Konnichiwa, minna-san! This is it! My first lengthy fic! See this as a preview of what the story will be about. I love Hatsuaharu's character. He's so much fun to write! I hope you will enjoy this fic!

Hold on To me, Love

By Pocochichi

Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Baskets nor Haru or any characters used in this story! Please read, review and enjoy!

PROLOGUE

Present-time

I am tired of you.

I don't need you anymore.

She stabbed a knife through my heart...after all we've been through...only to be hurt. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Always hurting. Crying inside. What did I miss?

The hospital atmosphere was cool as her words. The day was burning hot like the pain I feel inside. Slowing seething inside of me is my mixed emotions. Anger. Sadness. Confusion. I can't let anyone find out about us. I must keep it all to myself.

The walk home from the hospital was painfully draining. I wondered around for hours, harboring my pain. I don't want anybody to see what I'm feeling. I'll betray my own heart. The streets were quiet. The atmosphere was lonely. I walked by the places we always hang out together. Holding hands. Whispering sweet nothings. Running my fingers through those dark tresses. Holding her. Kissing her...

Kuso...How much I already miss those little things.

I came home around dinner hour so mom won't barged me with questions. Like she ever cared. Sitting at her vanity table all day, trying numbers of things to make her face into something else. I don't get her. I just let her do her thing. I'll do mine.

That night I sat in my room by the window. Which is strange...I usually play video games...or read the lastest manga...or something. The dark sky reflected me from the inside. A dark void is sucking me in...slowly...painfully. I closed my eyes and breathe in deeply. Don't take me away. Don't take me away...

The next day was hard to go through. Keeping me and myself together at school. I avoided talking to Momiji in class. I don't want him to know my pain. With his cheerful nature and happy-go-lucky attitude. My pain is the last thing he should experience. Class was a dull as usual. I usually don't pay any attention and copy the notes from Momiji. I stared at the clock, aching to get out...literally. The pain inside of me slowly building...eating my heart away.

When its finally lunchtime. I left the classroom before Momiji caught up with me to eat lunch with Yuki, Kyo and Honda-san. I drifted away from everyone. They must not know about us. They are fighting their own battles...especially Yuki. I wondered around, with hands in my pockets. Displaying my usual somber self. I looked out of the window and saw Yuki sitting on the school lawn and enjoying his lunch with Honda-san, Kyo and Honda-san's two friends. Momiji was with them too. Maybe I should join them, so they won't figure that something's wrong.

As I head down to the school's lawn, I felt a painful tinge inside my chest. What was that? It really hurt. I continued to the lawn to join my friends.

"Hey Haru," Yuki said with a light smile. Lately he' s been smiling a lot lately. "Where have you been? Momiji said you just took off..."

Kuso...I shouldn't have done that...

"I just have something to do. Nothing much."

"We are glad you are here to join us, Hatsuharu-san," Honda-san always have such as special aura around her. She make everyone around her feel special. Just what is her secret? My thoughts were interrupted by Momiji's question.

"What did you think of that story, Haru? I thought it was funny!" Momiji said as he open a candy wrapper. He sure has a thing for sugar. Wait. What story? I don't remember reading a story in class. Oh...yeah...I was not paying attention.

"Yeah, it was funny," was all I could say. That was the last thing I said before the lunch hour ended. Me and the rabbit returned to class. In class, I continue to ignore the day's lesson. Math isn't my thing. It won't make this pain go away.

After school, I ride home with Momji to the Honke. I said my goodbye to him and head straight home...however, I was stopped by as certain somebody.

"Hello Hatsuharu, how was your day at school?"

Not him. No...not now.

"It was alright"

"That's good. Perhaps you have a little time to spare...I haven't seen you in awhile..."

Kuso...kuso...

"I have some homework to do and I have to study for my math test coming up," I tried to make up excuses to get away from his clutches. It did not work. He came up and put his right hand on my face with his left on my arm. He smiled. Why is he smiling? What a disturbing smile it is.

"Homework could wait...I am more important...besides I actually don't believe you're the studious type..." He slide his right hand from my face to my arms and embraced me.

"Come with me, Hatsuharu. Hatori's being mean today. Shigure was not nice at all..."

I don't know what got me asking...but I had to ask...

"What about Kureno?"

He stopped and just gave me an evil glare. "He has work to do." He lead me inside the main house with me following.

A few hours with him felt like a few hours in a torture chamber. His hands. Those cold, pale hands! Caressing me for hours in a room with one source of light. That cold feeling entered my bloodstream. I can't...I can't...

I...can't...stand...it...

I went home afterwards and went straight up to my room. Mom was out again. Leaving dinner behind. I don't feel like eating when I am nauseated. I jumped into the shower trying to clean off what he left behind. I felt disgusted. I felt disgusting. Despite how hard I tried to clean off my body. I still feel his touches.

I went to my bed, lying there for hours...in my dark room...the void has become larger...sucking me in... Don't take me away...Don't take me away...

I barely slept that night. Waking up with the most painful feeling in my chest.

"Arrggh!"

I don't think I should go to school...yet, I can't let the others find out something's wrong...

I force myself to get dressed in my school uniform and my usual attire. The ride for me and Momiji arrived. We were both quiet in the morning. I have nothing to say, just seething in my pain. Momiji haven't had sugar yet. I went to my locker an retrieved my indoor shoes. Then, to class I go...

Time is ticking...How long this will be? I got through the first hour fine...But...this...pain...I couldn't stand the pain arising in my chest. Sweat starts to trickle from my forehead...my hands are shaking...I couldn't sit still... Its opened up...The void... Don't take me away...Don't take me away...

"Arggh! ARGGH!" KRASH! (Sound of a broken window)

"Haru!? What...is...Oh no! Don't worry everyone leave here immediately! I'll get help!"

It's stopped. The pain has stopped. It left me.

After that day...my heart starts to feel at ease when Yuki spoke to me after my rampage in the classroom. I told him about us. It feel so much better to let it out and to have someone know. Now...what's left is my love for her. My longing since we're young...since the beginning I wanted to hold her...

AN: How was that? The first time round I spelled something wrong, so made corrections. If there's something wrong, please tell me! I'll try to get the first chapter in ASAP, but I am working on a number of other projects, like more one-shotters and my orginal work. Oh yeah, if you listen to Evanescence, you noticed that this title is the first line of the song, "My Last Breath". In a way those lyrics could relate to Haru in a way. I should of written a songfic...oh well. See ya next chapter!