Summary: A one shot of the ending of the 8-10-04 episode



It was all finally over for Sam. Danny was safe, Ric couldn't charge Sonny nor Jason with anything. Everything was going well but for Sam something wasn't right. It didn't feel right. She sat on the sofa with her legs curled under her, pondering on her thoughts. She had been reading when Jason placed a blanket over her. Without too much thought she grabbed his hand and they smiled at each other.

Ever since she's been thinking of what was going on.

I analyze everything, I know what you mean
I answer by questioning all that I need
And I want to, to surrender
I want you to see all the sides
All the faces inside of me

Sam turned as the front door opened, Jason was finally home. Lately every time she saw him, a deep breath was needed, as if bracing herself, for what?

" Hey." Sam said as she watched Jason, as he does every night, place his keys down and search through the mail.

" Hey, how are you feeling?" Jason asked as he finally looked at her. He glanced down at her large belly. It was so amazing to watch the miracle of life. When Sam decided to stay it made him happy because he didn't want to miss out on watching the baby grow, inside and out.

" I'm good, thanks." Sam answered as she met his eyes. Lately she had been questioning everything and the only thing that made sense was oddly enough Jason and their relationship, whatever that may be.

I see I'm not perfect, but that's all I see
Lost in a portrait, in a picture of me
This can't be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color's everything to me
And my canvas will set me free

Jason went and sat beside Sam on the sofa, their eyes still mirroring each others. " Are you okay?" he asked concerned.

" I'm fine. With everything finally over, how can I not be fine?" Sam asked, trying to lighten the mood but she didn't feel fine. It was a little surprising to see how easy Jason had picked up on her mood.

" We've been living together for awhile and you tend to learn things about the person you live with. You might have been this great con woman before but now you're really bad at lying, at least with me." Jason explained with a light grin. He had made a promise to himself to always be there for Sam, as long as she'd let him.

Sam sighed, she didn't understand where along the way Jason became such a huge part in her life but now he was. Something else to be confused about.

" I don't know what's going on. Everything seems upside down." Sam admitted.

My outline is solid and made up of crime
And the things that you say just burn in my eyes
I want to, to surrender
I want you to find some comfort
In the spaces between the lines

" With everything going on maybe you're just confused because it isn't what you planned." Jason suggested.

Sam studied him for a moment. Thinking of his words and how that didn't sound right either. " Meaning what?" she asked.

" I'm sure when you thought of having a baby, you would've wanted to be with the father, the man you love. But you got the complete opposite and maybe you're still processing the difference." Jason explained.

Sam looked down for a moment. " You think I feel off, confused, whatever it is, because I'm with you and not Sonny?" she asked.

" Something like that." Jason answered.

Sam looked back up, straight into his eyes. " You're wrong." she snapped at him.

I see I'm not perfect, but that's all I see
Lost in a portrait, in a picture of me
This can't be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color's everything to me

Sam ran her hands through her hair and took a deep breath, calming herself from the sudden anger that rose within herself. " Jason you've been really great, more then I could say. I want this, remember? Whatever I might be feeling isn't because I'm here with you because that's the only thing that feels right." she admitted without even thinking of her words. She saw how Jason's expression change, as if shocked by view of the subject.

" Then what feels wrong?" Jason softly asked.

" I don't know." Sam said with a shrug as she rested her arms on her lap and sat forward. " Carly was here earlier and she accused me of wanting Sonny back. When she left, I thought about it. If Sonny came to me right now and told me he wanted me back and wanted to rise our child together--" she looked up. "--- I would have to say no." she softly admitted to him.

" Then that's what you're stuck on. What you were so sure you wanted, you don't anymore." Jason explained. There was a surge of relief and joy to know she didn't want Sonny back, she wanted to stay with him.

" Jason, what the hell is going on between us?" Sam asked as she searched his eyes for an answer.

And my canvas will set me free
This can't be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color's everything to me

" What do you mean?" Jason asked but he knew the answer.

" Before you left, what happened. That wasn't just a simple nice thing to do. It felt different. We agreed to this because we were so sure nothing would ever happen, no feelings toward each other, there was no way to hurt each other. But that's changed because there's feelings." Sam explained. She felt as if any second she might burst but that was better then keeping her feelings locked up.

" I know what you mean but Sam whatever it is, we have to get over it." Jason explained, now avoiding her deep brown eyes.

" What? So you admit something has changed between us but it shouldn't?" Sam asked.

" Right." Jason said with a nod.

" That's stupid and I don't get it. This isn't the time to use very little words, start speaking Jason." Sam said with a frustrated sigh.

" Sam you were in love with Sonny, he cares about you. We could never be anything more then friends." Jason explained. What caught him off guard was the fact he hated telling her that because he wished it wasn't true.

" Because you think it would be betraying him?"

" It would be."

" No it wouldn't. Sonny doesn't own me or you. I'm not sure on what's going on but it has nothing to do with Sonny and everything to do with us. Stop thinking about what he might think and tell me what you feel." Sam said.

" Sam I don't know, maybe it wasn't best to talk about this---" Jason began but he was cut off as Sam grabbed him by the shirt and kissed him hard on the lips. It didn't take long for his body to respond and kiss her back.

This can't be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
You color's everything to me
And my canvas will set me free
This can't be everything I see

Suddenly all the confusion faded because it lead them to the moment they had been dreaming about for the last couple of days. New feelings developed without either realizing it, suspecting it. Something that sounded so confusing felt so right.

" Now what do you feel?" Sam asked as she let him go.

" I feel like I should kiss you again and forget about everyone and everything else." Jason said just before he kissed her again.

That my canvas is incomplete
Your color's everything to me
You're everything to me



Isabelle

Artist: Trapt Lyrics
Song: Lost in a Portrait Lyrics