Over Again, I Search
"Niwa-kun...Niwa-kun!"
Daisuke snapped to attention. "Hai?"
Riku was standing above him with her hands on her hips. "Where is your head today?! I called you for like...5 minutes before you responded. Is there something wrong with you?"
"Nan-nan demo nai. Daijoubu." 'Nothing. I'm fine.'
In all truths, Daisuke was not fine. He couldn't get the image of Satoshi out of his head. The image of Satoshi when he had pushed him away and practically demanded that he meet Riku. Did he still hate him? And the way he looked when he was watching the children, that beautiful and soft look in his eyes...Daisuke sighed, /If only.../
"She is so annoying Niwa-kun! She keeps talking to me about Dark even though she KNOWS he's gone..."
Daisuke looked at Riku and sighed, /Too bad, you're getting annoying./ Daisuke gasped and clamped his hand over his mouth, had he just thought that? He groaned and laid his head on the table. He was going crazy.
/Okay, so I only have sisterly feelings for Riku and I have...slightly less platonic feelings for Hiwatari-kun. Uh oh./
"And then she said-"
"Harada-san?"
This stopped Riku in her tracks, Daisuke hadn't called her Harada-san for awhile. Something was wrong.
"What's wrong Niwa-kun?"
"I think we should break up."
"WHAT?!"
Daisuke sweat dropped as a few heads turned their way. "Keep your voice down please."
"How can I keep my voice down when you want to break up with me? I bet it's that Risa isn't it? You fell back in love with her didn't you? You only went out with me because I'm like her, am I right?"
"No."
"Then who is it?"
"Who is who?"
"The person you're in love with!"
"Who said there was another person?"
"Niwa-kun, it's not that hard to see. First you forget to meet me, then you tell me you want to break up with me. There has to be someone else! I bet you it's Risa because you're still in love with her. Why did you go out with me? Because I'm like her?"
"No. The person I'm in love with is gentler than you. They respect me and have always been there for me. They also don't yell at me and they trust me." /That's not a complete lie...Even though Hiwatari-kun isn't exactly talking to me./
"F-fine! But don't crawl back to me when Risa rejects you! She likes Hiwatari, not you!" Satisfied that she had gotten her final insult in, Riku walked out of the cafeteria in a huff.
Daisuke just sighed. /Well, when you hit rock bottom, there's nowhere to go but up...Or maybe I'll hit the top now that I'm not chained to the rock bottom.../ He picked up his things and headed back to the roof. He still had about half an hour left of lunch.
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"Konnichiwa Hiwatari-kun."
Satoshi looked up, startled. He was even more startled by the fact that it was Daisuke. /Wasn't he supposed to be with.../
"Daijoubu desu ka." Satoshi figured that if something had happened, Niwa would tell him.
"Hai, daijoubu."
"Good." Satoshi leaned back against the wall and closed his eyes, pretending to doze off.
"I just broke up with her."
"Oh?" Satoshi sat up and looked at Daisuke.
"Yeah. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't pretend that everything was alright with her. I guess I just stopped liking her. I have more important people in my life than her...and she didn't want that. And even though I was with her, I still felt lonely."
"Hn. I'm glad that you got rid of her. Those two twins are pains."
"Oi, they're still my friends, I guess. But they just aren't...not like that."
"Would you be offended if I said that I'm glad?"
"No."
"Well then I'm glad." Satoshi closed his eyes and leaned back against the wall again.
They were silent while Daisuke worked up the courage to say something.
"Anoo...There's an art display at the museum and I was wondering..."
Satoshi looked at Daisuke from one eye. He looked adorable, blushing and looking at his hands. "Yes?"
"Anoo...Since...you know...I was wondering if you'd like to go with me?"
"Sure." Satoshi leaned back against the wall with his eyes closed. Daisuke silently cheered, but he couldn't stop the grin on his face. And he could've sworn that he saw a smile on Satoshi's face too.
All of a sudden, Satoshi stood up and offered a hand down to Daisuke. "Come on, we have the next class together."
Daisuke just smiled back and took the proffered hand. He then pulled Satoshi into a quick hug. "Thank you."
"Anytime. Now let's go Niwa-kun." Satoshi turned to pick up his stuff.
Daisuke could only whisper, "I'm glad you're back."
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"Look at this painting! It's so nice!"
"Yeah, it is."
Satoshi and Daisuke were now in the museum, looking at the pieces of art. Daisuke needed support here and Satoshi knew it. All these paintings would only serve to remind Daisuke that he was practically missing half of himself. Satoshi would be there for him.
When Satoshi saw Daisuke's eyes start to tear up, he suggested that they go outside for lunch. They could eat a little early. Daisuke nodded and they headed outside.
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Daisuke and Satoshi had sought their solace underneath of a tree. They were sitting on a bench eating lunch.
"Thank you for buying me lunch Hiwatari-kun. I'll pay you back."
"Satoshi."
"Nani?"
"Call me Satoshi."
"Then you have to call me Daisuke."
"Daisuke-kun? Sounds...weird."
"So does Satoshi-kun."
"I guess it would be hard to change habits that have been set in for so long."
"That reminds me...Anoo...Hiwatari-kun?"
"Hn?"
"I'm glad you're back."
"I haven't been anywhere."
"But you're not cold anymore. You're actually talking to me again. And I'm happy."
"I doubt you noticed that I hadn't been talking to you."
"I did! You make me feel...I don't know, safe...and warm...and happy." /Oh no. I've said too much./
Satoshi stared blankly at Daisuke for awhile, registering what he said. Daisuke's heart was threatening to march out of his chest by that time. When Satoshi finally registered what Daisuke had said, he couldn't stop the smile that spread across his face.
"You also make me happy."
They both turned to each other and let their feelings for each other travel to the other. Wordlessly, they both stood up and grasped each other like a life line. Daisuke pulled back slightly and smiled up at Satoshi. Satoshi, in turn, smiled back at him. They both knew. There was no way that they couldn't have known.
"I love you Hiwatari-kun."
"I love you too...Dai-chan." Satoshi had a wicked gleam in his eyes. Daiuke decided that he liked this new Satoshi.
"I guess Dai-chan sounds better than Daisuke-kun. But I get to call you Sato-chan then."
Satoshi grimaced. "How about Satoshi and Daisuke?"
"Works for me." Daisuke said, grinning up at Satoshi.
Satoshi gasped as tears started to form and run down Daisuke's cheeks. Daisuke chuckled softly at Satoshi's worried look.
"I'm fine. It's just that I'm happy...Hey, the last time we were crying together was when I realized how much you meant to me...It's kind of ironic."
"Then this time, don't stop me."
"Don't stop you from doing what?"
"I wanted to do this last time..."
Satoshi leaned down and gently kissed Daisuke. As he pulled back, he smiled down at him. Placing his forehead against Daisuke's, he looked right into Daisuke's eyes and whispered, "I finally caught you."
"No, I caught you." Daisuke wrapped his arms tighter around Satoshi's waist.
"Doesn't matter, you're still mine." Satoshi said, doing the same to Daisuke.
"Come on, let's go back to the exhibit."
Satoshi smiled as Daisuke held his hand as they walked back into the museum. /He's finally okay...he can finally let go of Dark...right?/
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"Niwa-kun?!"
"Hiwatari-kun?!"
Daisuke and Satoshi whirled around, only to be confronted with the image of two very distraught Harada twins. The twins didn't notice the irritated faces of Satoshi and Daisuke, the only thing they could focus on was the joined hands between the two beautiful boys.
Riku finally tore her gaze away from their hands and glared at Daisuke, "Uso...uso da yo!" 'Lie...it's a lie!'
Risa looked pleadingly up at Satoshi, tears in her eyes, "Hiwatari-kun?" she whined.
"No, Harada-san, this is very real." Daisuke grinned. He finally said it. He finally was happy. He was free.
Satoshi took Daisuke's smile as a cue and leaned down gave him a small peck on the lips.
Risa just ran off crying because her social step ladder had tossed her off. Riku stayed behind a couple of seconds, staring at Daisuke.
"This...this is what you want, Niwa-kun?"
"Hai."
"Then...sayoonara."
Riku ran after her distraught twin. Daisuke just smiled, she would forgive him. "Jaa ne, Harada-san."
Daisuke then tightened his grip on Satoshi and guided him to the next painting.
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The two boys were sitting on Satoshi's porch, stargazing. They were worn out from the museum and the events of the day, so they decided to spend a quiet night together, star gazing.
They had broken the news to Emiko and Kosuke. Surprisingly, they had gotten the blessing they wanted. They had even agreed to let Daisuke stay the night with Satoshi, as long as they behaved themselves. Life was good, and the two boys deserved it.
However, there was still something bugging Satoshi. Was Daisuke really okay? He had lost Dark, Riku, and Risa in one day. Riku and Risa probably weren't a big thing, but Dark might have been. Satoshi could only imagine what it could be like to lose the companion that was always by your side. He didn't even want to imagine losing Daisuke.
Struck by his sudden morbid thoughts, Satoshi needed to be close to Daisuke. He got up, ignored Daisuke's inquirious look, and sat behind Daisuke. He wrapped his arms around him and pulled him back against his chest. Daisuke didn't ask any questions, he just enjoyed the feeling. He was finally safe.
They stayed like that for awhile, Satoshi was just gathering his thoughts for a bit. Finally, he said, "Daisuke?"
"Hmm?" Daisuke answered sleepily.
"Do you...do you miss them?"
"No."
"No?"
Daisuke chuckled at the surprise in Satoshi's voice. He looked up to the sky, "No, I don't." He repeated, "Because you're here now. I no longer have a hole in my heart."
Satoshi was shocked. He didn't deserve this. But Daisuke was here, with him. And he wouldn't give that up. He just tightened his hold on Daisuke and whispered, "Through all the ordeals I went through, you were my precious thing...always."
Daisuke turned around slightly, "I know."
Daisuke leaned up and kissed Satoshi, and then they were free.
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Dark and Krad were in Dark's home, watching the two boys.
"Krad, do you miss them?"
Krad just smirked, "No, because you're here now."
Krad leaned closer to Dark and leaned in slowly, embracing Dark in his arms and covering them both with his white wings...hiding them from the world. Dark had never felt so safe.
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A/N: Man, I could NOT find a way to word the ending. I had to imply that they had kissed, but I also wanted it to have a mysterious kinda cliff hanger kinda thing. But I guess it's okay now.
I was really making Riku out to be worse than I thought she was, so I went back and changed some of the things that she did. I'm a little happier with it now.
Is it corny? I bet it's corny. Oh well, I love corny sap.
Please read and review, as always.