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Kai made his way back to Tyson's house feeling better then he had done for a while. Even after all that had happened he couldn't help but feel good after the understanding he had come to about the phoenixes while watching the sunset. He had almost put into words how he felt about Dranzer.

When he got back to Tyson's he could hear the T.V in the living room. He looked round the doorway to see the bladebreakers in various states of laughter. They were watching some cartoon on the T.V and only Max and Tyson found it really funny, the rest were attempting to laugh but it was failing miserably. He allowed himself a small smile. With that he left them and went to bed, he hoped he wouldn't dream tonight. His hopes went unanswered. The others were asleep by the time Kai started tossing and turning from a nightmare.

(He had to have Black Dranzer. After watching the demonstration earlier he couldn't get the blade out of his head. It was perfect. Now, after sneaking in to the training area, Black Dranzer was his. "Your all mine!" he breathed.

Then he launched.

He realised too late that Black Dranzer was beyond his level of control. The blade set about destroying what it could. In a blinding flash of light, the training room and surrounding area was destroyed. He was found curled up under the rubble, escaping with one cut down his leg. He was shaking with what had just happened, but nothing could prepare him for what he saw when he was lifted out of the filled in crater that had been part of the abbey. Fire still burned a section of the buildings, people were running around. People were hurt. Ambulances were scattered around the area, treating adults and children alike for wounds sustained in the explosion. One scene changed Kai forever.

There were four bodies laid out on the snowy ground, covered in white blankets. Two were the small forms of children.

Kai ran out of the paramedics arms towards the bodies, he had to know. He pulled back the blankets of the first child to reveal a boy with purple hair, Boris's nephew, Carter. He groaned loudly, Boris would never forgive him! The next child made him hesitate, he didn't know why. With a resolute breath he pulled back the blanket. Glassy blue eyes stared at him, red hair waved slightly in the breeze. Tori, Tala's twin sister, Kai's best friend at the abbey, was dead. And it was his fault. He stood frozen, staring back at the one person that hadn't shunned him because his grandfather was the one who ordered the treatment they painfully endured. Tala would hate him more now.

He couldn't breathe, couldn't think. Then something flashed in his mind, Dranzer. The phoenix could not let Kai suffer this way, so the bird did the only thing he could do, he made Kai forget.

Kai collapsed to the ground, only to wake up two weeks later in hospital, his memory gone. His grandfather was so angry, but Kai couldn't understand. Everyone assumed that the ordeal had been too much for a 10 year old boy to handle, and even four years on, no one could hold out hope that he was going to get his memory back, but he was, now that it had been triggered by the trip to Russia.

Those blue eyes stared from the darkness in Kai's mind, so accusing.)

Kai screamed as he woke up.

"NOOOOOOOOOOO, TORI!!!!" he screamed, "I didn't mean to, it wasn't my fault...." was whispered after.

He looked up, everyone was staring at him, he had woken them up.

"Shit" he thought.

"Kai, you ok?" asked Ray, concern lined his face.

Kai couldn't tell them, couldn't explain. He didn't know what he would do if he had to tell them. He didn't even say he was fine, he just got up and ran. The others scrambled to follow him, but it was too late. Kai had given them the slip.

Kai watched them from the roof on Tyson's house; they had finally given up looking for him and were going back to their beds. He would stay here, where the cool breeze would cool him down. He took a few deep breaths as he stared at the sky, but he could still see her freckled face in the stars. How could he ever have forgotten the person who helped him at the abbey, bandaged his wounds when they had made him bleed, was his first friend, and was the girl he had fallen in love with.

He sat as tears slid down his face, nothing had ever hurt this bad. He stayed that way until the sun rose.

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The others woke up to find Kai waiting for them. He was standing leaning against the wall near the door, fully dressed.

"Hurry up; you've got twenty minutes before we go to the gym. Your gonna have a real workout today", exclaimed Kai before turning round and leaving through the door.

Hilary had to ask, the others had known Kai longer, "does anyone know who Tori is?"

The others shook their heads.

"Sorry Hil, we still don't know much about Kai, and this Tori is one thing we don't know" said Ray.

They got ready in silence.

They met Kai at the entrance to Tyson's house. He didn't say anything as he started walking off; the others looked at each other before following him in silence. Kai led them to the large gym in the middle of town, walking up to the desk he asked for the room booked for the bladebreakers. This surprised the others; they didn't think Kai had gone to this trouble. The person at the desk got up and walked in the direction of the individual training rooms that lined a corridor. She gestured to a room and they gasped as they went in the doorway. This room had everything in it they could possibly think of. From weights, jogging and rowing machines, to a punching bag. All sorts of machinery lined the mirrored walls. There was even a sauna behind a door between mirrors. And there was a blading dish.

"Knock you out", said Kai "we have the room all day, so get some serious work done". With that he went over to a jogging machine and started running.

Everyone went about using the different equipment, Hilary included. Even Kenny had a go, before falling over and giving up. They worked at themselves and their blades until lunchtime made itself known with Tyson's rumbling stomach. Everyone but Kai laughed at this.

"Hey Kai, you gonna come with us and get something to eat?" asked Max.

"I'm not hungry, and don't start with me about it, i'm just going to stay here", answered Kai.

The others shrugged and left. Kai walked over to the punching bag, took off his arm guards and then set about beating the crap out of unseen demons the punch bag represented. He was still at when the bladebreakers walked in. they watched as Kai kicked and punched the bag in ways the team had never known Kai could do. With one final kick Kai split the bag open, sand piled onto the floor. He looked up as if seeing them for the first time, his eyes distant, his breath ragged. Blood dripped from his knuckles to the floor. His bandages were ripped and sweaty.

"Kai!!! We'll have to sort you out, come over here and I'll see to your bandages", said Ray, shattering the silence. Kai complied and sat down at the bench along one wall. Ray joined him; the others went off and grouped around a weights machine, talking in hushed voices, pretending to wait for a turn at the machine.

Ray started to remove the bandage around Kai's head, noticing the pain in reddish brown eyes.

"Kai, stop bottling things up, you need to talk. Punching something till it hurts you isn't a good way to vent your feelings; you only end up in pain". To emphasise his point, Ray held up one of Kai's hands, showing him the torn knuckles.

"We know you've been through something bad Kai, we know you've had memory problems, we are here as your friends to help".

Kai wished he hadn't said that, he shouldn't have friends, they only get hurt. Tori had been his friend and the price was too high, she had paid with her life.

Ray looked at Kai hard, he wasn't gonna talk that easily. Ray wouldn't give up, he would find out what made Kai scream at night. "I'm gonna leave the bandages off for a while to let some air get to the wounds, I suggest you go wash your hands".

Kai didn't look at him as he got up, "I need some fresh air to, and then I think i'm going back to Tyson's, I need to lie down".

Ray nodded as he said "I understand, we will see you later Kai".

Kai hurried out the room, Tori's eyes still haunting his vision, that winter still haunting his mind.