hear the phone ring, so she must have called someone.
He got closer and he heard her say, "You know I would never tell anyone about you. They wouldn't let me see you anymore, and you know I couldn't do that."
Was she talking to some other guy? Spinner suddenly felt a surge of rage flow through his body at the thought of Paige with someone else. He stormed into the kitchen, "Paige, who the hell are you talking to?"
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ok so It didn't all explode yet…next time though I promise
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