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A/N: Hi! I'm back! Oh god... I'm so tired, I just wanna go to bed and sleep like 24 hours or something... Anyway, here you have the next chapter. I'm really sorry, but RazorbladeRose had my heart and when she finally gave it back, it was too late. That's why this is... Well, read it and then you'll know. Big thanks to piña colada for betaing. And RazorbladeRose, I think you can get my heart back now, I wasn't really using it. And sorry that I said that we're just friends. I remembered that we're married, but I didn't realize it. Okay, just read the damn thing!

The song is still For my pain's Sea of emotions

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The poem so beautiful

Can turn into nightmare before we know

The secret bound of our blood oath

Keeps us together until the dawn

"So, how did it go with Remus?"

"Hm?"

"When you told him about us? I know that he doesn't like me."

"Oh yeah. It went fine, no problems."

"You sure?"

Sirius sighed. "No. It was a disaster. He hates you. And now he probably hates me too!"

Tyler sat down next to Sirius and wrapped hi arms around him. "I can see why he hates me, but why would he hate you?"

"I did something I shouldn't have done. Well, I don't think he hates me, but our friendship is totally ruined."

"What happened?"

Sirius didn't answer. Well, I confessed my love to him and I said that I'm with you only because he doesn't love me. He so couldn't say that out loud.

"Nothing important. I just... I said something that I can't take back. I would like to take it back, but I can't really say that it was a joke or something."

"What is it, Siri? C'mon, you can tell me."

"I don't think I can." Sirius doubted.

"Yes, you can."

"Just leave it, okay? I don't really wanna talk about it."

"Fine. We don't have to talk about it or anything. So, how was your day?" Tyler asked then.

"It was okay, I guess. Nothing really happened. What about your day?"

Tyler didn't answer. He was too busy kissing Sirius's neck.

"Tyler..." Sirius moaned.

"Tyler, I have to go home..."

"No, you don't."

"Yes, I do. I need to talk with Remus..."

Tyler stopped and stood up. "Fine. Whatever you want..."

"So now you're mad at me?" Sirius asked, stunned.

"No, of course not. If you really have to talk with Remus, then it's fine. But do you wanna just get rid of me?"

"Hell no!" Sirius cried and also stood up. He wrapped his arms around Tyler's waist. "This has nothing to do with you, okay? I just need to figure this out with Remus as soon as possible. Okay, Ty?"

Tyler smiled. "Okay. I'm sorry, Siri. I didn't mean to sound like some jealous idiot."

"It's okay. I have to go. See ya."

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"I think we need to talk."

Remus looked up. "I think so too. Sit down, Sirius. I have to tell you something."

Sirius sat on the chair. "Okay. Tell me."

Remus took a very deep breath. "I don't love you."

"I knew that already." Sirius interrupted.

"Let me finish, okay? I don't love you, but I have strong feelings for you. Not as a friend and not as a lover. Somewhere in the middle."

"Is it okay to be little confused now?"

"I'm confused myself, trust me. What I mean is... Shit, I don't know whatta hell I mean. Can I start over?"

"Yes, please."

Remus took another deep breath. "Okay. I don't love you, but you love me."

"Yes, I think we both know it by now."

"Tyler says he loves you."

"He does love me."

"I'm not expecting you to wait for me to fall in love with you or figure out how I feel about anything."

"How sweet of you."

"Can you please let me finish?! Thank you. Okay, I don't think it's fair to Tyler or to you that you're dating him when you don't love him. Tyler should be with someone who loves him. And you should be with someone you love."

"In case you haven't noticed, the man I love doesn't love me."

"Sarcasm doesn't suit you." Remus sighed.

"I wasn't being sarcastic. I think we don't need to talk anymore."

"Sirius-"

"No. It's not doing any good. It just makes me feel so miserable when I hear you say that you don't love me over and over again. I know it already, you don't have to tell me anymore."

"Fine. Are we okay now?"

"I guess so. We got anything to eat?" Sirius stood up and opened the fridge. "What's this? Cheese?"

"Milk."

"Shit. We need to get something-"Sirius sniffed the green and grey stuff which once was a cucumber. "Fresh."

"Well, I did tell you to go to the store." Remus muttered as he read the paper. "Like a week ago."

"I can't remember everything, can I? And besides, why can't you do it?"

"I did it last time. And the time before that. And the time before that." Remus stopped to think for a second. "And the time before that."

"Okay, okay. I got your point." Sirius stood in the kitchen for a long moment. "I'm going to bed."

"Will you go to the store tomorrow?"

"Of course, your majesty."

"Very funny."

Sirius just grinned before he left. "Always, my darling. Always." He whispered.

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"I'm little confused." James announced.

"Tell me something I don't know." Sirius muttered.

"First you fight about your feelings and then you fight about who goes to the store? I really don't understand you. How could you act so normal after everything you said?"

"I have no idea. Oh shit..."

"What?"

"I forgot to go to that damn store! We still have nothing to eat!" Sirius groaned.

"You can come here to eat."

"Yeah. I bet Lily would love that. How is she anyway?"

"Fine, I guess. And Harry's fine too. We're all fine."

"Nice. You like your new job?" Sirius grinned.

"I love it. Lily's pretty pissed 'cause she thought I wouldn't get it. And look who was wrong. You are talking with the best seeker of United Kingdom."

Sirius snorted. "Yeah right..."

"Well yeah."

"Well yeah right."

"Well yeah!"

"Well yeah right!"

"Oh no, not again..." Lily muttered as she walked in the kitchen. "Hi Sirius. Here again, I see."

"Yeah well, I thought it would be selfish not to let you guys enjoy my company." Sirius grinned.

"Oh, you're so sweet. How's Remus? I haven't seen him for a while."

"Fine, I suppose. But he's gonna kill me tonight. I think. Well, actually I hope, 'cause then I wouldn't have to hear him lecturing."

"Again." James added.

"Thank you, James. I forgot to go to the store, so there's nothing to eat in our flat." Sirius explained to Lily.

"Oh. You sound just like James." She smirked and ignored the glare coming from her husband. "I have an idea. Why don't you have dinner with us tonight?"

"Really?"

"Yeah. I can cook. Just go get Remus, okay Sirius?"

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"Ouch!"

"Oh... Sorry... I didn't see you there. Okay, get up." Remus offered Sirius his hand. Sirius took it but accidentally pulled Remus down on the floor with him

"Shit... I think that last fire whiskey was too much."

"You think so? Well, I think that first fire whiskey was too much."

"Oh please Moony, I'm not that drunk-"Sirius was suddenly silenced by Remus's lips.

"Apparently you are."

"Sorry... I know that you're with Tyler-"

"Screw Tyler!" Sirius cried and pulled Remus back in his arms and kissed him roughly.

And for his surprise, Remus kissed him back twice as rough. Somehow they managed to get up and in Remus's bedroom.

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"Oh shit." Remus whispered as he realized who he had spent the night with.

"Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit..." He cursed as he carefully tried to sit up and get out of the bed. He tried to be as quiet as he could so he wouldn't wake the black-haired man sleeping next to him.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck... What did I do? Whatta hell is wrong with me? Shit, shit, shit!" Remus sat down by the kitchen table and hit his head on it several times.

Five minutes later Sirius walked in the kitchen, grinning. "Watch your head, Moony." Then he wrapped his arms around Remus and kissed his cheek. "Morning." He whispered.

"Sirius, sit down." Remus said quietly. Sirius gave him a puzzled look and sat next to him.

"What is it, Moony?"

"Sirius... Last night we were drunk."

"So? It doesn't change anything, does it?"

"Well... Yes it does."

It took a while for Sirius to understand what Remus was saying. When he finally understood, he stood up and walked out of the kitchen.

Remus followed him into his room. "Sirius, wait!"

"What for?! So you could break my heart again?!"

"No! Let me explain!" Remus cried as he watched Sirius getting dressed angrily.

"I don't wanna hear your explanations, Moony! I'm so sick of getting my heart broken by you! I'm so sick of being in love with you! You obviously don't give a shit about how I feel! Last night... Was it just some lousy fuck to you?"

"We were both drunk! I had no idea what I was doing!"

"So... I was just some lousy fuck. I just happened to be there, huh?"

"I'm sorry."

"Yeah, sure you are. You know what, Remus? I don't give a damn how sorry you are. I don't even give a damn about you. On my behalf, you can fuck every single guy in England. I don't care anymore. I'm too tired to care!" Sirius took a deep breath. "Now, if you don't mind, I would like to get the hell out of here."

Sirius walked out of the apartment leaving Remus stand in his room.

Sirius walked down to the street. He didn't know where he was going and he didn't care. He was just so angry. How Remus could do this to him?!

After half an hour angry walking he sat down on the ground, leaned against a cold wall and started to cry.

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A/N: I already said that RazorbladeRose had my heart when I wrote this. This is just sad... I can't believe I did this! Review, please... You probably hate me now, but review anyway... I'm pretty sure it would cheer Sirius up...

reviews:

Tanya J Potter: I think this chapter was even more sad... I'm a monster... Kill me, please... alana chantelune: Glad you like it... Moon pup: Poor everybody... candycloudz13: Don't take the ice cream, I did update! See? I want to keep my ice cream... RazorbladeRose: Sorry, I explained it in the A/N. I'm really sorry, of course we're married, sweet... Seraphina Pyra: "deeeep sigh"