Bandpractise
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon.
Bandpractise
When he was home, he threw his things in a corner and went into the bathroom to take a shower.
Matt doubt that he dirty feeling would leave him, but he wanted to be 'clean'.
After Matt showered he felt a bit better, but not much.
He sat down on the couch and started at wall.
He looked at the big clock that his dad hung up.
The clock said that it was nearly half past seven.
Matt took the information and he let his head fall back. He closed his eyes.
His eyes snapped open when he remembered something: "Tai!".
Matt jumped up, but he had to steady himself, `cause there was a pain that went through his whole back.
But he couldn't be late again, Tai would e so disappointed and maybe he wouldn't even talk to him again.
Matt walked into his room to get dressed into something that would impress Tai.
He wanted to make Tai feel good.
Matt dressed fast enough to be ready in time and slow enough so that it wouldn't hurt him too much.
When he was ready he started his way over to Tais apartment.
Tai sat on a chair and stared at the clock.
"He is going to come, it's only five to eight. He is coming", Tai thought loud and shifted his position on the chair.
The doorbell rang and Tai jumped up.
When he wanted to open the door he decided to let Matt wait a little longer.
And he let Matt wait, but when the other boy rang the doorbell for the second time Tai opened the door.
He tried to look as if he was busy with something and when he looked up he saw Matt.
"Oh, Matt! It's already that late? I had so much to do, I completely forgot the time."
"I see, I can come back later if you have so much to do", Matt said.
Tai made a face and quickly said: "It wasn't that important. Come in."
When Matt entered Tai lay a hand on his back and the pain was back.
Matt tried his best not to wince.
He didn't want to make Tai suspicious and he could relax again when Tai took his hand away.
Like Tai had promised he had cooked and to Matts surprise nothing broke.
Even the meal tasted good.
Matt was still shocked, but he tried everything to act and look normal.
But Tai knew Matt better than that and he could tell that something was wrong with his boyfriend.
He wanted to make Matt happy and he knew exactly what he wanted to do.
He didn't want to force Matt to tell him what was on his mind, `cause he knew that Matt wouldn't answer him. And so he didn't even tried it.
He only wanted to make Matt happy and smile again.
And what ever was on the other boys mind couldn't be so bad.
And Tai was the only one that could make Matt smile when he was upset.
Nearly every time.
Yesterday he didn't even manage to talk to Matt or to do something with him.
And this was something Tai had to think about, but yesterday was over and Tai tried to concentrate on his goal: Matt.
Slowly he creeped, from Matt unnoticed, over to the other boy.
Matt was still looking at the tv and he tried to understand the film Tai had chosen.
Tai creeped closer and he lay his head on Matts shoulder.
Matt didn't move one bit and Tai opened his eyes and looked up at him.
"Matt?", he asked.
"Hm?", was the answer.
"What is it?"
"What is what? I'm only watching the movie", responded the blond.
"But this is a trashy film!"
"And?", Matt asked and he felt more and more uncomfortable around Tai, who sat a little closer than a minute before.
"Oh, come on! I know that you can't stand this sort of film", said Tai, who was getting a bit angry.
"I can always change my mind, can't I?", and with that Matt turned his head again to focus on the film.
"But", Tai was interrupted.
"Tai! This is the best part in the whole movie! If you have nothing against it, I want to watch it!", Matt snapped without even looking at Tai.
Tai sat up and looked at Matt from the corner of his eyes, he only got half of the story the movie was about.
'Yeah, sure! This is nothing! It's crap! This film is so boring', thought Tai when he saw a woman and a man who were in a boat on a lake. And nothing happened. They only talked nonsense.
But on the other hand it seemed as if Matt was really liking this movie, `cause he was still starring at the tv.
What Tai didn't knew was that Matt didn't even noticed what the film was about.
The blond was only looking straight ahead while he tried to sort things out.
At some point Matt couldn't keep his eyes open and he fell in a dreamless sleep.
When Matt woke up hours later he felt a weight on his chest.
Someone was laying on him.
While he had slept Tai creeped closer and one of his hands lay on Matts belly and his head lay on Matts chest.
Matts head begun to spin.
The feeling this tough brought.
He started to breath faster and he could only thing about Sean and his touches.
Tai woke up, but he didn't move.
When he noticed that something was wrong he opened his eyes and looked at his friend.
"What is wrong?", Tai was seriously worried.
"Take it away... please, take it away..."
Tai didn't understand.
"Take it away...damn take it away!!!", in this moment Matt slapped Tais hand away from his body.
Tai was confused by the reaction he got, but he tried to reach for Matt again.
"Don't touch me!", snapped Matt.
"Never ever touch me again!"
Now Tai was really shocked.
"What? Matt..."
He tried again to touch the other boy, but Matt backed away.
Tears formed in Tais eyes, when Matt turned around and ran to the apartment door.
'What did I do?', Tai asked himself, in the evening when he thought about the whole situation again and again.
They ate, then they saw the movie, then they fell asleep and then Matt acted as if Tai wanted to hurt him or even worse.
'He looked so frightened, as if he was afraid. What did I do? What? What? WHAT?', Tai was mad at Matt, but most of all he was mad at himself, `cause he couldn't understand why Matt acted the way he did.
After he at least thought 100 times about Matt strange behavior he hadn't figured the reason out.
"The stress!!!", that was it.
"Yeah, that's it! Matt is overworked and he can't stand the stress anymore. And he had to get it all out and I was the only one around", deep within Tai knew that this was a very bad reason to explain the behavior.
Tomorrow he wanted to ask Matt in school, and until tomorrow Matt calmed down enough so that they can talk.
In another part of the city, not very far away from Tais place Matt ran as fast as he could through the streets.
'God, what have I just done? What have I done?', he thought and he knew that he had hurt someone who really loves him.
'I'm an idiot! Idiot! Idiot! How could I?'
A sob escaped him when he ran upstairs.
He opened the door, ignored his dad in the living-room and disappeared in his room.
There he fell on the bed and cried into the soft pillow.
When he woke up the next morning Matt didn't know what was going on.
He didn't wore his pajamas. Instead he wore his cloth he had on when he went out.
But it didn't took long for him to figure out what was wrong, `cause the reality hit him.
He let himself fall back against the pillow.
How could he explain this to Tai?
Matt didn't knew the answer to the question.
He couldn't tell Tai the truth.
What would be if Sean and the others found out?
They would kill him and Tai, at least Matt thought so.
First Tai, so that Matt could watch his slow and painful dead.
But Matt had no other choice.
Sooner or later Tai would figure things out.
Why should he wait any longer? Pretending that nothing was wrong Matt couldn't keep up.
With this thoughts Matt stood up to get ready for school. He hoped that he could come up with something to tell Tai on his way.
Like every other day Matt started to walk, but this time he thought about a good excuse for Tai.
To tell him the truth was too dangerous for both of them.
But everything he came up with was nonsense. It was totally pointless and even a stupid person could figure out that it was a lie.
Matt had only one idea that might satisfy Tai: He was stressed and couldn't control himself any longer.
'That's it Matt, he isn't going to believe that. Never... but maybe he could tell it so that Tai would believe him. Under the right circumstances', thought Matt.
When he saw Tai at their usually meeting-point, he saw that most of the other students were missing.
Some classes made trips to different places and so Mimi and Sora weren't there.
Izzy was like always in the school-building and he tried to gather the rest of his computer-course for a meeting.
Matt and Tai were the only ones left from the group.
The blond reached Tai and wanted to start with his apology, but Tai interrupted him.
"Matt, I'm sorry. What ever I did yesterday, I didn't meant to do it and I hope that you can forgive me."
'What's going on? Why is he apologizing? I was the one who did the wrong thing', Matt thought a little irritated.
"Tai... you.. you don't have to apologize, you didn't do anything. I'm the one who should say sorry, I didn't meant to snap at you like that, and I don't know what I should do to make it better", Matt didn't dare to look into Tais eyes.
"It's okay", grinned Tai and put his hand on Matts shoulder.
But when Tai toughed Matt, the other boy winced, but he didn't shrug Tais shoulder off
1 "You're not mad?", asked Matt slowly and looked up at Tai.
„No. I was mad, but I thought about the situation and I came to the final conclusion that you're only stressed. I think That school and your band stress you out and that you needed someone to let it out on.
"Yes, that was the reason", nodded Matt, he couldn't believe that Tai came up with the same stupid idea.
"Okay. Then let's stop talking about yesterday and let's simply forget the whole thing", with this words Tai hold his hand out for Matt.
The blond took it and Tai shook it, Matt was confused, but he tried to hid it.
Tai wanted to hug Matt right in front of the whole school, but he knew that he would ruin everything with this simple gesture.
During the day Tai forgot Matts behavior from last evening and he went on as if nothing was wrong in the first place.
Nobody noticed the frightened looking blond who walked through the hallways, with the thought in his head not to bump into people he didn't want to see ever again.
And this people sure wanted more than only to talk to him.
Matt managed it through the school day without meeting Sean, Dean or Kev and he was glad when he could go home.
After Matt reached the apartment he made himself something to eat.
Shortly after that his dad came home from work.
It wasn't time for lunch anymore, but neither of them cared.
After they ate his dad started to talk with him about a topic Matt didn't want to deal with at the moment.
"Oh, Matt. I have time today and I can take you to your practise."
Matt couched from the water he was drinking when his father mentioned his band.
"You don't have to, dad. I can walk", responded Matt.
"Nonsense! I have enough time and can bring you! But you have to walk back, I don't know if I can come home this night."
Matt understood that his dad didn't want to argue with him and finally he said that the man could drive him.
"Good", his dad said and smiled, because he had won an argument with his son.
Some hours later Matt got out of hid dads car.
He walked over to the door.
Matt knew that his dad wouldn't drive away until he was inside the building.
He had no other choice, the blond opened the door and stepped in.
Inside the room Matt saw the three boy, who smiled at him.
"Oh, look what we have here", grinned Sean.
"Maybe he couldn't live without us anymore", added Kev.
"We don't want you to get bored", with this words the three approached Matt.
For the third time Matt went through hell and back....
Tai was on the sports field.
He and his team were training for their next game, which was with the next two weeks.
But he wasn't paying attention.
The thing with Matt was on his mind.
And with that Tais concentration was disturbed. So he didn't notice that one of his opponents stole the ball from him.
"Tai! Watch out!", shouted the coach over the field.
Tai nodded and cursed under his breath.
'Oh, shut up! Do it yourself...', he thought.
'I wonder what's Matt doing right now', Tai looked at his watch and saw that it was time for Matts bandpractise.
There, Tai thought, could nothing bad happen to the blond boy.
Tai knew Sean, Dean and Kev and he knew that they would take care of Matt.
Indeed: Tai was right, Sean and the others took care of Matt, but in a different way Tai thought that they would.
During the whole training Tai wasn't his normal self. He played bad, `cause he couldn't sort his thoughts out.
After endless hours of running, thinking and shouting the coach told them that they could go and shower.
Tai wanted to go home as soon as possible and there he would talk to Matt gain.
After his training Tai came to the conclusion that something was very wrong with his friend.
"Tai", he was pulled back into reality.
"Yes?"
"I want to talk to you", said the man and motioned for Tai to follow him.
'oh, that's bad', thought Tai when he walked over to his coach.
"Sit down", said the man and Tai followed the order and sat down.
"Okay, Tai", the dark haired man started, "you weren't as good like you used to be. Well, in fact you were bad. Even Lex was better than you and you know that I want to throw him out of the team, `cause he is so bad, but I can't, his he is the son from our principal and he wouldn't be pleased with this. Lex was able to dribble you out for four or five times. Tai, what is wrong with you? If you keep that going I have to throw you out of the team."
When Tai heard this he sat up and quickly said: "It won't happen again. I promise. I'll pay more attention next time.
And hand came to lay on Tais shoulder and the man spoke again: "Okay. If you try to do better next time, I'll forget what happened today, I know that you're a good player and I don't want to loose you in my team, Tai. You can go now."
"Thanks", Tai said and his face brightened up a bit.
He stood up and ran over to his friends who were waiting for him.
"Tai, what did he want?", asked Michael.
"It wasn't that bad. He just told me that I have to concentrate. 'You can do better' and stuff", answered Tai.
"I see. So we don't have to worry that we won't see you again?"
"Stop dreaming! I'll never let you get the whole glory", smiled Tai.
The others started to laugh and together they walked to the locker rooms.
In the meantime Sean, Dean and Kev were satisfied and let Matt go.
"You're getting better", Dean said while he pulled his pants up.
"True", nodded Kev.
Sean collected Matt cloth and gave them to the shivering blond. He waited until Matt had dressed again and said:
"You can go now. Don't tell anyone. You know what will happen."
Sean brought Matt over to the door.
Matt could fell Sean staring at him and he tried to leaf as fast as his legs would carry him.
He through the door open and stepped out.
In the moment Sean grabbed his wrist and pulled back inside.
"I'll call you", he said as if it wasn't a big deal.
May it wasn't... for him.
Sean only wanted to have fun.
He let Matt go and turned back to go to his friends.
For a moment Matt stood there, shocked.
He turned around and walked down the street.
Running like last time didn't even came to his mind.
He was calm.
Strangely calm.
Matt walked in daze back to his home. He didn't even notice the people he met.
Back home Matt started to realize what had just happened.
He let himself sink into a chair.
Something wet ran down his cheek.
Matt raised a hand and touched it.
When he looked at his he realized that he was crying.
Again.
The liquid ran down his face and dropped onto the floor.
At some point he stopped sobbing and his tears dried.
Again he felt helpless, lost and dirty.
Matt stood up and walked into the bathroom to take a bath.
He scrubbed every inch of his body until it hurts too much to touch it again.
But the dirty feeling wouldn't go away.
Even if he was dirty on the inside, Matt could be sure that his body was clean now.
For some minutes he sat in the tub and waited.
Why or for whom he waited he didn't know. To have Tai there right now would be so nice. But it was too dangerous.
Matt took a towel, dried himself and put some cloth on.
He walked into his room and went to bed.
Matt woke up when he heard the telephone ringing.
Suddenly wide awake he sat up in his bed.
With wide eyes he looked at the small mobile laying next to his bed.
Slowly he got himself under control again and he could thing straight again.
It was the mobile, not the phone. Sean had only his old number, not the new one.
So there had to be someone on the other end of the line.
Matt reached for the mobile and pushed a button to answer the call.
Tai let the phone ring a few times and he wanted to give up when someone answered.
"Hey, Matt? Is that you?", he asked while he thought why it took Matt so long to get to answer.
"Tai?"
"Yes. What took you so long?"
"I was sleeping, sorry."
"Oh, I see. Sorry that I woke you up... Can I come over? I have to talk to you."
'That sounds bad', Matt thought, but he said: "Yes, why not? When?"
"Now."
"Okay."
"Good, I see you in a few minutes.", after that Tai hung up and ran out of the door.
Matt stared at the phone and shook his head.
He didn't understand what could be so important that Tai had to come over.
And Tai sounded way too serious.
'Maybe he knows.'
Matt put this thought in the back of his mind as fast as it came and he stood up to get dressed.
AN: Wow, that was long. What do you thing? Tell me, tell me, tell me. I want to know!! You
made it this far, so please review.
What do you think? Is Tai going to find out in the next part? Is he guessing what's
wrong? Questions, questions, questions.
Maybe you'll find the answer in the next chapter . *I want too many soap operas.. *
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon.
Bandpractise
When he was home, he threw his things in a corner and went into the bathroom to take a shower.
Matt doubt that he dirty feeling would leave him, but he wanted to be 'clean'.
After Matt showered he felt a bit better, but not much.
He sat down on the couch and started at wall.
He looked at the big clock that his dad hung up.
The clock said that it was nearly half past seven.
Matt took the information and he let his head fall back. He closed his eyes.
His eyes snapped open when he remembered something: "Tai!".
Matt jumped up, but he had to steady himself, `cause there was a pain that went through his whole back.
But he couldn't be late again, Tai would e so disappointed and maybe he wouldn't even talk to him again.
Matt walked into his room to get dressed into something that would impress Tai.
He wanted to make Tai feel good.
Matt dressed fast enough to be ready in time and slow enough so that it wouldn't hurt him too much.
When he was ready he started his way over to Tais apartment.
Tai sat on a chair and stared at the clock.
"He is going to come, it's only five to eight. He is coming", Tai thought loud and shifted his position on the chair.
The doorbell rang and Tai jumped up.
When he wanted to open the door he decided to let Matt wait a little longer.
And he let Matt wait, but when the other boy rang the doorbell for the second time Tai opened the door.
He tried to look as if he was busy with something and when he looked up he saw Matt.
"Oh, Matt! It's already that late? I had so much to do, I completely forgot the time."
"I see, I can come back later if you have so much to do", Matt said.
Tai made a face and quickly said: "It wasn't that important. Come in."
When Matt entered Tai lay a hand on his back and the pain was back.
Matt tried his best not to wince.
He didn't want to make Tai suspicious and he could relax again when Tai took his hand away.
Like Tai had promised he had cooked and to Matts surprise nothing broke.
Even the meal tasted good.
Matt was still shocked, but he tried everything to act and look normal.
But Tai knew Matt better than that and he could tell that something was wrong with his boyfriend.
He wanted to make Matt happy and he knew exactly what he wanted to do.
He didn't want to force Matt to tell him what was on his mind, `cause he knew that Matt wouldn't answer him. And so he didn't even tried it.
He only wanted to make Matt happy and smile again.
And what ever was on the other boys mind couldn't be so bad.
And Tai was the only one that could make Matt smile when he was upset.
Nearly every time.
Yesterday he didn't even manage to talk to Matt or to do something with him.
And this was something Tai had to think about, but yesterday was over and Tai tried to concentrate on his goal: Matt.
Slowly he creeped, from Matt unnoticed, over to the other boy.
Matt was still looking at the tv and he tried to understand the film Tai had chosen.
Tai creeped closer and he lay his head on Matts shoulder.
Matt didn't move one bit and Tai opened his eyes and looked up at him.
"Matt?", he asked.
"Hm?", was the answer.
"What is it?"
"What is what? I'm only watching the movie", responded the blond.
"But this is a trashy film!"
"And?", Matt asked and he felt more and more uncomfortable around Tai, who sat a little closer than a minute before.
"Oh, come on! I know that you can't stand this sort of film", said Tai, who was getting a bit angry.
"I can always change my mind, can't I?", and with that Matt turned his head again to focus on the film.
"But", Tai was interrupted.
"Tai! This is the best part in the whole movie! If you have nothing against it, I want to watch it!", Matt snapped without even looking at Tai.
Tai sat up and looked at Matt from the corner of his eyes, he only got half of the story the movie was about.
'Yeah, sure! This is nothing! It's crap! This film is so boring', thought Tai when he saw a woman and a man who were in a boat on a lake. And nothing happened. They only talked nonsense.
But on the other hand it seemed as if Matt was really liking this movie, `cause he was still starring at the tv.
What Tai didn't knew was that Matt didn't even noticed what the film was about.
The blond was only looking straight ahead while he tried to sort things out.
At some point Matt couldn't keep his eyes open and he fell in a dreamless sleep.
When Matt woke up hours later he felt a weight on his chest.
Someone was laying on him.
While he had slept Tai creeped closer and one of his hands lay on Matts belly and his head lay on Matts chest.
Matts head begun to spin.
The feeling this tough brought.
He started to breath faster and he could only thing about Sean and his touches.
Tai woke up, but he didn't move.
When he noticed that something was wrong he opened his eyes and looked at his friend.
"What is wrong?", Tai was seriously worried.
"Take it away... please, take it away..."
Tai didn't understand.
"Take it away...damn take it away!!!", in this moment Matt slapped Tais hand away from his body.
Tai was confused by the reaction he got, but he tried to reach for Matt again.
"Don't touch me!", snapped Matt.
"Never ever touch me again!"
Now Tai was really shocked.
"What? Matt..."
He tried again to touch the other boy, but Matt backed away.
Tears formed in Tais eyes, when Matt turned around and ran to the apartment door.
'What did I do?', Tai asked himself, in the evening when he thought about the whole situation again and again.
They ate, then they saw the movie, then they fell asleep and then Matt acted as if Tai wanted to hurt him or even worse.
'He looked so frightened, as if he was afraid. What did I do? What? What? WHAT?', Tai was mad at Matt, but most of all he was mad at himself, `cause he couldn't understand why Matt acted the way he did.
After he at least thought 100 times about Matt strange behavior he hadn't figured the reason out.
"The stress!!!", that was it.
"Yeah, that's it! Matt is overworked and he can't stand the stress anymore. And he had to get it all out and I was the only one around", deep within Tai knew that this was a very bad reason to explain the behavior.
Tomorrow he wanted to ask Matt in school, and until tomorrow Matt calmed down enough so that they can talk.
In another part of the city, not very far away from Tais place Matt ran as fast as he could through the streets.
'God, what have I just done? What have I done?', he thought and he knew that he had hurt someone who really loves him.
'I'm an idiot! Idiot! Idiot! How could I?'
A sob escaped him when he ran upstairs.
He opened the door, ignored his dad in the living-room and disappeared in his room.
There he fell on the bed and cried into the soft pillow.
When he woke up the next morning Matt didn't know what was going on.
He didn't wore his pajamas. Instead he wore his cloth he had on when he went out.
But it didn't took long for him to figure out what was wrong, `cause the reality hit him.
He let himself fall back against the pillow.
How could he explain this to Tai?
Matt didn't knew the answer to the question.
He couldn't tell Tai the truth.
What would be if Sean and the others found out?
They would kill him and Tai, at least Matt thought so.
First Tai, so that Matt could watch his slow and painful dead.
But Matt had no other choice.
Sooner or later Tai would figure things out.
Why should he wait any longer? Pretending that nothing was wrong Matt couldn't keep up.
With this thoughts Matt stood up to get ready for school. He hoped that he could come up with something to tell Tai on his way.
Like every other day Matt started to walk, but this time he thought about a good excuse for Tai.
To tell him the truth was too dangerous for both of them.
But everything he came up with was nonsense. It was totally pointless and even a stupid person could figure out that it was a lie.
Matt had only one idea that might satisfy Tai: He was stressed and couldn't control himself any longer.
'That's it Matt, he isn't going to believe that. Never... but maybe he could tell it so that Tai would believe him. Under the right circumstances', thought Matt.
When he saw Tai at their usually meeting-point, he saw that most of the other students were missing.
Some classes made trips to different places and so Mimi and Sora weren't there.
Izzy was like always in the school-building and he tried to gather the rest of his computer-course for a meeting.
Matt and Tai were the only ones left from the group.
The blond reached Tai and wanted to start with his apology, but Tai interrupted him.
"Matt, I'm sorry. What ever I did yesterday, I didn't meant to do it and I hope that you can forgive me."
'What's going on? Why is he apologizing? I was the one who did the wrong thing', Matt thought a little irritated.
"Tai... you.. you don't have to apologize, you didn't do anything. I'm the one who should say sorry, I didn't meant to snap at you like that, and I don't know what I should do to make it better", Matt didn't dare to look into Tais eyes.
"It's okay", grinned Tai and put his hand on Matts shoulder.
But when Tai toughed Matt, the other boy winced, but he didn't shrug Tais shoulder off
1 "You're not mad?", asked Matt slowly and looked up at Tai.
„No. I was mad, but I thought about the situation and I came to the final conclusion that you're only stressed. I think That school and your band stress you out and that you needed someone to let it out on.
"Yes, that was the reason", nodded Matt, he couldn't believe that Tai came up with the same stupid idea.
"Okay. Then let's stop talking about yesterday and let's simply forget the whole thing", with this words Tai hold his hand out for Matt.
The blond took it and Tai shook it, Matt was confused, but he tried to hid it.
Tai wanted to hug Matt right in front of the whole school, but he knew that he would ruin everything with this simple gesture.
During the day Tai forgot Matts behavior from last evening and he went on as if nothing was wrong in the first place.
Nobody noticed the frightened looking blond who walked through the hallways, with the thought in his head not to bump into people he didn't want to see ever again.
And this people sure wanted more than only to talk to him.
Matt managed it through the school day without meeting Sean, Dean or Kev and he was glad when he could go home.
After Matt reached the apartment he made himself something to eat.
Shortly after that his dad came home from work.
It wasn't time for lunch anymore, but neither of them cared.
After they ate his dad started to talk with him about a topic Matt didn't want to deal with at the moment.
"Oh, Matt. I have time today and I can take you to your practise."
Matt couched from the water he was drinking when his father mentioned his band.
"You don't have to, dad. I can walk", responded Matt.
"Nonsense! I have enough time and can bring you! But you have to walk back, I don't know if I can come home this night."
Matt understood that his dad didn't want to argue with him and finally he said that the man could drive him.
"Good", his dad said and smiled, because he had won an argument with his son.
Some hours later Matt got out of hid dads car.
He walked over to the door.
Matt knew that his dad wouldn't drive away until he was inside the building.
He had no other choice, the blond opened the door and stepped in.
Inside the room Matt saw the three boy, who smiled at him.
"Oh, look what we have here", grinned Sean.
"Maybe he couldn't live without us anymore", added Kev.
"We don't want you to get bored", with this words the three approached Matt.
For the third time Matt went through hell and back....
Tai was on the sports field.
He and his team were training for their next game, which was with the next two weeks.
But he wasn't paying attention.
The thing with Matt was on his mind.
And with that Tais concentration was disturbed. So he didn't notice that one of his opponents stole the ball from him.
"Tai! Watch out!", shouted the coach over the field.
Tai nodded and cursed under his breath.
'Oh, shut up! Do it yourself...', he thought.
'I wonder what's Matt doing right now', Tai looked at his watch and saw that it was time for Matts bandpractise.
There, Tai thought, could nothing bad happen to the blond boy.
Tai knew Sean, Dean and Kev and he knew that they would take care of Matt.
Indeed: Tai was right, Sean and the others took care of Matt, but in a different way Tai thought that they would.
During the whole training Tai wasn't his normal self. He played bad, `cause he couldn't sort his thoughts out.
After endless hours of running, thinking and shouting the coach told them that they could go and shower.
Tai wanted to go home as soon as possible and there he would talk to Matt gain.
After his training Tai came to the conclusion that something was very wrong with his friend.
"Tai", he was pulled back into reality.
"Yes?"
"I want to talk to you", said the man and motioned for Tai to follow him.
'oh, that's bad', thought Tai when he walked over to his coach.
"Sit down", said the man and Tai followed the order and sat down.
"Okay, Tai", the dark haired man started, "you weren't as good like you used to be. Well, in fact you were bad. Even Lex was better than you and you know that I want to throw him out of the team, `cause he is so bad, but I can't, his he is the son from our principal and he wouldn't be pleased with this. Lex was able to dribble you out for four or five times. Tai, what is wrong with you? If you keep that going I have to throw you out of the team."
When Tai heard this he sat up and quickly said: "It won't happen again. I promise. I'll pay more attention next time.
And hand came to lay on Tais shoulder and the man spoke again: "Okay. If you try to do better next time, I'll forget what happened today, I know that you're a good player and I don't want to loose you in my team, Tai. You can go now."
"Thanks", Tai said and his face brightened up a bit.
He stood up and ran over to his friends who were waiting for him.
"Tai, what did he want?", asked Michael.
"It wasn't that bad. He just told me that I have to concentrate. 'You can do better' and stuff", answered Tai.
"I see. So we don't have to worry that we won't see you again?"
"Stop dreaming! I'll never let you get the whole glory", smiled Tai.
The others started to laugh and together they walked to the locker rooms.
In the meantime Sean, Dean and Kev were satisfied and let Matt go.
"You're getting better", Dean said while he pulled his pants up.
"True", nodded Kev.
Sean collected Matt cloth and gave them to the shivering blond. He waited until Matt had dressed again and said:
"You can go now. Don't tell anyone. You know what will happen."
Sean brought Matt over to the door.
Matt could fell Sean staring at him and he tried to leaf as fast as his legs would carry him.
He through the door open and stepped out.
In the moment Sean grabbed his wrist and pulled back inside.
"I'll call you", he said as if it wasn't a big deal.
May it wasn't... for him.
Sean only wanted to have fun.
He let Matt go and turned back to go to his friends.
For a moment Matt stood there, shocked.
He turned around and walked down the street.
Running like last time didn't even came to his mind.
He was calm.
Strangely calm.
Matt walked in daze back to his home. He didn't even notice the people he met.
Back home Matt started to realize what had just happened.
He let himself sink into a chair.
Something wet ran down his cheek.
Matt raised a hand and touched it.
When he looked at his he realized that he was crying.
Again.
The liquid ran down his face and dropped onto the floor.
At some point he stopped sobbing and his tears dried.
Again he felt helpless, lost and dirty.
Matt stood up and walked into the bathroom to take a bath.
He scrubbed every inch of his body until it hurts too much to touch it again.
But the dirty feeling wouldn't go away.
Even if he was dirty on the inside, Matt could be sure that his body was clean now.
For some minutes he sat in the tub and waited.
Why or for whom he waited he didn't know. To have Tai there right now would be so nice. But it was too dangerous.
Matt took a towel, dried himself and put some cloth on.
He walked into his room and went to bed.
Matt woke up when he heard the telephone ringing.
Suddenly wide awake he sat up in his bed.
With wide eyes he looked at the small mobile laying next to his bed.
Slowly he got himself under control again and he could thing straight again.
It was the mobile, not the phone. Sean had only his old number, not the new one.
So there had to be someone on the other end of the line.
Matt reached for the mobile and pushed a button to answer the call.
Tai let the phone ring a few times and he wanted to give up when someone answered.
"Hey, Matt? Is that you?", he asked while he thought why it took Matt so long to get to answer.
"Tai?"
"Yes. What took you so long?"
"I was sleeping, sorry."
"Oh, I see. Sorry that I woke you up... Can I come over? I have to talk to you."
'That sounds bad', Matt thought, but he said: "Yes, why not? When?"
"Now."
"Okay."
"Good, I see you in a few minutes.", after that Tai hung up and ran out of the door.
Matt stared at the phone and shook his head.
He didn't understand what could be so important that Tai had to come over.
And Tai sounded way too serious.
'Maybe he knows.'
Matt put this thought in the back of his mind as fast as it came and he stood up to get dressed.
AN: Wow, that was long. What do you thing? Tell me, tell me, tell me. I want to know!! You
made it this far, so please review.
What do you think? Is Tai going to find out in the next part? Is he guessing what's
wrong? Questions, questions, questions.
Maybe you'll find the answer in the next chapter . *I want too many soap operas.. *