Emma Nelson patiently waited on the steps of her house. Her first day of grade 11 made her feel a bit nervous. She jumped up as Spinner Mason's red car stopped in front of her. She slide into the front passengers' seat, leaned over and kissed him. Spinner couldn't believe that they were going out, he felt he would never find anyone after the whole him and Paige thing, and then Manny cheated on him. They drove down the streets toward Degrassi fast, neither one of them wanted to be late. They pulled into an empty space labeled Degrassi Panthers Only. They both stood up out of the car and

Spinner made his way over to Emma they walked toward the school holding hands, while everyone stared.

"So Spin do you have practice today?" Emma asked feeling uncomfortable from everybody's staring.

"Yeah, I do.....why is every one staring at us for?" He wondered.

"Jealous I guess" she answered jokingly

Sean Cameron walked down the hall with Craig Manning. As they turned the corner he seen Emma shoving books into her locker that was decorated with pictures of her and Spinner. Sean still had feelings for Emma, strong feelings, feelings he had no control over. He was happy he wasn't with Ellie anymore they had this huge fight right before summer vacation, now they barely even looked at each other. He hooked up with different girls throughout the summer but none that changed him the way Emma did.

"I need to get out of here." He said to Craig

"Come on! This year is gonna be so much fun, we just need to find you a girl" Craig responded "So let the search begin! Girls of Degrassi Sean Cameron is now taking resumes!" he yelled to the girls in the hallway. "Don't worry we'll find one for you."

Sean made his way into the back row of Mrs. Kwan's class; he sat down next to Toby Isaacs. Spinner walked into Mrs. Kwan's and nodded toward Toby and Sean. He sat in the front of the classroom, and waited for Emma to come. JT Yorke sat down next to Spinner and tapped him on the shoulder.

"So, I'm throwing this party cause my parents are out of town and I was wondering if want to come, it starts at 7 runs till whenever." He said

"Um... I'll ask Emma about it but for now you can count us in" Spinner responded

"You're still going out with Emma"

"Yeah why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh... no reason" JT couldn't find the right words.

"If you heard something about me and Emma that I don't know about then I would really appreciate if you told me!"

"I heard that Emma's...that Emma's going out with Sean"

"What that is absolutely crazy who the hell told you that?" Spinner's tone got louder

"Paige...Paige told me, but the whole school is talking about it!" he confessed to Spinner.

"What is the whole school talking about?" Emma asked sliding into her seat next to Spinner.

"Nothing just about some soccer stuff..."he was cut off by Mrs. Kwan

"Gavin pay attention." She responded sternly.

Spinner couldn't pay attention to one thing Mrs. Kwan said all he kept thinking about was Sean and it didn't help that every time he turned around to see what Sean was doing he was staring at Emma. But who could blame him Emma was beautiful, smart, and funny she was the best person Spinner's ever known, and the first girl he has ever really loved unconditionally.

After class Sean and Toby walked down the long halls of Degrassi, they walked passed the gym were the girls field hockey team was warming up. Toby glared into the opened door and seen Kendra stretching her legs on the floor. He missed Kendra a lot he been single every since they broke in the summer last year, he knew it was his fault he was way to controlling and clingy, but he grew up a lot since than.

"Thinking about Kendra?" Sean asked

"Yeah" Toby really didn't want to talk about it. "OUCH dickhead" some one punched him in the shoulder he turned around to see JT standing behind him.

"Are you guys comin to mah party tonite?" JT asked them as he danced around the hallway.

"Stop it twinkle toes, you embarrassing Toby." Sean teased him.

"Is that true Toby am I embarrassing you", JT replied mockingly.

"Yes" Toby replied.

"Well then I guess you're not going to the best party in all of Canada then", JT said handing them both invitations. "Its at 7 I'm expecting you to be there." He continued as he walked away

"Anyway Tobe just let Kendra go." Sean told him

"I can't Sean I miss her so much."

"I know u do but just try." Sean tried to comfort him

"You don't think I try! I try but it's so hard you can't understand." Toby said getting angry

"I can't understand? Really I've gone through more pain then you'll ever go through. I lost Emma and u no what else I killed someone that's a worse pain that u will ever feel to feel there blood to see the sadness in there family's eyes to no u caused it and then be praised for it. But I don't understand pain?" Sean went off out of no where, he has really sensitive after everything that happened with Rick and coming back from Wasaga Beach to see Emma had already moved on. Almost anything could push him over the edge. Toby was a bit token away he gathered his thoughts and finally said

"Sean I'm sorry" but it was too late Sean was already gone.

"Are you going to JT party tonight?" Spinner asked Jimmy as they walked across the soccer field

"Yea I'll be their. What's wrong with you, you look kind of depressed." He ask concerned

"JT told me that he heard that Emma was going out with Sean. I know she wouldn't do that to me, but I've been wrong about a lot lately you know." Spinner told him

"I warned you it's always the good ones that go bad, like Manny she was a sweet innocent little girl when she first came here now look at her." Jimmy reminded him

"I rather not think about Mann-"he was cut by Coach Armstrong

"Hey Dawson, Pacey were not on the creek save the drama for your own time."

The boys rolled their eyes and ran into their positions and started to kick the ball around.

"Hazel Hazel wait," yelled JT.

"Yes?" Hazel replied as she walked toward the bleachers to watch Jimmy practice.

"Um here." JT hands her an envelope.

"What is this?"

"It it's an invitation ta to my party."

"And why would I go?"

"Be...because Jimmy's going.

"OK thanks."

"Um b bye."

"Bye." Hazel said then she turned around and walked away

"JT!" Kendra scared him. "Hi JT. What Party?

"The party I'm throwing its tonight, you can come if you want"

"I might, but can you do me a favor?" Kendra asked sweetly

"Depends on what it is."

"Tell Toby to stop staring at me because it's really creeping me out."

"Come on Kendra he really misses you, cant you just talk to him." JT pleaded

"No... but if you won't tell him I'll be happy to ask Spinner to do it."

"Fine...I'll tell him, but just think about talking to him you might really like

what he has to say......well anyway I have to go give out the rest of the invites, see you tonight."

After practice Spinner ran up to Emma and kissed her.

"Hey...ready to go?" she asked

"Yeah let me grab my things out of the locker room... I'll be right back."

As Emma watched Spinner walk away she was startled by a tap on her shoulder she turned around to see Jay standing in front of her, she was shocked neither one of them really liked the other but after the shooting last year they learned to deal. What does he want was the first thing that came to her mind, but before she could ask he told her.

"Sean wants to talk to you"

"So what are you like his bitch, if he wants to talk to me than tell him to come ask me him self and besides I'm busy" she brushed him off

"What do you have like a save the frogs campaign to go?"

"Actually no but thanks for your concern."

"Yea, he just wants to talk to you for like a minute. Why do you always have to be so difficult?"

"Sorry I'll work on that. Got to go bye!" she said and ran off toward the lockers. The last thing she wanted to do was talk to Sean. He left when she needed him the most and when she finally moved on with her life, he came back and wanted her to drop everything she worked so hard to get back.

Spinner finally came out of the locker room but now he looked a little spaced out.

"What's wrong Spin?"

"Um...Nothing I was just thinking."

"Do you care to share?"

"Oh it was um nothing... so JT's party were going right"

"Yeah but should I wear pants or a skirt?"

"Skirt defiantly a Skirt"

"How did I know you were going to say that?" she leaned over and kissed his cheek. She loved to tease him like that

J.T. ran around his living room putting bowls of chips on the tables while Toby and Liberty hung streamers from the ceiling. JT was so nervous this was his first party and half of Degrassi was going to be there. He ran about 1000 scenarios through his head about what might go wrong. Liberty could see how nervous he was.

"Everything is going to be fine JT you really need to stop worrying." She tried to comfort him. She never seen him like this he usually had a joke for everything but know he looked freaked out

"Stop worrying how can I stop worrying, do you realize that we go to Degrassi right? He told her

"Yea what is that suppose to mean" Toby chimed in confused

"That suppose to mean that anything can happen." He explained

"Ok well everything is just about ready all we need is Chris to finish setting up his equipment and the guest to arrive and the party can begin" Liberty said as the doorbell rang. "I'll get it" she reached for the door knob as she slowly opened the door revealing Chris Sharpe holding a huge brown box filled with records and CD's.

"Wow cool pad." He said shaking his head in approval while looking around JT's house.

"Thanks, you can set up over there. Everyone should be here in about 20 minutes. If they show up" JT was still freaking out.

"They will all be here JT." Toby assured him

JT plopped down on the couch and flicked on the TV he figured it was the only thing that would keep from freaking out, but just as his nerves began to settle they door bell ran and before he knew it his living room began to fill up with kids. He was extremely happy with the turn out almost everyone he invited showed up. He glared over toward the kitchen and seen Manny Santos leaning up against the wall talking to Liberty. She looked gorgeous he kept thinking to himself if only he didn't screw things up last year they would be together now, but she was back with Sully and JT was happy for her because she was finally happy.

Spinner, Jimmy, Hazel, and Emma pulled up in front of JT's house. It felt so good to get out of that car; the whole ride was so tense. Hazel and Emma didn't really get along that well because of Paige. Emma didn't understand she never meant to hurt Paige by going out with Spinner, she even asked for her permission before accepting Spinner's offer. She looked down the street and seen Jay and Sean walking, she didn't know Sean was going to be here but at that point she didn't care she just wanted to have a good time with Spinner. Spinner wasn't feeling the same way tough he dint know what to do about what JT told him. Was it true? Was Paige making it all up to get back at him for breaking her heart? All these thoughts were going trough his head and he didn't know how to deal with them.

"So let the party begin" Jimmy exclaimed as he grabbed Hazel's waist

"Spin are you sure you're okay" Emma asked noticing Spinner was unusually quite.

"Yeah I'm fine...Let's go in go in." They walked trough the doors into JT's living room, it was crowded and the music was loud Emma looked over at Spinner and flashed him a smile. He just smiled back and took in his surroundings. He noticed that Sean walked in right behind them and it made him feel sick. He watched as Sean nodded to Emma, was that their secret code he thought to himself.

"Dude everything is going to be okay." Jimmy told him as they walked through the packed living room.

"I'm going to get a drink, want anything?" Emma asked and everyone declined. As she made her way to the kitchen she kept thinking about Spinner. What's wrong with him, did she do something wrong, was he having second thoughts about their relationship. She didn't know what to think anymore. She approached a huge bucket filled with drinks and ice she gently moved bottles out of the way to find what she wanted was all the way at the bottom she went to slowly put her hand in the bucket to avoid getting wet and a huge hand cut in front of her and grabbed the bottle and handed it to her. She looked up and seen Jay standing there holding the bottle out to her.

"Thanks" she said grabbing it from him.

"No problem... so can you talk to Sean for like a minute"

"Sorry but no, I'm here to have a good time with Spinner not to wallow in the past" she said walking away

Toby stood up against the wall and stared at all the people dancing.

"Going to hold up the walls all night" Sean asked as he leaned up against the wall next to him. "Anyway Tobe, I want to apologize for yelling at you like that. I had no right to freak out... I don't even know where that came from."

"It's okay. I know you have been going through a lot since last year and I shouldn't have told you that you didn't understand."

"Yeah but that's no excuse I shouldn't have even brought it up, it just kind of came out. So are we friends again." Sean stuck his hand for Toby to shake.

"Yeah friends again." Toby said shaking Sean's hand. Toby noticed that Sean was staring at Emma who was dancing with Spinner. He looked so sad.

"You miss her don't you" Toby asked

"Yeah I do...a lot"

"I feel your pain." Toby looked over at Kendra talking to Liberty.

"I love her so much Toby I can't even see straight"

"You're telling the wrong person, why don't you go tell her." Sean looked back over at her noticing she was now standing alone, this was his chance. He walked over to her and she turned around pretending not to see him behind her.

"Can we talk." He said knowing she just wanted him to leave.

"Say what you have to say"

"It's kind of private... just let's go in the back for a couple of minutes"

"What about Jay are you sure he doesn't need to supervise?"

"Please Em just hear what I have to say and then I won't bother you again" he pleaded with her. You could see that she was thinking it over in her head.

"Fine but just for a minute." They walked into an empty bedroom and Sean sat on the bed. Emma just stood there and waited for him to talk.

"Listen Em I've been thinking a lot about us lately and I am so in love with you. Why can't we work all this stuff out make things like they use to be? We are so good together."

"Sean I can't I'm with Spinner."

"You don't love him not liked you loved me; I can see it the way you look at me. We can make this work, were suppose to be together Emma. I need you... I need you so bad." His eyes began to fill up with tears. Sean never cries she knew that this was killing him but she couldn't help it. She sat down on the bed next to him and put her arm around his shoulder. She hated to see him like this.

"Sean I'm sorry...I'm so sorry but I'm not in love with you anymore. I moved on, I'm happy now. I'm sorry." She tried to let him down gently. He looked up at her his eyes were puffy but he wasn't crying, they just stared at each other and then he kissed her hard and passionate. Spinner walked into the room and just stood at the door in shock, he slammed it shut making the room rattle. Emma pulled away.

"Sean I said I moved on I can't do this I have to go. I love Spinner" She ran out of the room after Spinner leaving Sean in there alone.

Toby was still standing up against the wall when Kendra saw him. She felt bad for him he looked so lonely.

"Hey Toby JT told me that you wanted to talk to me." She said

"Hey Kendra... I was wondering if you want to go on a date with me sometime" she was surprised that he was so up front about it.

"I don't know Toby... I don't think so"

"Please Kendra just give me another shot, I know I screwed things up last time I grew up...a lot.

"I'll go out with you for, for one date." She gave in the truth was she missed Toby to. It made her feel good to see that big smile on his face to know she had put it there.

Emma pushed her way through the crowd toward the front door she walked down the front stairs and seen Jimmy and Spinner sitting on the hood of Spinners car.

"Spin what happened you almost knocked me over trying to get out here?"

"Those rumors about Emma and Sean there true there all true"

"What?! How did you find out?" Jimmy was so confused

"I seen them I walk into the bedroom and they were kissing on the bed"

"Spin I'm sorry... you alright?"

"No I just wan to be alone"

"Okay" Jimmy walked away toward the party passing Emma on the way.

"Good job" he said coldly. She walked toward Spinner slowly she didn't know how to explain what he had seen.

"Spin do you mind if I sit"

"No not at all" when she sat down he got up and began to walk down the street.

"Spin...Spinner please come back...just let me try to explain" she asked he stopped and turn toward her.

"What is there to explain you're cheating on me I get Sean's your first love I hope you're happy together..........you know I am so stupid JT told me and I didn't believe him. I knew this was too good to be true. I mean all the signs were there, you talking to Jay, Sean always staring at you." by know he was yelling

"Spin please its not like that...honest. I wouldn't do that to you. I don't love him anymore."

"Stop lying to me I saw you kissing... I saw it."

"Its not what it looked like he pulled me in and when I realize what was happening I pulled away, but it was too late you were already gone."

"JT told me before that that's why the whole school was staring at us, you this morning. So what am I suppose to believe."

"You're supposed to believe me because I'm your girl friend. Why would JT tell you that anyway?"

"Because that's what he heard from Paige." He finally clamed down

"Paige...Paige he heard it from Paige and you believed him." She was the one that was annoyed now. "Jay kept asking if I would talk to Sean and I kept refusing. Then Sean asked me tonight and at first I said no but he practically begged, so I agreed and we went in the back and he asked for me back and you know what I said I said no and he was really sad and I tried to comfort him and that's when he kissed me and I pulled away and told him I love you and I left." She was now yelling and spinner was a bit surprised he never saw her that angry before.

"And how am I supposed to believe that?" Spinner exclaimed.

"How are you supposed to believe JT? Huh Spin?"

"I'm a kill e'm." He storms into the house and sees Sean.

"Spinner," Sean said. "Emma had noth-" But before he could say any thing else Spinner punched him across the face knocking Sean to the floor.

"Don't you ever try to pull that crap again?" he said and then walked away. He didn't get too far; Sean tackled him to the floor. The two boys wrestled while a mob formed around them. Emma fought her way through it.

"SEAN GET OFF HIM!" Emma yelled trying to break them apart. Jimmy and Jay ran to try to help her, they finally got them apart.

"Jimmy get off me." Spinner yelled trying to break loose from his tight down."

"Jimmy get the fuck off of me." Still trying to break free

"What the hells your problem" Sean asked wiping the blood of his lip.

"I think you know what my problem is...don't you ever touch her again."

"Come on...let's go" Emma grabbed Spinner's hand and pulled him out the door.

"What the hell are you thinking?" Emma asked Spinner.

"Getting my point across, OK."

"No it's not ok." Emma walks away.

Spinner turned around and kicked the tire of his car. He got in and slammed the door hard and drove off fast.