Kaede wrapped his robust but gentle arms around the waist of the boy he was kissing torridly. His soft and talented tongue that was dipped in an ice avalanche for more than a decade... finally had the heat of the sun crept across and melted the frozen emotion... the heart that was buried in the tragedy of the past.
Hana-chan's eyes closed in the present night... and the chimes of the clock laid forgotten. He counted his weight in the balance and might of the man he called his father... he gave everything for him to manuever.
The night was young. Kaede flew in the land he hadn't visited for a long time... and now that he had arrived home... nothing mattered but the feeling of ecstasy his softened heart was screaming for.
The boy's back curved backwards and his hands laid freely at his own side. He wasn't aware with the ministrations but he could feel the comfort and love it were spreading to his body and soul. Kaede kissed and smelled his long slender neck... licked his hunky jaws with his sweet saliva... and pressed his muscled chest to his.
Time froze in the middle of the activity. Hana-chan's entire body fell on the soft king-sized bed and Kaede laid on top of him... their clothes everywhere. His sight was not a necessity... he could feel the tranquility inside him from the caresses of hot craving hands. It sent tickles on his tummy... that caused him to surrender his consciousness to the predator of the evening.
It was near twilight. Kaede woke from his sleep and perched in an oakwood chair... while sojourning his hands over the coffee table. He gazed at the window... the darkness separating from the sky... and the light approaching the dawn.
staring at the window...
watching this world pass me by
Another day had come to its presence... another day of breathing... another day of moving his feet and struggling to nowhere. It was an endless hope for nothing. Kaede didn't know why he still had an air in his lungs... why he still digests the tiny bits of food he munches... when the end is all the same for everyone... there's only one final destination for all human beings.
there's nothing to live for
I almost breakdown and cry
A sullen face existed in his being. His long athletic fingers gripped his raven hairs... pulling it off the head he wanted to slump on the wall and crash it. He couldn't understand why he still dribbles the ball to the hoop... why he still spend hours of practicing his perfect slam dunks... when after the day... he goes home in his solitary room.
The million dollars he earns are futile... unproductive and nonsense. Money can't buy the happiness he was deprived of.
I'm crazy oh so crazy
why am I here when I'm just wasting my time?
Kaede glanced at the king-sized bed of his hotel room. The aqua white light peeking from the window illuminated the midnight blue blanket... that was covering the lower body of the only living angel in his life. Hana-chan laid on his chest... without any clothes on... his eyes were shut peacefully and his left hand rest on the pillow like a baby's paw.
suddenly I'm not crazy
it all make sense when I look into his eyes
"Why Kaede? Don't you care enough about the child?" Kiminobu uttered with a full concern for Hana-chan. "He grew up without even a father figure that you SUPPOSE to give."
Coach Anzai curved his lips amicably and spoke in Nihongo. "You became very successful in America, Kaede. You proved me wrong. You made it through the hardships in the foreign land as what you had dreamt of... but tell me... are you happy?"
"I'm filing a case to the court." Akira Sendoh glared at the eternal nemesis of his life and pointed at him. "I'm taking the legality of your adoption to Hanamichi's son."
"I have evidences... witnesses and even Hana-chan himself to testify about the way you raised him... the child do not deserve YOUR selfish treatment."
"People learn their lessons, Rukawa Kaede."
The words roared in his mind like an angry lion... feeding on him in no time... and it's his choice to surrender or fight.
everyone's screaming on me...
cause sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
but when he comes back at me...
He haven't seen him for a long time... and when they meet again... a ray of sunshine shone in his cloudy sky. Fear to have the joy of loving... fear of showing compassion... fear of living in the eyes of someone and tomorrow will vanish. He was afarid to experience the same pain of losing someone he thought is the greatest gift given to him.
Fourteen years. Hanamichi's funeral reeled along his mind... when he first saw the child meant to make a difference in his life. Hana-chan was only a little baby... so little that he only sees the world in the light. He saw it... but ignored the eyes that shone with a ray of hope in the darkened sky.
I watched his world go on with pride
people make jokes...
they don't understand me
they just don't see my real side
A calm smile suddenly formed in the cold face of the famous sportsman. The sight of the young man lying on his bed with such docility... melted the ice covering his human soul.
inside it drives me crazy
my insecurities will eat me alive
but when I see my baby
suddenly I'm not crazy
it all make sense when I look into his eyes
Kaede walked towards the bed across him... without taking off his gaze to the youthful figure. He let himself inside the blanket... laid sidewards... and caressed the smooth cheek of his past boyfriend's son.
Suddenly, the boy placed an arm around Kaede's waist and nuzzled on his chest... similar to a little child. When Hana-chan wakes up, things can be a lot different... something happened... something Kaede wished he hadn't done... but the end justify the means.
everyone's screaming on me
cause my baby knows that his daddy's a soldier
nothing can take him from me
Running his fingers along the red semi-bald head, Kaede brought the boy's ear towards his lips... and gave a soft loving peck on it.
"I'm sorry Hana," he whispered on his ear. "Daddy is sorry."
NOTES: The song is taken from Eminem's Album entitled, The Eminem Show. The song's original title was Hailie's song and I changed the gender (subject) in order to suit the story.
This chapter is meant for all of you... especially silvercross. This is no longer a cliffhanger.