Niles awoke two hours later. It was very dark, probably about three
am. Then he noticed the sleeping angel by his side. He softly stroked her
blonde hair, as she snuggled up to him in her sleep. She loves me he
thought. Why? He had done so many things to her. "Oh C.C." he whispered
softly, careful not to wake her, "why do you forgive so easily? I sent you
to that horrible place......I hurt your feelings so bad with that telegram......and
all those insults........................." Then he softly began to sing a song:
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found out a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
C.C. shifted in her sleep and moved closer to him. He held her tightly, suddenly very protective of her. God, why did he hit her? Because I was mad he thought. "I'll never hit you again" he said gently, "I love you." Then he fell asleep.
The sun shone through the large windows. C.C.'s eyes fluttered open. She softly shook Niles awake. He awoke and smiled at her. He kissed her forehead. "I have to go" he said, "I'll tell Maxwell you had to take the day off." C.C. nodded her head softly. He walked out. She went to the kitchen counter and poured herself a scotch on the rocks. She was so happy she was with Niles, but there was another secret. When C.C. had taken the morning after pill after her father raped her when she was fourteen, 99 percent effective didn't work. She was pregnant. She kept it well concealed. She had the baby in a cabin when she knew it was her due date. A couple of friends helped her have it. She named it Jessica. She was surprised it wasn't mentally retarded her father being the father and all.
God, she thought I had a baby and my father was the father. I'm so screwed up. I really am. She remembered giving that gentle, sweet angel away to that orphanage. Her heart beat harder.
She cried some more. She couldn't stand it. She gripped her scotch glass so hard her knuckles turned white. Ripping out a piece of paper from her printer, she made up a poem, it was to her father.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every room mate kept awake
By every silent scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
For everything you do
I'd like to swallow you
And everyday I'm gonna blame you
And even if you justify
Every fucking bogus lie
It only makes me want to break you
You pulled me down
And you crucified my name
You make me insane
It's broken now don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playing
Cause I fucking hate you your such a liar
And I'd love to hit you
You're all the same to me
When you repeatedly take advantage of me
The only thought I get of you sickens me
Everybody knows your fake
Your everything I fucking hate
And I'm everything that you could never be
She folded it up and put it in an envelope. She sealed it, along with a notification that she was suing him for sexual assault. She put his address in Miami down. She got in her car and drove over to the post office. She dropped off the letter. She decided to go to work, and surprise the Sheffields. She knocked on the door and a very surprised Niles answered. He gave her a little hug and took her coat. She wasn't herself that day. She remembered all the kids names. (Well she knew them all by heart, but she couldn't bare to be around kids after what happened, but today she was particularly upset) She walked upstairs and smiled at Maxwell. Her heart beat. She was ready to put her father away where he really belonged.
Note: Thank you Iceangel7554!!! There were three songs in this story: The reason by Hoobastank, I hate everything about you by 3 days grace, and I f'ing hate you by Godsmack Review review review!!!
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found out a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
C.C. shifted in her sleep and moved closer to him. He held her tightly, suddenly very protective of her. God, why did he hit her? Because I was mad he thought. "I'll never hit you again" he said gently, "I love you." Then he fell asleep.
The sun shone through the large windows. C.C.'s eyes fluttered open. She softly shook Niles awake. He awoke and smiled at her. He kissed her forehead. "I have to go" he said, "I'll tell Maxwell you had to take the day off." C.C. nodded her head softly. He walked out. She went to the kitchen counter and poured herself a scotch on the rocks. She was so happy she was with Niles, but there was another secret. When C.C. had taken the morning after pill after her father raped her when she was fourteen, 99 percent effective didn't work. She was pregnant. She kept it well concealed. She had the baby in a cabin when she knew it was her due date. A couple of friends helped her have it. She named it Jessica. She was surprised it wasn't mentally retarded her father being the father and all.
God, she thought I had a baby and my father was the father. I'm so screwed up. I really am. She remembered giving that gentle, sweet angel away to that orphanage. Her heart beat harder.
She cried some more. She couldn't stand it. She gripped her scotch glass so hard her knuckles turned white. Ripping out a piece of paper from her printer, she made up a poem, it was to her father.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every room mate kept awake
By every silent scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
For everything you do
I'd like to swallow you
And everyday I'm gonna blame you
And even if you justify
Every fucking bogus lie
It only makes me want to break you
You pulled me down
And you crucified my name
You make me insane
It's broken now don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playing
Cause I fucking hate you your such a liar
And I'd love to hit you
You're all the same to me
When you repeatedly take advantage of me
The only thought I get of you sickens me
Everybody knows your fake
Your everything I fucking hate
And I'm everything that you could never be
She folded it up and put it in an envelope. She sealed it, along with a notification that she was suing him for sexual assault. She put his address in Miami down. She got in her car and drove over to the post office. She dropped off the letter. She decided to go to work, and surprise the Sheffields. She knocked on the door and a very surprised Niles answered. He gave her a little hug and took her coat. She wasn't herself that day. She remembered all the kids names. (Well she knew them all by heart, but she couldn't bare to be around kids after what happened, but today she was particularly upset) She walked upstairs and smiled at Maxwell. Her heart beat. She was ready to put her father away where he really belonged.
Note: Thank you Iceangel7554!!! There were three songs in this story: The reason by Hoobastank, I hate everything about you by 3 days grace, and I f'ing hate you by Godsmack Review review review!!!