Chapter 19

I got half way to the shore,and then I stopped. Why am I stopping,I thought. I told myself that I should go fight,and here I am. Why should I stop now?

Do I still care about Paris? No. I can't care about him anymore. He told me that he had no use for me anymore. I can't go back. But then why fight for the Trojans? If I hate them,then should I be fighting with the Spartans? Oh god I'm so confused. I need help.

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

Chorus:
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

Chorus

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end

I didn't make a move. I just couldn't. I felt so sorry Andromache and her child,but I didn't want to have to face Paris again. He probably knows that I've left,I thought. He has to know by now. But I know why he hasn't sent anyone to search for me. I know he doesn't care about me. So why am I so worried.

I started to go to the bay,but there was a figure standing behind me. It was Paris.

"So,is this your decision?"he asked.

"You...you came for me?"

"I still care about you."

"You said that I was--."

"Forget about what I said."

How can I,I thought. You promised to love me forever.

"We still care about you Kikyo. And...maybe I do need someone to protect me from myself."

"What about Helen?"

"She's still not leaving."

"Then I am."

"No you are not. You are coming back with me. Hector will find out and he will banish you from Troy forever."

"Was this really your choice?"

"No. But Andromache really needs someone right now while Hector is gone."

I fell silent,and then I made my choice. "All right. But I'm not doing this for you,"and we went back to the palace.