Do you realise how great you all are? I bet you don't, but I'm here to tell you that you are great, thank you for reviewing and suggestions. Feel the love guys, feel the love. Nearly 500 reviews! Keep it coming people, you know you want to! People seem to like the Tad/Kai thing, and that may happen, it's really up to the characters! Don't worry about Hilary and Tyson taking over, they won't do, this is a Kai based fic and always will be, but it does add another element to the story. Arigato!!!

As soon as Kai walked out the door he realised Tadashi could be anywhere. He had no idea about her condition, she could be in intensive, a private ward, an open ward, or even in critical! He sighed to himself before limping in the directions the signs on the wall said the front desk was. It was good it was quiet at night; the sight of a bloody, limping boy coming down the corridor may have scared some people, but his scowling expression would have scared the remainder away.

He continued to turn and twist through the corridors, the limping making him even more in a bad mood. He had to find her, she had to be ok.

He walked into the well lit area of the waiting room and front desk. The few people sitting on the hard plastic chairs looked up and watched, open mouthed, as a limping and blood stained teenage boy stalked up to the front desk. The receptionist gave him a weary look.

"Yes young man?" she had worked here for 30 years and nothing surprised her anymore.

"Where's Tadashi being kept?"

"As you seem to be a patient, I suggest you go back to your ward and wait for a doctor to assist you." She then turned and began to type on her computer, ignoring the glares she was getting from the bluenette.

"I asked you a question" Kai said, a little too calmly for how he was feeling.

She continued to type, "Are you a relative?"

"Tell me where she is!" he no longer felt cooperative.

"Go back to your bed young man!" she told him sternly, looking at him over the rim of her glasses that were precariously perched on the end of her nose.

Kai snorted through his nostrils and thumped a fist on the desk. He hauled himself over the desk as gracefully as he could and landed next to her on the other side of the desk. She started to protest as he pushed her chair out of the way and began to type on her computer.

"Excuse me you..."

"Shut up!"

She opened and closed her mouth in a fish like impression before setting it in a grim line and puffing her chest importantly. She reached for the phone and called for security.

Kai ignored her as he scanned the data on the screen. Lines of names and times flashed before his quick eyes. Bingo. He found her name and clicked to see her information. She was in a private room.

He stepped onto the desk with his good leg and pulled himself up and over the counter. The receptionist was spluttering something behind him as he walked towards a different set of corridors. Looks like security was slow here. After a while walking he turned into a very dim corridor, its beige walls adding to the dreary atmosphere. Windows with curtains offered a visual on who was where, and he was looking for room 251. He didn't look into the rooms where the curtains were drawn back; he didn't want to see them. He saw enough suffering without adding what he could avoid.

There it was. Her room. The curtains were closed as he walked to her door. He entered, making sure the door closed behind him. He padded softly and unevenly across the floor. His bare feet making hardly any noise. He would've been silent if his limp didn't prevent him from walking properly. There was a chair near the bed, on the other side of a bedside table. Her bed lay underneath a window, its thin curtains letting in weak moonlight. He picked up the chair and placed it next to her bed. Sitting down gratefully and gingerly, he relaxed a little as he looked at her.

She was sleeping deeply, already beyond the stage of dreaming. Her hair had fallen off her face and was spread on the pillow in the red and black braids she always had. A stray piece of loose hair lay across her cheek and Kai tenderly brushed it back.

"Hey Tad" he said gently, he didn't know if she could hear him, but he needed to break the silence.

"I don't know how you're doing, but I hope your ok, I mean you have to be, your all I have left." And it was true, Kai may have people who cared about him in the present, but she was all that was left from his past. No parents, no Tori, and now even Dranzer and Black Dranzer were lost somewhere.

"Why do I lose everyone Tad? I can't lose you. I know what we have is based on dodgy ground because of the past, but even when you did wield the whip, you still cared for me, I know you did." Kai reached out and held her hand, clasping it between his own bloody ones and pressing it to his forehead.

He stayed like that, silent and unmoving, until Ray, Tyson, Hilary, Mariah, and two security guards and a male nurse walked in on him.

"Kai?"

Kai didn't look round, "I have to go now Tad, I'll see you soon." He went to lay her hand back down, and felt a squeeze. He looked at her face, nothing had changed, but he had felt her squeeze his hand.

"I think you had better go back to your own room" said the nurse, placing a hand on Kai's shoulder.

Kai shrugged it away, "leave me alone."

The nurse nodded to the security guards, who placed themselves either side of Kai. Kai looked up.

"Shit."

"We've been told to take you back to your room immediately, so if you could do this without struggling?" one of them asked.

"You wish" replied Kai before spinning round and running out of the room, past startled faces as he controlled his limp. He wasn't going to stay here now he had seen Tad.

He could hear them calling his name, and their footsteps on the squeaky tiles. Kai was glad he was barefoot; his bare skin helped him grip the floor and stopped him slipping. He turned a corner and had to think fast as he almost collided with an empty trolley being wheeled out of a room. He jumped over it and rolled across the floor, swearing as he got back onto his sore feet. Just as he got up, he did collide with something.

He hit the floor with a muffled thump, driving the wind from his lungs. He lay, struggling to breathe, as the person he crashed into loomed into his view.

Tyson's dad.

Fuck.

Tyson's dad picked him off the floor, holding him in a bear hug, Kai's back to his torso. Kai kicked and struggled, strangled cries coming from his straining lungs. It reminded him too much of his time with Boris. Kai's feet were just above the ground and they flung madly into the air. His arms pinned to his sides could do nothing. He couldn't breathe, his head felt fuzzy, and then it went dark.

Tyson's dad tried to calm down the struggling boy in is arms, determined to keep hold till he calmed down. It was a struggle just to hold his arms together and hold the boy, but then Kai went still. He turned the boy round and held him. Kai was unconscious, and his breathing was raspy. He turned to look at Samantha, who gestured to take Kai back to his room. He nodded and they walked as a group, picking up the teens, guards and nurse on their way. He hoped he hadn't hurt Kai, he would never forgive himself.
Kai was once again lying in his bed, the I.V reattached. They hadn't added the heart monitor since he had been awake. The mask was again on his face.

Ray rubbed his shoulder, the healing wound was aching. "So what's wrong? Why is he having problems breathing?"

The younger doctor was back with them, the girls were all making over exaggerated girly faces at him, giggling when the boys noticed and frowned. The doctor seemed to take the joking in his stride and played along, winking at them with eyes framed by impossibly long lashes. They pretended to swoon.

"The cold and the water may have caused a very early stage of pneumonia, which we are now treating; he would have been fine if he hadn't stressed himself, his body is exhausted."

They nodded what else could they do?

"I shall leave you for now, there are some things that need to be discussed between you." And with that he winked one last time at the girls and swaggered off.

"Cute butt!" said Mariah.

"Mariah!!!" groaned Ray.

"Don't worry sweetie, yours is better toned." Replied Mariah. Ray blushed deeply before scratching his neck and looking away.

"She's seen your butt? Dude!" yelled Tyson, punching the air. Ray didn't reply as he blushed even further.

"So what do we need to talk about?" Kenny asked Samantha. They knew something was wrong as soon as she put on her professional face.

"It seems that whilst Kai was on that ship, he was raped again. We thought you should all know considering you know he has before, and since you're his friends."

They all looked to the floor or walls. Mariah stood, confused, what was going on? Ray hugged her and whispered what had happened. She went pale but nodded her understanding.

"So just be careful around him, he might react badly" she added.

"How's Tadashi?" asked Max, always concerned about everyone.

"She's ok, and stable. She is just as tough as Kai, but since she didn't swim she's doing better. They don't understand why she hasn't woken up yet, there's nothing stopping her that they can see."

Something caught Kenny's attention. "Samantha? Why haven't they given Kai back his possessions?"

"What possessions Kenny? He didn't have anything but his torn and wet clothes."

"But he had Dranzer! Where's Dranzer!?" silence followed.
Kai was dreaming. He was walking a barren land. He could see the two phoenixes on the distance, but it didn't matter how much he tried to get to them, the distance stayed the same. Grey wings spread from his back, grey. The colour between black and white, good and bed, heaven and hell. What was he, a fallen angel? Or a freed demon? Despair filled his soul as he cried for the bitbeasts.

Alone

My hands forever empty

My head is so confused

Why does everyone else get happiness

When I am always refused

A dagger disguised as a feather

Falls from an angels soft embrace

Lies as strong as storm winds

Hidden behind an honest smiling face

Betrayal paves my path

There is no one I can trust

Sharp words are aimed at my back

As I walk trails made of dust

People are always all around me

But I am always alone

Tears leave tracks down my sorrowed face

To land on hearts made out of stone

My own thoughts whirl in my mind

So dark that I cannot see

Why can't I understand these emotions

When they belong to me

Answers are all I seek

To any end I will endeavour

Even if I have to walk alone

On this journey forever