Forever in the Dark

forever in the dark
never to see the light of day again
to wander about with no sense of direction
utter feelings of loss and chaos fill the mind
wondering of purpose on this earth
to take his loss as a sin to his life
never to understand such trechery
fear fills the heart at times
times when the sight of color and life seem to fade and allude the mind
detached from what made life wonderful to bear
although this lifetime was dark and not a happy one
to have the last hope taken away burns
shot down and left to die during battle
the heat attacking skin upon stone
searching for strength to go on
when not having anything to live for
no one to touch this dreay soul
to bring it back to life and peace
although peace was something never truly known nor owned
adjusting to a life without love and sight
bits of sanity seem to fade
regrets pulling at the heart strings
life and warmth bleed out from the battle wounds
feeling faint and to wonder about death
will death be wonderful as one imagined it to be?
swift, soft, fast, and yet relaxing
finally to leave from here and never look back
if that what fate has intended
senses seem to blur and intensify with the loss of sight
lights seem to flicker about and taunt
anger and vengence seems to come to mind
only thing that made one feel alive again
that feeling of adrenaline and excitement
having to be on guard for one's life
not much it seems but it would have to do
until one can think of something, of a purpose
might as well get used to the fact
the fact that that this one would have to carry for the rest of his life
sheldon jeffery sands must remain forever in the dark
with a soul so dark, how long can he truly last?