A/N: Sorry for not updating in a long time, school has been keeping me
busy. Anyways this chapter is going to be really short and crappy because I
didn't find much on cyborg, so I tried my best. Well hmmm oh yes for ravens
chapter which is next, it will take long. I wanna make it good, because she
is going to play a big part in this story. Oh yes I changed my name from
chessy cat to koujaku because chessy cat sounded to boring.
Disclaimer: I don't own teen titans, but if I did pink elephants attack.
Case 4: Cyborg
I looked in the mirror the light reflecting off of my cold metallic parts, they where almost invincible, strong durable, these where things that every super hero would want.
But did I want them, not any more. Sure when I first got into the teen titans I was thankful for this body, I doubt I would have gotten in other wise. But now after being in the teen titans, I hate this body. I mean how could I not, just seeing robin, raven, star or beast boy with their delicate movements, it was so beautiful. With my big heavy body I couldn't do half of the things that they do. I envied that; I envied that more then anything. I envied being able to touch something and really feel it. I envied being able to feel my own warm skin. But there's nothing I could do to change that.
But the thing I hated most about this body is I could never cerate another living thing with it. Sure I could kill things with it, but I am totally unable to give life. I can never have a child that is of my flesh and blood. Yeah I could adopt, probably will. But what if I hurt them with these massive hands, or crush them, just plainly kill them. I would not be able to live with myself if I did that.
Yeah that's another thing I hate about myself, hurting people. I mean at times I feel like more of a hazard then help. I mean a few I had already stepped on Robin's foot; he could fight for a month. He told me not to worry about it but I did. It was like never ending guilt, what if I hurt one of them again, but this time I put them out forever. Then I would really hate myself.
Not that I already did. Not only did I hate this body, I hated me. I knew I used this body to hide behind. I used it as a mask. I used it to make it seem that I was someone big in tuff. When deep deep down I was just a sniveling coward hoping that nobody would find this out. Hoping that nobody would find I was only worth something because of this body, and other than that I was worthless.
Yeah that's me, just a worthless hunk of metal.
A/N: Seee I told you it would be short and crappy. But don't worry Raven chapter will be better, I hope. Well anyways please R/R, tell me what you think Raven's secret may be.
Disclaimer: I don't own teen titans, but if I did pink elephants attack.
Case 4: Cyborg
I looked in the mirror the light reflecting off of my cold metallic parts, they where almost invincible, strong durable, these where things that every super hero would want.
But did I want them, not any more. Sure when I first got into the teen titans I was thankful for this body, I doubt I would have gotten in other wise. But now after being in the teen titans, I hate this body. I mean how could I not, just seeing robin, raven, star or beast boy with their delicate movements, it was so beautiful. With my big heavy body I couldn't do half of the things that they do. I envied that; I envied that more then anything. I envied being able to touch something and really feel it. I envied being able to feel my own warm skin. But there's nothing I could do to change that.
But the thing I hated most about this body is I could never cerate another living thing with it. Sure I could kill things with it, but I am totally unable to give life. I can never have a child that is of my flesh and blood. Yeah I could adopt, probably will. But what if I hurt them with these massive hands, or crush them, just plainly kill them. I would not be able to live with myself if I did that.
Yeah that's another thing I hate about myself, hurting people. I mean at times I feel like more of a hazard then help. I mean a few I had already stepped on Robin's foot; he could fight for a month. He told me not to worry about it but I did. It was like never ending guilt, what if I hurt one of them again, but this time I put them out forever. Then I would really hate myself.
Not that I already did. Not only did I hate this body, I hated me. I knew I used this body to hide behind. I used it as a mask. I used it to make it seem that I was someone big in tuff. When deep deep down I was just a sniveling coward hoping that nobody would find this out. Hoping that nobody would find I was only worth something because of this body, and other than that I was worthless.
Yeah that's me, just a worthless hunk of metal.
A/N: Seee I told you it would be short and crappy. But don't worry Raven chapter will be better, I hope. Well anyways please R/R, tell me what you think Raven's secret may be.