AN: Sorry for posting so late today... i know i always post on tuesdays and fridays and i remembered like NOW... so... sorry...
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"So, Are you going to tell us what happened?" said Hermione as she came back from the telephone ordering some pizza.
"Nothing really happened." Said Harry casually.
"NOTHING?" said Draco
Harry turned around in surprise. "I thought you'd left already."
"As if. You still need to get to Ollivanders and get yourself a new wand. There is no way I'm leaving you totally vulnerable and unprotected."
"Why? What do you care?" said Harry
"Look Harry, you may not know it but you understand. You understand me, not what everyone made me out to be Harry. All through the years of bickering and insulting at each other, it was like talking to a friend, a real friend, not associates from my father's connections. A real friend who understood the unspoken words."
Hermione had stepped back. She understood this was a conversation that didn't include her. She grabbed Ron's hand and went upstairs to the room with Harry's sound system. After a few seconds they heard the sound of music blasting from the room.
"Draco, Thank You for saving me. And I don't know how you figured it out but you knew where I was. Anyone would have thought that Voldemort would have taken me. Even his closest death eaters wouldn't have guessed that he had nothing to do with my Disappearance. If anything were to happen to me it would be under Voldemorts name. And you knew where I was. And only someone who knew me, who knew the REAL me would know where to find me. And I'm glad that you did. You saved my life I owe you." Said Harry. It was definitely one of the hardest things Harry had ever said before but he said it. It was done.
"No, you don't owe me anything."
"Yes I do. You saved my life Draco."
"And you saved mine." Said Draco without looking at Harry.
"What do you mean? I never saved you from anything."
"Yes you did. You saved my life. You saved me from a life I would not have wanted to live. You, Harry Potter, showed me that even if my entire life I was deemed to be someone, that it could change. You saved my life from a fate worst than death itself."
"Draco, I didn't do anything. If anything you realized all that on your own."
"No, not without you I couldn't."
"What are you talking about? You figured it out, you realized your own fate yourself."
"But not without you!" said Draco as he stepped closer to Harry but never touching, never ever touching. "You showed me that, God Harry are you really that blind? After all those years?"
"What? Blind from what?"
"Harry, your hopeless. I don't even know how it even happened." said Draco rolling his eyes.
"How what happened? What are you talking about Draco?"
"Harry, who was the one who helped me into the Order?"
Harry shrugged "I don't know. Dumbledore?" Harry was confused. Why was Draco changing the subject?
"You did Harry!"
"I did no such thing!"
"Yes you did. You showed me how it would be like to be good. To fight for what you TRULY believed in."
"Again, I did nothing of that sort. Draco, I think my uncle might have sat on you and you didn't know it. Maybe you should have Hermione check you out."
"No Harry, that's not it." Draco dropped his head and shook it. He backed away and was now about half a metre apart from Harry.
"Look Draco, I really don't know what you are talking about. I haven't done anything to help you become what you are today."
"Harry, Dammit. Harry, you showed me how to love."
"I WHAT?"
"You showed me how to love dammit. I know you heard me the first time."
"I didn't show you a God damned thing."
"Harry, you may not feel the same way about me as I do you, but I love you. You showed me how it would be like to fall in love. You showed me how it would be like to be you own person. Harry, YOU did that. YOU showed me all that."
"Draco, I really think my uncle sat on you. You should really get yourself checked out. Look, I know Hermione just started Healer training but she's good. She'll help."
"Harry, stop it."
Harry was gripping onto the counter. He was hearing what he had always dreamed of hearing. He was hearing what he had wanted to hear the first time he laid eyes on Draco that day in the Great Hall.
Harry looked away. He couldn't take this. He wasn't going to let them become more than what they are now. He knew that one day he would have to go up against Voldemort. He knew that one day, that one day he would go into battle and there was a very big chance that he would not be able to return. He was not going to drag Draco into this. He was not going to let Draco feel hope and have it taken away from him. Not like it had been for him.
"Draco no. This is not going to happen."
"What? What is not going to happen? You don't mean that-"
"Draco, I'm not going to lie to you. I love you. You are the only one, ONLY one who understands me. Who sees me for me. Not as the one who will one day defeat the Dark Lord. You see me. You see Harry Potter. Whenever I see you I see life, I see hope but this can't go beyond that."
"Why not? If you feel it too then why not?"
"Because Draco, I'm not hope. You are hope and I'm not going to use you and have you suffer in the end."
"That's not going to happen. Look Harry, if you're worried about me suffering then let us be together. It's enough pain to not have you around. Not being able to hold you when you're hurt, not being able to wipe the tears away. That's true suffering."
"No, Draco. You know as well as everyone else. I'm going to one day face him. I'm going to go into battle and that one day I may not return. I refuse to do that to you. I'm not going to give you something you will not be able to keep forever."
"Harry don't you understand? I love you. That means that it wont ever stop. No matter what happens I will always love you. You can make it easier for both of us by just accepting us. If you love me then why can't we be? The feeling wont fade, it wont go away Harry. We might as well just enjoy the time together. Whatever happens, well Harry, let it happen because no matter what we will die, no matter what we will have hard times, just take what time, what joy we have now and let us be. Harry, just let it happen."
As Draco was saying all this he was slowly walking to Harry. Now that he knew Harry felt the same way about him, he might have a chance. it gave him a new layer of confidence.
"I'm not going to do that Draco. I'm not going to put you through that."
Draco walked right up to Harry and pointed his finger at Harry's 'oh so fine' chest. "The only thing you are putting me through right now is hell because you wont be with me. I love you, you love me. Why can't you just let us be?"
"I'm not going to hurt you Draco."
Draco couldn't take it any longer. He stepped up to Harry and kissed him. He didn't have far to go because Harry was only taller than Draco by an inch or so.
In the distance of their tangled love they heard the doorbell ring, must have been the pizza delivery guy.
Hermione could be heard notifying everyone in the house that she would answer the door.
The kiss was like nothing Harry had dreamed. His fantasies about Draco never got that far. The most he was able to imagine was Draco's beautiful gray eyes coming closer and closer into Harry's views engulfing his visions. Falling into the depts of Draco's eyes, letting the gray take him whole and wrap around Harry. This was nothing, nothing like his dreams. It was better. Harry wasn't the type to fool around in school. He stayed a virgin in every way. For Harry, love never meant anything. It wasn't important because he had never gotten any when he was younger. Not even the love of a parent, sure, the first year of his life he had gotten such love that his parents died for him but, it wasn't much. It wasn't enough. A toddler needs love, or else, it drives them insane, and no wonder Harry doesn't find any attraction for girls. He didn't even find any attraction for guys. It was only Draco.
The first time Harry ever felt anything at all was for Draco. Of course, Harry turned those feelings into spite and jealousy. Draco had what Harry never had. Draco had parents. Draco had a home. Draco had magic all his life. While Harry on the other hand had nothing like that. All of Harry's life leading up to Hogwarts had been his aunt and uncle telling him that he was a pest. That he never mattered. He didn't know what lead him to Draco, it never really was anything that made him fall in love with the beautiful blonde. It was just one day, he walked into the Great Hall and saw him. Harry saw Draco like he had never seen anyone before. Cho, Cho was a bitch. She was toying with Harry and deep down Harry knew. Cho was just someone he could hold his feelings for Draco to. Yes, Cho was pretty, her smile made the world shine a little brighter, but not bright enough. Draco gave Harry hope. Draco gave Harry a feeling Harry had never felt before. Draco gave Harry love.