Beyond My World

- Silence Kills -

Paige POV
I was comforting Hazel outside as we looked at the signs and notes kids left the night before. I can't believe someone I have none for so long was shot. He was a good guy. He never deserved that. Besides, he was defending Rick. What would have made him shoot Jimmy after all he did for him. I was watching Hazel wipe her tears in her tissue. She was just sniffling now. I knew it wasn't a good idea for her to come to school today. I saw Spinner pass by us to go into the building. I was so upset to realize that I had been mad at Spinner for fighting with Craig over Manny. I looked inside the building to see Spinner trying to walk away from Jay. That's when I saw Spinner punch him in the face. I asked Hazel if it was ok if I went inside real quick. She nodded and I ran into the building. I saw Jay walking away to go after Alex, whom was refusing to talk to him. I ran after him. I saw him in the classroom with his head down on the desk. I went up to him. My first instinct was to call him Honeybee, because that's what I always called him when I saw him in pain. I made little circles on his back with my hand. He turned and looked at me, I looked into his eyes and hugged him tightly.

"I'm sorry Paige. It's all my fault. First losing you, now almost losing my best friend" he cried to me. He had this guilty sound is his voice. I mean his best friend was shot. He had no choice but to blame himself. I wouldn't know why.

"Spinner, it's not your fault" I told him

"How would you know" he told me. I froze. I pulled away from him and looked at him. What was he talking about. Why would he saw something like that.

"Spin, Spin what are you talking about" I asked him.

"I-I, I should of defended him" Spinner said to me. I sighed. I looked at him and pulled a chair in front of him and sat down.

"Spinner, you couldn't defend him, you didn't know it was coming. No one did. Jimmy was trying to help Rick, but Rick...." I said and then paused

"Rick is a phsyco. Or was a phsyco. He's not hurting anyone, not anymore" he said. I hugged him again. I cried on his shoulder.

I was in front of the school hand in hand with my girlfriend. We were looking at the shrine to violence that struck my school. What bothered me the most was no one cared about the details. All they cared about was Jimmy's health at the hospital and the fact that Rick was shot and dead. But half those kids don't know the truth. The only ones who cared were the damned news reporters. One came up to my face. My girlfriend looked at me. She looked so scared. I almost had the feeling to trash the camera to the floor. But I walked away, pulling Ellie with me. But no matter what they followed. I ran inside and went into the gym where kids were sitting everywhere. Ellie and I took a seat on the bleachers.

"Sean, maybe we should go home" Ellie told me

"No, I'm fine" I told her.

"Sean please. Your obviously not" she cried to me. I stood up and walked away.

"Sean" she cried after me

I turned around and looked at her. I don't know what got in to me, but my mind was confused. The words just spilled out of my mouth

"Ellie, leave me alone. Please, I'm sick of everyone worrying about me, ok. Just cut the act" I yelled and walked away slamming the gym doors open. The noise echoed through the gym and hallway. Everyone kept looking at me like I was Rick. I guess people heard about me being the hero. But people don't know what it's really about. I saw Emma coming towards me with tears in her eyes. She down an empty hallway into the girls bathroom. I looked down the hall as the door had closed. I was gonna walk away, but something told me I had to talk to her. No one was to be seen in the halls, so I went into the bathrrom.

AN: I know this was a short crappy chapter. But the other half isn't done, so I decided I just to put this half up. So you'll get that on Saturday!!!!!!!