"What there Once was will Never Be"
Sitting in my world so black
I close my eyes, remembering back
In this vision I see you and me
But what there once was will never be
I looked into your eyes to see
The warmth of friendship always there
But what I saw did not comfort me
I felt a stab in my heart
As you walked away
I closed my eyes, suppressed my tears
For crying had become on of my worst fears
In my mind I can see
What there once was will never be
I walked away confused and hurt
You had looked at me like I was dirt
My heart was crushed; it
Broke and bled
I was among the
Living dead
I realized then my heart I must train
To feel no sorrow, feel no pain
Emotions felt for any friend
Can only bring a hurtful end
For if one thing I could clearly see
What there once was will never be
Now I open my eyes in my dark abyss
And I certainly know this:
I like the dark, the solitude,
The cold,
And I laugh out loud and strong
And bold
My heart is hard, icy, and thin
No one at all is allowed within
I care naught for you now
It doesn't matter to me
That what there once was
Will never
Be.