Chapter Twelve: I'm in Love
I cannot help it
I couldn't stop it if I tried
The same old heart fills the emptiness I have inside
And I've heard that you can't fight love so I won't complain
'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?
'Cause when there's you I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do
"Spike?" his name left her lips, whispered like a gentle prayer.
The slayer's hands stroking his back as he made love to her in the night. Spike's name spilled from her mouth like a waterfall.
The platinum blonde's body forcing Buffy's into the mattress.
He'd done his best to rid her of her worries about whether or not they would last, and he'd hoped he'd convinced her. Spike wanted her to know that no matter what would happen he cou-wouldn't let her go.
There bodies exhausted, lay next to one another's, still seeking out the comfort of their partner.
"Spike?"
"Hmm" his hand found hers and their finger's intertwined, providing a wonderful feeling through such a simple touch.
"I love you." her words sad and scared; for what reason he couldn't fathom.
He turned to face her, one hand grazing her cheek.
"Buffy, I love you there's nothing you need to worry about I'll take care of you......forever."
She smiled and kissed him, having faith in his words; in him.
Willow had come by with Xander in toe, slightly fearful that Buffy might reject them.
The slayer answered the door wearing a white t-shirt, jeans, and smile her on face, as she greeted the two.
The anxiety diminished as she invited them in.
"So," Willow spoke cautiously "where's Spike?"
"Oh, he's upstairs. He's a little tired from patrolling last night. This vamp was getting on my nerves and I hit Spike instead by accident of course." She smiled at the memory "It was funny but not for him obviously."
Xander faintly smiled at the thought of the disgruntled bleached blonde as Buffy's giggled in return to the said vampire's scowl.
"So what's up?" the petite blonde sat on the loveseat across from Wil.
"Buffy we really wanted to apologize to for being judgmental and acting all superior. I don't want to be Miss 'Snooty-Know-it-all,' you know? I mean I should never have said anything about your relationship with Spike whne I saw you at his crypt anyway. I mean you're going through a touch time-"
"Willow, catch your breath, its ok. I forgive you...both of you."
The red-head looked across to Buffy with a small and hopeful smile.
"Are you sure?"
"Spike told me that it would all be ok, so I'm making it 'ok' right now. I need to come back, be responsible and take care of Dawn. I know Spike'll help me but I need for us to be ok first."
"We'll always be cool with the Buffster, won't we Wils?" the brunette spoke up.
The wiccan nodded enthusiastically.
After hours of talking the group ended up on the floor with a mess of junk food spread around them.
"Hey Buff are you sure it's cool that we've been making so much noise I mean.........uh isn't Spike upstairs?"
She waved her hands in the air.
"It's ok, Spike'll be asleep for at least three more hours."
"So has he been here the whole time?"
The slayer stopped right before fully unwrapping the gum.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean has he uh been living here since he came back?"
The slayer nodded before having her gum. "He's going to stay here. I've been thinking, though, do you remember how I said that we'd never have 'nice normal relationships'?"
The other two nodded.
"I've thinking maybe we can."
"And what brought this positive outlook along Buff?"
Buffy looked to the brunette and red-head.
"You guys, I'm in love."
'Cause when there's you
I feel whole
And there's no better feeling the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you.