Hi everyone. Sorry for taking so long to update. I have been having a
really bad week, with my two teachers giving me really unfair grades.
There weren't many reviews so I will save that part for next chapter.
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The real me: Chapter 5
Serena got up that morning with an odd feeling. The feeling that something was going to happen today. Although, it was an ominous feeling, and so lingered underneath the covers as long was possible. She did come out eventually though, for she was looking forward to her meeting with Darien later that day. Not only that, but today was the day she was going to take Amy to see Pierre!
She walked up the cobblestone steps to Amy's elegant house with beautiful Tudor architecture. "Amy! It's me, Serena!" She said into the little box near the door to the house. Instead of a friendly greeting, or joyful acclamation she replied in a harsh voice
"Oh, what do YOU want?" "Since we don't have to go to work until 2, I thought we could go do something together, just the two of us." "Okay, I will be down in a second."
Amy came down in a few minutes, looking just like Amy usually did. Blue hair, the same color as her beautiful blue eyes. Pierre would not have much work to do. Just a little makeup, and a trim on her hair, some different clothes (not the baggy, unfashionable things she was wearing currently) and then she would be perfect!
"So, where are we going today?" Amy asked. "We could go to the park, or we could." "I sort of made reservations for us." Serena replied. "Where?" Amy asked. "It's a surprise! Now, keep your eyes closed until we get there." "But, then I can't drive." "I'll drive of course!" "I don't think that's a good idea, I mean you just barely passed the test, and being in the car with me has taught me that I do not, ever, want to get in the same car you are driving." "I'm not that bad! It's the car's! Like, it's not MY fault if the steering wheel makes me unable to drive straight. I got a new one though! So it won't be a problem!"
Amy gave Serena with a disbelieving look.
"Alright! I will call a cab." "Good."
Soon, they arrived at the very beauty parlor that Serena had gone to, just a little while before.
"Okay! We're here!" "Wow! I always did want to see that new art gallery!" Amy said, while looking at an abstract art gallery across the street. "No, silly. I don't care about boring art. We're going in here." Serena said, gesturing to the parlor. "Why would I want to go in there?" "So you can get a makeover, and then you will be good enough to be a model." "What do you mean, good enough?" "Well, your face needs a little work, and no offense, but right now your hair is cut really roughly." Amy looked upset. It was a little while before she answered.
"Serena, you've changed. You used to not care about looks, but ever since you got that make over you have become uncaring, and shallow. A few months ago, you would have laughed at the idea of becoming a model. But now." "Now, I am having the best time I've ever had, in my entire life! I have a great boy friend, a great job, where I have made lots of friends; people give me free clothes and gifts wherever I go. Before, people seemed disturbed at the sight of me." "You never cared! I would know, I've been your best friend, forever since we met in 4th grade. I know you inside and out." "Maybe you didn't know me as well as you thought you did."
Amy looked really hurt now; tears were beginning to form in her eyes.
"Besides, even if I did want to become a model, which I don't, I would want to be one because of what I am now. I don't want to have to spend lots of money, just to become something I'm not." "Are you saying this isn't the real me? I mean, this is what I am. Come on Amy, I know you want to. You'll look great! And then I will pull some strings, and before it you'll be a model just like me. I have made A LOT of friends. And will introduce them to you." "You mean those snobs? Why would I want to meet them." "What's wrong with you Amy? Those are my friends!" "Aren't I your friend? Serena, I don't want to do this. I have always gotten what I wanted by working hard for it; by myself. I don't want you to have to force someone else to let me become a model! I thought that today we would have a chance to repair our dieing friendship. You've been really distant lately. And now I learn that you jut want to change who I am! It's the last straw. Serena, I don't know if we can be friends anymore, but I deeply suggest you to reflect on yourself about who you are." Amy said, while crying, and then she called a cab and left. "I'll see you at work." She said while the cab was pulling away.
"Wait Amy! It's not like that! It's not what you think! I just." Serena called desperately, not wanting to break her friendship with Amy. But it was too late, Amy had left.
'Amy. This didn't go how I expected it to go. I want you to be happy. Why won't you let me help you?" Serena thought.
She sat down on the steps and started to cry. 'I'm going to call Seiya, he'll make me feel better.'
She dialed the digits so Seiya's phone.
"Seiya, hey, it's me." Serena said tearfully. "What's wrong? Are you alright?" "No, I fine. Can I talk to you?" "Sure. Where are you?" "At the corner or Floral and Pine. Do you know where that is?" "Of course." "Okay then, bye."
Serena waited for a little while, and then Pierre came out and asked why she wasn't with her friend keeping the reservation.
"My friend and I got into a fight." "I hope you don't mind me asking what the cause of the fight was?" "Well, I wanted her to become a model, and she didn't want to and I tried to persuade her that she would be a lot happier if she just got a make over." "If she didn't want one, why did you try to force her?" "Well, she's my best friend. I want her to be happy." "How do you know she's not happy as she is right now?" "Well, she would be happier if she was a model like me." "Maybe that's the problem. I think that you two have differing opinions of happy. I think that your friend Amy has a lot of sense. She doesn't need a lot to be happy. I don't think that she wants to change how she is right now. But people change and then who knows? Maybe she will be just dieing to become a model. And then you will have to make sure you are there for her. Just give her some time Alright?" "Thank you Pierre. You are really good at giving advice." "Your welcome."
At that moment, Sieya came into the picture. "Serena, there you are!" Seiya said. "Who is this Serena?" "Oh! Pierre, this is my boyfriend Seiya! Sieya, this is Pierre." "Nice to meet you Pierre." "Likewise." 'Likewise not. I do not like this man. He looks very.dishonest. And, I always thought that Master Shields would be together with this lovely maiden. Lack of better judgment on Serena's part must have lead to this decision. Alas, this is the learning process, I can only think for the best.' "Come on Seiya, let's go somewhere we can talk. Thank you Pierre!" "You are quite welcome mademoiselle."
Sieya and Serena drove off to a nearby café.
"Thanks for coming Seiya." "No problem. You sounded really sad on the phone, what happened?" "I got into a fight with Amy, but Pierre gave me some really good advice, and now I am okay." "Well, if you're sure." "I'm fine. Thanks for taking all the trouble for nothing though." "It's okay, you know, I would do anything for you." "Awww that so sweet!" 'Heh, it's so sweet that I might want to barf. How much longer to I have to keep up this lovesick puppy thing?' "I love you Serena." 'Well not really' 'I can't let Seiya down this time! He'll be so hurt. And he dropped everything just to make sure I was okay today.There's no chance of me and Darien anyway.' "I.I love you too, Sieya"
And then Seiya kissed Serena on the cheek.
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Later, at Shields..
"Hello Serena." "Hi Molly, Is Darien here yet?" "Yes, go right in, he is expecting you."
Serena was quite nervous, but she squared her shoulders, and walked resolutely into Darien's office.
"Hello Miss. James." Darien said, with his back towards Serena. "Call me Serena please Mr. Shields." "Alright, then call me Darien." A few minutes passed, and no one said anything.
"So, what did you want to talk to me about Serena?" Darien said, his back stilled turned away from her. "Well, first of all, I want to know why you decided to give me you decided to give me this makeover." No answer "And second, I want to know why you have been avoiding me these past few months, Serena said, gaining more confidence as she went along. No answer. Serena was beginning to become frustrated. "Why wont you answer me?" She said aggravated. Suddenly, the chair swung around, so that Darien was facing Serena. "So, you really want to know Serena? Or are you happier living in this happy little life living has become for you?" Serena gasped. Darien looked different. It was not that he dressed differently, he didn't get a haircut, no, his physical appearance was the same. It was his eyes. Something was different about his eyes. "Of course, I want to know." Serena said hesitantly. "Okay then, I will tell you. I love you. Ever since that day long ago, that I saw you on the floor, I knew I loved you. It wasn't like anything that I had ever experienced before. Usually, I will just date any pretty model that comes along. But there was something that dress me to you.I didn't know what at the time. I wanted to change how you looked though, you had potential, and I could see it then. I though that maybe if you became a model at Shields we could get to know each other. So that's why I took you to Pierre. Why have I been avoiding you this past month? Simple. I am a coward. I was too afraid of confronting you, telling you how I really felt. After all, loving from afar is better then not loving at all right? Even if you didn't feel the same way, even if you fell in love with someone else, you would still be at Shields. And then, I could continue to be in love with you. Serena, this past month has been different. You are always on my mind, when I am awake, asleep, at work. It because of you Serena, you."
A heavy silence.
'Oh my goodness! Darien loves me. He really loves me! My dream is coming true! It too good to be true! We will be so happy together, I know it! Oh no.I completely forgot about Seiya? If I tell him I am going to break up with him because I am in love with his best friend, he'll be devastated. And, he is so good to me, he takes care of me, he comforted me today, he loves me. And I said I loved him too. Sieya is too good to lose. Even if I don't love him now, I can grow in love right? Darien is probably just faking it anyways, he's never stayed with anyone long enough to know what love is. I'm going to turn him down. I know that Seiya would never do anything to hurt my, he is such a gentleman. It may break my heart to do this though.' thought Serena.
'I love this woman more then she will ever know. I love her with every fiber of my soul and being, and I pray to all the gods in heaven that she loves me too. Or, at least feels something for me.' Thought Darien,
"I am afraid I do not return your affection, Darien." Serena said coolly. "And besides, you are my boss, and it would look bad if we started to date. I have a boyfriend, and I am perfectly happy with him. I think that we should forget that this ever happened, and continue the relationship we had before this. At the very least, we should be friends." Serena said, and gave Darien a small smile. "Now, I am going to have to leave, thank you for the conversation. I will see you around Darien."
And with that, she left the room, leaving behind a shocked Darien. You see, he had never been turned down before; no one had ever been able to resist him. And now, when it mattered the most, he had been. Darien got up with resolve. He wouldn't let this stop him. Maybe if he got to know Serena a little bit better something would turn up. Or at least maybe they could be what Serena had suggested. 'Friends.'
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Serena was pleased with how she had handled the situation. She still had a boyfriend, and her job, and she hadn't ruined her relationship with Darien (well at least she hoped so). She had gotten the answers she had wanted, even though they were a little bit unexpected, they were definitely welcome. 'Things were going to change around here,' She thought. No longer am I going to meek, and let people push me around. I am going to be myself, and I am going to be happy that way. I am going to fall in love with Sieya, and we are going to have the rest of our lives together. Amy and I will renew our friendship, and Darien? Darien will be my friend, nothing more.
********************************* Author's note: Well, how did you like it? Sorry it took so long, just I was busy with school, and then there was the holiday. But hopefully updates will come sooner because I got a computer put in my room, and I will be able to work on chapters more. I think. This was 6 pages, aren't you proud of me? More soon, I promise. And please, please, PLEASE review. I need feedback. Although, if they are reviews of criticism please let them be constructive. One of my favorite writers got this completely awful review that sickened me, and angered me at the same time. If you really dislike my story, just stop reading it okay? Because there are people who do like my story, and want me to continue, and nothing you do is going to stop me. All right? Thank you! I know, I haven't gotten any flames yet, just wanted to be cautious for the time being. (
-Snow-pheonix PS, I just noticed, but when I spell pheonix I spell it wrong. It's really supposed to be phoenix. Oh well, too late to change now (And it kind of looks better in my opinion. What do you think?)! Me and my horrible spelling. Sigh.
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The real me: Chapter 5
Serena got up that morning with an odd feeling. The feeling that something was going to happen today. Although, it was an ominous feeling, and so lingered underneath the covers as long was possible. She did come out eventually though, for she was looking forward to her meeting with Darien later that day. Not only that, but today was the day she was going to take Amy to see Pierre!
She walked up the cobblestone steps to Amy's elegant house with beautiful Tudor architecture. "Amy! It's me, Serena!" She said into the little box near the door to the house. Instead of a friendly greeting, or joyful acclamation she replied in a harsh voice
"Oh, what do YOU want?" "Since we don't have to go to work until 2, I thought we could go do something together, just the two of us." "Okay, I will be down in a second."
Amy came down in a few minutes, looking just like Amy usually did. Blue hair, the same color as her beautiful blue eyes. Pierre would not have much work to do. Just a little makeup, and a trim on her hair, some different clothes (not the baggy, unfashionable things she was wearing currently) and then she would be perfect!
"So, where are we going today?" Amy asked. "We could go to the park, or we could." "I sort of made reservations for us." Serena replied. "Where?" Amy asked. "It's a surprise! Now, keep your eyes closed until we get there." "But, then I can't drive." "I'll drive of course!" "I don't think that's a good idea, I mean you just barely passed the test, and being in the car with me has taught me that I do not, ever, want to get in the same car you are driving." "I'm not that bad! It's the car's! Like, it's not MY fault if the steering wheel makes me unable to drive straight. I got a new one though! So it won't be a problem!"
Amy gave Serena with a disbelieving look.
"Alright! I will call a cab." "Good."
Soon, they arrived at the very beauty parlor that Serena had gone to, just a little while before.
"Okay! We're here!" "Wow! I always did want to see that new art gallery!" Amy said, while looking at an abstract art gallery across the street. "No, silly. I don't care about boring art. We're going in here." Serena said, gesturing to the parlor. "Why would I want to go in there?" "So you can get a makeover, and then you will be good enough to be a model." "What do you mean, good enough?" "Well, your face needs a little work, and no offense, but right now your hair is cut really roughly." Amy looked upset. It was a little while before she answered.
"Serena, you've changed. You used to not care about looks, but ever since you got that make over you have become uncaring, and shallow. A few months ago, you would have laughed at the idea of becoming a model. But now." "Now, I am having the best time I've ever had, in my entire life! I have a great boy friend, a great job, where I have made lots of friends; people give me free clothes and gifts wherever I go. Before, people seemed disturbed at the sight of me." "You never cared! I would know, I've been your best friend, forever since we met in 4th grade. I know you inside and out." "Maybe you didn't know me as well as you thought you did."
Amy looked really hurt now; tears were beginning to form in her eyes.
"Besides, even if I did want to become a model, which I don't, I would want to be one because of what I am now. I don't want to have to spend lots of money, just to become something I'm not." "Are you saying this isn't the real me? I mean, this is what I am. Come on Amy, I know you want to. You'll look great! And then I will pull some strings, and before it you'll be a model just like me. I have made A LOT of friends. And will introduce them to you." "You mean those snobs? Why would I want to meet them." "What's wrong with you Amy? Those are my friends!" "Aren't I your friend? Serena, I don't want to do this. I have always gotten what I wanted by working hard for it; by myself. I don't want you to have to force someone else to let me become a model! I thought that today we would have a chance to repair our dieing friendship. You've been really distant lately. And now I learn that you jut want to change who I am! It's the last straw. Serena, I don't know if we can be friends anymore, but I deeply suggest you to reflect on yourself about who you are." Amy said, while crying, and then she called a cab and left. "I'll see you at work." She said while the cab was pulling away.
"Wait Amy! It's not like that! It's not what you think! I just." Serena called desperately, not wanting to break her friendship with Amy. But it was too late, Amy had left.
'Amy. This didn't go how I expected it to go. I want you to be happy. Why won't you let me help you?" Serena thought.
She sat down on the steps and started to cry. 'I'm going to call Seiya, he'll make me feel better.'
She dialed the digits so Seiya's phone.
"Seiya, hey, it's me." Serena said tearfully. "What's wrong? Are you alright?" "No, I fine. Can I talk to you?" "Sure. Where are you?" "At the corner or Floral and Pine. Do you know where that is?" "Of course." "Okay then, bye."
Serena waited for a little while, and then Pierre came out and asked why she wasn't with her friend keeping the reservation.
"My friend and I got into a fight." "I hope you don't mind me asking what the cause of the fight was?" "Well, I wanted her to become a model, and she didn't want to and I tried to persuade her that she would be a lot happier if she just got a make over." "If she didn't want one, why did you try to force her?" "Well, she's my best friend. I want her to be happy." "How do you know she's not happy as she is right now?" "Well, she would be happier if she was a model like me." "Maybe that's the problem. I think that you two have differing opinions of happy. I think that your friend Amy has a lot of sense. She doesn't need a lot to be happy. I don't think that she wants to change how she is right now. But people change and then who knows? Maybe she will be just dieing to become a model. And then you will have to make sure you are there for her. Just give her some time Alright?" "Thank you Pierre. You are really good at giving advice." "Your welcome."
At that moment, Sieya came into the picture. "Serena, there you are!" Seiya said. "Who is this Serena?" "Oh! Pierre, this is my boyfriend Seiya! Sieya, this is Pierre." "Nice to meet you Pierre." "Likewise." 'Likewise not. I do not like this man. He looks very.dishonest. And, I always thought that Master Shields would be together with this lovely maiden. Lack of better judgment on Serena's part must have lead to this decision. Alas, this is the learning process, I can only think for the best.' "Come on Seiya, let's go somewhere we can talk. Thank you Pierre!" "You are quite welcome mademoiselle."
Sieya and Serena drove off to a nearby café.
"Thanks for coming Seiya." "No problem. You sounded really sad on the phone, what happened?" "I got into a fight with Amy, but Pierre gave me some really good advice, and now I am okay." "Well, if you're sure." "I'm fine. Thanks for taking all the trouble for nothing though." "It's okay, you know, I would do anything for you." "Awww that so sweet!" 'Heh, it's so sweet that I might want to barf. How much longer to I have to keep up this lovesick puppy thing?' "I love you Serena." 'Well not really' 'I can't let Seiya down this time! He'll be so hurt. And he dropped everything just to make sure I was okay today.There's no chance of me and Darien anyway.' "I.I love you too, Sieya"
And then Seiya kissed Serena on the cheek.
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Later, at Shields..
"Hello Serena." "Hi Molly, Is Darien here yet?" "Yes, go right in, he is expecting you."
Serena was quite nervous, but she squared her shoulders, and walked resolutely into Darien's office.
"Hello Miss. James." Darien said, with his back towards Serena. "Call me Serena please Mr. Shields." "Alright, then call me Darien." A few minutes passed, and no one said anything.
"So, what did you want to talk to me about Serena?" Darien said, his back stilled turned away from her. "Well, first of all, I want to know why you decided to give me you decided to give me this makeover." No answer "And second, I want to know why you have been avoiding me these past few months, Serena said, gaining more confidence as she went along. No answer. Serena was beginning to become frustrated. "Why wont you answer me?" She said aggravated. Suddenly, the chair swung around, so that Darien was facing Serena. "So, you really want to know Serena? Or are you happier living in this happy little life living has become for you?" Serena gasped. Darien looked different. It was not that he dressed differently, he didn't get a haircut, no, his physical appearance was the same. It was his eyes. Something was different about his eyes. "Of course, I want to know." Serena said hesitantly. "Okay then, I will tell you. I love you. Ever since that day long ago, that I saw you on the floor, I knew I loved you. It wasn't like anything that I had ever experienced before. Usually, I will just date any pretty model that comes along. But there was something that dress me to you.I didn't know what at the time. I wanted to change how you looked though, you had potential, and I could see it then. I though that maybe if you became a model at Shields we could get to know each other. So that's why I took you to Pierre. Why have I been avoiding you this past month? Simple. I am a coward. I was too afraid of confronting you, telling you how I really felt. After all, loving from afar is better then not loving at all right? Even if you didn't feel the same way, even if you fell in love with someone else, you would still be at Shields. And then, I could continue to be in love with you. Serena, this past month has been different. You are always on my mind, when I am awake, asleep, at work. It because of you Serena, you."
A heavy silence.
'Oh my goodness! Darien loves me. He really loves me! My dream is coming true! It too good to be true! We will be so happy together, I know it! Oh no.I completely forgot about Seiya? If I tell him I am going to break up with him because I am in love with his best friend, he'll be devastated. And, he is so good to me, he takes care of me, he comforted me today, he loves me. And I said I loved him too. Sieya is too good to lose. Even if I don't love him now, I can grow in love right? Darien is probably just faking it anyways, he's never stayed with anyone long enough to know what love is. I'm going to turn him down. I know that Seiya would never do anything to hurt my, he is such a gentleman. It may break my heart to do this though.' thought Serena.
'I love this woman more then she will ever know. I love her with every fiber of my soul and being, and I pray to all the gods in heaven that she loves me too. Or, at least feels something for me.' Thought Darien,
"I am afraid I do not return your affection, Darien." Serena said coolly. "And besides, you are my boss, and it would look bad if we started to date. I have a boyfriend, and I am perfectly happy with him. I think that we should forget that this ever happened, and continue the relationship we had before this. At the very least, we should be friends." Serena said, and gave Darien a small smile. "Now, I am going to have to leave, thank you for the conversation. I will see you around Darien."
And with that, she left the room, leaving behind a shocked Darien. You see, he had never been turned down before; no one had ever been able to resist him. And now, when it mattered the most, he had been. Darien got up with resolve. He wouldn't let this stop him. Maybe if he got to know Serena a little bit better something would turn up. Or at least maybe they could be what Serena had suggested. 'Friends.'
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Serena was pleased with how she had handled the situation. She still had a boyfriend, and her job, and she hadn't ruined her relationship with Darien (well at least she hoped so). She had gotten the answers she had wanted, even though they were a little bit unexpected, they were definitely welcome. 'Things were going to change around here,' She thought. No longer am I going to meek, and let people push me around. I am going to be myself, and I am going to be happy that way. I am going to fall in love with Sieya, and we are going to have the rest of our lives together. Amy and I will renew our friendship, and Darien? Darien will be my friend, nothing more.
********************************* Author's note: Well, how did you like it? Sorry it took so long, just I was busy with school, and then there was the holiday. But hopefully updates will come sooner because I got a computer put in my room, and I will be able to work on chapters more. I think. This was 6 pages, aren't you proud of me? More soon, I promise. And please, please, PLEASE review. I need feedback. Although, if they are reviews of criticism please let them be constructive. One of my favorite writers got this completely awful review that sickened me, and angered me at the same time. If you really dislike my story, just stop reading it okay? Because there are people who do like my story, and want me to continue, and nothing you do is going to stop me. All right? Thank you! I know, I haven't gotten any flames yet, just wanted to be cautious for the time being. (
-Snow-pheonix PS, I just noticed, but when I spell pheonix I spell it wrong. It's really supposed to be phoenix. Oh well, too late to change now (And it kind of looks better in my opinion. What do you think?)! Me and my horrible spelling. Sigh.