I'D DIE TO BE WITH YOU TONIGHT

Author: BirthdayGirl

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A/N: This is my first fanfic, please be nice and write me lots of lovely reviews, or even just to bitch about Mic and Renee ... lol.

For those of you who don't know, I'd Die To Be With You was sung by Jimmy Barnes, one of the best Australian singers ever, GO AUSSIES!! Yes, I am Australian, and I would also like to point out that Brumby is not really Australian. His accent is so terrible!! I hate him, and Renee, so they will not appear in this story at all, as I feel so unclean when they come on screen!

DISCLIAMER: I obviously do not own JAG, if I did Mac and Harm would have been bonking for years now, and Mic and Renee would be on a secluded island somewhere so we do not have to see them ... JAG belongs to all the talented writers, producers, so on and so forth, blah blah blah. Suing me would be a pointless exercise, as I am only a poor high school student!

20/03/04: THURSDAY 0600 – HARM'S APARTMENT

Harm pounded his pillow.

"Damn!"

He just couldn't get her out of his head. Every time he closed his eyes, her beautiful face filled his vision, and the smell of her perfume swirled around him. He groaned, he was hard as a rock again, and he needed release so badly. Trying hard to think of other things, he learnt over and turned on the radio, and the raspy voice of Jimmy Barnes filled the apartment.

I've been thinking 'bout you night and day

Sure been restless since you went away.

He HAD been restless. She'd gone away before on assignment, but it had never affected him like this. He couldn't concentrate, pacing a line into his office carpet. Harm knew he was wearing a hole into the Admiral's patience, but he couldn't help it.

This time was different. Mac had come to his apartment the night before she left, and their relationship had changed in a split second.

18/03/04: TUESDAY 2300 – HARM'S APARTMENT (FLASHBACK)

Harm heard the knocking at the door, and abandoned his work at the table to answer it. Who could it be at 2300?

"Mac! What are you doing here?" he exclaimed.

"Is that any way to greet a friend?" she asked, quirking an eyebrow.

"Sorry, come in. I just didn't expect you. Aren't you supposed to be out on assignment? Is everything alright?" he asked with concern.

"Yeah, I'm fine, calm down flyboy," she laughed.

He led her to the lounge room and sat down on the couch.

"So, what's up?" he asked.

"I just thought I could come over to talk," she said hesitantly. "I know we haven't been ... close lately ... I really miss you Harm. I want my best friend back," she sniffed.

Was his tough Marine crying? "Hey, Mac, you've always got me!" he exclaimed. "Come on, look at me," he asked.

Mac looked at him sadly, with something in her eyes that Harm couldn't identify. She moved closer to him, and the air crackled with sexual tension. Then suddenly, she leant over and pressed her lips to his. He stiffened for a second, then gathered her in his arms and deepened the kiss. In a heartbeat, the kiss was out of control. All of their passion and loneliness poured out, and the kiss turned hot and hungry.

Then she suddenly pulled away, and stared at him, a mix of desire and fear in her eyes. Then she fled.

"Mac! Hey, come back!"

But she was already gone.

You took something from me against my will,

Touched a nerve in me that's tremblin' still.

20/03/04: THURSDAY 0600 – HARM'S APARTMENT

She had always surprised him, but never like this before. The kiss they had shared burned hotter than any other he had ever experienced, and it scared him to death. But Sarah Mackenzie had always frightened him.

Well, you just snuck up behind me,

When my resistance was low.

And now's a hell of a time to find I can't let you go.

She had snuck in under his radar and straight through his defences, going where he had allowed no one else to go. Nobody knew him like Mac, and it scared him the lack of control he had around her. She made him want to lose control, to surrender to her fire. But every time this happened, he ran for his life, because in his world, if you lost control, you died.

But he was tired of running. He was sick of hiding his feelings, of damping down his reactions to her. He had been doing it everyday for years; it had almost become second nature to him. But she got through sometimes, like at her engagement party. It was meant as a friendship kiss, but the minute her soft lips touched his, he was lost. With her, he always was.

With a sigh, he turned to the clock. He had to get up soon anyway, and it was going to take a mighty long cold shower to make him forget those fantasies that visited him during the night ...

21/03/04: FRIDAY 0800 – JAG office

As soon as he got to work, he checked his email.

Got your first letter just the other day

Since I got it I can't put it away

TO:

FROM:

SUBJECT: Missing me?

Hey Flyboy!

Hope you doing ok without me, I'm sorry for dumping all those cases on you. But you know how it is, I promise I will make it up to you when I get home. How does dinner at my place sound? We can sit down and talk about what happened before I left ... I will ring you when I get back.

NinjaGirl

I just sit here and read it over and over and over again,

As if the words that you wrote could bring this hurt to an end.

How was she able to do this to him? Just as he thought he was forgetting about that night, she reminded him all over again ...

"Damn!" he swore as he tried to cover his obvious physical reaction to the thought of Mac.

"Sir? Are you ok?" Lt. Sims asked, popping her head around the doorframe.

"I'm fine Harriet. Thanks." ... Don't think about Mac, don't think about Mac ...

Well you just left me here waiting

Left a wound that won't heal.

God you're so far away you don't know how I feel.

Somehow, he got through the rest of the day without thinking of Mac, and drove home for the night. Thankfully, he had a whole weekend to relax, and hopefully, he could sort out this thing with Mac.

21/03/04: FRIDAY 1814 – HARM'S APARTMENT

I count the hours each time til you call

I won't ever let you leave me, makes no sense at all.

This was driving him insane, waiting for her to ring. It had never bothered him before, but then, he had never been so aware of his feelings before. If I have my way, she won't ever go on assignment again! he thought to himself. "Yeah, like that will ever happen," he laughed to his empty apartment. It would go down real well. "Sorry Mac, but you can't ever do your job properly again because I can't stand the thought of you leaving me." Yeah right.

And if I have to follow you all around the world

I am willing to do anything, to get to you girl.

He had proved that, when he went to Paraguay for her. Why had it all turned out so wrong? They definitely needed to sit down and sort things out, they had been dancing around each other for months. He wanted his best friend back; he wanted their easy camaraderie they had.

You just left me here waiting

Left a wound that won't heal.

God you're so far away you don't know how I feel.

21/03/04: FRIDAY 1950 – MAC'S APARTMENT

Tonight was the first time he had ever been early. He stood nervously outside her apartment, waiting for her to open the door. What am I, 16? I am not some teenager on his first date. Get a grip on yourself Rabb! he ordered himself sternly.

So say you'll take a chance on this heart of mine

Don't make me the one that you left behind.

I'm not saying anyone's wrong or right

Just know I'd die to be with you tonight.

Please let her feel the same way as me ...

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