The ninth installment to the series, Forever in the Dark. This time, in the format of a song that is loosely based upon Nirvana's "Half the Man I Used to Be". As you read this song, try reading and imagining it in that tone, the way Kurt Cobain sang that song that I mentioned. One more thing to know about the latest installment is that it sort of covers the events in previous chapters. I believe it summarizes the events of the past two or three installments, not exactly everything since the third installment, which was the first song, "Hate Myself". Anyways, enjoy!
Fortress of Solitude
I'm lying in pieces on the floor
The
room is so dark
But I don't seem to care
All I can think
about
Is how I'm in constant pain
And how I would like to heal,
like to feel
Don't take time from these wanted hands
I need
it to heal, need it to feel
I want to see a change
Have light
pour fourth from the door
Although I no idea on how to unlock the
door
I can't seem to find the key
Crawling around on hands
and knees
Clawing away at the floor
Almost ready to give up the
search
Pound my fists upon the walls
I feel at such a loss
For
I've scoured nearly every inch of the room
To draw up nothing but
air
This has all been in vain
What a waste of my precious
time
How utterly pointless to try again
When I receive nothing
in return
Makes me wonder if someone threw away the key
While I
was away for the day
How dare they do such a thing
To a
poor, blind soul like me
I really need that key to open the
door
Before the window of opportunity is gone
And the light
fades behind teh way
By then it would be too late to learn how to
heal, how to feel
To remain isolated in solitude for all
eternity
With only myself to blame
I wouldn't be able to take
the guilt
I hate myself for getting like this
Leading a life
full of regrets and agony
To suffer alone with my grief
I
pound agains the walls of this jail cell
Crying out that I want to
change
Please let me heal, let me feel
I fear the darkness
surrounding me
The shadow sharpening its claws upon my cool
facade
On a path of mass destruction to reach my sanity
I
scream like this for hours on end
But no one ever cares to come to
my aide
No one dares to brave these wanted hands
I grow
tired of it all
Living my life from day to day
Anxious for one
to end and another begin
All I ever do is lie here in pieces on
the floor
Allowing the constant pain to wash over me
Drowning
in this life of agony
Oh, how I long to heal, long to feel