AN: Thank you all for reading! I hope you'll look out my next long fic (shameless plug) Summer's End. It's a Yuki/Machi fic. There aren't too many of those...that's why I am writing it as well as being a fan to the new pairing. Sorry to Yukiru fans! If you like Shigure, look out for the two one-shots with him: Naughty by Nature (His POV) and My Angel, Their God (Gure/Akito). Enjoy!
EPILOUGE
Present-time
I am tired of you
I don't need you anymore.
When those words were said, I was not lying. I really don't need him anymore. As harsh as it sounds, I didn't mean it that way. He needs to understand that I have my own priorities...he was the priority. I can't let him know that I am searching a way out for him. Now, that I am out of his way, he could find a new path in life...and I'll be the one who will pave that path.
After summer vacation ended, I encountered with that meddling rat, whose prying into our business. What right did he have?
"Rin, you were trying to protect Haru weren't you?"
Damn him! He made me so angry that I blurted out the real reason why he's living outside.
"Do you know how you got out? It was because of Haru! That's right...he made some half-baked deal with Shigure to let you live with him!"
I started to hit him where it hurts and I couldn't get myself to stop. He was sticking his damn nose where it doesn't belong!
"Stay out of my business! This is none of your concern, you...you bastard!"
I really overdone it. Haru thought so too...
"Bastard, huh? Bastard is not a nice word...Rin."
After a brief moment with that rat, he started to come closer to me...reaching out.
"Stay away from me... Don't come any closer!" I yelled.
"So you want it that way. Fine. It doesn't matter if I die..."
What was he talking about? Die? Right when I got lost in my thoughts, he took advantage, pulled me into a tight embrace and kissed me. I was shocked he would do that, even when we are not together anymore. The kiss felt so familiar...that I couldn't let go.
He held me close and spoke softly next to my ear. His voice was like a soft lullaby.
"Of course I'm lying.
To talk of dying...
Rin... Did I... understand nothing?
I intended to try and understand everything about you.
Did I Did I miss your greatest cry?
...Rin...in the end...
...you're still that little girl unable to go on her own. Still crying..."
WHAT?! I wish he didn't say that! I smacked him across the face for underestimating me and ran off to a nearby area to vent off my frustrations. He doesn't understand or know that I am doing this on my own for his sake! In the end, I may not be strong in many ways...but I am learning to fight on my own.
Just because I broke up with him and slapped him doesn't mean I don't love him anymore. I still do. It's just that I couldn't be with him anymore...not after that...
"He doesn't need you! You don't derseve him! How dare you touch my things! You should pay, you hag!"
I couldn't let him get hurt.
That man was right. I don't deserve him. He don't need me. I have done nothing for him after all the years he has given everything to me. I won't let that devil have him! I won't let him suffer under his spell of manipulation! I have to find it...the end of a bad dream.
When that day comes, Haru would be able to go on his own... free of everything...of Akito...of the curse and...of me.
Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
I miss being with you. You were everything to me. Although, I am fighting alone...I am not afraid. So, please Haru...let me do this alone.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
I wish I was your heart...so I could always be with you. I want to be the one who keeps you alive. Let me be the one who gives...you my last breath.
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
You were so kind...I wish I wasn't the one to make you cry...but I must go.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
Just have faith in me...that I could make it...just give me a chance...to fight with until my last breath.
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Our memories returned to me in my dreams. I never forgotten our days together...all the emotions we shared...you were my family...you were my home...
Say goodnight
...my first love...
Don't be afraid
...my Haru.
Calling me calling me as you fade to black
It's alright...It's alright...in the end you'll see....the reason of my doing was....
"Because I love you, that's why."
Yes. That's why.
Lyrics by: EVANESCENCE - "My Last Breath"
THANK YOU TO ALL MY READERS:
Haru and Kisa Lover: Thanks for being one of my biggest readers! Plus, the grammar thing really made me look over at stuff more closely, Arigato! If I am inspired, I might write a fic about Kisa and Haru. Thanks again for keeping up with my works! Thank you for all your kind compliments!
AikaishiI am glad you like the fic and happy to be an inspiration! Thanks for helping me here and there with my deranged spelling. You are right that there is not enough Haru/Rin fics out there. I wrote this fic because I this paring is so intriguing, plus I want to do something different than everyone else. There are very interesting individuals...both Rin and Haru. Haru's the nice, calm, cool, my pace type of guy whose always sweet to everyone and Rin's the stubborn, strong woman with good intentions of her negative actions. They really complement each other, ne?
KawaiiAyuYay! Thanks for cheering me on! It really kept me going! Another Rin/Haru fic? Hmm...it's a possibility...if I am inspired again.
Kori hime: Yay! You did keep your promise! The scans are a good visual to have during this story. It really helps to illustrate what the atmosphere was like.
CrapShack: They are my favorite couple too!
sakuryoArigato!