Reincarnation Slayer Style Chapter 2: RS2 A Videotape and Mute Song, a buffy x-overs fanfic

Title: Reincarnation Slayer Style ch.2

Author: If there are any, it will be painfully obvious.

Summary: see chapter 1

Timeline: S7 BTVS, S4 (AU) ATS, book 1-? HP.

Pairing: B/A, etc.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the fic and some other stuff in the fic-like certain obvious details.

Feedback: Please. I need my reason for writing- your ideas and me knowing my work is read.

Rating: (May change. But I cannot write NC-17.)

Notes: maybe later.

Changes: minor, kinda.

Notes: Gunn has never sung/hummed/etc in front of or for Lorne, so he is not aware that Anne is Buffy.

No Gru.

Fred has not talked about any Moria, 'rumption or the other word from Pylea that she was talking about for Angel and Cordy.

Angel was at the kitchen counter. He was brooding over the fact that something felt wrong, off. But for the life- sorry, undeath of him, he could not figure out what it was.

There was a noise at the door at AI.

"Lily" Gunn said, jumpy. He liked her a lot, but would not act on his feelings.

He stopped acting happy when he saw the look on her face. She looked bad, and had been crying.

She slowly walked in, and looked at Gunn. "I n-need to talk to you." She stuttered. She wasn't a stutterer so he was quiet and waited for her.

She walked over to Angel. "Are you Angel?" she asked. He nodded, brood mode out of effect he was curious now.

She slowly dug in her bag, and pulled out a VHS tape. Here. She wanted you to have it. "He didn't know she was her." She said cryptically, and then turned.

She left without another word and Gunn on her arm.

Outside, she stopped him. He stared at her, she looked sad, but before he knew what hit him, she was kissing him. Passionately.

It stopped soon, and he was quiet. She led him to the car, and drove to the homeless shelter/portal to hell/safe house.

He was shocked when he heard it and they cried together.

She simply said this. "Anne is Buffy. Buffy is dead."

Cordelia, Doyle, Wesley, Lorne and Fred had sat in silence during this.

"Who was that?" Cordy asked.

The others nodded at the question, thinking the same thing.

Lorne felt something off of the tape though when he saw it and said, "Angelcakes, why don't you put that tape in and we'll see what that was all about hopefully."

Angel nodded, he knew something was going wrong, but he couldn't think of what it was.

Lorne saw a drastic change in his aura though, and couldn't remember where from. He was getting the willies out of it though, and knew he should remember it from somewhere. But he couldn't remember where from.

Angel slid the tape into the small TV they had in the lobby, and they others gathered around it as well.

A black screen came up that said 'In The Event of My Death..." but Angel ignored that it was Buffy's handwriting.

Everyone was staring, wondering what it was.

Lights came on a screen, and you could soon see that it was from a live concert of a band get-together with many people in an audience watching the stage. Lights came on the stage, and four people were on it.

They were surprised to see Gunn with the drums. Someone, a girl, which they assumed was Gunn's now-dead and-dusted sister, had an electric guitar. It was kind of bizarre since only Angel had met the vamp, and this was before that. Another young woman, the one who had recently walked through the door and given Angel this tape, was in the part for backup singer.

But what made Cordy's mouth drop open, and Angel blink, was the younger version of Buffy Anne Summers on the lead singer's position, and a guitar in her hands.

And she sang. Beautifully

Hello (Evanescence's Fallen #9)

"Playground school bell rings again

Rain clouds come to play again

Has no one told me she's not breathing?

Hello I'm your mind giving you

Someone to talk to

Hello

If I smile and don't believe

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don't try to fix me I'm not broken

Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide

Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping

Hello I'm still here

All that's left of yesterday

My Immortal (Evanescence's Fallen #4)

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all of my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just to much that Time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

But now I'm bound by the life you've left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just to much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

And though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

REM "It's the End of the World"

That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and
snakes, an aeroplane and Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn - world
serves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs. Feed
it off an aux speak; grunt, no, strength, Ladder
start to clatter with fear fight down height. Wire
in a fire, representing seven games, a government
for hire and a combat site. Left of west and coming in
a hurry with the furies breathing down your neck. Team
by team reporters baffled, trumped, tethered cropped.
Look at that low playing! Fine, then. Uh oh,
overflow, population, common food, but it'll do. Save
yourself, serve yourself. World serves its own needs,
listen to your heart bleed dummy with the rapture and
the revered and the right, right. You vitriolic,
patriotic, slam, fight, bright light, feeling pretty
psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign
towers. Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself
churn. Locking in, uniforming, book burning, blood
letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate.
Light a candle, light a votive. Step down, step down.
Watch your heel crush, crushed, uh-oh, this means no
fear cavalier. Renegade steer clear! A tournament,
tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions,
offer me alternatives and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I dreamt of knives, continental
drift divide. Mountains sit in a line, Leonard
Bernstein. Leonid Brezhnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester
Bangs. Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You
symbiotic, patriotic, slam book neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel
fine...fine... with you by my side

(It's time I had some time alone)

It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing

Hope life's been good to you

Since you've been gone

I'm doin' fine now- I've finally moved on

It's not so bad now- I've finally moved on

It's not so bad- I'm not that sad

I'm not surprised just how well I survived

I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive

I can't complain- I'm free again

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath- to forget

Don't think I'm lyin' round crying at night

There's no need to worry, I'm really all right

I've never looked back – as a matter of fact

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath- to forget

It only hurts when I breathe

Mmm, no I've never looked back-

As a matter of fact

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath- to forget

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath- to forget

Forever and For Always

In your arms I cans till feel the way you

Want me when you hold me

I can still hear the words you whispered

When you told me

I can stay right here forever in your arms

And there ain't no way-

I'm letting you go now

And there ain't no way-

And there ain't no how

I'll never see the day...

'Cause I'm keeping you

forever and for always

We will be together all of our days

Wanna wake up every

Morning to your sweet face-always

Mmmm baby

In your heart- I can still hear

A beat for every time you kiss me

And when we're apart,

I know how much you miss me

I can feel your love for me in your heart

And there ain't no way-

I'm letting you go now

And there ain't no way-

And there ain't no how

I'll never see the day...

'Cause I'm keeping you

forever and for always

We will be together all of our days

Wanna wake up every

Morning to your sweet face-always

(I wanna wake up every morning)

In your eyes- (I can still see

The look of the one) I can still see

The look of the one who really loves me

(I can still feel the way that you want)

The one who wouldn't put anything

Else in the world above me

(I can still see love for me) I can

still see love for me in your eyes

(I still see the love)

'Cause I'm keeping you

forever and for always

We will be together all of our days

Wanna wake up every

Morning to your sweet face-always

'Cause I'm keeping you

forever and for always

We will be together all of our days

Wanna wake up every

Morning to your sweet face-always

I'm keeping you forever and for always

I'm in your arms

My Last breathe (Evanescence's Fallen #10)

Hold on to me love

You know I can't stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?

Holding my last breathe

Deep inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

I'll miss the winter

A world of fragile things

Look inside the white forest hiding in a hollow tree

Come find me

I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears

Holding my last breathe

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

Losing your eyes

To disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

But still you wake and know the truth

No one's there

Say goodnight

Don't be afraid

Calling me calling me as you fade to black

Say goodnight

Holding my last breathe

Safe inside myself

Are all my thought s of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight.

Whisper (Evanescence's Fallen #11)

Catch me as I fall

Say you're here and it's all over now

Speaki9ng to the atmosphere

No one's here and I fall into madness

I know I can stop the pain id I will it all away

Don't turn away

Don't give into the pain

Don't try to hide

Though they're screaming your name

Don't close your eyes

God knows what lies behind them

Don't turn out the light

Never sleep never die

I'm frightened by what I see

But somehow I know that there's much more to come

Immobilized by my fear

And soon to be blinded by light

I can stop the pain, if I will it all away

Don't turn away

Don't give into the pain

Don't try to hide

Though they're screaming your name

Don't close your eyes

God knows what lies behind them

Don't turn out the light

Never sleep never die

Fallen Angels at my feet

Whispered voices at my ear

Death before my eyes

Lying next to me I fear

She beckons me shall I give in

Upon my end shall I begin?

Forsaken all I've Fallen for, I rise to meet the end.

Music: Buffy is singin...

The Spirit Room: Something To Sleep To

She's his yellow brick road
Leading him on
And letting him go as far as she lets him go
Going down to nowhere

She puts on her make-up
The same way she did yesterday
Hoping everything's the same
But everything has changed

In my mind
Everything we did was right
Open your eyes, I'll still be by your side
How could you ever have been so blind?
You give me something to sleep to at night

He wakes up to the sound
So scared that she's leaving
He wishes she were still asleep next to him
Hoping she will change

In my mind
Everything we did was right
Open your eyes, I'll still be by your side
How could you ever have been so blind?
You give me something to sleep to at night

You give me something to sleep to
And all I know is
You give me something to dream to when I'm all alone and blue
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now

Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now

In my mind
Everything we did was right
Open your eyes, I'll still be by your side
How could I ever have been so blind?
You give me something to sleep to
Something to sleep to
Something to sleep to at night.

The Spirit Room: I'd Rather Be In Love

I cannot help it
I couldn't stop it if I tried
The same old heartbeat fills the emptiness I have inside
And I've heard that you can't fight love, so I won't complain
'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you

Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you

And I feel you holding me

Why are we afraid to be in love?
To be loved
I can't explain it
I know it's tough to be loved

And I feel you holding me

Oh, oh
And when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone

And I'd rather be in love
Yes, I'd rather be in love
Oh I'd rather be in love with you

And I feel you holding me, oh.

The Spirit Room: Goodbye To You

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star.

Hotel Paper: Are You Happy Now?

No, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don't care

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take
And left me with an empty plate
And you don't care about it
And I, I've given up this game
And leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

Do you really have everything you want?
You can never give somethin' you ain't got.
You can't run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that youre happy now
Come on tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had that all I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now
Are you happy now?

Hotel Paper: Tuesday Morning

I remember stormy weather
The way the sky looks when it's cold
And you were with me
Content with walking
So unaware of the world

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go

Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who you are

I took your picture
While you were sleeping
And then I paced around the room
If I had known then
That these things happen
Would they have happened to you?

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go

Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who I was

And if you turned around to see me and I was gone
You should have looked outside your window
'Cause the sun was coming up

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna feel alone

Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Who we are

Hotel Paper: One Of These Days

I didn't notice
But I didn't care
I tried being honest
But that lead me nowhere
I watched the station
Saw the bus pulling through
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
'Cause that's where I'm home

Did I make you nervous?
Did I ask for too much?
Was I not deserving one second of your touch?

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
'Cause that's where I'm home

What would you do if I could have you?
Oh if I could
I'd let you feel everything I'm thinking
Wouldn't that be nice?
One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you

Hotel Paper: Love Me Like That
(with Sheryl Crow)

Well you stole my heart
And I'll get it back
But look me in the eye babe
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love me like that

Well I've walked this world
Five times or more
And after all this walking babe
You still got me crawlin' on the floor
Crawlin' on the floor

And I know this world keeps on turning
Keeps me yearning

How can you turn and walk away
Pretending everything's okay?
How can you turn your back?
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love me like that

Well I thought you'd listen
But I'm shattered like broken glass
Well I thought we would be different babe
Yeah, I thought that we would last
I thought that we would last
And I know this world keeps on spinning
Every minute that you're in it

How can you turn and walk away
Pretending everything's okay?
How can you turn your back?
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love me like that

Love me or leave me baby but don't lead me on
With loving like yours believe me I'm better off
I'm better off alone

Well I was your gypsy
Throwing diamonds at your feet
Drifted 'round you like a satellite
Gave you everything you need
Everything you need

And I know this world keeps on turning
Keeps me yearning

How can you turn and walk away
Pretending everything's okay?
How can you turn your back?
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love me like that

How can you just break away?
Why can't you find the words to say?
Love is something you work at
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love like that?
How can you throw us away?
Look at what you lost today
Now everything is shades of grey
And now you're pushing me away
Say all the things you want to say
Though we were going all the way
Play all the games you wanna play
Slowly we just fade away

Hotel Paper: Empty Handed

Here I am, take me
It's easier to give in
Some people mistake me
They only hear what they want to hear
If you're losing sleep
Forgive me
I just can't keep pretending

I'm packing my bags 'cause I don't wanna be
The only one who's drowning in their misery
And I'll take that chance 'cause I just wanna breathe
And I won't look back and wonder how it's supposed to be
How it's supposed to be

There's a prism by the window
It lets the light leak in
I wish you would let me
You feel the water but do you swim?
And it's only me empty-handed
With a childish grin and a camera

La da da da

'Cause I'm packing my bags
And I won't be back

Hotel Paper: Breathe

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
And it's keeping you away

So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I don't wanna waste another moment
In saying things we never meant to say

And I take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated
I'm not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I give you just a little time
I wonder if you realize
I've been wanting 'til I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

So I whisper in the dark
Hoping you'll hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Everything is alright if I just breathe
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

. Hotel Paper: It's You

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one thing
I would tell it the stars and the sun
I would write it for the world to see

And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh, it's you
Whoa, it's you

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one wish
To kiss your quiet mouth
And trace your steps my fingertips

And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
And it's you
Oh, it's you
Oh, it's you

And it's you
Oh, it's you
Oh, it's you

Shaman: The Game Of Love

Tell me just what you want me to be
One kiss and boom you're the only one for me
So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm crying outside the door of your candy store

Chorus:
It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love

This, whatever you make it to be
Sunshine set on this cold lonely sea
So please baby try and use me for what I'm good for
It ain't sayin' goodbye that's knocking down the door of your candy store

Chorus
It's all in this game of love
You roll me
Control me
Console me
Please hold me
You guide me
Divide me
Into what...

Guitar solo
Make me feel good, yeah

So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm dying outside the door of your loving store

Repeat Chorus

It's all in this game of love
It's all in the game of love
Yeah, in the game of love

Roll me
Control me
Please hold me
(make me feel good, yeah)

Justincase: Without You
featuring Michelle Branch

It's been two weeks
Three days long
I'm all alone since you've been gone
I can't keep myself from asking why
Just wanna see my reflection
In your eyes

Just know that I'm with you
And what you feel
I feel it too

I'm feeling lately
I'm going crazy
Wondering how I'll go on without you
I keep on trying
Slowly dying
Thinking about how I need you here with me

I wear your shirt
The scent of you
Reminds of the night that we became two
There's nothing else
That feels the same
Everyday there's sun, it feels just like rain

Just know that I'm with you
And what you feel
I feel it too

I'm feeling lately
I'm going crazy
Wondering how I'll go on without you
I keep on trying
Slowly dying
Thinking about how I need you here with me

If you think it's easy for me
Well, you're wrong
Sometimes I'm weak and baby you know
I'm not that strong

You're in New York
And I'm in L.A.
There's so much to tell you
Words I need to say
But your phone keeps ringing

I'm feeling lately
I'm going crazy
Wondering how I'll go on without you
I keep on trying
Slowly dying
Thinking about how I need you here with me

I'm feeling lately
I'm going crazy
Wondering how I'll go on without you

How will I go on without you?

It's been two weeks
Three days long
I'm all alone since you've been gone

Hotel Paper: Where Are You Now?

Maybe it'd be better on my own
No one ever seems to understand me
It's easier for me to be alone
But there's still a piece of me that feels so empty

I've been all over the world
I've seen a million different places
But through the crowds and all the faces
I'm still out there looking for you

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Or do I have to wait forever?

I write about the things I'll never know
And I can't find a moment just to slow down
It makes me think I'll never have the chance
To figure out what it's all about
So tell me what it's all about

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Or do I have to wait forever?

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
And I still don't know

Where are you now?
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
What is the chance of finding you out there?
Or do I have to wait
Or do I have to wait
Or do I have to wait forever?

(I know this is a lot of songs, but pretend they were like in a concert or something. I've tried erasing some, but I am way to picky and I cannot choose.)

AI watched in awe at the beautiful hypnotic singin of someone they might have once known. They had no idea, even Angel didn't know she could sing this beautifly. Everyone was stuck on the words and on the tune and sound.

And the music at that concert played on to those ears.

Buffy singin and Band playing:

"Together"

Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny

When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

CHORUS
Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall

This has gone on so long
I realize that i need
Something good to rely on
Something for me

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

CHORUS

Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall

My heart is broken
I'm lying here
My thoughts are choking on you my dear
On you my dear
On you my dear

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

CHORUS X2
Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall

Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall

When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together
I don't feel together
When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together
I don't feel together

"Losing Grip"

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

chorus
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

chorus

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then i don't care were not going newhere

"Anything But Ordinary"

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rahter be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

"Freak Out"

Try to tell me what I shouldnt do
You should know by now,I wont listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I dont care

Cause I'm alright I'm fine

Just freak out let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I cant ever run and hide I wont compramise cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I cant watch the time go by
I wont keep it inside
Freak out let it go
Just freak out let it go

You dont always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
and put up a fight
walk around with your hands up in the air like you dont care

Cause I'm alright I'm fine

On my own
let it go
yeah yeah yeah

Just let me live my life
I cant ever run and hide I wont compramise cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I cant watch the time go by
I wont keep it inside
Freak out let it go

Gonna freak out let it go
Gonna freak out let it go

"My Happy Ending"

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

Chorus:
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

Chorus

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Chorus x2

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

"Slipped Away"

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Nah nah la la la nah nah

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The say you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you"

"Oh... I miss you...love me..."

…she sang.

Hoots and hollers came throughout the crowd. The music was great. AI however remained shocked, and stunned.

"I never knew she could sing so well." Cordy thought aloud. Still in her awe-ness.

Lorne sat there wide-eyed and instead of pale, he look a mint green color. It still made him look bad like someone going pale.

He had seen everything that had ever happened to her. Everything. That meant that he knew. And he had a feeling that Angel knew too.

They were all quiet as the phone rang. But instead of going to get it, Angel slowly, and to the world, calmly up to his room. Lorne was the only one who could know.

Wesley was forced to get the phone. When he came back, he looked out of place. "That was the woman's prison on the phone." They looked at him expectantly. Cordy was thinking that she escaped or something. "Faith was found murdered in one of the visitor's room. They don't know who signed it, but whoever signed in put there reason under business. The name they just put down as Ezclamour."

There was a moment of silence in the lobby.

Lorne spoke aloud to himself, but it was loud. And he was still that pale mint green color. "Two today!"

The others looked up at him, wondering what the demon on the red couch that clashed with his green and orange tux meant.

"Huh?" Cordy asked bewildered.

"What do you mean two? Two what?" Fred asked aloud.

Wesley, Doyle, and Cordelia were equally confused.

"Two slayers." Lorne said. It took a moment for Cordelia to get it.

"Oh god." She said. She paled and looked up the stairs seriously. No wonder Angel went up there, not talking or anything. "This time it really will kill him." She said.

"That's not the only thing Princess." Lorne said, using Doyle's name for her. Doyle was too concerned about Angel to care about it, as was Cordelia.

Lorne slowly stood up. "I gotta go talk to him. He's gonna wanna know this." He said cryptically as he went to the stairs and up the steps.

Cordy scowled at the crypticness. She hated it just like most other girls.

Lorne got to the room, but knocked before entering. He didn't care what was happening, he just didn't want Angel attacking him with rage or anything.

"Angelcakes, I know you're not in the mood, but I gotta tell you something." He waited for a small reply but continued even when he got nothing. "Your girl sure knows how to keep secrets. I was sent her memories and feelings- and I wasn't even trying to read her. And, well, she had some major secrets."

Angel was looking at him now. His love was gone again, and all he wanted to do was die, and be in her arms or to hit something. He suppressed the urge and asked, "What is it Lorne?"

And when the demon told him, he blinked. It wasn't until Lorne left that it made sense, and his eyes widened. He ran down to ask the demon about it again...

Hi! I have had PLENTY of complaints lately! So, here's what I'm gonna do...

I already took a few of the songs off. Could you tell?- But what I'm gonna do...

The fic isn't really a scooby-basher so much as it is them understanding for the first real time that they haven't really been there or supported Buffy since before her 17th.

So, what I'm gonna do...

Wait, what was I saying? Oh Yeah! Now I remember! If anyone would tell me what a bet-reader or whatever is, then maybe I'll actually look for one. And I know I make a lot of mistakes, but I just type fast, so I obviously make some mistakes, and then sometimes, I forget to use spell-check or something, and then when I do it never catches everything... Anyways, NO ONE start telling me about all of my mistakes please. It gets me mad that you would actually be paying more attention to the grammar then the story. Actually, I take Advanced Language-Arts, so it's not like I'm stupid. I am just really lazy.