A/N: No I am not dead, just school writers block and all that stuff go in
the way, but no worries I shall try to update more often! Really I will! Oh
yes and thanks to Echo195
for helping me out
Dirty Little Secrets
File One: Robin
This time I had gone too far, I had cut too deep, too many. Crimson rivers rapidly flowed from open cuts on my pale wrist. I stood there in the white tiled bathroom just staring at the cuts, my mind working at what I should do.
I could go for help, but going for help would require me to explain how I got the cuts and that would mean my secret would be revealed. I couldn't let that happen. I was their leader someone they could look to for help, if they knew I did this to myself, I would lose all respect...
I started to feel light headed, I knew this was no time to think about the consequences of my actions I just need to do something now or die. My eyes darted around the bathroom...towels! I quickly grabbed one off the sink's counter and pressed it against the cuts, praying the bleeding would stop, but it didn't instead the towel was stained red. Mocking me, only reminding me of my helpless situation.
I sank down to the floor, my legs already growing weak...its was getting harder to think. I looked around hopelessly for anything that could help, any glimmer of hope-
"Hello" there was knock at the door, I recognized the voice right away, it was Raven, no she couldn't come in. I tried to raise my voice but it was useless. Pleas let the door be locked, she couldn't find out. The door opened. Raven stepped in, took one look at me, blood still coming from the wound and gasped, a mirror above temporally glowing black then shattering, showering me in glittering pieces of sharp glass that bit into my skin.
"Robin! What happened here?" She ran over to me taking my wrist into her hand, running a finger over the cuts "Robin you didn't, do this to yourself...did you?" She looked into my eyes, even though her face was still devoid of emotion her eyes were filled with disbelief, they ripped into my soul like the blade had ripped my skin, they were the last things I saw before the darkness took me.
***
When I awoke again, I was surrounded by white, I vaguely wondered if I was
in heaven, but then I herd the familiar monotonous beep of a heart monitor,
I immediately knew where I was, a hospital.
I tried to lift my self up. But I was still too weak, my head spinning whenever I moved it. So I went back to lying down, my head buzzing with thoughts of what everyone thought of me, they probably hated me. I failed them! Leaders weren't supposed to have psychological problems, they were supposed to be sane.
I let out a sigh, I knew what was going to happen now, I was going to be shipped off to some mental hospital, where they would try and "cure" me. But what if they couldn't cure me and, I was locked there forever what if I got even worse then I already am! No, now I was just being, crazy, I'll get better. I just have to.
I saw a clicker by the side of my bed and picked up, I needed some T.V to get my mind off of things.
"Today one of the teen titans, Robin was rushed to the hospital. We do not have all the information on why he was taken to the hospital but there have been rumors of attempted suicide. We will have more on this story at seven." I stared at the screen with horror, not only did my friends know but now the whole city! And I was not trying to kill myself, but what would it matter, it wouldn't change the fact that everyone knew now, and now everyone hated me.
"Robin?" I looked up but I didn't need too, I already knew who was speaking, Starfire. "Oh Robin, you have awakened! I have been filled with worry!" She ran over to me, taking my hand in hers "Robin, why have you done this?" Her eyes were so innocent, so trustworthy, but I could tell there was hurt in there I had hurt her and I could not bring myself to face her, instead I just looked staring at the sheets, as if they held the answer to all my questions "Please talk to me Robin!" she sounded so hurt, I can't believe I was doing this to her.
"Excuse me miss, could you please leave me and the patient alone for few minutes." I heard an unrecognizable from the doorway voice from I struggled to get up so I could see whom it was but I was just too weak to get up. I felt Starfire let go of my hand and leave. "Hello Robin, my name is Doctor Helquist, I shall be taking you to Lucky Springs Mental Hospital." I cringed slightly at her words; I didn't want to be locked up.
"When are you taking me." My voice was foreign to me, so quiet and unsure.
"As soon as the hospital clears you to go, that should only be a few days from now." I looked up at the doctor, she looked strict and I had a feeling that I wouldn't like her. "Now be sure to rest up I would prefer to get you there as soon as possible."
***
One week passed before I was let out of the hospital and I found myself in the car that was taking me to my new place of residence, and to be truthful I was pretty scared, I mean from now on my life is going to be in someone else's hands, I was no longer in control. But then again I never was.
The car pulled up in front of a very official looking building, a sign in front had Lucky Springs Mental Hospital spelled out in bold black letters. The building was surrounded by high metal fences the top coils of the sharp metal wire that they used when they wanted to keep people in, god I felt like I was going to prison.
"Well Robin, this Lucky Springs Mental Hospital, or as most of us like to call it, Lucky Springs, now I am just going to call some attendees to show you around, and to go through all the necessary procedures." I was barely listening to what Doctor Helquist was saying, I was too busy looking at the hospital wondering if there was any way out. But as all saw the two attendees walk out of the hospital each dressed in white, I knew I wouldn't be free any time soon.
A/N: Eeehhh I think I tried to hard to make it long, I don't really like this one. Oh yes if you want to see progress on stories and such go that's my writing journal.
Dirty Little Secrets
File One: Robin
This time I had gone too far, I had cut too deep, too many. Crimson rivers rapidly flowed from open cuts on my pale wrist. I stood there in the white tiled bathroom just staring at the cuts, my mind working at what I should do.
I could go for help, but going for help would require me to explain how I got the cuts and that would mean my secret would be revealed. I couldn't let that happen. I was their leader someone they could look to for help, if they knew I did this to myself, I would lose all respect...
I started to feel light headed, I knew this was no time to think about the consequences of my actions I just need to do something now or die. My eyes darted around the bathroom...towels! I quickly grabbed one off the sink's counter and pressed it against the cuts, praying the bleeding would stop, but it didn't instead the towel was stained red. Mocking me, only reminding me of my helpless situation.
I sank down to the floor, my legs already growing weak...its was getting harder to think. I looked around hopelessly for anything that could help, any glimmer of hope-
"Hello" there was knock at the door, I recognized the voice right away, it was Raven, no she couldn't come in. I tried to raise my voice but it was useless. Pleas let the door be locked, she couldn't find out. The door opened. Raven stepped in, took one look at me, blood still coming from the wound and gasped, a mirror above temporally glowing black then shattering, showering me in glittering pieces of sharp glass that bit into my skin.
"Robin! What happened here?" She ran over to me taking my wrist into her hand, running a finger over the cuts "Robin you didn't, do this to yourself...did you?" She looked into my eyes, even though her face was still devoid of emotion her eyes were filled with disbelief, they ripped into my soul like the blade had ripped my skin, they were the last things I saw before the darkness took me.
***
When I awoke again, I was surrounded by white, I vaguely wondered if I was
in heaven, but then I herd the familiar monotonous beep of a heart monitor,
I immediately knew where I was, a hospital.
I tried to lift my self up. But I was still too weak, my head spinning whenever I moved it. So I went back to lying down, my head buzzing with thoughts of what everyone thought of me, they probably hated me. I failed them! Leaders weren't supposed to have psychological problems, they were supposed to be sane.
I let out a sigh, I knew what was going to happen now, I was going to be shipped off to some mental hospital, where they would try and "cure" me. But what if they couldn't cure me and, I was locked there forever what if I got even worse then I already am! No, now I was just being, crazy, I'll get better. I just have to.
I saw a clicker by the side of my bed and picked up, I needed some T.V to get my mind off of things.
"Today one of the teen titans, Robin was rushed to the hospital. We do not have all the information on why he was taken to the hospital but there have been rumors of attempted suicide. We will have more on this story at seven." I stared at the screen with horror, not only did my friends know but now the whole city! And I was not trying to kill myself, but what would it matter, it wouldn't change the fact that everyone knew now, and now everyone hated me.
"Robin?" I looked up but I didn't need too, I already knew who was speaking, Starfire. "Oh Robin, you have awakened! I have been filled with worry!" She ran over to me, taking my hand in hers "Robin, why have you done this?" Her eyes were so innocent, so trustworthy, but I could tell there was hurt in there I had hurt her and I could not bring myself to face her, instead I just looked staring at the sheets, as if they held the answer to all my questions "Please talk to me Robin!" she sounded so hurt, I can't believe I was doing this to her.
"Excuse me miss, could you please leave me and the patient alone for few minutes." I heard an unrecognizable from the doorway voice from I struggled to get up so I could see whom it was but I was just too weak to get up. I felt Starfire let go of my hand and leave. "Hello Robin, my name is Doctor Helquist, I shall be taking you to Lucky Springs Mental Hospital." I cringed slightly at her words; I didn't want to be locked up.
"When are you taking me." My voice was foreign to me, so quiet and unsure.
"As soon as the hospital clears you to go, that should only be a few days from now." I looked up at the doctor, she looked strict and I had a feeling that I wouldn't like her. "Now be sure to rest up I would prefer to get you there as soon as possible."
***
One week passed before I was let out of the hospital and I found myself in the car that was taking me to my new place of residence, and to be truthful I was pretty scared, I mean from now on my life is going to be in someone else's hands, I was no longer in control. But then again I never was.
The car pulled up in front of a very official looking building, a sign in front had Lucky Springs Mental Hospital spelled out in bold black letters. The building was surrounded by high metal fences the top coils of the sharp metal wire that they used when they wanted to keep people in, god I felt like I was going to prison.
"Well Robin, this Lucky Springs Mental Hospital, or as most of us like to call it, Lucky Springs, now I am just going to call some attendees to show you around, and to go through all the necessary procedures." I was barely listening to what Doctor Helquist was saying, I was too busy looking at the hospital wondering if there was any way out. But as all saw the two attendees walk out of the hospital each dressed in white, I knew I wouldn't be free any time soon.
A/N: Eeehhh I think I tried to hard to make it long, I don't really like this one. Oh yes if you want to see progress on stories and such go that's my writing journal.