dIScLAIMER- DONT OWN DIDDLY...
Big Arsed A/N:
hello again all... IM BAAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everyone runs for cover
i shall now answer the question that is on the minds of everyone
"MANDALIA, MANDALIA WHY HAVENT YOU UPDATED IN FOREVER?"
Well the answer is quite simple actually... was being an EVIL SATANIC LITTLE BUGGER!!!!! yay to that... so one day like last month i try to get on to update and post my new story (its called Fall go check it out slaps self for shameless plug...) and it doesnt let me log in!!!!! i know the horror, think of how i felt! so i am like... "well its probably just a bug and will sort itself out in a couple of days..." how wrong i was... about a month passes and i STILL cant get on dont lose it yet people the story gets better or i wouldnt be here would i? cut to lunch this same week where i am talking to both halves of A.K. Anomynous (if you like King Arthur... or even if you dont, read their story... it rocks!!! lol shamelessly plugging someone elses story... not AS bad...) and they are like well why dont you do something... so i wrote a little email and in a couple of days... voila! its fixed and i am happy! so from now on i will be trying to update regularly (about once a week...) THE END!
Next order of business...
all that um... whatchamacallit... oh yeah... responses... i knew that!
1) Sword and Magic- new readers always make me happy, especially since almost NO ONE reads... so welcome aboard! i like your name... so... about hermione... sry if she seemed a little out of character but since its their last year i am going to assume that she dislodged the stick from her arse for the time being...
2) Ang- i really really REALLY hope by now that you have found the new story... especially since you have already reviewed it... lol oh and by the by... LOOKIE HERE ITS AN UPDATE!
3) Janaynay- hahahaha yes i DID write that... lol... you cant guess cause i had already told you what was going to happen... duh!
lastly...
DISCLAIMER- THIS IS COMPLETELY OFF TOPIC!!!!!
righto... i am just curious... did anyone see the season premiere of Lost on ABC Wed. if you did, would you mind telling me what you thought of it... just curious... i missed it... lol thanks!
and now.... on to the story....
"Checkmate!"
"Shhh! Not so loud."
"Sorry."
Oh no it's the people in my head again...I thought I had gotten rid of you once and for all... Wait a minute, these people sound a lot like Ron and Hermione...
Opening my eyes, I looked around not having any clue where I was.
Pansy was asleep on top of her bed, as was Blaise, who was slouched next to her. Ron and Harry were playing a game of wizard's chess, and Draco and Hermione were each absorbed in a book, occasionally looking up to ask the other a quiet question. Apparently I was in my dorm, along with everyone else from Gryffindor/ Slytherin head of house. The only one missing was Seamus. I sat up to look around for him and heard a slight groan from behind me. I had found Seamus and had been using his lap as a pillow. He rubbed his eyes and blinked a few times adjusting to the light before directing his gaze to me.
"You're up!"
AH! Not so loud!
At this everyone made a shuffle over to my bed, except for Pansy and Blaise for obvious reasons. Herms opened her mouth to speak, but I cut her off asking the one question that had been going through my head since I woke up.
"What in Merlin's name in going on?"
After about 15 minutes of rambling I had gotten the main gist of what had happened. Apparently, there was a thunderstorm and something with the lightening had messed up some of the magical wards in the castle.
"Well, that explains why you and Hermione are here," I said to Pansy, who had by this time woken up and had finished a very distorted story of last nights events.
"But what about the guys?"
"Well," Seamus began, "we were hoping you could tell us that."
"And how do you figure that?"
"Well we all came running because we heard a scream."
I looked at Ron not grasping what he was getting at.
"Joz, it was you that screamed. Last night you had some sort of panic attack because of the storm and passed out."
"I... I did?"
"Yeah, we ran up here just in time to hear you scream something and then you freaked. You went all shaky and weren't breathing or something."
Like that it all came back to me. The voices, the hyperventilating, my scream, the angel.
"Who was singing?"
Everyone looked confused, but I had to know.
"Last night! Someone was singing! Who was it?"
Realization dawned on Hermione's face and she looked at Seamus. They all looked at Seamus, who's face blushed bright red.
"What?"
"It was you wasn't if? It makes sense. I thought I knew the voice. I thought you were an angel."
This only made him blush more.
"You are an angel! I was hyperventilating and you made me stop! You saved me!"
I don't think his face could have been anymore red than if you painted it with a brush.
"So what happened?"
Hahaha... Changing the subject, are we?
I knew exactly what happened, and I didn't want to think about it. The next question hit me harder than I could have imagined.
"Who is Gabe?"
It opened up a whole new world of hurt. If it wasn't for the stupid storm I wouldn't have had to deal with this. Unfortunately I felt that I owed them a little explanation for what had gone on last night. I couldn't think of anyway around it. I took a deep breath, ready, once again, to face my past.
"Harry, I told you the first day I was from Beaubaxton... right?"
"Yeah, but I didn't tell you why. Does this have to do with that? Why you came here?"
"It has everything to do with that. I went there for a couple of years, after the Wizarding Academy in the states. I know there are rumors that the people there are shady. Well the rumors are right. Most of the people in that school are downright horrible. Not all of them though. I had a few acquaintances, but for the most part I was weird, didn't fit in because of my powers. I was a freak. Now my brother Gabriel also went to Beaubaxton. He was a year ahead of me, and I admired him more than anyone else I have ever met. He was the only person that went to that damn school who saw me for who I was."
I stopped there for a minute.
I will not have a breakdown... I will not have a breakdown... I will not have a breakdown... Deep breath... In... Out... Better...
"Anyways, the people in my class hated me, especially this one group. They were like the elite of the school. They loved to tease me, pull pranks, shit like that. But their pranks weren't the fun, joking kind, they were like the down and outright mean kind. So one of their jokes was to kidnap me one time at a dance. It went a little too far though. Apparently midway someone got the freaking brilliant idea to tie me to a tree, mock crucifixion style. It started to rain, then storm. One of Gabe's friends found out and gave him the heads up. He was out there as quick as anything. A fight broke out and spells were fired. One of the guys got really pissed and shot and Unforgivable at me. Gabe jumped in front and got hit instead. But the time they stopped, it was too late. They took him to Mungo's but there wasn't anything they could do for him. He died during the night."
That was all I could take. I lost it and started crying.
"It's all my fault. If I wasn't such a freak he wouldn't have died."
With that Seamus took me in his arms.
"Now that's a load of rubbish! It is in no way your fault. What they did was horrible. The only bad thing you are doing is letting them still get to you like that. If you do that, they win! I know that it's hard but you have to be strong. You can't let them win. You can't bring back your brother but you can make his dying worth it, by living for him. Not letting them hold you back."
I looked up at him smiling. I had heard this so many times before, but this time it meant something.
"Thank you."
It came out a whisper. For the first time I felt like I wasn't at fault, wasn't to blame. Of course I I still had guilt, nothing could change overnight, but I knew that I was heading there. And I realized that I was happy, purely and simply happy, in the arms of a boy none the less.
I looked up. Hermione and Pansy were staring at me all starry-eyed. It was annoying.
"What?"
"Oh... nothing..."
They went into a fit of giggles.
Whatever! Stupid girls... Hey! Wait a minute...
"Um so, question guys?"
Draco spoke up for the first time that morning.
"How are we going to get ourselves out of this deal?"
i promise as soon as i figure out the answer to that question i will update! R/R por favor!
bwah
mandalia