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Why did it have to be this way? Why couldn't his childhood have been normal? Admitted he would still be in Russia, and not part of the Blade breakers, but he would have his parents, and friends from normal situations like growing up with other kids. He might not have even got into beyblading and right now that sounded like a relief. He sighed again as he made his way to the shower. He seemed to be doing a lot of that lately, sighing. It was just an expression that suited the hopelessness he felt right now.

He turned on the shower and removed his sleeping clothes, stepping in he could feel goose bumps appear down his arms, as he could usually tolerate cold well, he guessed it must be due to the steam now curling round his skin, such a change from the cool air outside. "What a stupid thing to think about" he muttered to himself.

He gasped slightly as he felt the hot water begin to flow from his head to his feet. He pushed his head under the flow of water and felt his hair begin to get wet, getting heavier and falling down against his now wet face. With his eyes closed he reached out and found the shower box, turning the dial more so the water would get hotter. He screwed up his face as the hot water began to sting his skin. It helped keep his mind off his dreams. He turned round and rested his back against the tiled wall, and stayed like that to what seemed to him an eternity. The water from the shower became his tears.

When he got out of the shower and had found a towel, he looked in the mirror on the bathroom wall. His skin had a pinkish tinge from the hot water. It made his normally pale face seem almost friendly, except those blue triangles on his face. His hand reached up and moved a lock of wet slate coloured hair from where it was resting on his cheek. Once out of the way his hand returned to his cheek, stroking the blue shapes there. He guessed since they were permanent they must have been tattooed on, but he couldn't remember, again! He would have to find his past, he had too many questions, he didn't know why he was the way he was. Even when the team were in Russia and they were at the abbey did Kai remember everything. He only remembered what happened that night with Black Dranzer, how people at the abbey suffered because of him that night. Other things were not clear, most of the time there were feelings, realisation, deja vou, but as soon as he went to chase them, they left. He could never bring them back. He turned away and began to get himself dry and changed. His clothing the usual blue trousers, black tank top with the red trim and gold at the front, his white scarf, those black and red trainers, and finally the red arm guards. With these on, he was ready to face everyone with his usual cool expression, now that his face had returned to its normal pale shade. With a glance at his still damp hair, he went to leave. He stopped as he opened the door, something plaguing his mind, then as it left when he went to pursue it, he cursed under his breath, then slammed the door.

Light streamed through the windows, resting on the freckled face of a smiling blond. He turned his face from the light as he woke up, and as it was a good night's sleep, he woke up pretty quickly! He looked around at the sleeping forms of four of his friends, one was missing. "That's easy" thought max, "at least Kai's awake, everyone else is fun to wake up!!!"

He got up and hurried to where Kenny was sleeping, one arm thrown over his laptop. Max couldn't help but grin when he retrieved the laptop. Opening it the screen came up as Dizzi, the trapped bitbeast.

"Don't say anything Dizzi!" whispered max, giggling softly, "I wanna wake up everyone!"

"And you need me because?" asked the bitbeast, some humour in the voice.

"Make a loud noise!!!!!!"

"You're on, but if anyone asks, you did it all and I was the innocent bystander!"

Max had a hard time trying not to laugh as a piercing siren filled the room. Everyone sat up fast, eyes blinking in the light. It even woke Tyson.

"Dizzi you've made a new record! You woke Tyson first attempt! Oops!!!"

The last part was because Max had realised everyone was glaring at him. Then Ray started laughing, and Max joined in. Tyson grumbled and Hilary smiled as she began to sort her blankets out. She would have been angry but seeing as Tyson was, she just felt smug that she could appear fine about it. Kenny just lectured Dizzi, her protesting got louder until she realised everyone had stopped talking and was looking at her. If computers could blush she would have been crimson!

After that episode everyone went off to get dressed, eventually meeting outside the kitchen. As they entered laughing they noticed Kai sitting in his usual position, leaning back, arms folded and head low, eyes closed. An empty cup in front of him. They subdued a bit as they went about getting their breakfast. Ray sat in front of Kai.

"Do you want any thing to eat Kai?"

"Hmph".

With that Kai got up and went to leave.

Tyson yelled at him through a mouthful of toast "what time do we start training today?"

Kai paused before he answered, "do as you please, i'm not bothered, iv'e got stuff to do". With that he left.

Tyson grinned at this news, but Ray was concerned. He turned to everyone, he had to tell them what happened last night. When he was done even Tyson looked concerned. They had to get to the bottom of this.