"Forget About Me"
When I am near him
I feel my emotions rise
I clear my mind
And close my eyes
The chances of emotions escaping
Are usually slim
But they rise when I'm near him
They struggle fiercely to be free
Whenever I find those green eyes
Looking at me
I remind myself
I must stay grim
Emotions of any kind
Can upset the balance of my mind
If that balance were to be broken
If my feelings were to be spoken
The world would know its end
And so I must turn from you
My friend
In your eyes I can see the hurt
I must remain hard and curt
I wish that I could tell you how I feel
But I don't know if the world could deal
If I were to let my emotions fly
I fear the world would surely die
I fear rejection in my heart
I fear that I will lose the part
Of you I have in being a friend
Will these fears ever end?
I must let go
Let no emotions show
Because when everything is gone
There's nothing there to fear
When all emotion is void
No one can get near
Is that what I really want?
Do I have a choice?
"No" states the voice
That is reason in my head
"If you show emotion, your friends will be dead"
So I block out the hurt I see
Hold it all inside of me
Until it disappears with all else
Leaving me by myself
Alone and unfeeling I must stay
And turn your loving gestures away
No feelings at all, no matter how slight
It is an eternal fight
Maybe someday I can find how
To let myself love without destruction
But not now;
It would not function
But wait, no,
It can never be
And so, my love, forget about me