disclaimer: No no no no no no... I don't own them. I wish (who doesn't?) I did, but I don't.

A/N: Okay, I'm here. Finally! Finally I have a computer which actually works. This is so cool... Oh, and by the way, I'm going to Nice (you know, France?) next spring! Wuhuu! For eight days! "I'm-the-queen-of-the-world-laugh" Okay... I'm fine now. Read and review.

Oh, and the song still is For my pain's Sea of emotions

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High, much higher than moon

Flies away the angel of love

Deep, much deeper and true

Is the sea of emotions we share

The door opened slowly. The person coming in tried to be as quiet as he could. He carefully closed the door and took his coat off. He was just about to creep in his room when he heard talking from the kitchen.

"Okay, he went out with another guy. You guys aren't dating. You're not his boyfriend." Remus heard James telling.

"You think I don't know that?" Sirius's voice snapped. "And I probably never will be his boyfriend. I mean, I almost confessed him my love and he still went out with him."

"Maybe Moony's not sure what he feels for you?"

"Bullshit. He knows what he feels. He knows that he doesn't love me. And stop smirking, will ya? There's nothing funny in this."

"No, there isn't. But do you even realize how lovesick you sound?"

Remus heard Sirius sigh. "Yeah... Shit, I'm such a mess. I should've never come back here."

"He's just a one guy-"

"No, Prongs. You're wrong about that. He's not just one guy. He's Remus. He's my best friend. And I'm in love with him."

Remus had heard enough. He tiptoed in his room and quietly closed the door. Then he lay on his bed and breathed heavily.

"This is not happening..." He whispered.

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It was a perfect morning. Sun was shining, birds singing and people sleeping.

But one was awake. He hadn't slept all night.

He opened his roommate's door and stepped in. He suppressed a laugh when he saw the other man's room.

There were clothes, empty soda bottles, candy wrappers, dirty dishes, ice tea jugs, records and papers on the floor. You couldn't even see the floor. It was like Remus had stepped in a teenager's room instead of a grown man's.

Remus carefully walked towards the corner where he assumed the bed to be. He saw a pale, almost white, hand coming out under the black covers. That, he assumed, was Sirius's hand.

Remus sat on the bed right next to the hand. He heard Sirius murmuring something about tomatoes. Remus leaned back against the wall and just watched the man sleep.

"James put that away. I don't like tomatoes." Sirius mumbled in his sleep. "Save them for Harry."

After ten minutes Sirius rolled over and sleepily opened his eyes. "Remus?"

"Morning, Sirius." Remus replied.

Sirius sat up. "What are you doing here?"

Remus didn't answer. "You want some breakfast?"

The black-haired man nodded. "Yeah, sure."

"Okay. Wait here."

"Remus? Are you okay? I mean, I don't mind that you treat me like a prince, but why are you doing this?"

"No reason." Remus answered simply as he stood up. "Just wait here, I'll be right back."

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"I'm coming, I'm coming! Just hold on for a fucking second!" Sirius shouted and hurried to the door. He opened it and the grin faded.

"What a hell are you doing here?" He growled.

"Is Remus here?" Nate asked casually.

"You didn't answer my question."

Nate pushed his way in the apartment. "Is Remus here?"

"No, he isn't. And you shouldn't be either. Piss off, Nate."

"I think I'm gonna stick around and wait for him." Nate smirked and walked in the living room. "Nice stereos. Muggle?"

"No. Magic." Sirius growled. Someone knocked on the door, again. Sirius went to open.

"What is this? Meet your ex-boyfriend-day?" Sirius cried.

"Shit, Siri... You're as funny as I remembered." Tyler smirked.

"I wish you didn't remember. What are you doing here?" Sirius asked tensed.

"Do you sleep enough? You seem little stressed?" Tyler walked in and Sirius closed the door behind him.

"You think?"

"Oh, you have company?" He heard Tyler say in the living room.

"Unfortunately, yes." Sirius turned to Nate. "Look, Remus is not coming for hours. And he still hates you. So piss off, Nate."

Nate stood up. "Fine. I'll go, but I'll come back when he's home."

"Lovely." Sirius muttered as the door closed after Nate. He took a deep breath. "So, Tyler. Say what you got to say and piss off."

"I want you back."

"What a hell you think I am? Insane?" Sirius asked like he couldn't believe he had just heard that.

"I love you, Sirius." Tyler said.

"You had your chance. Actually, you had three chances. And you screwed up every bloody time."

"But I've changed."

"Hm... Where have I heard that before?"

"Stop it. I mean it this time. I love you. I love you and I can't live without you."

"Hey, I've got a newsflash for you: I. Don't. Love. You." Sirius said the words slowly, one buy one.

"How? You have someone else?" Tyler asked, nearly arrogantly. "Answer me, damn it! You have somebody else?"

"No, I don't! I just don't love you anymore, end of story! Leave me alone, okay?! I'm not letting you to hurt me again!" Sirius shouted. Tyler wrapped his arm around him and stroked his hair.

"I'm sorry."

"Tyler, don't."

Tyler didn't listen. He pressed soft kisses on Sirius's cheek and chin.

"Stop..." Sirius started but Tyler shut his mouth with his mouth. They melt into a passionate kiss. They touched each other all over and their tongues played together. Tyler's hands found their way under Sirius's shirt.

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Sirius felt how someone wrapped his arm around him and gently kissed his neck. When the lips came to his neck's most sensitive spot, he moaned.

"I see you still like that."

Sirius opened his eyes and rolled over. He saw the owner of the lips'.

"Shit." Sirius breathed.

"The name is Tyler." Tyler grinned and kissed Sirius. "But good morning to you too."

Sirius pulled back. "Oh shit."

"What's wrong, baby?" Tyler asked and stroked the black hair.

"What have I done?" Sirius muttered and stood up. "I need a shower..."

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Soon he came back. Tyler still lay on the bed.

"What are you doing? Get dressed!" Sirius cried as he pulled up his black jeans.

"Relax, baby..." Tyler yawned as he stood up and wrapped his arms around Sirius's waist. "Come back to bed."

"I can't! Can't you see? What we did was a mistake!" Sirius cried, trying to ignore the warmth of Tyler's body.

"No... No, it wasn't. It was so beautiful and so amazing. I didn't remember that you're that good." Tyler pressed wet kisses on his neck and caressed his abs.

"Stop... Please, stop..." Sirius begged. But Tyler didn't stop.

"Come back to bed, baby. I know you love this. It doesn't have to end."

"Tyler... I can't do this... I can't let you hurt me again."

"I'm not gonna hurt you, baby. I've lost you too many times, I'm not gonna let that happen again."

"But..."

"No buts, okay? Just let me love you."

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Remus was sitting by the kitchen table, drinking some coffee and reading the paper. He heard how a door was open and closed, he heard steps and a kiss, and then a door was open and closed again.

Sirius walked in the kitchen and poured some coffee for himself.

"Did you sleep well?" Remus asked. Sirius turned.

"No, not really. You?"

"No. You had fun this morning?"

Sirius grinned. "Yeah..."

"So I heard."

Sirius's grin changed into a blush. "Remus, I... I don't know what happened. But... Tyler and I are back together again."

Remus sighed heavily. "Shit, Padfoot... When you're gonna learn? I mean, this is stupid. He's hurt you like ten times and still you give him another chance?"

"He said he's changed."

"Where have I heard that before? And besides, you don't even love him!"

"How'd you know?"

"I heard you talking to James. That night when I went out with Shane. You love me, I heard you."

Sirius took a deep breath. "So what? You don't love me."

"But you can't be with Tyler if you're in love with me."

"He loves me. You don't."

"Sirius, don't do this. Please, don't do this to yourself. He's just gonna hurt you again."

Sirius shook his head. "You hurt me. I begged you to not to go on that date. I nearly confessed my love to you that night and still you went with him. You already broke my heart then. Tyler can't break something which is already broken."

"I'm sorry, Sirius. I didn't mean to." Remus whispered.

"But you did. If you heard me telling James that I love you, why didn't you say something before? Why didn't you just tell me that it's never gonna happen between you and me? I could've moved on. I could've learned to love you as a friend."

"I wasn't sure how I feel about you. I thought I could just figure it out and then tell you. But I haven't figured it out yet."

"And what am I supposed to do? Wait for you to figure it out? I can't wait for you, when I don't even know is the answer gonna be yes."

"Sirius, don't..."

"Don't what? Do this? You already did! You went out with another guy despise the fact that I love you and you knew that! You could've at least told me that you'll never love me like that."

Remus stood up. "I'm sorry, Sirius. I really am. Can we talk about this later? I have to go to work."

"There's nothing to talk about anymore."

"Oh, yes there is."

"I've said everything I needed to. I love you, you don't love me, Tyler does love me. End of story."

"Sirius, I have to go to work."

"I'm not stopping you." Sirius said and left the kitchen. Remus sighed heavily and walked out from the apartment.

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A/N: So sad... "sigh" Well, what can you do? Review, of course! So do it. Like now. Please...

reviews:

Miss Anonymous hp: Loverly? Okay nevermind... Oh well, whatever, nevermind... Sindy Feesh: Wow... Um... Thanks, I think... johnny depp-luv: Thanks for the cake. I hope they get together soon too. But what can I really do about it? "laughs" questionable reader: Well... RazorbladeRose and I are friends. We're in the same school and all. So... We have these inside-things. Other people don't really understand them, but hey, they don't really need to. If you don't get our things, don't be sad, 'cause sometimes even I don't understand our things! "sweet smile" candycloudz13: remus/sirius is totally the best pairing. They're just so cute together... thank you... Obviously Oblivious: Thank you very much. Seraphina Pyra: I'm glad you like. RazorbladeRose: Trust you? I barely know you! "smile" Yes, in this fic Peter is dead. I never liked him. But you'll find out later what happened to him. And yes, James and Lily are alive. Of course they are, Harry hasn't even borned yet! Anyway, thanks. See ya... in school (well, that is the same as hell) kat5: Okay okay okay! "grin" daria: I'm really glad you liked it. I hope you liked this one too...