A/N: Thanks to EviLKnieveL1218 for sending me that email (do you have a
name on ff.net?) It was very useful in this chapter, I also looked into
beast boy past, something I did not do for star nor robin. I am typing this
why watching Carnival on HBO (I love that show). Anyways hope you like
Beast Boys dirty little secret! Oh yeah thanks to everyone who review, I
would make it personal, but I only do that in the second chapter of my
stories!
Dirty Little Secrets
Case 3: Beast Boy
A single tear made its way down my check; it was soon to be followed by others. I had once again locked my self in my room; memories of the past coming back and hitting me full force.
Yes it felt like yesterday, when I was just a normal happy with my parent, but it all change in an instance. I had become infected with a rare tropical disease that was believed to only spare animals. I didn't know much about it at that time, just that it scared them. I remember them using that machine on me I didn't like it much. That's when it all happened.
My skin had become green, not one could explain it. My parent however didn't care they where just happy I was alive. Then I found out about my other mutation. When a snake threatened my mother I was afraid. It all happened so quickly I become small and furry, and attacked the snake. I had saved her, I was so happy. It made me so confident that I could save them from anything, just anything. But I was so wrong, so very wrong.
Several years on a boat trip gone terribly wrong, they died. I was heartbroken, ripped apart by guilt. I could have saved them I could have prevented it! Its my fault, all my fault! I knew it was.
My grief however I did not stop there, no it continued on. I had discovered more about my mutation, and decided to us it to save people. I went out and joined The Doom Patrol. They where like family to me I loved them all, I felt like that maybe with them I could somehow cure the guilt from my parents deaths, again I was wrong. They where all killed, everyone, once again it was my entire fault. Fresh was that pain of their death and my parent's death.
Desperate for a way to try and get ride of this guilt, this guilt that's constantly tore at my heart. I need to find a way to save people, with other people, or I would go mad. Then I found them, The Teen Titans.
However I felt a new pain when I joined them, insecurity. They where all so good at what they did. Robin with his fighting, cyborg and his strength, raven with her spells and mental power, and Star with her alien powers. They didn't need me, I was just someone there too make them laugh, like a jester in a court.
Yes humor, what a wonderful mask to hide behind. They would never guess what little old beast boy really thought deep down behind closed doors. They didn't know of my pain, my guilt, my fears.
Yes fears biggest of all were losing Raven. Yes I loved her, I wanted to grab her and hold her in my arms. I wanted to be able to protect her from every little thing, but whenever I get to close someone, I lost them.
So I hide behind my mask and never showed my true feelings that would only hurt them. Hey maybe they would get rid of me if they found out I wasn't that all happy guy. So I hide and I will always hide.
A/N: Phwee! Poor beast boy! And some of that was true anyways Cyborg is next! I know there are many of you out there who are waiting for Raven, just saving the best last.hehehe. Anyways so what do you think of this chapter hhhmmmm? And what is cy's secret? Any suggestions
Dirty Little Secrets
Case 3: Beast Boy
A single tear made its way down my check; it was soon to be followed by others. I had once again locked my self in my room; memories of the past coming back and hitting me full force.
Yes it felt like yesterday, when I was just a normal happy with my parent, but it all change in an instance. I had become infected with a rare tropical disease that was believed to only spare animals. I didn't know much about it at that time, just that it scared them. I remember them using that machine on me I didn't like it much. That's when it all happened.
My skin had become green, not one could explain it. My parent however didn't care they where just happy I was alive. Then I found out about my other mutation. When a snake threatened my mother I was afraid. It all happened so quickly I become small and furry, and attacked the snake. I had saved her, I was so happy. It made me so confident that I could save them from anything, just anything. But I was so wrong, so very wrong.
Several years on a boat trip gone terribly wrong, they died. I was heartbroken, ripped apart by guilt. I could have saved them I could have prevented it! Its my fault, all my fault! I knew it was.
My grief however I did not stop there, no it continued on. I had discovered more about my mutation, and decided to us it to save people. I went out and joined The Doom Patrol. They where like family to me I loved them all, I felt like that maybe with them I could somehow cure the guilt from my parents deaths, again I was wrong. They where all killed, everyone, once again it was my entire fault. Fresh was that pain of their death and my parent's death.
Desperate for a way to try and get ride of this guilt, this guilt that's constantly tore at my heart. I need to find a way to save people, with other people, or I would go mad. Then I found them, The Teen Titans.
However I felt a new pain when I joined them, insecurity. They where all so good at what they did. Robin with his fighting, cyborg and his strength, raven with her spells and mental power, and Star with her alien powers. They didn't need me, I was just someone there too make them laugh, like a jester in a court.
Yes humor, what a wonderful mask to hide behind. They would never guess what little old beast boy really thought deep down behind closed doors. They didn't know of my pain, my guilt, my fears.
Yes fears biggest of all were losing Raven. Yes I loved her, I wanted to grab her and hold her in my arms. I wanted to be able to protect her from every little thing, but whenever I get to close someone, I lost them.
So I hide behind my mask and never showed my true feelings that would only hurt them. Hey maybe they would get rid of me if they found out I wasn't that all happy guy. So I hide and I will always hide.
A/N: Phwee! Poor beast boy! And some of that was true anyways Cyborg is next! I know there are many of you out there who are waiting for Raven, just saving the best last.hehehe. Anyways so what do you think of this chapter hhhmmmm? And what is cy's secret? Any suggestions