Title: Episode Guide - The Fall Session

Rating: PG-13, but it will have a bit of sex in this Part.

Category: Every one, but mostly Jake and Hamilton. Plus Ryder and Morgana. This fanfic is mostly centred around Lena and Will. I'm mostly a Jake and Hamilton fan but something about the idea of Will with Lena really gets me!

Disclaimer: I don't own them, except for Mr Fujiwara, Morgana, Yuka Higashi, Ken Sanigi and Madam O'Durand but I wish I did. *Note: All song lyrics in this Fanfic belong to me! And if you steal them then you're a thief. If you don't like them, well hey I'm only human:), we can't be great at every thing.*

The Fall Session

*Part Three - Coming Home*

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Friday

Will's voice over:- Home, what is that? A place where we live, eat, sleep and dream? Or is it a place where we learn not to dream? Is home a place where childhood is shed and illusions lost? Someone once said 'Home is where the heart is', so where is my heart? Where is my home and how do I find it?

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FINN

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The rain that had kept my classes inside for the last two weeks looked like it had no intention of withdrawing. The clouds outside looked gray and heavy with their load. My mind itched to write, but what about I had no idea.

Morgana and I had been slowly getting to know one another over the past couple of weeks, but I still felt like one of us was holding back, maybe both of us were. I looked up to where she was sitting in the back row. She was seated in between Jake and Will, which made me feel slightly better about having her here at Rawley, at least she was hanging out with a good crowd. Today she was dressed in a short black skirt and a tiny red T-shirt; it was like she had no idea that it was raining outside.

Every time she moved in her chair her shirt lifted up showing off her tattoo, which only incensed my anger towards both her and myself. It was difficult trying to get to know my only daughter after twelve years of being strangers. Morgan seemed to blame me for the separation, like she was unconscious of her mother's efforts in keeping me away from her. For all intents and purposes I think she hates me but then why is she here? And there in lay a mystery worth looking into.

I cleared my voice, eager to end the last class of the day. "I hope you all enjoy your weekend, be sure to complete your assignment by Monday." I said as my class slowly ambled out of the room, on a day like to day no one was really in a hurry to get anywhere.

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LENA

Time and time I see her pretty face, she's gone to hell and back,

She's lost her place, Fighting with a devil deep inside.

Teasing, taunting, taking all her pride.

And she cry's like never before, And she lies like never before,

And her eye's they've see it all before, he's not here, and it's not clear.

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After Finns class I decided to go to my room and grab my sketchpad, this Fall weather we were having was a perfect scene for my art major. I couldn't wait to get outside. In my hurry to escape I ran into somebody. I looked up it was Will Krudski, boy of my dreams, not really sure what to say I didn't say anything. Standing there like a complete idiot, I waited until he spoke. "Hey Lena, where's the fire?" He asked with a grin that turned my insides to jelly.

"I...No fire, I just wanted some fresh air." I replied with as much dignity as I could dredge up.

"Me too, do you mind if we walk together?" Will requested, as he took a hold of my hand.

"Ummm....Sure, you can help me with my art major." I said as we headed outside towards the lawns near the lake, tingles traveling up and down my arm, as I clasped his hand in mine.

"I don't know how to draw." was Will's reply, but I assured him I just needed a model. "A model, but I'm not a model either."

"That's not really was I meant I just need someone to sit for me so I can draw the human form, do you mind?" I asked hoping that he would say yes, I even crossed my toes inside my boots. My fingers had been itching to draw his profile since the day Finn introduced us.

"Uh...I guess not, can we still keep talking?" He asked me, filling me with joy at the prospect of not only finally getting to draw him but also getting to know him better.

"Yeah I'd like that." I said smiling my cutest smile, all the while hopping that I didn't look like some crazy girl on drugs. We found a semi-dry spot of grass under some trees and I began to draw his face. With each feature I learned something new about Will and he in return learned something new about me.

We sat talking for about two hours and when it began to rain again, we both headed for our dorms; unfortunately they were in totally different directions. We agreed to meet the next day at Friendly's in town with Yuko and Ken to do some group work on this week's assignments. As I ran towards my building I had an urge to turn around and watch him as he disappeared from my view, hoping that he might just copy the action and look my way. But he didn't, so when he was no longer in my sights I entered my dorm.

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WILL

Love it can be like everything.

Your pain it fills me, your hate over whelms me.

Love is suicide, it breeds like a parasite.

Love is suicide, it's a one way trip to hell and back.

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When the rain finally drove Lena and I into our dorms, I was surprised at how much I had learned about her in such a short time. She was such a free person, easy to talk to but also easy to listen to, and she had a lot to say. I was happy to find that she wasn't just a pretty face and that we could talk for hours about poetry or being an outsider.

Scout was in our room when I walked in but he was busy talking to his Dad on the phone. He waved as I threw myself on my bed and I grinned in response, I was in a good mood for once no brooding for me, at least not today. Lena had inspired me to feel at peace with myself even if it was only for a short while.

It took me a while to realise that Scout now off the phone was attempting to have a conversation with me. "Sorry,' I said, 'What did you say?"

"I asked where you've been for like the last hour?" Scout replied, spinning around in his desk chair until he was facing my direction.

"Oh, I was with Lena. We were talking." I wondered how much information to give Scout. I trusted him with my secrets but I didn't really want anyone to know that I liked Lena, hell I didn't even want to admit it to myself. Lena was a nice girl and I didn't want to infect he life with the bacteria that threatened to take over mine.

"Lena, the red-head? She's kind of hot. Do you like her?" Scout was sharper than normal today; it must have been something in my tone that gave me a way.

"Yeah the red-head and yes, she is hot. There's no kind of about it. She's also a nice girl, too nice for me. I'd just ruin her life." There I said it. Now it was all out in the open, funny I didn't feel any better. I thought I would have but now I just felt worse.

"What are you talking about? How could you ruin her life? Your a good guy Will." Scout jumped to my defense, literally. He jumped out of his chair and came over to where I was laying. "Oh, your talking about your Dad and this whole issue you have with being on a scholarship." My he was being insightful today, it was extremely annoying.

"Look, you don't understand. Just because your happy this week doesn't mean I have to be. And yeah, my life is pretty screwed up. The only thing I really have going for me is this school and my friends. I know your trying to be helpful but just back off, okay?" Wow, I didn't realise I had that all stored up in me. I noticed that I contradicted myself because I had been happy, at least until I started this conversation.

"Okay, let's talk about something else then." Scout said finally.

"Guess what? You know Ken that Japanese exchange student? He's rooming with Ryder." I said, reaching for something else to talk about but at the same time realising that eventually we were going to end up talking about Lena.

"What? Tough break! I'm going to Bella's for a while, before crew practice. I'll see you later." He said as grabbed his bag of the bed. Just as he reached the door he turned and looked back in my direction I knew he was going to say something about Lena.

"So, where's the girl staying? The Japanese girl, what was her name? Oh, yeah Yuko. Who is Yuko bunking with?" Scout's grin covered his whole face it was like he already knew the answer to his question.

I cleared my throat, "Lena." I answered and then I waited for his response.

"Oh. Well, maybe you will get to see her again today and maybe she can cheer you up." He said before closing the door behind him. I sat up on my bed and wondered why he hadden't said any more, it was very unlike Scout. I lay back down and thought about meeting Lena tomorrow, I found myself eager for the day to end so I could go to bed and wake up, and see her again. I wondered briefly if she felt the same way about me.

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YUKO

I drank of his wine, I ate of his bread

but I would not sleep in his bed.

To lie is to tell the truth, but no one wants to hear it.

Peace of mind is not important, as long as your not left behind.

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It was funny how everything could change in just a few days. After meeting Will I had found out that Ken's tutor, Lena was to be my roommate. At first I wasn't really sure how I felt about her, she is such a pretty girl that I was sure that Ken would instantly fall in love with her. But I couldn't help it, I began to like her, Lena is just such a nice person.

Everything had changed except this friction between Ken and myself, all we seemed to do is fight these days and yet all I want to do is be with him all the time. I have new friends, a new school, new teachers and yet I cannot seem to have a civil conversation with my best friend in the whole world.

It's the weekend and I'm not even sure if I should go and see if he wants to hang out or not. I was just beginning to feel deep depression and a chocolate craving coming on when Lena came bursting through our door dripping water everywhere. "Where have you been?", I asked.

"With Will, he was helping me with my art major. Why did you miss me?" Lena replied with a giggle.

"No, I was just getting ready to eat that block of chocolate over there. Wanna join me?" I inquired, now giggling myself. See what I mean how could anyone not like Lena she just brightens up your day.

Lena grabbed the bar or Fruit 'N' Nut chocolate and came over to sit on my bed, "Sure why not? So where's Ken I thought you two were going to work on your assignments together?" Lena asked as she broke the block of chocolate in half and gave the biggest piece to me.

"No, he wanted to get to know his room mate a little better. I guess I'll just see him later, or something." I said trying to sound as if it didn't bother me that my best friend couldn't stand to be in the same room as me.

"Your in love with him aren't you ?" Lena asked, after popping a piece of chocolate into her mouth.

I was really sure what to say, I could believe she had actually noticed. None of my friends back home had even the slightest idea about my feelings. I didn't know Lena very well, but I wanted so desperately to trust her. I really needed someone to talk to about Ken. "Am I that obvious?", I replied, taking a chance.

"No not really it could just be because I'm an outsider that I noticed what others wouldn't normally see. Don't worry your secret is safe with me." Lena promised. "If it's any consolation I think he feels that same way."

My heart started beating really fast and my head felt faint. Could it be true? Could Ken actually be in love with me too? I didn't want to believe it, get my hopes up, just incase Lena was wrong. "What make you say that? We used to be the best of friends but ever since I told him I was coming here we have not stopped fighting." I said hoping Lena would be terribly insightful and make me understand why Ken would want to be with me.

"Because he can not take his eyes off you. He's in love for sure." Lena popped the last piece of chocolate in her mouth before saying, "But if your going to tell him how you feel, you better do it soon because he keeps getting mobbed by the Rawley girls they all keep asking him out. So far he has turned them all down but sooner or later he's going to say yes to one of them."

Lena was right, but I had to be sure I didn't want to ruin eleven years of friendship. Maybe Ken should go out with someone else, that way I could see how he acts and try to gage his feelings for me that way. I decided to dare him to go out with one of these girls he had always been a sucker for a good dare I was all most one hundred percent sure he would accept my terms. "I'm going to go see him now. I guess I'll see you later." And with that I walked out of the room taking my left over chocolate with me to use as a bribe if needed.

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KEN

Your love tears me limb from limb, I see your face and it begins

Pieces of me lying on the floor, they watch as you walk out the door.

I've been crushed in the rush don't come back here.

Your place is gone, it's been wiped out, the only thing left is a tear

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I watched as another girl walked away from me. I couldn't believe it that was the fourth girl to ask me out on a date today. "Are you gay or something?" a voice behind me remarked. I turned to see my room mate Ryder standing behind me.

"No, I'm just not interested in being the next big thing at Rawley. Besides, I like my girls to have at least known me for twenty-four hours before confessing their love for me and asking me to have children with them." I answered.

"Okay, I see where you're coming from but I still think that you're insane. I'd love to have all those girls pining for me, actually at the moment I would be satisfied with just one specific girls interest." Replied Ryder.

"Me too" I stated before realising what I had done.

"Oh, so it's like that, well why didn't you just say so. Who is she?" Ryder asked, as I stood up.

"You don't know her,' I said as we headed for our room, 'besides she's not interested so it doesn't matter who she is". When we arrived at our room I was shocked to see Yuko waiting for me outside in the hallway. God she looked beautiful, her shiny black hair down to her waist and her amazing blue eyes.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I came to talk to you, we are still talking aren't we?" Yuko replied.

"Off course, but it's just I haven't really seen you lately. Do you want to go for a walk or something?" I said trying to understand why she was really here.

"Look I'll go leave you too love birds alone in the room, just give me a ring on my mobile when your done." Ryder interrupted, before Yuko could reply and before I could correct him on the assumption of Yuko and myself being lovebirds he was already gone.

"Actually that's why I've come, to talk about love." Yuko said giving me a wink, before pushing past me the enter my room. I thought for a second there that she was going to tell me that she loved me and for a moment things were just like they used to be between us.

"Oh, yeah what about love?" I asked.

"I think you should go out with one of these girls who keep asking you. It's about time we both fell in love, don't you think." Yuko said as she sat on my bed. I wondered what she would think if I told her that I already was in love, with her.

"I don't think so..."

"I dare you!" She interrupted.

"If you go out with one of these girls and it turns out to be a bad idea, I will be your slave for one month and if it works you will have to help me find someone to be with, plus you have to tell every one in Finn's class that you couldn't live with out me!" She sounded so impressed with her plan that I didn't have the heart to tell her that it wouldn't work and before I knew what was happening I had already agreed. After all I kind of liked the idea of having Yuko as my personal slave for one month.

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Saturday

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RYDER

Down by the docks, down by the water.

I see my face becoming distorted, and as I look at myself in the water,

I feel...

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With a whole weekend of debauchery ahead of me, I should have been happy but all I could think about was how alone I was going to be and how bored I was getting of being the 'Big Bad' at Rawley. It was strange having a roommate after having a single room for so long. Ken and I appeared to be getting along okay but having nothing to compare it to I couldn't honestly say we were friends. I wondered briefly if the cute Asian girl that came to our room yesterday, was the girl he was so cut up over. I guess if we are really becoming friends then he will tell me about her when he's ready.

Now if I could just convince Morgana, that I was worth getting to know...Who am I trying to kid? I'm not even sure I can convince myself that I'm worth getting to know. Whoa! What's with all the negativity? I feel like I'm going insane. Why should I care if the snotty rich kids at Rawley like me or not? I never used to, maybe it was all the time I'd spent watching Will and his friends hang out over the summer but that didn't really explain why I now after spending the whole summer making them hate me I wanted to be their friend. I wanted to be included for the first time in my life, I wanted to belong but most of all I wanted Morgana. Why now? It was a good question, a better question would be: Why at all?

I just did not know why and I was so deep in thought as to why, that I didn't notice Morgana standing out in the hall. I walked straight in to her, it was becoming a habit.

"Watch it! Oh, it's you" Said Morgan, looking me over. "This is becoming a habit, you walking into me. I'm seriously considering getting you a Seeing Eye dog. When is your birthday it would be the perfect gift."

"I...I'm sorry, I wasn't watching where I was going. I can see fine but..."

"You just weren't paying any attention, I get it." Morgan smiled interrupting me and then said, "I wonder what is so interesting that you couldn't even see the object of your desire right in front of you."

I really didn't get this girl but I wanted to. At least she knew I liked her, now if I could just work out her feelings for me. "I was thinking about you love actually." I replied, hoping to gage her reaction.

"Really, how nice.' She said without giving anything away. Morgana looked at her watch and then shook her head slightly as if to clear it, 'I'm going to have to leave on that note. I have to meet someone."

I didn't want her to go. I wanted to know who she was going to meet. Another guy? I just watched as she turned to leave, wanting to stop her but only just maintaining my cool. Morgan was almost to the end of the hall when I decided to have the last word. I ran after her, and just as I reached her she turned around, as if she knew I was there but I couldn't stop myself, and I ran straight into her, again.

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MORGANA

It's the truth that I love you, it's the truth that I care

It's the truth that I want you, it's the truth I need you near.

I'll never lie to you, I'll never make you cry,

And if you break my heart, I still won't say goodbye.

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I wrapped both of my arms around Ryder's neck and pulled him towards me, just as my mouth brushed his I said in the smallest whisper, "If you wanted a goodbye kiss all you had to do was ask." My lips brushed over his once, twice, three times before landing comfortably in the most erotic position ever. This kiss had defiantly been worth the wait. He tasted amazing like strawberries, and I wanted to devour him whole.

His hands that had been hanging at his sides in shock were now cupping the curve of my hip so lightly it was torture. I wanted his hands to touch me everywhere, all over. He must have suffered some shock from the boldness of me kissing him because he had just stood there not participating but not resisting either. But not now, now he was in control. One of his hands had left my waist and was roaming it's way through my curls. The other was clutching at my ass, pulling me closer to him.

A gasp escaped my lips as I realised that he was fast becoming aroused by this kiss, I could feel his hardness growing against my stomach. I tried to pull my mouth from his but he wouldn't release me, his lips were hot and hard against mine. Truth be told I didn't really want to stop, so we continued to kiss. He finally broke away from me when his phone rang.

Both of us were breathless, but he managed to answer his phone. When he turned his back on me I bailed, I had to get out of there. I headed outside, towards the lake hoping to find a place where I could be by myself while analysing one of the best experience of my life. What was I doing? I don't even really know Ryder.

There was a guy down by the lake, I recognised him from some of my classes. He seemed nice enough but I really just wanted to be alone, so I tried to sneak by him. I was just behind him when he turned around. He smiled and stepped forward, "Hi, I'm Will. You're Finn's daughter." He said, it wasn't a question but a statement.

"Yeah, the name's Morgana, but my friends call me Morgan. I've seen you in class, my dad really likes you." Although in a hurry to be alone, I was curious about this guy. My dad really did seem to think he was special and the way he looked at Will with pride in his eyes, made me wonder what I was going to have to do to receive the same treatment.

"Thanks, it must be pretty cool having Finn for a dad." Will said, shuffling his feet.

"When I find out I'll let you know." I retorted, immediately feeling bad. It wasn't Will's fault that I was pissed about kissing Ryder and about the fact that I had never really known my father. "I'm sorry, that was rude. Now just isn't really a good time for me to be with people. I should be alone somewhere, preferably a desert island or something similar. My ability to interact within the normal social boundaries just expired about ten minutes ago." With that I turned to go hoping he wouldn't think I was totally insane but really not caring enough to stay and find out.

"Don't worry, I'm exactly the same. My friends think it's just intellectual PMS but really I just feel like shit and don't want to share it with the whole world. Look, I'll see you later all right? Maybe we can get together and discuss what it's like to be us." Will laughed, stopping me from leaving, "But in the mean time if you want privacy the lounge on the fourth floor is always a good place there's nobody ever there."

"Thanks for the tip. Why doesn't anyone use that lounge?" I asked, still facing away from him, ready to make a quick get away.

"Too many steps." At Will's reply I smiled to myself and headed for the fourth floor lounge, steps be damned!

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HAMILTON

Her eye's they shimmer and they shine.

I love her so much, I can't believe she's mine.

She must be colour blind, to love me so deep inside.

And she must be so resigned to see the best, that she can't see the lies.

Heartbreaker, heartbreaker, why do you hide?

Come out where ever you are I need to recognise, the fear that lives inside my heart.

Heartbreaker, heartbreaker, please don't cry.

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"Baby?" I inquired, "Are you a wake?" I rolled over so that we were now facing each other, only to find that Jake was still asleep. God, I love her, love being with her, sleeping with her, waking up with her in my arms. She is so beautiful, her hair slightly longer than it was during the summer session, was more feminine and made her look very pixie-like. Especially during one of the brief times when she was able to wear eyeliner.

Jake slowly stirred, opening up her eyes slowly. "Don't watch me when I sleep. I can always tell, and then I wake up. I need more sleep." I smiled as she covered her head with the doona.

"You've been sleeping for over eight hours. You need to wake up and kiss your boyfriend good morning." I said, laughing, as the doona moved but still no sight of Jake.

"Do you know that you can be extremely annoying in the morning?" She asked me before reaching her hands out of the doona and grabbing my head dragging me under it for the best good morning kiss I had ever received. Coming up for air she smiled at me before stretching, "Do you know that Morgan has a thing for Ryder?' She asked me, covering her mouth with the doona, 'Sorry, morning breath."

"Are you for real? Has she actually met him?" I couldn't believe that such an attractive girl would have any sort of feeling for Ryder except for loathing and annoyance. I knew that he was known as being quite the stud but Morgan seemed like a smart girl to me, maybe she could see something the rest of us couldn't. Nah, it would have to take a miracle or something extremely similar to turn Ryder into a nice guy. "Ryder, would need something pretty drastic to happen to him, to make him ever a half way decent guy worth knowing." I told Jake, getting out of bed and looking under it for my runners.

"I guess, that is what I thought too but he does seem to be kind of taken with her. Maybe, leopards can change their spots". Jake said handing me my runner, which had been under her desk.

"Yeah and Satan cuddles puppies, I'm going for a run. Do you want to come?" I asked, putting my runners on. I watched as Jake shook her head slowly.

"I can't, sorry. I promised Bella, that I would go into town and do girlie stuff with her today. If is helps at all, I will miss you while I'm gone."

I smiled, reached over and kissed her. Then I left, yeah it helped. It helped a lot but I would probably end up missing her a whole lot more than she would miss me.

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JAKE

Lover, come to me, hold me close, don't let me go (tonight).

Love me, stay with me, all through the night till morning (sunrise).

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Although I really did mean it, when I told Ham that I would miss him today. I was also really looking forward to some time just hanging out with Bella. Time just being a girl. However, I must have rolled over and gone back to sleep after Hamilton left because the next thing I know, I'm hearing bells ringing in my ear. It took me about two minutes to work out that it was actually my phone and not some alien life form, trying to do sort of strange experiment to me while I slept.

"Hello." I said, glaring at the alarm clock as I picked up the phone.

"Where are you? I thought you were coming over today. Don't try to bail on me. Get your butt over here now, or else." I heard Bella yell down the line.

"I'm on my way, I just kind of slept in. Hamilton, must have turned off the alarm but I'm still coming." I must have said something that pleased her because she said 'okay' and hung up on me.

I jumped out of bed and grabbed the first thing that I saw. It didn't really matter what I wore now, because I was just going to change when I got to Bella's house any way. I had already packed my bag for today's little excursion the night before and I had plenty of dresses and skirts stashed inside it.

I took my bike to town, so I was at Bella's house about five minutes after she rang me. "Hi, Jacqueline Pratt reporting for duty, Sir." I said when she opened the door to let me in.

"Funny, very funny. I'm sorry, did I really sound that bad on the phone? It's just that I was really looking forward to catching up with you. We haven't really had a chance since you got back." Bella replied as I followed her up stairs to her bedroom.

"Me too." I responded, as I entered her bedroom and sat on her bed. "So, what are we going to do first?" I asked, watching her close the door before coming to sit on the floor next to me.

"I thought we could watch a video. Did you want to get changed first?" She said.

"Actually, guys clothes are a lot more comfy than ours, so for the moment I think, I'll just stay as I am for now. What's the video?" I wondered aloud.

"Shakespeare In Love. I thought it would be fun, maybe you could pick up a few tricks from Gweneth." Bella replied, putting the tape in and getting comfy.

"Maybe..." I started to say but the movie had already started.

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BELLA

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It was so great hanging out with Jake again. I had really missed her these last few weeks. I never seen 'Shakespeare In Love' before, it was pretty cool but I was having trouble concentrating on the story line, because all I wanted to do was talk about what was going on with Scout and myself. I really needed someone to talk to.

"Okay. What's up? What's going on?" Jake said suddenly as she leaned forward to turn off the TV.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"No running commentary, no questions about the movie. It's just not normal for you to be so quiet. So spit it out." Jake replied, getting more comfy on my bed.

So I told her everything, that Scout and I were back together again and that it was different now, strange and I didn't know how to fix it. That I needed to know how to make it the way it was before, the way it was last summer.

We ended up spending most of the day just talking. Jake told me that Scout and I just needed time to acclimatise ourselves to each other. We talked about almost everything known to man but at the end of the day I still felt a little out of it. I don't know why but ever since the beginning of school I have felt like someone standing on the outside, an outcast. All of my friends spend everyday together, they get to go to the same classes and I only get to see them when they come in to town or when they have a spare minute. They have all made new friends and they have insider jokes, jokes that I used to be a part of. I just feel like they don't need me any more and so I told Jake how I felt.

"What? You're kidding right?" She asked disbelief written all over Jake's face. "I will always need you. Besides Ham, you're my best friend and I love you. We all love you. You are a special part of our group, you are our group, and you helped to bring us all together. Without you there would be no group. If you really feel left out, if you really feel shut out because we all go to Rawley, then enroll." Jake said reaching out to take both of my hands in hers.

"Look, Thanks for saying all that it's really sweet but as for enrolling, you know I can't afford that and before you say anything. No, I won't let you pay for me. I really just don't see a solution to this, I just really don't!" I replied, pulling away.

"Well what about applying for a scholarship of some kind. It would be so excellent to have you at Rawley with us. Just like one big family. Also you love living in town, so if you don't board then the fees are a lot more reasonable but it would be heaps of fun if you could live with us. I'll help you, we'll work it out, I promise. Let me talk to Hamilton about it and he can grill his dad for details. We will fix this." Jake said standing up, "I don't want to leave you but I have to go. Are you going to be all right?"

"Yes, Scout is coming over to do laundry and keep Grace and myself company while Dad's gone. So go I'll be fine." I replied.

I walked her to the door where we said goodbye. I was lucky to have such a good friend. I was getting something ready for dinner, when Dad called to let me know that he wouldn't be home until tomorrow. I told him not to worry. I knew Scout would protect Grace and I from the Boogieman. "Ask him to stay the night, on the couch." Dad said before hanging up. I dialed Scout and Will's room.

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WILL

Fear, it's inevitable and loss irreplaceable.

Your love it kills me, Your hate revives me.

You are the one at fault, the leader, the breeder.

The cult of love is suicide.

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I asked and she said 'Yes'. I couldn't believe it; I was finally starting to feel like I fit in here at Rawley. I had some great friends and now it looked like I had a date with the girl of my dreams. A date with my destiny.

*Flashback*

When I saw Lena sitting under a tree drawing, I couldn't help myself, I just had to stop and watch her for a minute. Just a minute, I told myself. I was already late for crew practice but one minute turned into two and two into ten. Morgan, Finns daughter almost blew my cover but she just wanted to be alone too. Before I knew it Lena was packing up her stuff, as she stood she must have seen me because she started heading in my direction.

"Hey, stalking is illegal you know!" Lena said as she reached my hiding spot.

"Well, I guess if I'm your stalker I should probably try to get you to go out on a date with me. Then again, you could just go out on a date with someone else and I could just follow the two of you around. It might be fun!" I replied, taking the time to really check her out. She was so pretty, her hair was an amazing colour and her body was to die for.

"Yes" Lena said.

"Yes, what?" I asked, puzzled by her answer.

"Yes, let's go out on a date. I mean, if you want to?" Lena said, her cheeks now matched her hair in colour.

"Really, you want to go out. I'd like that a lot. I can give you Will's New Rawley tour. It takes about two hours, maybe we could get something to eat afterwards." I said, wanting to stop my mouth from speaking but unable to find a way how.

"That's sounds great, so it's a date then?" She asked smiling up at me.

"Yes" I stammered in reply.

We agreed to meet at the fountain in town at four o'clock but then our conversation was cut short by my mother. She was there for a meeting with the Dean, about my scholarship. I introduced them both and then they began to gang up on me...

*End of Flashback*

It had started to rain and the sky was dark, it was the kind of weather that inspired writers to write but I had nothing to say. I knew I shouldn't have gone home, I really didn't have time, if I wanted to meet Lena in time for our date but I really needed to get some books and other stuff that I had left behind at the house. I knew I had to go, so I'd waited until I thought Dad would be gone, only when I got there he was still at home. At first he was great, he actually seemed happy to see me...

*Flashback*

"So how have you been son?" he asked from his spot on the couch. I was surprised that he was interested; usually he ignored me unless he was laying into me.

"I'm good," I said not really knowing what he wanted from me.

"That's all you have to say to your old man? We haven't seen you for a couple of months now, and that is all you have to say?', Too late I noticed his slurred speech and the dozens of empty beer bottles surrounding the couch. 'You're an ungrateful son of a bitch!"

*End of Flashback*

I don't really remember much more than that, all I know is that he came up off the couch swinging. I tried to defend myself but I didn't want to hurt or kill him accidentally in all of my own rage, so I didn't really know how to stop him. Now I'm late meeting Lena for our first real date and I'm bleeding all over my favourite T-shirt. I guess it's just as well I knew, from the beginning that I wasn't good enough for her. If this doesn't prove it, I don't know what else could. Just the sight of me seems to enrage my own father, what could I possibly bring to a relationship except trouble and heartache.

I grabbed my stuff and I got out of there as quick as I could. I headed straight back to the dorms, my head down I moved quickly, in an attempt to avoid notice. I didn't want anyone knowing about what my father had done to me.

When I reached the room, I looked into the mirror or at least I tried to but my left eye was swollen shut. Shit, there was a lot of blood and I didn't know what to do. I started to get dizzy, so I lay down on my bed, hoping that it would stop the crazy room spinning.

I must have fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew someone was banging loudly on the door. It was Lena, at first I just tried to ignore it, pretend not to be there but she must have heard me, because she started making even more noise. I didn't want her drawing the attention of the teaching staff, so I told her to 'go away' but she wouldn't listen. In the end it was just easier to let her come in. I hated to do it but it was the lesser of two evils. I just really didn't want to see pity for me on her beautiful face.

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LENA

Time and time I ask her to change, She's gone to hell and back again,

She's found her place, Lying to the person deep inside.

Stabbing, Sucking, stealing all her pride.

And she fly's like never before, And she sighs like never before,

And her eye's they show it all, It's not clear, it's not clear at all.

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I was walking down the main street of New Rawley when I saw Will's mother heading in my direction, she seemed almost frantic. I wondered what was wrong; maybe she would be able to tell me where Will was. I had been looking for him for over an hour now and I still he no idea where he was and why he never met me at the fountain in the center of town for my tour. I was beginning to get worried. "Mrs. Krudski, how are you?' I asked as she reached me, 'Have you see Will today?"

"Lena, hello dear. No I haven't seen Will, he came home earlier but I wasn't there and he had a fight with his Dad. I'm really worried about him, worried he might be hurt..." Mrs. Krudski replied kind of letting her voice fade at the end.

"Hurt?" I asked, "What do you mean, how?"

"I'm sorry Lena I can't talk about this now I just need to find Will." She said in return.

"Okay, I'll help."

"Please have him ring me if you find him before me." She looked older than yesterday, as she finished talking she turned and fled in the opposite direction.

I found Scout on his way to Bella's garage, not far from Rawley Academy and I asked him if he had seen Will in the last hour or so.

"No, why?" he replied.

I tried not to look too concerned but I could tell by the intent way Scout was looking at me, that he knew something was wrong. "I can't find him and his mother is worried, she said that he had a fight with his dad and that he might be hurt." I told him hoping he would instantly remember seeing Will, and reassure me that he was fine.

But my hopes were dashed when Scout replied saying, "Oh, my god we have to find him...his Dad...they fight sometimes...but I'm supposed to be going to Bella's house her Dad went to Carson to get some parts and now he's kind of stuck there until tomorrow. Bella and her sister Grace are all alone at the garage and I said that I would go and stay with them." He looked really torn and I realise how much he valued Will and their friendship. Their relationship was real, not just some rich boy's idea of slumming it. I wanted to hug him, for caring so much about the guy I really cared about, I was happy that other people besides me could see how valuable Will, was. If only I could find him.

"It's okay,' I said 'you go to Bella's they need you, I'll keep looking for Will and I'll ring you if I really need your help." He looked unsure.

"Okay but promise me you'll ring me as soon as you find him" He asked, still looking like he wanted to help.

"I promise." I called as I turned and hurried towards the boy's campus.

The sky was covered in dark gray clouds, when I finally arrived at the campus. I climbed the stairs to Will and Scout's room two at time, I had been here earlier but I had looked every where and now I was hoping that he had come back here to lick his wounds. When I got to their room, I tried the door but it was locked. "Will, are you in there?" I asked and waited for a response. I didn't get one but just as I was turning to leave I heard a noise coming from inside the room.

"Go away!" I heard him call through the door.

"Will, please it's Lena I need to talk to you, to see your face. I'm not mad that you forgot to meet me I'm just worried. Your Mom's worried too, she thinks you might be hurt..." I stopped talking when I heard a key turning the lock.

When I opened the door I wasn't prepared for what I saw. Will tried to hide his face from me but he wasn't quick enough, the entire left side of his face was purple and blue. It was swollen so much that his left eye was shut but I couldn't see the reason for the swelling because the whole lower half of the left side of his face was covered in blood. Some of it was dry and some of it was fresh, it was covering a good portion of his t-shirt as well.

I tried not to panic, I remembered someone telling me that head injuries always bleed a lot and that it always looks worse than it really is. At that moment though I found that really hard to believe. I couldn't believe that anyone could do this kind of damage to another person, especially a father. Parents were supposed to love and understand no matter what right?

"Oh, my god! What did he do to you?" I asked, as Will closed and locked the door behind me.

"Look, you can't tell anyone about this, okay? It's private." Will said, as he sat down on his bed.

"You have to go to the police. He can't do this to you. If you don't tell someone I will." I didn't know what else to do, it was all so wrong.

"You can't, you have to promise me now that you won't say anything or our friendship is over right now." He looked really tired.

"Okay. I promise. You just mean a lot to me and I don't like to see you hurt so bad. I have to ring your mother and Scout, they are both really worried about you." I walked over to the phone and made my calls. Will's mother wanted to come over but I think I managed to convince her that Will was fine. What a lie, what a joke. Will was definitely not fine. I didn't want to leave him but they didn't have a First aid kit in their room, so I had to run across the campus to the girl's dorms to get mine.

When I got back to Will's room, I was soaking wet. It had started to rain cats and dogs, when I was about half way to the boy's campus. Will was exactly where he had been when I left.

"Sit up. I need to clean your face." I said, sitting on a chair next to his bed.

"I'm okay." Will replied but he sat up anyway.

It took me about an hour to clean most of the blood off his face, and bandage the cut that I found underneath on his cheek. I got some ice from their little mini fridge and put it on his eye.

"Did he hit you any where else?" I asked, taking off his T-shirt.

"No, well a couple of times in the ribs but they feel okay. Nothing seems to be broken." Will answered, taking off his own pants. He had trouble reaching his shoes, so I got down on the floor to help him. I unlaced his sneakers, and removed his socks and pants. Then I kind of just sat there looking up at him.

Even all bruised and banged up; he was still the cutest boy I had ever seen. I wanted to kiss him so badly but I was scared it would hurt him.

"What? I know I look like a freak but the shows over, come back same time tomorrow." Will snapped, as he climbed into his bed.

"You can be such an idiot sometimes for a guy who is supposed to be really smart. You don't look like a freak, a little purple, yes but that's all. You could look like death and I'd still want to kiss you." God had I said too much, too soon? What a way to start a relationship but if I had to be honest with myself, I really didn't care. I just wanted to touch him and make it all better.

"You what?" Will asked, as I sat next to him on the bed.

"I want to kiss you.', I replied, touching my hand to his naked chest. 'I want to touch you."

"I'm no good for someone like you. You deserve better." Will said, grabbing my hand to stop it from wandering across his chest.

"Maybe. I don't agree but it really doesn't matter because I want you and I know you want me. You know what I want more than I want to kiss you?" I asked him, leaning closer.

"What?" He asked in return, as he started to unconsciously stroke my arm.

"I want you to kiss me,' I said, moving even closer. 'And I want you to touch me." I finished, and I put his hand on my breast.

Oh, god when he finally kissed me it was almost too good to be true. His lips were so soft and his hands on my body felt so right. I climbed into bed with him and removed my clothes. I couldn't believe, I was in bed, naked with the guy of my dreams.

"Wait, is this what you really want? Are you sure?" Will asked, his good eye looking deep into mine. If I wasn't already in love with him, I would have fallen at that moment. He was the sweetest guy. I couldn't believe that he was actually giving me an out.

"No, I mean yes. I want this. Do you?" I asked my heart in my throat.

"God, yes." Will replied, laying back down and taking me with him. In a way, I couldn't believe that we were really going to do this, have sex I mean. I wanted to, it was all just a little unreal. I didn't want to hurt him any more than he already was, so I climbed on top of his lap.

Oh, he was so hard. I wondered briefly about using a condom but decided against it. I was already on the pill to regulate my periods. Besides, this was going to be the first time for both of us and I wanted to feel him come inside me.

We kissed and explored each other's bodies for a while, but I was so wet and he was so hard, all I wanted was him inside me. So I lifted up my hips a little and he positioned himself at my entrance. I slid down his shaft, so very slowly. Oh, my god it felt so good. I was expecting pain and awkwardness but there wasn't any. Instead it was like we had been made for each other. Like we had been making love forever.

It was kind of weird because we both seemed to know exactly what to do. Will, seemed to know just where to touch me to drive me out of my mind. We moved together, slowly at first, only speeding up after neither of us could stand the friction any longer. Faster and faster he thrust, until we both came. My whole body felt like a giant firecracker that had just been let off. "I love you." I heard Will whisper; when he thought I was asleep.

"I love you too." I replied, snuggling down in his arms. We fell asleep holding one another.

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SCOUT

Through time and outer space, in my heart I keep a picture of your face.

Never gonna let go of you, unless you want me to.

I love you too much.

Pull the pieces, hang them on the wall.

I can't believe you knew it all

Never gonna let you go, but I'll tell you all you need to know...

I love you too much.

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"Lena, found Will. She said that he is beat up pretty bad but that he won't go to the police. She told me to stay here; she wants to look after him. She's going to stay with him tonight." I said, after I got off the phone.

"Are you sure we shouldn't go and see him? He might need us, we are his friends. Does Lena even really know him?" Bella asked me, concern etched on to her pretty face.

"I think their in love with each other. Let her look after him tonight, we can go and see him tomorrow. Okay?" I said, watching for a reaction.

"Okay." She replied, smiling at me, "You really think that they like each other? Because Will deserves someone pretty special, someone who will bring him happiness. And from the way Ham and Jake talk about her she must be very special."

"Yeah I do. So what do the two of you want to do? Should we rent a video or something?" I asked Bella and Grace, who had just joined us in the kitchen.

"You two do whatever you want. I'm going out on a date." Grace said, as she left the kitchen again.

"I don't think so." Called out Bella. "Dad said we all stay here, that means you too."

"Fine but then I'm picking the video." Yelled Grace, from the living room.

Bella turned towards me and said, "Sometimes, I swear she's like a needle in my butt." I could help but laugh. Bella was so cute when she was angry.

"What do you care anyway?' I asked, 'Didn't you spend the day watching videos with Jake? Just let her pick the video, you and I can practice our snuggling. We don't even have to actually watch it." Bella smiled again, before coming over to me.

"Sounds good." She said, before kissing me.

Tonight was the first time things didn't feel too strange. I felt like we were almost like a normal couple and not a couple, who had until recently thought they were brother and sister. I had to believe that these past months no matter how wrong it may seem that Bella was as much in love with me, as I was with her and that Sean had just been a cover. I love her, and all I have been able to think about is her, no matter who she was with, Sean or me. I never really gave up but now things are just as I've wanted for so long, only everything lately has felt really strained but right at that moment. The moment when she kissed me, everything felt absolutely perfect.

I was glad that my best friend was okay, but I was also glad that I had come here tonight instead of going to look for Will, because if I had, I would have missed this moment. Bella and I spent most of the evening watching Grace to make sure that she didn't sneak out. We ended up hiring a movie, which we all watched together in the living room. The movie 'Stir of Echo's', was actually really cool. We made microwave popcorn and ate heaps of ice cream.

After the movie Grace went to bed, or at least that's what she told us she was doing. She was probably sneaking out. I wondered where I would be sleeping, not that I wanted to have sex. Actually, I did but it didn't matter that much to me. I just wanted the closeness of sharing a bed, I had after all been dreaming about it for months but it was not to be.

"Well, I guess we should probably go to bed too. I thought we could go on a picnic tomorrow, after we have been to see Will in the morning. So we should get up early." Bella suggested, as she stood. She seemed a little nervous; she was rubbing her hands up and down her arms.

"Ah, okay. Good idea." I replied, waiting for her to make a move.

"You can sleep down here on the couch, it pulls out. I'll just go and get you some blankets." Bella said, rushing away leaving me there to pull out the couch. I guess we would be sleeping in separate beds. Bella came back with her arms full of sheets, pillows and blankets.

"Well, I guess that's all. Good night." She said, kissing me quickly on the lips.

"Good night." I said, as I watched her walk away from me but when she reached the door she stopped, "Scout?" Bella asked.

"Yeah?" I replied.

"I...thanks for tonight, for staying over with us. It makes me feel safe, knowing that you're here with us." Bella said, then without another word she was gone. Well, it was better than nothing I guess, I thought as I drifted off to sleep.

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MORGANA

It's the truth that I crave you, it's the truth that I dare,

It's the truth that I love you, it's the truth I want you here.

I'll never leave you alone, I'll never make you sad,

And if you want my heart, it's yours to take apart.

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'Okay my life kind of sucks!' I thought, as I sat in my room all alone on a Saturday night. "Enough", I said to nobody in particular as I stood and walked over to the window. Looking down I got a happy when I saw a car park full of rich boys cars. It was after 1am, curfew had come and gone already but there had to be somewhere in this one horse nowhere town to party hearty. During the day I loved this little town of beauty and kindness but at night I was just kind of bored. Not that I'm a wild child. I'm not but I was used to more action than me, my bed and a teddy bear for company.

If I took one of the rich boys cars and got it back before morning no one would ever know. Grabbing my jacket and purse I climbed out of my window. As I dangled from my windowsill I tried to fortify myself for a hard landing, but when I finally let go I landed on something soft, something human, something with hands. "Wow, Hands!" I exclaimed, as my landing pad grabbed my ass.

"Just trying to extract you from my once human form." A sexy sarcastic voice moaned. A voice I recognised.

"Ryder?" I asked, moving off his crumpled form. "It is you." I said, standing.

"Yes, it's me. Did you have to land on me?" Ryder asked in return, getting up. "I know I've run into you a couple of times but falling on me for revenge, was that really necessary?"

"It was an accident. How was I supposed to know that you would be walking past just as I happened to jump out of my window?" He looked good, I thought before I could stop myself.

"You could have tried looking out of the window before jumping. Why jump? You could have killed yourself or me. What are you doing out here anyway? It's after curfew." He asked, looking me over.

"None of your business. Wait, it is after curfew. So what are you doing out here walking under my window at this hour?" I ranted, kind of pissed off now. My evening was not improving like it was supposed to be.

"I'm just out for a stroll." Ryder replied, avoiding eye contact.

"Yeah, real believable. Look as riveting as this is I'm leaving." I said, as I turned to leave heading towards the car park. Where I found the perfect car for my fun, a red Corvette.

"Somewhere you just got to be?" He asked, following me over to the Corvette.

"Anywhere but here." I said, as I jumped into the car pulling the wires from under the dash, I noticed that someone had striped them already. This car had been hot wired before.

"What are you doing?" Ryder asked, getting into the car with me.

"Stealing a car. What are you doing?" I questioned, looking at him in the dark seat next to me.

"Sitting in my car." He replied, holding up the car keys and dangling them in front of my face.

"Bullshit, this is your car? Really? Figures!" I couldn't believe it, what were the odds.

"Yeah." He said, watching me.

"Fine, Whatever give me the keys." I said, reaching for the keys.

"What? No." Ryder retorted, pulling the keys out of my reach.

"Fine. You drive, let's just get out of here already!" I sighed, resigning myself to his presence and part in my escape from boredom. I climbed over him to sit in the passenger seat.

"And go where?" He asked, moving into the drivers seat. He put the key in the ignition but didn't turn it on.

"Anywhere that's not here." I repeated, waiting for him to decide.

"I'm okay with that." Ryder returned, turning the key and driving out of the car park towards something better.

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RYDER

Depraved, Ignored and Superficial,

I feel depraved, ignored and superficial.

Depraved, ignored and superficial.

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I watched her as I drove us to a club I knew would be open in Carson. Morgana, was really pretty in the moonlight. I wanted to lean over and touch her but I didn't think she would let me. I thought about touching her for the length of our drive.

"Let's go our separate ways, when we get to the club." Morgana said, when we got to Carson.

"Uh, okay." I replied, What a loser. I had totally lost my nerve when it came to her. Usually when it came to girls I was so cool, so bad, I was like kiss me, touch me, come here, leave and they did whatever I said. Not now, now I was a bumbling idiot.

When we were about five minutes from the club I pulled the car over and turned off the ignition. I could see Morgana was surprised by my actions; she turned to look at me in the dark but didn't speak. Moving uncomfortably in my seat I realised, that she was waiting for me to say something. "What exactly are we doing? Why are we here?" I asked, wondering why I even cared.

"We are here because you just stopped here, and I was planning on dancing with some hot guy but I'm guessing that's not going to happen any more." Morgana answered, sounding slightly pissed off.

"You are right no dancing with hot guys, I've decided to take you back to the dorms. I didn't really mean to ask what I did, what I really wanted to know was 'Why are you here?' and I don't just mean here with me, I mean here in New Rawley?" I asked her, curious at the expression on here face, she looked almost lost.

"Why do you care? Why is it so important to you?" Morgana asked me in return, shifting in her seat, before getting out of the car completely.

"I don't know, I guess you're the first person I've met here who seems worth the trouble of getting to know. Maybe I'm just gathering ammunition about you, so I can publicly humiliate you." I replied, with some honesty.

Coming around to my side of the car, Morgana leaned against my car door, before replying. "What that's crap, not the stuff about me being worth the trouble, the other thing. Why do you always do that, pretend to be such a bastard? You've got everyone here believing the you are the anti-Christ."

"I am a bastard." I said, truthfully.

"Maybe, but why? But I don't believe it any way, there's something about you." Morgana remarked, freaking me a little.

Starting the car I waited for Morgana to get back in the car, before heading back to New Rawley. Neither of us spoke on the ride back to town, both preferring the quiet. When we reached the dorms I realised that Morgana hadn't answered any of my questions. I hadden't learnt any thing new about what made her tick but I realised that I might have learned a little something about myself. "Goodnight." I said, as she got out of my car.

"Yeah, goodnight.' Morgana replied, 'I just thought you should know, that just because you don't believe in yourself, that doesn't mean that no one does. I do, I believe in you Ryder Edward Ross."

Startled by what Morgana had just said, I watched her walk away from me without saying anything in return. I didn't think I could speak, even if I had something to say. I just wished I had just a little of her faith. As I sneaked back into my dorm room I realised that Morgana had called me by my full name, the name I used to have before my mother re-married. I fell asleep wondering how she had found out my real name.

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Sunday

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JAKE

For you, you must know.

I would cry for you, I would lie for you, and I would die for you.

You're killing me with the truth.

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'Oh, God', I thought when I looked at the clock. I had woken at 5am on a Sunday, "Must sleep, must sleep", I chanted trying to convince myself.

"What?" Hamilton asked on a yawn, and rolling over to cuddle me.

"I can't get back to sleep!" I said, hoping that if I admitted my problem it would go away. "I need more sleep," I demanded.

"Me too, so shut up." Ham said but he softened it with a kiss. He snuggled me in his arms, it must have been the magic answer to my problem sleeping because the next thing I knew it was 11am. Hamilton had woken me up by rummaging through draws looking for something to wear. "What are you looking for?" I asked, sitting up.

"Clean clothes." He replied, "I think today might have to be wash day. Can I borrow these jeans?" He asked holding up a pair of jeans that I thought had been lost forever amongst the cesspit that was our room.

"Sure' I said, 'but what will I wear?"

"Nothing, I actually believe you look best naked but then again I am kind of biased." Ham said.

"Okay, yes I am going to go and do the laundry naked. I don't think anyone will notice that I'm a girl, do you?" I asked as I made the bed.

"We could do it naked together." Hamilton said smiling at me as he pulled me back down onto the bed.

"That isn't laundry Ham, isn't that called sex?" I smiled back standing up; I spotted what looked like a clean top. Quickly grabbing it I slipped it on over my head.

"Okay, so is that a yes or no to the sex?" Ham asked while he watched me dress.

"A no for now but it's a yes to laundry, only I plan on being fully clothed how about you?" I questioned him. He looked so sexy just sitting there with only my jeans on and nothing else. Even the jeans were unfastened. Sexy, sexy, sexy. I was so attracted to Ham and I loved him, so I couldn't really work out this insane fear I had about us having sex. I wasn't afraid of sex by it's self but the thought of sex with Hamilton sent a fear unlike any other right through me. It was almost like I was afraid if we had sex things would go badly for us.

"I think I'll go naked, I like to live dangerously.' Ham replied, still watching me. 'It's not like I can find a top to wear." I picked up a T-shirt of mine with Our Lady Peace on the front, and threw it to him.

"Wear that." I suggested as I bent to dig through the debris hopeful of finding Hamilton's shoes or mine.

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HAMILTON

Her hair it shimmers and it shines.

Her love is so strong, it blows over mine.

I must believe in yesterday, to have tomorrow, so I can make you stay.

Heartbreaker, heartbreaker, why do you hide?

Come out where ever you are I need to recognise, the fear that lives inside my heart.

Heartbreaker, heartbreaker, please die.

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"Thanks" I said as I put on Jakes T-shirt. I thought about helping her to look for our shoes but I then thought my time would be best spent picking up the dirty clothes that littered every surface of our room. Grabbing a garbage bag, I began to shove our clothes into the bag. "Man, we are a couple of pigs!" I muttered.

"Yes, yes we are. I can do the washing if you like. Didn't you have some plans with Will today?" Jake asked, as she put on the shoes she had found under our bed. They didn't match.

Trying not to laugh at my girlfriend, I explained that both of us had been requested to join Will in his after date dissection. "Will, asked me to ask if you would come because you already know Lena so well. After all you two practically dated last summer." I couldn't help it I lost it almost wetting my pants at the thought of Jake being kissed by some girl who thought she was a guy.

"Funny." Jake responded as she whacked me over the head with the garbage bag of dirty clothes. "Take that and that Mr. funny man." She said as she this time launched herself at me.

We rolled together to the floor me on the bottom and her on top of me. We stopped laughing, realising the blatantly sexual position that we were in with her straddling my fast growing erection. I leaned up and she leaned down towards me until our mouths met in a passionate kiss. Jake was touching me and stroking me every where, her hands underneath my T-shirt. I broke our kiss so that I could kiss and lick her collarbone my own hands now traveling under her T-shirt. Stroking her nipples as she moaned into my mouth and began to dry hump me, her sex rubbing against mine. The friction so great it wasn't long before we both exploded. Lying together, breathing deep I lifted my head to look into her eyes trying to gage if she was okay with what had just happened between us. It had been a first. I knew that she wasn't ready for intercourse yet but what we had just done was pretty damn close.

Close enough to make us both come like crazy. Jake's eyes were closed, when I said "Well so much for clean clothes, I don't know about you but my jeans feel a little sticky."

"I...we..." Jake replied. I was just starting to get worried that she was upset about what had just happened when she grabbed my hand and put in her pants, between her legs.

God, she was so wet. I had done this to her. It was because of me wasn't it?

"Thank you." Jake said and kissed me. I removed me hand from her pants so she could sit up. We kissed some more but just when I was starting to get hard again she pushed me away. "I love you but I can't yet." Jake told me as she turned away from me.

All of a sudden I felt so cold, without her touch, without her near me. "I understand and as much as I love you and want you, I kind of feel the same. I don't know that I'm ready but I do need you. Please don't leave me or us, this, what just happened yet. Please come back to me, I need to hold you." I said and I meant it I did want her but at that moment all I wanted to do was hold her in my arms to keep her close to me, so I could breathe again.

"Okay, but just holding no caressing." Jake said as she lay down with me again on the floor. I agreed, I was all caressed out anyway. So I just held her, breathing in her scent, our scent the scent of our love. I held her and I was able to breath again.

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Will's voice over:- Home. I finally found it, it's not the house I grew up in and it's not here at Rawley. It's Lena and every thing about her. It's her essence, it fills me with such love and joy, and it makes any thing appear possible to me. When I'm with Lena my past and my Father just fade away in to the darkness. Hurt cannot reach me, because it is darkness and Lena is light. I love her, she is my home. The last few days have been like coming home after a very long trip. But it's more than just Lena; it's me too, the way I am when I'm with her and the way loving her sets me free. In her arms, wrapped in her love, I've come home.

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