Bandpractise
Disclaimer: I know I said that this would be the last chapter, but I decided that it would be better to split it up. My spelling an grammar in this part might be somewhat horrible, `cause I wrote this at 3 o'clock in the morning, but I hope that it isn't that bad. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Bandpractise
The bell rang and the two free hours Tai had were over. The rest of the day Tai spend as close to Matt as possible. About his small visit in the music room Tai never told him. After school they went over to Matts apartment. Mr. Ishida wouldn't be there and that was a good sign, because Tai wanted to talk to Matt in private and with nobody there who could interrupt their conversation. He wanted to convince his boyfriend that he should go and tell the police or his dad about the things that happened. Otherwise Sean, Dean and Kev would walk around like nothing ever happened and Matt had to suffer in silence, only because he was too afraid to stand up against them. But Tai thought that there wasn't a punishment that would ever justify the things they did to his beloved Yama. Nothing could ever make it up.
Matt and Tai sat on the couch in the living-room and saw one of these stupid talkshows Tai never really liked. Every now and then Tai would glance at Matt to make sure that he was okay. The plate with food Matt had made them stood still on the table and waited for one of the boys to take it and place it in the kitchen. Matt stared at the pictures, which made their way across the TV, without really noticing them. In his thoughts tai tried to begin a conversation with Matt, so that he could bring him to talk about the last days and weeks. Tai had tried many ways, but every time he came to the same conclusion: Completely wrong. He was too direct or he couldn't come to the point. And Tai wasn't about the be so bold to his friend. As soon as Matt made a move to get up, Tai focused his thoughts again. "What are you doing?', he asked and looked after Matt. "Can't you see it?", Matt sat while he placed the plate in the sink. Tai shrugged and turned back to the TV, but his thoughts already drifted back to the conversation he was about to begin. Matt sat down again and Tai decided that it was time for their talk. Prepared or not. Just as he wanted to speak Matt started to say something. "What is wrong?", he asked Tai and looked into his eyes. "What?", Tai responded. "I asked you: what's wrong?", the blond boy repeated his question. "There is nothing wrong. I should be the one to ask you this, not the other way. Why do you ask anyway that something isn't right?", it was Tais turn to ask. "Well. I just thought that you looked like it", Matt let his gaze drifted across the room. And then there was silence, only the noises from the TV make it bearable for the two of them not to talk. "Matt..?" "Hm?" "I have to ask you something." "What is it?" "I want you to talk to your father and I want that you go to the police", Tai said within one breath. Matt didn't look at him. "If you don't do it. Then I will do it", Tai said and hoped that he would get the effect out of Matt that he wanted, but his thoughts were proven wrong when the blond answered. "No", he said and looked away. "Why not?" "I don't want to." "I don't understand you! Why the hell not!? Tell me", Tai said, he noticed that he got louder than he had planned to. "I can't explain it. You would never understand it", Matt whispered. "Then try it. I can try to understand", Begged the brunet. "Do you think that it's so easy for me! I don't want it anymore, Tai!!", Matt barked and got up. Tai was so confused about this sudden outburst that he only watched Matt walk to his room and slam the door shut. The door was looked and this was the moment Tai was in this world again. As fast as he could he went over to Matts bedroom. "Matt? Open the door", Tai said and knocked. In his room Matt went through another door into his own bathroom and stood in front of the mirror. For a moment he watched his reflection, then he closed his eyes and opened the small cabin. He looked around and finally found what he was searching for. Carefully he took the small object out and looked at it. On the one hand he was glad that he had found what he was searching for, on the other hand he could feel the fear rising in him about the thing he had planned to do. But he had started it and now he couldn't turn back, could he? Matt heard Tais pleading voice and he started to wonder if this would come as a shock to Tai. 'Maybe not', he thought and went back to his room. In front of the door he sat down and looked at the small shining object. It looked so harmless, but it could cause a lot of damage if it was used right. Tai started to worry, he hadn't received any answers and Matts last statement went him through his head over and over again. It scared him. Matt wouldn't try to hurt himself, now would he? "Matt, open the door. I'm sorry.. Please come out", Tai pleaded through the door and hoped that his friend might do just that. Slowly Matt pressed the razorblade against the pale skin of his arm, only a little bit harder and everything would be over. Maybe Tai would be shocked to see all the blood flowing out under his door, but it wouldn't be that bad, he would get over it. "Matt, you're scarring me", Tai whispered. 'Scared? Why do I scare Tai?', Matt asked himself. The blade slipped from his grip down on the floor. It couldn't be possible. Tai was never scared, he must have heard wrong.... but maybe he heard right. "Why?", he asked. Tai was surprised to hear Matt answering his calls. "I'm afraid that you might do something that you'll regret later", Tai said. 'Regret? What could I regret?', on its own accord Matts hand touched the blade again and the sharp metal cut into the delicate skin. "Shit!", Matt loosened his grip. It didn't hurt that bad, he only didn't expected it. A small line of blood mad its way over Matts palm and dropped onto his shirt. "Matt? Everything okay?", tai asked and he hoped that the boy would answer him again. Matt saw the blood and looked at it. It came as a shock to him when he realized what he was about to do. This wasn't right and Tai didn't do anything to deserve something like that. Only because he was at a loss it didn't mean that Tai would have to suffer.
It was simply wrong. Matt got up and unlocked the door. Tai stepped back and as soon as Matt opened the door he crushed the other boy against him. Carefully Matt put his arms around Tai and the two of them stood in the doorframe and embraced each other. "Never do this again, never ever", Tai whispered against Matts hair. For a moment neither of them knew what to say. "Will you go to the police?', Tai finally asked. He felt Matt nodding his head against his chest.
"I don't think that he'll be able to do that", a third voice suddenly said.
AN: There is just one chapter left. Tell me what you think.... Poor Yama. Who is the unknown person?
Disclaimer: I know I said that this would be the last chapter, but I decided that it would be better to split it up. My spelling an grammar in this part might be somewhat horrible, `cause I wrote this at 3 o'clock in the morning, but I hope that it isn't that bad. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Bandpractise
The bell rang and the two free hours Tai had were over. The rest of the day Tai spend as close to Matt as possible. About his small visit in the music room Tai never told him. After school they went over to Matts apartment. Mr. Ishida wouldn't be there and that was a good sign, because Tai wanted to talk to Matt in private and with nobody there who could interrupt their conversation. He wanted to convince his boyfriend that he should go and tell the police or his dad about the things that happened. Otherwise Sean, Dean and Kev would walk around like nothing ever happened and Matt had to suffer in silence, only because he was too afraid to stand up against them. But Tai thought that there wasn't a punishment that would ever justify the things they did to his beloved Yama. Nothing could ever make it up.
Matt and Tai sat on the couch in the living-room and saw one of these stupid talkshows Tai never really liked. Every now and then Tai would glance at Matt to make sure that he was okay. The plate with food Matt had made them stood still on the table and waited for one of the boys to take it and place it in the kitchen. Matt stared at the pictures, which made their way across the TV, without really noticing them. In his thoughts tai tried to begin a conversation with Matt, so that he could bring him to talk about the last days and weeks. Tai had tried many ways, but every time he came to the same conclusion: Completely wrong. He was too direct or he couldn't come to the point. And Tai wasn't about the be so bold to his friend. As soon as Matt made a move to get up, Tai focused his thoughts again. "What are you doing?', he asked and looked after Matt. "Can't you see it?", Matt sat while he placed the plate in the sink. Tai shrugged and turned back to the TV, but his thoughts already drifted back to the conversation he was about to begin. Matt sat down again and Tai decided that it was time for their talk. Prepared or not. Just as he wanted to speak Matt started to say something. "What is wrong?", he asked Tai and looked into his eyes. "What?", Tai responded. "I asked you: what's wrong?", the blond boy repeated his question. "There is nothing wrong. I should be the one to ask you this, not the other way. Why do you ask anyway that something isn't right?", it was Tais turn to ask. "Well. I just thought that you looked like it", Matt let his gaze drifted across the room. And then there was silence, only the noises from the TV make it bearable for the two of them not to talk. "Matt..?" "Hm?" "I have to ask you something." "What is it?" "I want you to talk to your father and I want that you go to the police", Tai said within one breath. Matt didn't look at him. "If you don't do it. Then I will do it", Tai said and hoped that he would get the effect out of Matt that he wanted, but his thoughts were proven wrong when the blond answered. "No", he said and looked away. "Why not?" "I don't want to." "I don't understand you! Why the hell not!? Tell me", Tai said, he noticed that he got louder than he had planned to. "I can't explain it. You would never understand it", Matt whispered. "Then try it. I can try to understand", Begged the brunet. "Do you think that it's so easy for me! I don't want it anymore, Tai!!", Matt barked and got up. Tai was so confused about this sudden outburst that he only watched Matt walk to his room and slam the door shut. The door was looked and this was the moment Tai was in this world again. As fast as he could he went over to Matts bedroom. "Matt? Open the door", Tai said and knocked. In his room Matt went through another door into his own bathroom and stood in front of the mirror. For a moment he watched his reflection, then he closed his eyes and opened the small cabin. He looked around and finally found what he was searching for. Carefully he took the small object out and looked at it. On the one hand he was glad that he had found what he was searching for, on the other hand he could feel the fear rising in him about the thing he had planned to do. But he had started it and now he couldn't turn back, could he? Matt heard Tais pleading voice and he started to wonder if this would come as a shock to Tai. 'Maybe not', he thought and went back to his room. In front of the door he sat down and looked at the small shining object. It looked so harmless, but it could cause a lot of damage if it was used right. Tai started to worry, he hadn't received any answers and Matts last statement went him through his head over and over again. It scared him. Matt wouldn't try to hurt himself, now would he? "Matt, open the door. I'm sorry.. Please come out", Tai pleaded through the door and hoped that his friend might do just that. Slowly Matt pressed the razorblade against the pale skin of his arm, only a little bit harder and everything would be over. Maybe Tai would be shocked to see all the blood flowing out under his door, but it wouldn't be that bad, he would get over it. "Matt, you're scarring me", Tai whispered. 'Scared? Why do I scare Tai?', Matt asked himself. The blade slipped from his grip down on the floor. It couldn't be possible. Tai was never scared, he must have heard wrong.... but maybe he heard right. "Why?", he asked. Tai was surprised to hear Matt answering his calls. "I'm afraid that you might do something that you'll regret later", Tai said. 'Regret? What could I regret?', on its own accord Matts hand touched the blade again and the sharp metal cut into the delicate skin. "Shit!", Matt loosened his grip. It didn't hurt that bad, he only didn't expected it. A small line of blood mad its way over Matts palm and dropped onto his shirt. "Matt? Everything okay?", tai asked and he hoped that the boy would answer him again. Matt saw the blood and looked at it. It came as a shock to him when he realized what he was about to do. This wasn't right and Tai didn't do anything to deserve something like that. Only because he was at a loss it didn't mean that Tai would have to suffer.
It was simply wrong. Matt got up and unlocked the door. Tai stepped back and as soon as Matt opened the door he crushed the other boy against him. Carefully Matt put his arms around Tai and the two of them stood in the doorframe and embraced each other. "Never do this again, never ever", Tai whispered against Matts hair. For a moment neither of them knew what to say. "Will you go to the police?', Tai finally asked. He felt Matt nodding his head against his chest.
"I don't think that he'll be able to do that", a third voice suddenly said.
AN: There is just one chapter left. Tell me what you think.... Poor Yama. Who is the unknown person?