Thank you everyone! I've had mixed replies about Tadashi and Kai, so I'll
leave it a bit longer to make a decision on that subject. I'm glad you like
the poems so far!! Actually, I have made a decision on Kai/Tadashi, they
will be close for now, more seeking comfort with each other as they know
what the others been through, if the characters decide what way they are
going, they will tell me an I'll let you know!!! And a little note, what
happens between Hil and Tyson in this chapter was just some fun, this will
prob be the biggest bit they get in the story!
Kai couldn't get rid of the sense of foreboding he felt as he walked into
Tyson's house. It was like walking in the dark, completely blind, not
knowing where you were. He followed Tadashi into the kitchen.
There, sat on one of the chairs, leaning over the table, hot tea cupped in
his hands, was Mr. Dickinson.
"Ah, Kai! Come sit down!"
"Id rather stand" replied Kai smoothly; it wasn't that he wanted to be
rude; it was just that sitting was uncomfortable. He didn't bother to
explain it though, and let Mr. Dickinson think what he would.
"Fine, fine. I need to talk to you about Voltaire" started the sparse
haired portly man.
Kai raised an eyebrow in response.
"I must point out it was very brave of you to save that man, considering
what he's put you through."
The eyebrow remained raised; Kai didn't need to be complimented on
something that was necessary. He did what he did, and he didn't want
recognition for it.
Mr. Dickinson coughed slightly before continuing. "Kai, since Voltaire is
now in the authorities care, they have decided to put him through court as
soon as possible for the crimes they know of."
"Which are?" Kai queried.
"Kidnapping, un-authorised experimentations, beating a minor, assisting in
rape of a minor, and illegal trade between Japan and Russia. We know there
is more, especially from Russia, but we do not have enough evidence."
"So?" Kai didn't like where this was headed.
"So, we need you and Tadashi to give evidence in court."
"No!" was the strong answer from Kai, Tadashi just went quite and pale in
the corner she was standing in.
"You must Kai! If you don't then he will get away with so much! We need
your evidence to make sure he is punished appropriately!"
"I cant, I just, I just can't!" mumbled Kai before turning and running out
the room. His heart was racing, they couldn't make him stand up in front of
those people, in front of Voltaire, and say all the things that had been
done to him. How could he tell them the details from the abbey, that he was
forced to kill, the details of his rape ordeals? It wasn't possible. To
relive all those moments, especially without the phoenixes protection,
could well destroy what little Kai had left of a spirit.
Kai continued to run; unaware of the fact he was following a gentle pull.
He was unaware of any sounds around him, burning tears stung beneath his
eyelids as he refused to let them fall. He stumbled on uneven ground,
falling into roads, bashing into people, and nearly being hit by vehicles
as he ran without looking. Any one that saw him swore he had the devils own
luck as he narrowly missed another car.
He didn't stop till he collapsed on something surprisingly soft and warm.
It stuck to the sweat on his face as he moved. He groaned as he realised
how much his leg hurt. It throbbed beneath the black trousers and he winced
as he moved up to his hands and knees. He stayed like that for a while,
catching his breath, trying to stop the panting. His lungs finally eased
from their burning, and he gratefully inhaled the sweet, salty air.
He looked up. The beach, why was he here? Then, like a reply, he felt the
tug stronger. It pulled him to his feet; he lurched down the sand,
following the strange sensation as it directed him. Then he stopped.
Here. This is where he would see them again, right here. He wondered in the
back of his mind how the phoenix's would manage this, but they had told
him, and he would wait right here. The very spot seemed to burn into his
feet, an instinct almost to know the same spot. He stood, just watching the
waves, just watching the sky, just waiting. That's how the others found
him, hours later. He still had sand plastered on one side of his face where
he had fallen, his eyes seemed half closed, distant and glazed over. They
took it as shock.
'If only they knew' thought Kai remotely as they took him back to Tyson's.
"Are you ok Kai?" asked Samantha as she wiped the sand away with a damp
cloth.
Kai wasn't right; he hadn't been since the ship incident. Maybe she
should talk to Tadashi, that girl seemed to know Kai in and out. She left
Kai when he gave her a slight nod, seemingly deep in thought.
On her way to find Tadashi, who had incidentally slipped in to the room Kai
was in to see him as soon as Samantha had her back to the door; Samantha
was ambushed by Mariah and Hilary.
"Sam, we need to talk to you" said Mariah with the hugest Cheshire cat grin
on her face.
"Well, what's this about?" queried the red head; they could be up to
anything if Mariah looked that gleeful. Then again, Hilary did look
embarrassed, maybe they had already done something, Samantha inwardly
groaned at the thought.
The girls led her to the sofa in the lounge. Sitting her between them,
Mariah answered.
"Its girl talk, Hilary has a problem!" then she giggled which was followed
by a glare from Hilary.
"What sort of problem?"
Hilary took a deep breath as she started, looking decidedly redder as she
began. "I, uh, I like a boy, I think!"
Samantha raised her eyebrows, "does the boy like you?"
"I think so, I keep catching him looking at me, and then he pretends he
doesn't! And he blushes a lot around me, and we argue loads, but I like it,
and I think I like him!"
She was babbling, Samantha watched her with wide eyes as she blurted it all
out. Then something clicked. It was the arguing bit that gave it away.
"Wait, are you talking about Tyson?" she asked as Hilary paused to take in
air.
She flushed a deep red before nodding vigorously, to Hilary, telling
someone shouldn't have been this hard to do! Mariah was almost wetting
herself on Samantha's other side with laughter.
"And you think he likes you?"
Hilary nodded again, her face turning to a more normal colour since she
realised that the nurse wouldn't laugh at her.
"Then tell him! But I thought you liked Kai?"
Now Mariah cut in, "who wouldn't like Kai? He's gorgeous! I mean just look
at him, and Hil's already had a kiss! But he isn't serious boyfriend stuff,
I mean look at how is he is!"
Samantha nodded, they were right there.
"Just go talk to him Hilary, you have nothing to loose, and he likes you
back" she advised. Hilary nodded determinately. She could do this, she
could!! Little did the girls know that a similar conversation had just
occurred between Tyson and his dad.
The two teens looked for each other, finally finding themselves out in the
garden. Hilary almost went crimson when she saw Tyson, and he almost
mimicked the reaction.
"Um, can we talk?" started Hilary nervously.
Tyson nodded and sat on the wooden walkway between buildings. Hilary
followed suit. Both teens' hearts were racing, but one was thinking of
rejection, the other was thinking of humiliation.
Hilary started, and in her true style, found she couldn't stop once she was
talking. "The thing is Tyson, I know we haven't agreed a lot, and we argue
loads, but, well, I like our arguments, and I know we are friends, but I
think I like you more, and I know you look at me and stuff, but please
don't laugh coz I cant believe I'm saying this, and I know that I've just
embarrassed myself coz you don't feel that way........."
Tyson just watched her, open mouthed, did she say she liked him? He blinked
at her stupidly for a few seconds before she went to get up and flee from
the situation. He grabbed her arm, and as she was pulled round, his lips
met hers.
They stayed, lips just touching for long moments before they
wrapped arms around each other. They deepened the kiss, ignorant of the
audience slyly watching them from behind a wall. When they separated to
breathe, they grinned at each other goofily before the stampede of friends
went to congratulate and tease them. It was a bliss filled bubble that the
house needed. Its own walls smiled.
Kai felt empty. Without the bitbeasts, he was having a hard time dealing
with anything. He just couldn't react like he was supposed to. Samantha
finally left him, and Tadashi took her place. Finally, Kai felt something.
He smiled back to Tadashi as she smiled warmly at him, his was weak
compared to hers.
"They are coming Tad, they are."
"I know, Tori told me, and I would never doubt her!"
Kai looked down at his hands that lay limply on his lap, "how can they want
me to give evidence against him! I hate him with all I have, but I don't
have a lot anymore, and I feel like I'm weakening. He'll win, I can't keep
fighting him! I can't let him go, he's all the family I have, that's why I
saved him on the ship, that's why I can't do this!"
"Kai, you have to, you know you do, how can you let go if he's always
there, tormenting and using you? The only way he's related to you is by
blood, and he's proved how that doesn't count, you have to fight Kai,
always!" Tadashi replied, her emotion high for Kai's own anguish.
Kai's head fell forward to connect with the table. "I cant Tad, I can't
fight, I feel empty, like I don't exist, I feel like I'm fading!" he
whispered as the held back tears finally escaped. The rest of his words
were lost in the chocked sobs.
Tadashi sat by him and held him as he poured the feelings he had held.
"You have us Kai, we will be your family, we will fight for you" was her
solemn promise, and she felt and meant every word down to the very core of
her heart. She would protect him, for he was now all she had left.
Banished
Torn from what id ever known
Dignity stripped as I walk alone
Warm embraces are shattered like crystal
All ties are cut from what I have grown
Thrust naked into the biting cold
Bleeding cuts on my back bear my shame
When provoked I gave over to instinct
Now I'm branded for not being tame
For not bowing and begging as I should have
For not being who I was supposed to be
For doing things in my own direction
For thinking of me instead of the 'we'
I will grieve for what I have lost
I will celebrate for what I have gained
As I lost all my security
And my freedom I obtained
Cast out by those who would love me
As their care turns swiftly to hate
All because I spoke out my mind
Because the rules I had to debate
I refuse to regret my decisions
I made my life my own
I no longer follow those who would drive me out
I'll harvest from the seeds I now have sown
Scarlet ribbons adorn my back
Trophies of what I can endure
Scars to show my past was real
To learn from the mistakes, my lessons, my cure
Now banished from my home, my life
Forced to start with nothing but wind and rain
I'll show them all their downfall
They will curse my name, I'm their Bane